side notes

Temporary opinion:

Even though I have sporadic results, skewed interests, and spotty motivations in my dreams, I feel it’s a source to keep trying to find ways to connect those experiences together. Or in other words, even if some moments may not hold much value in the life I’m living right now, I feel the more I recall them, and start seeing patterns, and hear certain things that validate why these things are happening in my dreams, it sort of gradually removes my doubting on dreams holding any learning potential.

I had a few dreams today that were blatantly obvious in how I could associate it with the present. Before, I would be left questioning why things are occurring, and it’ll probably be an up and down kind of adventure with meaning and no meaning, but that’s what makes it fun; whatever dream character I interact with, non-lucidly or lucidly, is a chance for me to test my means of apperception, i.e., taking new ideas/knowledge/experiences, and assimilating it to whatever is already in my mental repository.

It seems like the conquest to know more about myself, and how I assess myself in my life will never stop. It seems to be my source of inspiration, reflecting on things, finding ways to rise to the challenge; finding ways where I can’t control something and overcome adversities, but knowing that it’s okay; it’ll all be alright in the end, because the more I keep my center in any circumstance, dream or this reality, I can persevere and find new outlooks on things. Whether it’s finding meaning in life (e.g. existentially, psychologically), how to interact with others, how to appreciate and care about other people’s lives, it’s always there for me to tap into.

And even if those moments in my dreams are transient, and imaginary, there’s a sense of liberation when realizing that even if there’s potential irrelevance and meaningless in my dreams, and even in life, it’s alright; just keep going.

12.12.2013

Female Disintegrates Body and Runs Away from Military Base (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Spoiler for Personal Notes:

Guess the image streaming exercises I did about 50+ days ago is starting to pay off. Still going strong with becoming lucid without a WBTB, and I've been going in an out passively with image streaming naturally and easily imagining myself in other virtual experiential realities.

I guess it's clear by default that the theory behind image streaming of connecting cortical regions of the mind definitely has significant effects when you put over at least 20+ hours on it. It clears a lot of the cognitive dissonance I used to go through when trying to understand the concepts and finding applicable methods for gaining lucidity. Though this jolted up the metacognitive ability to know if you're dreaming or not by a lot, and can be improved over time if I ever get time to do more.

I should probably be realistic and not go for 3 hours every other day or every other day if I go back to image streaming. One hour a day, or even 90 minutes a day can be more than enough, it's just that there's so many things to do and learn that I end up doing the latter instead.

Anyway.

I recall existing inside of a building that seemed to have high-end technology, almost like some kind of government or private organization that associates with several political magistrates. I wasn't sure what I was doing for this dream, I just knew that I was dreaming.

The outfit I was wearing is a bit difficult to process, but based on how my dream body felt, it was probably some kind of Tac Suit you'd see in Tom Clancy games. This dream had several themes, and the most prevalent were:

• Espionage
• Military
• Anime

The atmospheric overlay of the dream environment contributed to how it was mostly a colder region for several reasons. The soldiers or guards within the dream all seemed to have a default format from the MGS2/MGS3 soldiers with the black mask covering most of their face except the eyes.

Spoiler for personal note:

With any dream that revolves around attempts at infiltration, it's probably because of my relentless desires to dive into consciousness exploration that usually ends up backfiring. I knew about this probably months or during late 2011 or early 2012, though I never gave it much thought.

It's weird how other individuals can go left and right, in and out of their minds during lucidity to use whatever imaginative potential for some application with waking life, but I seem to have difficulty with that. Even if there's some symbolic implication that I shouldn't be trying to dive into the depths of the psyche or whatever, there's really no point in all of this occurring. Either there's some kind of higher self-implication, or several good reasons why I can't really take advantage of what any sentient and sapient mind can do in their natural sleep.

The weapon that I'm holding was probably just like the default gun you get from MGS2, the American military M9 that's modified to fire tranquilizer darts. Considering how I was using that gun instead of something lethal, I guess there was some ambition to stop killing figments of my imagination, since the last time I tried doing that to try to save dream characters, it ended up biting me later on.


I see a few soldiers passively patrolling this linear area I'm at, and I quickly shoot them in the head since I was just going for Metal Gear Solid logic here. The area itself seemed to be split off with a black metal rectangular border in the middle.

And if you looked from afar, there were more guards on patrol as well, and I had to be very careful of the direction they're facing. I had several guards wondering what was occurring in the area I was in, and I had to quickly go to the other side for safety.

Fortunately they didn't go too far into investigating things and seemed to have pre-fetched sayings and declarations for whenever they're suspicious or presume the area is clear of intruders. As for the bodies of the soldiers that were passed out from the tranquilizers, it seemed I could care less about putting them in safe areas.

I figured that there wouldn't be some weird system that demanded one to store bodies, or else there would be an alarm of suspicion. The area that was about 40 feet away from me seemed to be the external section where the weather had a lot of snow on the ground, but no snowing in particular.


