Linkzelda's Dream Journal

18.07.2013

It's Just an Environmental Awareness Safety Course Right? (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Seems this hypnosis script is working well for me, and the scary thing is, because of its universal use in being able to connect the dots better and recall things better, if I were to actually make a hypnosis script to have better recall, the dream content below would be greater, much greater.

I'm also beginning to notice how easy it to get the dream plot despite of my lack of knowing the content within it. Because I focus on the emotions and as much of the totality of the dream-scape itself, piece by piece, I can find bits of imagery coming in to make the dream a little bit more comprehensible. Of course, it's not perfect, especially since I'm only using a general hypnosis script, but I'm glad either way that I have this memory still ingrained in my unconscious. Since after all, the more the person finds themselves naturally wanting to remember these things and sustaining them even when they have to do something else, it becomes easier to recall.

Anyway,

So I'm inside a house that's almost the exact replica of the one I'm staying currently in waking life. Only that this house within the dream had this sense of a yellow-green atmosphere flowing around me and my perception of reality within the dream. Imagine for a moment of recalling any of your dreams where you found yourself mixing through sepia themed dreams or even yellow-green overlay dreams where it feels as if you're going into the past or even just in a rush because while you're moving quickly, everyone around you and the environment around you feels like it's going a bit slower than you.

But at the same time, you find yourself noticing that you tend to slow down a bit as well in order to be able to socialize with these dream characters, otherwise, things wouldn't make sense if you spoke fast while they couldn't right? Now, I'm going through that same motion, and everything is coming by naturally, and I haven't even gained sentience or the type of awareness to see that I'm dreaming, however, due to the circumstances within the dream, I probably did, but just wanted to see the plot unfold.

But now is not the time for me or you reading this to worry about that, and as I go through embracing the dreaming environment a bit more, I started to get myself solidified into the dreaming experience. I begin to notice there were a few dream characters already engaging themselves with each other. Eventually, I found myself slipping into the conversation somehow as I'm sitting next to a dark-skinned female that resembles someone in waking life.

It's as if she never knew what I was doing beforehand, standing around the environment feeling as if I was just lost in the moment of the dream, lost within the confines of my mind as I'm twisting and turning the dream time and dream setting without even realizing it. The more I engaged myself with these dream characters, the more the yellow-green atmosphere, or the overlay surrounding this dream setting disappears.

I noticed how I continued to blend in with the dream characters, mixing around in seeing things in third and first person. The female beside me is wearing a white blouse along with white short pants. The contrast between her dark skin and the white clothes, combined with the slightly saturated sepia tone within the dream makes it hard to see if this is some simulated dream with implications of a past moment or something, or even a glimpse into a probable event in the future.

Suddenly, my confusion for this dream being random or probable pre-cog, was eliminated the moment I heard this female asked me a question about what I'll be doing after summer is over. I knew her response related to some things I'm actually doing over the summer, and then she stops herself abruptly and remembers her logic doesn't make sense. And the experience was weird in itself, it felt as if I knew she would come to that realization, and all I needed to do was just wait and see her do it.

It's as if that despite of my uncertainty in this dream, it felt as if there were unconscious processes becoming apparent to me. Such as what people might say, how things will end up, how the dream will turn out, and such.

I wondered because of this awareness of the unconscious formulating the plot of this dream were my sparks of being lucid, but just going back with the dream since the lucidity didn't really matter. I'm not sure if because I was aware of these unconscious processes, that I naturally find myself not caring much about lucidity altogether, seeing how I would obviously do something completely different if that were the case.

The moments within this dream, the pacing, started having its ups and downs to the point where I couldn't follow what else these people were saying, and it feels as if there would be a dream shift because of it. Before the dream shifts, I recalled that the same female, this woman in her 50s most likely just like in waking life, told me about some type of Environmental Awareness Safety Course that I could take.

Find that pretty ironic as I spent most of this dreaming entry describing the dream environment.

The moment she stated this, her existence is hard to follow because I realized I shifted from being inside of a house to being outside with maybe 2 people with me. It felt as if this same lady was replaced with a younger dream character, and I began to notice how I was looking at a certain person within the dream while she's talking to me.

