VarrhenSpecter

Just after performing DEILD(I think), which I really didn't want to at the time but did it anyway because it felt a lot easier to go back to sleep this time. I started out in a dream I tend to be in a lot - Fairfax Elementary School. This time was a little bit more interesting for me.

It was sometime around the early morning. I was on the blacktop facing the set of classroom buildings in front of me and a couple others at the side. I already knew I was lucid the moment I saw this place. There was no one around at the time, just me. It seemed lonely but it didn't felt like it. In my mind I knew that this place was the only place where I could find happiness, despite the circumstances that may frighten or harm me. It was already proven how this dream was going to end.

I walked straight, towards the directions of the classrooms in front of me. As I was walking, I saw someone waving their hand at me from one of the classrooms in front of me. I smiled, or I think I did, and waved with my right hand back and fourth. After doing so, I finally got to urge to use my lucid abilities to manipulate the dream world. The first thought that popped in to my head - sex. For a second, I looked around the environment and tried to see where I could have sex with one of the females I wanted to summon. This is pretty common for me, which is also one of my biggest disadvantages when achieving a lucid.

Instead of summoning someone to have sex with, I thought it'd be a better idea to explore the world around me and then hopefully I'll find something good.

There were a set of classrooms to my left. I decided to walk towards the first room laid eyes on. I assumed there were people inside and went to see what I could find. As soon as I walked in to the classroom, I saw the room filled with about 10 children, maybe more. I wanted to talk to one of them. There was a little girl to my left and walked up to her. I asked her what she was doing and she responded back in a negative matter. It was obvious she didn't like me judging by her physical movements. I asked her, "Why don't you like me?' She looked back at me and responded with another negative. I asked her again because I wanted to see how the dream characters would react. Most often I asked someone in a dream something, it is usually a strange response.

After a few seconds later, I see a set of children to my right walking up to me and insulting me. One of them who insulted me was a boy. I wasn't liking this, but either way I got up and walked over to the play area near the right corner of the classroom. When I got there, me and a few other children were staring at something unknown. I'm not sure if it was a television or a teacher. Either way, I was bothered by this other individual who happened to be a volunteer at the school. I had an green apple in my hand and wanted a bite from it. I looked back at him and denied him. He still kept asking me though, and I just kept denying him.

When class was finally over, I walked towards the classroom exit. On my way there, I saw a few other volunteers, unknown names. They were trying to have a conversation with me but I didn't know why. There were about 2-3 people I was talking to - two of them being males. I ignored them and continued walking towards the exit. When I got to the exit, I saw a recent high school classroom - Daniella. I'm not sure what she was doing her. When I saw her, the scenery changed a bit. Behind Daniella, I saw a different texture on the wall, the one I would see at the school me and her both attended. I walked up in front of her and paid close attention at her face, specifically her lips. Her lips weren't like the ones in reality. In this dream she had dull lips, as if she never put any lipstick or chap stick on. She didn't see too happy to see me. After that, I walked back outside and towards the black top. Before I could think of anything else to do, the dream slowly started to fade and I could see myself waking up.

I fell back to sleep at around 3 AM in the morning.

I'm back at the preschool classroom I used to volunteer in a couple months ago. The lights in the classroom were off, so I assumed it was nap time. The classroom didn't look like the real one, though it did feel a lot like it. I was sitting on the far right side of the classroom watching the children napping while I was talking to one of the teachers - Mrs. B.

Mrs. B and me didn't talk so much in waking life but we did a lot of it in this dream. I didn't know what my intentions for being here were, but it made more sense when I asked her a question. I asked her if she knew the person who signed the certificate I got in the mail(in waking life) and who got the gift card for me. She didn't know who. Despite not knowing who the generous person was, I thanked Mrs. B for also having her name signed on my volunteering award. I was telling her how great it felt to receive this gift. I felt honored that they would do something like this for me.

