I am sorry to hear about this. I can't truly imagine what that must be like. I am doing a little reading up on PTSD and lucid dreaming for someone and also wanted to see what dreamviews had on here and it led me to this section of the forum and your recent post here. So far I have only been reading about war veterans and PTSD around the web but I imagine that some of the treatments would be the same. One that sounded promising is called Imagery Rehearsal Therapy for nightmares. There are some youtube videos on it as well. That would seem to fit in more with the abuse nightmares which may have less to learn from them than the escaping treatment one. For that second one, you may also want to post the dream in the dream interpretation part of the forum as there may be something to discover about yourself as you elude to. I am not good with dream interpretation but the dream telling you that going back for treatment was a grave mistake may just be telling you more about the pain of facing an issue?? I am not sure. I do know that we often think that running away from our problems is easier than facing or resolving them and I wonder if it could be preparing you for that?? I could be way off base! I hope that you have a professional that you can confide in. Good luck!