You know how you're discussing things with people, and you tend to avert your eyes a bit from time to time to look around in space and the environment? It was just like that, except that this dream character himself had something that was odd or familiar about him for me to make a longer gaze at him.

It wasn't anything concerning, I was probably just bored of the content the dream character female to the right of me was saying, and probably was just staring at space when a dream character just happened to be within that spectrum of vision. The man notices I'm looking at him as well, and this gives us an awkward moment where we go back to the people we're discussing things with and pretending nothing happened. I can't really recall the next conversation, so I'll talk about the dream shift to where things get even more random and a bit more hectic.

You may notice how the pacing of this dream, or at least these dreams that I felt connected with each other, really doesn't add up, but still somehow makes sense. It's as if that despite of being able to recall of this, we have a predisposition to connect the dots together, even if the endeavor itself would just be apophenia.

However, even with these patches of recall, I'm sure if I gave this recall more thought rather than putting it off, I may have found an underlying meaning behind this, just like finding a needle in a haystack of information that feels less significant.

You may also begin to notice how my dream self went from this passive and naive boy to some calculated and psychopath closet serial killer. It won't make sense initially, but there's no need to worry about that now until you begin to notice when I start to change completely within this dream.

Now, I find myself inside of a tunnel, a very spacious tunnel. The sounds bouncing from the walls with ease as I hear the vibrations and humming, I begin to notice that there may have been some vehicles around here if I looked beyond that's right to the curve blocking my view of what's ahead.

Suddenly, I find myself being cognizant of a dream character to my left, and she's another dark-skinned female, and I had a feeling she was this same female talking to me before the dream shift. Something felt so weird being around her, and I kept paying more attention to her to wonder why I would be in this tunnel with this female.

Because of my uncertainty, I had to just let things happen naturally and just become aware of the unconscious feelings and emotions so that I would be able to connect the dots and have better neurological changes to hopefully get the underlying meaning of this dream. This female, despite of her facade not having contrast to this dream, her vibe, her energy, the way she expressed herself even when she was dormant for a good bit before I got myself back into the pacing of the dream was comforting.

I felt safe around her, but also had these feelings that she has bigger plans ahead for us within this tunnel. She's wearing a swamp-green jacket with a few highlights that quickly made me assume it was probably raining when we were going into this road tunnel.

Her black hair has a small shine, but not enough to really provide contrast within this dream environment, which was saturated in a brown and nearly sepia tone overlay. While the overlay itself made the environment bland, insignificant, boring to gaze at, there was a sense of realism as I found the air around me literally going in and out through my eyes and body.

My breathing, the pacing was perfectly fine, I felt as if I had unlimited energy and would never be tired, and all that would make it seem any different from that would simply be psychosomatic occurrences (And by that, just like how initially when we first recall our lucid dreams, we may found ourselves getting excited mentally, and because of that, the body will generally follow, which would generally make us have a harder time staying in touch with the dream).

Because I began to notice myself being dissociated from the double-edge sword that psychosomatic reactions can give us in our dreams, I felt more at ease for whatever plot would come in this dream. I literally had this unconscious implication that it's simply a dream, a simulation, but knowing whether or or if I'm aware of the dream simply didn't matter. Because like before, you'll remember how that if I were lucid, things would end up differently (i.e. me changing the dream environment).

Finally, the pacing of the dream picks up a bit more, I started to feel the rush, the excitement, the slight thrill of wondering what will come next. And with this assurance of security I had with this female beside me, despite of her being this randomly generated thought-form/dream character, I'm finally getting into the groove of this dream.

I found myself realizing what I'm wearing, a black long jacket that stretches all the way down to my ankles along with a dark gray shirt and black dress pants. It felt weird that while this female had her jacket saturated with water, my outfit was completely dry and perfect. I guess having my jacket wet would feel uncomfortable seeing how I would begin to notice the weight of the soaked jacket.

Now, the female and I find ourselves encountering a police officer, and during this moment, there was this feeling of fear, the type of fear that foreshadowed there would be bad things to come. But because of how this female to the left of me sweet talks her way with this police office, I decided to mute the conversation altogether.

