Well, it's been confirmed, my fiance is screwing some other dude.
Right now, I don't know, I'm furious, depressed, just distraught. And I know I shouldn't let it get to me, but it did. Just a little background info on this whole thing.
I had a friend in the army, we'll call him M. Anyways, decent guy and all, we were bros. So two years after we met in basic, we get back from Iraq, he ditches his wife (whom in reality, the marriage between those two was pretty fake) and gets strung out on drugs, and goes AWOL. Not uncommon to push the limit when you get back from the sandbox, but he went to far (like stealing my Ipod, PSP, cd player, and other things, so he could buy crack). Anyways, so his wife, who I had met before, calls me asking about him, since she hadn't heard from him in months. FYI he was also living with some 30 year old woman at the time, and planning on getting married. His wife didn't know any of this. So I felt bad for her, really bad, and decided I would help her out, since we had both been screwed over by M. So I helped her get her finances straight, helped her through the divorce process, etc etc etc. Also, I supported her emotionally the best I could, since she was a wreck. Well during all this time we kind of formed a bond, and hit it off. After months and months, we knew we were in love and wanted to get married, start a family, blah blah. It should be noted that the amount of heartache, grief, depression, not to mention the amount of money spent on her, I went through for her was amazing in retrospect. I don't know how I did it. My whole drive during all this was the fact that I've tried to devote my life to helping others, and that I couldn't give this up. To shorten this up a bit, let's just say that recently I havent gotten any calls, she never answers the phone, and when she does she is drunk with this one guy. Now this is pretty obvious, but hey, I let her exlpain and like an idiot, I bought it. Tonight though, talking with her sister, she revealed that yes, she was doing this guy, and that they pretty much live together now.
I'm sorry this is such a long post, but I had to get it off my chest. I mean, she was my fiance for God's sake. I know there have been way worse cases of this with actual married couples, but still. It hurts. I know there are plenty more fish in the sea, and that's all I've been hearing from friends, but come on. Every girlfriend I've had, I've been cheated on. Have I ever cheated on anyone? Hell no, and I never will.
Damn, it would just be nice to find somebody who wasn't so damn weak.
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