The dream shifts to where I'm now inside another base that has a lot more guards, and what seemed to be unarmed individuals that looked as if they're important. I found myself lying down on my stomach near a section to the left. I believe I was probably under a desk, and there were conveniently placed rectangular objects that concealed my position that were at least 9 inches in length.

Since my field of vision is limited in this position, I had to make use of my lateral peripheral vision. I saw a Black male that was wearing a milky light violet colored dress shirt and regular jeans. For some reason, he was looking down right where I was at, though I wasn't sure if he knew I was there.

He seemed to have made several glances back and forth at me and whoever he's talking to. Seeing how he didn't scream my position, he probably wanted to help me out, or he was just staring at random space to avoid the whole averting eyes awkwardness that occurs in most conversations.

Whatever the case may be, looking at his visage and how he expressed himself, he seemed to have been involved as a computer guru or something of that nature. After a while, it seems some of the individuals leave to their bases and sections, and I finally get out of the awkward position under the desk.

Unfortunately, there were still a good amount of guards around the area, and I had to time my shots in a specific pattern so one or two would hear their own men being knocked out with tranquilizer darts. Fortunately, the process was easy and I managed to take down the three guards within this room.


Then the most absurd thing occurs in this dream. There was another individual that was knocked out that was unarmed. My mental image of this person seemed to be them wearing a white dress shirt and red jeans with some pink to it.

His whole existence disintegrates, and a 3d model of a female that looks like this (it's hard finding an image of her not making lewd facial expressions):

Spoiler for ...:

I don't know what the hell was going on, and I was busy trying to process what I'm going to do if she ends up doing some weird demonic things to me. I can't really recall what happened after that though, just her running away.

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12.12.2013

Girl Doing the Limbo & Vomiting that Defies Physics (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I'll keep this short and sweet, no need to be sensory descriptive of someone vomiting in a dream.


A girl that seems to be 6-8 years of age is walking in a manner as if she's setting herself up to do the limbo without a bar. Then she randomly vomits while in the limbo position, and I'm not sure if the vomit is going in my direction.


Maybe it's a sign that I'm a pile of vomit, or I'm being aware of certain false pretenses of those who I feel I could relate to. That's not really surprising, though I wonder who it is in particular the dream was trying to inform me on. And I guess the girl doing the limbo is either another symbolic implication of how that certain individual in waking life is still an enigma.

And considering I had a dream about two children dying yesterday, maybe it's probably that one individual that I feel is another confused woman that just happened to gravitate to my openness to them. Probably a sign that I should go for more stable females than the psychotic ones.

Since I haven't recalled any dreams in over a month, because I'm too lazy, I just made a vlog on two dreams I had months ago.



Note: I do not love Denver, and my voice is a bit too high, probably because of the recording. Bleh.

[INDENT]

12.19.2012

Akashic Records and Deep State Meditation (Note)

Spoiler for Personal notes:

I'm getting better with meditation, but I still need to improve on staying up straight. I don't make it a priority, but I just want to make sure I'm positioned in a comfortable position.

I want to consider meditating while resting on the bed, but that's an challenge simple because the awareness and willpower has to be augmented.

This is why I prefer the Indian style pose, or half or quarter lotus pose while meditating.

I'm definitely positive why I want to understand the concept behind the Akashic Records, and use them as a progressive base for improvement, seeing probabilities that I can take to the best of my abilities, and seek nothing ambition in making sure these possibilities are things that will benefit me.

I also realized that I'm still attached to a few things before I can even meditate. I realized that I tried helping too many people who continue to take advantage of my help. It's about waking life, not on Dream Views.

People are so amazing, wanting help, but not understanding how to actually appreciate the methods in which they receive it. Took passive in their thoughts, one moment they're so happy of the advice you suggested to them, and the keyword being SUGGESTED, not forced.

There's no point giving "advice" if you shove it down people's throat. I admit that I did that a few times with a few people, but that's only because I cared about them, or at least thought I did.

The important thing here when learning about Akashic Records is that I need to eradicate what people think about it. I know it's not a literal place you go to, but rather a frequency you align yourself into. If people don't believe in that, by all means, don't believe in it.

It's all for a high level of awareness of what one can do in their life and the steps they can take to understanding the outcomes that are most likely to occur if they partake in a specific action.

It's your life if you don't want to experiment with something like this, I shouldn't be responsible for your fate, and I shouldn't be interested in your life or your fate. The only thing that I can be sure of is my own fate, and that this is merely an experience for growth of knowledge, love, and much more.

The more I constrain myself with people I thought I respected and saw as people to look up to, the less likely I'll meditate with confidence.

People are absolutely entitled to their own beliefs, and I should just accept that. Some people change, some people remain conservative and blinded and ignorant because they are afraid of trying something new.

People who don't take failure so seriously and make it something negative that should be avoided at all costs are, in my opinion, just too afraid for change.