Now, you may begin to notice why I wanted to mute the conversation, because I knew that the more she would sweet-talk her way with the police officer, how she expresses herself wouldn't matter, because you'll find out quickly that the dream character's fate would be sealed either way. I merely avert my eyes to some other direction, while still keeping my peripheral vision in synch with the female's swamp-green jacket. Somehow, just somehow, she finds a way to kill him silently.

Instantly, I turn around a bit to have better inward focus on what she's holding, a silenced pistol. The moment I saw this pistol, and how my outfit and her outfit felt a bit peculiar, there was some kind of ambition that would involve some kind of retaliation. I started connecting the dots a lot better from that, and just let whatever happen, happen.

It as if I was shifting through being a spectator of the dream and shifting myself into the dream in third person or first person. My sense of identity was more expansive, and it felt like I was watching 1080p Blue-ray film or something while still shifting back and forth from spectator to a participant in the dream.

Because I have a better presumption of who this female is, a sweet talker that knows how to kill and fortunately doesn't seem she'll try and switch sides and do the same for me, I had a feeling of what she would do next, hide the body. She opens a door to the left of us, and I follow along with her, and I noticed I still have some fear for her.

But with the security she easily expressed to me that she wouldn't shift her positive views of me, it was more of me having conflicting moments of a sense of security with fear slipping in despite of knowing things would be perfectly fine with her. Because the sense of security beings to express itself more to me, the more I wondered the point of me being with her. That would find myself realizing I would be safe around her made me wonder if I'm just the same as her, except I'm just letting her do things her way.

Or maybe I was really commanding her to do something unconsciously while at the same time, I still thought I was just some guy who happened to have an expert killer that happens to be nice to me. So as she places the body in a decent position, I realized there's another door to me on my right. While she's busy standing around there, I take a small peek of what's beyond.

You know how when it's raining, and you see the lights' horizon on the vehicle front being more apparent, and how with the slight drizzling of water that goes all over the place distorts that light, but in subtle ways? It was just like that, and because of that, I started to question the situation we're in now, because those same lights were police officer lights.

Even though I only glanced quickly to see what's out there, I had a presumption there would be at least 10-20 cops, maybe more seeing how that was just looking at one part of the tunnel before the curve to the right blocked my vision of the rest of the path. I was surprised that despite of these cops aiming their automatic weapons at us, that they didn't even realize I closed the door. I looked at the female and gave her a gesture that we need to go now.

Like NOW.

She instantly gets the idea, and as I'm following her by going back out from the door we cam in, abstract dream logic starts kicking in again.

Immediately, I heard a click.

This is not a good click.

After this concerning click, I can hear the sound of the hands moving around the object slowly, and I quickly realized we're at gunpoint. All at once, everything felt like it was just going to end here, when everything felt so right and calculated, only to be contradicted with a dream character that just happened to show up so quickly.

It almost felt as if my female companion in this dream didn't take out all two individuals in this dream, and if I were to actually pay attention to who she was talking to rather than muting out the conversation and realizing someone was with her, we wouldn't be in this position at gunpoint.

However, my female companion seems to defy the contradicting logic of the dream character showing up by bravely moving away from him, despite of our backs facing him. I looked at her and wondered how she could risk her life like this, how could someone just go around throwing their lives away like that and keep moving?

But now wasn't the time for me to revel in that thought, I felt her character, her courageous demeanor, I wanted to follow along with that. I slowly walked and followed her side by side as well, while having 360 vision of seeing the guy still aiming the gun at us.

Why isn't he shooting us? Why, despite of what the female did to the other guy by killing him, he doesn't shoot us? It felt inconsistent, and I wondered if the female companion truly instilled fear into the police officer that he couldn't shoot, or maybe he was just afraid to pull the trigger altogether for other reasons.

While I'm sustaining 360 vision a bit longer, it feels the officer is putting his gun down, and me and the random female companion gracefully exit out of the tunnel. Now that we're outside, while still sustaining the 360 vision, I begin to notice the air is much different than inside the tunnel. Things aren't so concentrated as much with the sound waves, and everything feels spacious again. We're now in a section of a road, and we're near the side railing, just like what you would see if you were driving in high altitude.