I sat still on the chair I was sitting on and I noticed a child in front of me trying to catch my attention. It was M. He probably just wanted me to talk to him seeing how he wasn't feeling sleepy at the time. I stopped and tried to get him to stop talking(talking wasn't allowed at the time). Because I was a very timid person in waking life, even in my dreams I had the fear to go beyond just telling him to stop talking. I hoped for the best and maybe he'd stop after I ignored answering him. That is when another child to my right, gets up from their bed and walks up to me and laughs, almost as if I was being taken advantage of seeing how I'm very shy. She then walked back to her bed and the dream was over from there.

I'm sitting here in my child development class. In reality, today is my first day back from break after a two week period. The classroom is set out a little bit differently than the real one. I was seated right next to the teachers desk along with a few other students. We're waiting for an instructor, a visitor, to come in to the classroom.

I was just about to give a class presentation, but something occurred. The visitor came in a bit later. Upon arriving, they didn't even apologize for their inconvenience. I didn't like her too well. I also do remember a purple blanket and using Blender to texture its body to come out with good results.

The next thing that came up was something a little better. I was now seated next to the classroom exit door, watching what the outside looked like. I noticed I was back at Fairfax Elementary. I always picture the same exact scene whenever I dream of this school. It's my happy place. The only down side was seeing Quynh in this school. She already messed up my views of high school, I was going to let her mess up this one.

There were a couple of children outside walking in a single line towards the assembly room towards the back of the school. I couldn't tell much from their faces but the innocence in them, or at least I hope they were innocent. I'm sort of having no motivation in being a teacher's aide or teacher in this type of criteria but, every time I see children in my dreams in a school like this, I sort of don't want to let this type of career go, despite my difficulties towards speaking in class with other students. I'm not sure what will happen.

This next part was strange. I was playing Hitman Absolution but at the same time, I felt that it was real. I had to make sure I wasn't caught in the act of sneaking through an enemies' residence. This scene reminds me of the Run for Your Life mission. I had so many things to interact with such as stoves, knives, cookies, and buttons.

I slowly made my way through the kitchen. Each room that I passed by had an enemy torturing someone or something else. I didn't pay too much attention to them. At times I thought it'd be cool to sabotage a stove to make gas spread out in the air but I never did.

I just woke up with a headache and my hair is irritating me!

I was supposed to me Jerimiah(friend) in the dream on a big grassy field. A few other people are supposed to meet up with us shortly to prepare for our first day working at the child care center. I couldn't remember who some of these other people on the field were. We eventually all met up with each other and started to perform activities together.

I could remember spending a bunch of time doing a lot of fun stuff with Jerimiah and these few other people, but I can't remember what exactly it was that we were doing. I had fun with them. It helped me get rid of the anxiety I had before I walked in to the child care center. I'm also really shy, so I felt like I was being forced to get the shyness out of me(my father put me in the class so I wouldn't stay at home all day).

We all soon had to get ready to leave each. Jerimiah asked out on who was willing to go to the care center and work with the kids. There were two other boys who volunteered, but I just waited until Jerimiah called out my name. I went. As for Jerimiah and the other couple people with us, they went back somewhere else. I followed the two other guys in to the care center building.

We soon entered the building and started seeing the teachers and children around. The teachers were staring and for the children, they were playing on the floor. The teachers looked at us all suspiciously as if we were up to something wrong. Nothing went wrong. I continued following the two boys and eventually walked in to a room in which we had to work in. We all sat on the floor while a teacher was speaking and waited there patiently until the dream ended.

The first thing I could remember is becoming a helper at a kid's school. An instructor escorted me to the room filled with young kids between ages five and ten. This classroom was very small and had an irregular shape. I noticed that the floor had black and white square shaped tiles. I stared at the floor and only felt a sense of calmness enter inside of me. The classroom was filled with about ten kids but I don't recall any of their faces. I do remember walking around the classroom observing it. I did feel a little optimistic working with these children. Then I woke up.