My ex left me for another guy 2+ years ago. I'm not over her. Trying very hard to get over her but to no avail. I'm generally depressed but this makes it harder and enhances the depression, that's fine though, I've been combating depression since I was 13 (MDD). But that's not the hard part. I can cope with the depression and missing her, thinking about her everyday and etc.. it's the reoccurring dreams. I can't make them stop. I've had them for 2 years now and they never ever stop. Constantly. 95% of all my dreams are about her. Some are horrible, where I dream about her leaving me or her with her new boyfriend. But some are bliss, I dream about our time together or even that she takes me back. I don't want her back in reality, she left me under not so nice circumstances. But in my dream I have no sense of this, in my dreams all I feel is bliss and happiness when I'm together with her. Except the horrible dreams (they are horrible most of the time).

I've read about reoccurring dreams and how you can try to make them go away, everywhere I look I get the advice that I need to figure out what the dream is telling me... and obviously it's that I want here back still or that I should get over her, move on and accept things for what they are. I try and try to get over her, I do thinking exercises and go through our relationship in my head. Trying to recompile my feelings, to no avail. I try to move on (after she left me I had a new girlfriend for a year but I never loved her, I later realized it was just a charade to dampen the pain, to fool myself that I had moved on). Getting her back is out of question, my subconsciousness doesn't realize that she has moved to the other side of the planet to live with her new bf... I seriously don't know what I should do. It's ruining every aspect of my life and I feel terrible. I sleep horribly and wake up extremely depressed every morning. I'm starting to see only one way out. Please help.

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