While we're walking, I'm still trying to string together what in world just happened with this experience with the police officer. I immediately find myself being addicted to this female's presence, so I quickly ran up to her and quickly conformed to her pace of walking. She doesn't really look at me much, keeping her head in profile view to me, and she starts explaining what happened.

Apparently, she stated how she switched guns with the cop somehow, which means that if the cop is holding the gun without gloves, he would be caught in a situation where if the cops that we encountered before closing the door again finds out the bullet of the dead cop came from that same gun, the cop would be in a predicament of explaining what happened.

While she's telling me this, it's still hard to comprehend how she switched the gun somehow, and why the cop didn't want to shoot us. It felt as if while she was trying to make a cohesive statement, she ended up failing, or maybe I failed to acknowledge the other bits she was declaring to me. And even though I was confused, I still found myself somehow trying to connect the dots again by what she stated and actually congratulated her for pulling it off.

Okay, why am I congratulating her on killing someone? I know that she had to do it to avoid any kind of problems with them, but still, it felt almost disgusting for me to state that to her. My own mentioning of acknowledging her ability to get us out of the situation ruined the value of the plot of this dream. Just what in the world was going on and why am I suddenly finding solace in what she did just now?

Of course, this didn't really make itself apparent that much, seeing how I still had some fear with this woman. She was an enigma, while I was sure that I could basically do anything to her (sexual thoughts started coming in for some reason), I still wanted to do it in a subtle manner because I don't know what her breaking point is. This started to become sick, but before the dream ended, it was as if all the thrill and fear turned me on because of how she expressed herself.

So I guess after that, we had sex, I can't recall what happened after, just the two of us walking down the road.

But I'm sure with my attitude around her, we were bound to have sex.

Lol.

06.16.2012

Anal Cakes (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

The title may create some preconceptions, but wow, these cakes were actually pretty damn good. It's not what you think it is....

I'm inside a store, and I'm going to the junk food aisle basically, and take the time to look around for something good to buy.

I see this pack of "Anal Cakes" in a box, kind of like the Zebra Cakes in waking life. I'm kind of bothered by the name of this brand, so i decided to just grab the box, open it, and take a bite out of it.

Holy freaking hell, THIS THING TASTES AWESOME!!!!!!!

I take another small cake, eat it, savoring its sweet and delectable taste. I eat so much that I eventually feel a little guilty, and my taste buds are already used to the taste, so I guess it's already used to it by now. Now I'm starting to taste a little bit of the salt now that the sweetness was ignored.

I see my mother come up to me, and I showed her these Anal cakes, and asked her if she wants to try some.

I can't remember what she tells me though.

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06.16.2012

Canine Police Dogs (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I'm walking outside, seems the weather is okay, not too hot or cot, just a little windy...perfect.

I'm walking with someone, and I then I asked them how come "Sheh" didn't show up. (I'll just call him "Sheh" because I don't want to state his full name in waking life).

I answer my own question when I realized that he's taking a trip to Florida, which he actually is still on the route to, or he's probably already there in waking life.

I turn to the right and continue walking, and by this point, I can't tell if someone is walking with me anymore, and I don't recall even looking at them at all.

There's some police guy with a huge canine dog, and he has a good grip on the dog. It seems he's showing the dog where to go to get some people dealing with drugs I believe. He lets go of the dog, and it charges into the house on my right side.

All I could hear was some guy mildly screaming, the dog probably severely injured him, or maybe even killed him.

Not too sure.

That's all i remember for that one.

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06.16.2012

Following Jinx (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I don't remember much of this because this....probably because I remembered so much from the dream below me. But this dream was probably the first part to it though.

I remember following Jinx from Teen Titans, and it seems we're doing some kind of robbery together...well isn't that cute...

She has another companion who decides to go another route, probably to make some kind of flank formation. The same companion looks like Mammoth from the H.I.V.E. academy in the series as well.

I decided that I should follow him, but he quickly turns around to tell me that I should follow Jinx instead.

I comply and follow Jinx and that's all I remember.

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06.16.2012

Code Lyoko Group and Presentation (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I have a feeling this a continuation of the dream I had where I'm with Jinx from Teen Titans.

And this is one of those dreams where I could probably distract myself from waking life, and still be able to retain some pretty good imagery of major scenes, which is normal for me....I think I take this for granted sometimes, but I know I can do better with recall.

It feels like High School all over again lol, at least until the dream was almost coming to a close.

Anyway, I'm walking down the hallway with Ulrich from Code Lyoko. Apparently, we have these gray container to carry around to go to the lecture class.

The flooring is white, the walls are either white are gray, and the doors and double doors are mostly gray with some kind of white opaque material for the small windows on them. The lighting is somewhat decent, still dimming in and out a occasionally, but nothing too bothersome.

(It isn't like the schooling in France that the series (Code Lyoko) is supposed to be based on...like middle school-high school kind of thing)

We try to move the container with a type of dolly machine, but it keeps coming off. After a few tries, I get on top of the dolly machine and hold the container in place, while using my left leg on the ground to push off and accelerate the whole thing. Ulrich is helping me a little bit too, but I'm not paying too much attention on whether or not he's helping me.

We almost get to a dead-end, and I turn to Ulrich and ask where we have to go, he gets his right arm, and points to the right to a gray double door.

Oh.

We go in, and I take a moment to absorb all that there is in this class (more like 5 seconds lol). There's quite a lot of people here, and I couldn't find anyone who looks like a replica of people I've seen and/or known in waking life. Hmmm...

You have to go to this slope going downwards in order to get to the front of the class, and it seems that me and Ulrich came in at the right time, seeing as Jeremy and I think even Yumi were waiting for us.

The professor tells the class that it's now time for the group to present, and he just happens to say my name along with someone else in the group, can't remember who, probably Ulrich of Jeremy.

Dream shifts, and I'm sitting behind the lecturer's desk, I believe our group is up next, but we continue listening to whoever it is that is talking, can't remember who though.

So much for being the ones to present when I came into class...oh well, more time to recollect my thoughts!

Probably just one group that's making closing statements with their group project. While we're listening, I look around, and then I feel a little confident that I can pull off what I'm going to say for the group presentation.

Then I fold my legs by putting my left leg over to my right leg, while still sitting on the edge of something, probably the container that I still don't know what's in it. It's finally our turn, and then I realized,

CRAP, I NEED MY FLASH CARDS!!!

I find that they're in front of me, and I grab them quickly and scan over on things I have to say. I see some elements of the Biology class I took my second semester as a freshmen at my university, and I'm sure that there would've been some Biochemistry tidbits on Eldepryl, seeing as I did a presentation in waking life on the same drug for patients with Parkinson's disease.

One flash card that stood out was the one that said "A C P" going down on the left side. "Armadyl Chest Plate" (yes I used a Runescape item as a reference loooooool) was the little Mnemonic I would use for one Biology Lab Quiz to remember the types of coelomates and other things.

I get up, along with my group, though I'm more fixed on making sure I do well rather than the other members in the group. I guess that's better than worrying if one person is going to do well, which could just ruin my overall performance.

As I'm going to speak, dream shifts again.

I believe I'm sitting down in one of the rows of seats on the downward slope in the room, and it seems someone is passing out some worksheets, or exams....something that was graded, I think? There was one Asian guy with glasses who received his worksheet, and I peeked over to see what it was about.

The guy only answered one question, at least on the front page of the worksheet that probably had 2-3 more pages.

Honestly the dream shift above I mentioned, I'm not exactly sure WHEN it happened in this dream, I just know it happened IN this dream because the environment and everything were almost exactly the same. Dark blue seats, all that stuff.

Dream shifts again.

Then this weird part comes up in the dream, it's like a small video clip playing inside my mind. There's these group of random people outdoors in some kind of small forest, and the ground looks like mulched dirt or something of the sort.

These people are in a formation where they do something in unison, like waving their hands up and down. They do some other random stuff that I can't remember too well, and the little clip inside my head finally ends.

When I regain consciousness that I'm in a lecture room, our presentation is done, and it seems everything went okay when I was blank too!

Either my subconscious played that random video to take control of my words at the time, or maybe the dream was that random, though I doubt the latter is a reasonable excuse for me to go blank.

Anyway, seems we're the last group to present as well, and the professor says we can all go. This feels like High School, but elements of college is in here, like the fairly large lecture room and all that.

Everyone starts cheering with so much enthusiasm, guess it must be the last day for school to start off some holiday or something. I get ready to follow the large group of people running to get out of the building and have some fun with their lives, but then I stopped to look for a back pack.

Hmmm....

Wonder why I would be looking for a back pack...I would like to go and interpret this brief moment I took to stop and find a backpack to assume that it's probably the dream girlfriend Kaomea said one guy that looked like me had, but nahhhhh, it's probably not.

I find a backpack on the floor, and assume it's mine, and since there was no one else around behind the table, I guess it had to be mine. The only thing that couldn't have made it mine was that the person who left was so excited that they forgot their backpack.....but it's a dream, so whatever.

There's still people going out to leave the building, and I let the act of conformity guide me through this. I see Jinx again, and it seems Cyborg from Teen Titans as well is running after her. It seems he wants to apologize to her about something, seeing as the expression on her face portrays that she still hasn't finished sulking.

Cyborg stops and lets her run, which convinces me to run after her. I wanted to turn around and look back at Cyborg and give him that look that said, "What's wrong with you bro? You made her sad," but I just kept focused on following Jinx.

I don't know why I'm following her though. I keep chasing after her, and when we get to these sets of glass double doors, the whole row of double doors gets lock. Jinx barely managed to get pass this before it happened. Then I see some kind of police squad in all blue outfits get closer the doors.

What is this, some kind of retaliation for people who just want to get out of the building already? Weird.......

I don't take any time for this police squad to affect me, they could deal with the other people there standing there like idiots for all I care. I turn to the left, and dash for the next door, and as I get closer to it, a set of bars slam down as well.

Crap....I had the feeling that if that locked down, others would lock down as well, but I still kept trying by finding more ways to get out. I look around frantically, and see one door that isn't completely shut.

It has some kind of doorstop to keep it open, and I quickly go through it, finally....half-way out the building lol.

I hear some girls talking, I have a feeling they're following where I'm going since I seem to be picking some lucky paths. The sounded like cheerleaders or something, because one of them was worried and said that they won't be able to make it to some kind of recital or something like that.

As I'm passively listening to the girls that are probably still running with me, (I didn't turn back to see who they are though), I find some weird exit that went upwards in a zig-zag motion. The flooring for this path was dark brown, and it felt like a decent and abnormal route to go to.

Things are going alright as I'm heading to the path, and we're completely out of the building now. Then things start getting random, like one of the girls ran faster than me, turned around while running backwards even (or maybe she was just levitating, not sure), and I think she was singing a country song.

Then as I'm still running, the country song is being played out, not sure if it's an actual one in waking life, or just a mash of them. I stop, and I see a bunch of girls running. I don't think they're chasing me though, they look like they're hungry.

There's this mini-fast food that I remembered that was in front of me before I turned around to see the group of females running like crazy.

I find myself under some kind of container while the women were running, and it seemed they were vomiting where I'm at as well.....-____-

I find myself back on the surface, fortunately not anywhere on the area with vomit, and go into the mini-fast food. Seems the only thing the employee/owner cooks there are eggs sunny side up or scrambled.

I told him, "Good thing I decided to wait things out." I don't know what I said that, but maybe it's because the women that were vomiting probably ate the eggs too fast that it caused horrible stomach problems to make them puke.

Not sure how that works out if they're going into the store and not coming out, that's dream logic for you.

The owner/employee responds with some generic statement. Then a random person comes in and says what I said about how it's a good thing he decided to wait it out.

The owner/employee says the same generic statement to him as well.

I just stand there....

What the hell just happened.....this is a very awkward ending to dream that could've been more dramatic.

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06.16.2012

Dream Journal Comments (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Lol, a dream about dream journals, HA, that's rare.

I made a Dream Journal post, and had a few comments on there, but I didn't know what the dreams were overall. The comments were mostly related to how I shouldn't have let myself down for trying to trust someone.

Some people I remember making a post were khh, darknightedlady, and even Hyu.

O.O

I can't remember their exact comments but they were all geared towards some female that I decided to trust.

Hyu's comment was really inspiring, it made me feel better about myself, sucks that I don't know what it was though. :/

Then OldSparta likes a dream I had, but I don't remember which one lol.