Ultimately, it's the simple fact that we can't conceptualize or understand something as abstract as the Akashic Records, or anything that sounds absurd at first glance.

Sadly, the only thing that would make it enticing if it's apparent that the person they think is absurd for believing in such things actually makes huge benefits from it.

Money Money Money Money....god people are so bothered with it that it's sickening. I admit money is necessary to get the rudiments of life established, but when you go into this indulgence where money only matters, just what are you?

I just need to realize that people are going to say a lot of things are crazy, and the more I consider their thoughts without doing the ambition through my own eyes, or...behind my eyes and into my mind, the less likely I'll succeed.

I'm sick and tired of my generosity towards others that I'm making slow by gradual progress in dissociating that with tulapforging, another concept people love spewing horseshit about and making it bad.

If you don't take the time to understand why people believe a certain concept, don't assume so much that it makes you look silly and completely lazy to learn.

There are many things that are crazy, but it's only because the concept is not understood in a practical way where it can consistently benefit yourself or society as a whole.

12.19.2012

Itachi Uchiha and Youtube (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

All I remember is that I'm posting a video on YouTube involving Itachi Uchiha coughing up blood as he's using the last ounce of his power to summon this Susanoo.

It's not the dark orange color like in the anime, it has more red into it, and it looks quite scary as Itachi has blood dripping from his mouth and his eyes completely blank.

No dream recall, it wasn't really going to happen, especially leaving a party around 2AM or so, and then doing random things until 4 AM, and only sleeping for 4-5 hours on a random interval.....

I had a lingering thought in my mind, but it faded. Oh well, nothing too major, since my dreams are boring anyway.

One thing that amazes me is that anything is possible in dreaming as long as you believe it will become a reality.

Okay, I might be playing around with a few words there, but every time I see someone saying you can't do this in your dream, and yet they preach that statement in bold, how far are you willing to add exceptions to the point where the statement above becomes diluted and meaningless?

And exclude the fact that you can't really do the same things in waking like as you can in your dreams (create fireballs out of your hand, etc.)

If you're the really idealistic type of person, you could say dreaming in general is a perfect medium for self-fulfilling prophecies.

A prediction that comes true entirely because people believe it and act on that basis.

Well that's a self-fulfilling prophecy in a nutshell, that's nothing new, nothing special, but really...this is all dreams are about! I'm still using a little bit of mental filters with practical reasoning of dreaming and it's limits, and with everyone's own unique schemata, sometimes the "anything is possibly in dreaming" mentality that gets preached here but not really taken to full appreciation (by appreciation, just knowing that your mentality and belief in something will eventually cause you to actually obtain whatever it is you seek).

This probably doesn't even make sense because the concepts are common sense, but how many people use common sense with dreaming? Probably not a lot, and I'm not talking about stabilization, REM cycles, induction techniques, genetic restraint, blahblahblah.....

If I really wanted to, instead of believing that I'm some kind of representation of some mystical being, I could just say I'm just an ordinary being, and if I strongly believe that, it's going to happen, no questions asked.

Unless...Deus ex machina.

Something that comes out of nowhere to solve something that would be deemed as impossible to solve. Whether you believe in deeper and more subjective aspects of dreaming in general like the Astral Plane, higher beings, Shared Dreaming, and more....there has to be something at some point in your dreaming experiences that you cannot believe was going to happen.

That one variable, but not the only variable, is what makes dream interesting. But, you could use an argument that it was your subconscious that fabricated it, and based on your belief on its efficacy, it can change how you act in your dreams. Common sense right? But does anyone pay attention to something that apparent?

If I secretly set out false expectations, things I know that could never happen because people will form a consensus, and this is just constraining the "anything is possible in dreaming" to just the dreaming plane, and maybe a few more realms, planes, dimensions beyond that, if I'm really sticking to a certain belief at the time, and if people think it's logical to become a reality in dreaming, it's going to happen.

What's the point in saying all this? What I'm saying is that dream interpretation, from what I know of it, is just false expectations, things that you want it to declared as a meaning, when it could be something else. The more mental filters you create for dream interpretation, and it's pretty much bound to happen to someone, the harder it is to see the real meaning.

If anyone is actually following me on this, if you think something as absurd as a piece of rock representing that you're too "stoic" and "dull" in life, how much are you willing to bet that naturally, you're just using homologous variation just to make yourself feel better.

Things like seeing fire, you could easily associate that with a conclusion that with something like rage, anger, strong intentions, blahblahblah.

If I'm using homologous variation right, you could say that dreaming really is limited to what your unconscious contains. Which means that meaning in dreams are meaningless because of its subjective nature right? Again, I'm not saying that, or believing it, but things like homologous variation and self-fulfilling prophecy in general, it makes sense to think something like that, right?

But that brings in another interesting trend, when people tell you or others that you shouldn't over-analyze dreaming.

Lol.

That's a perfect excuse to safely guard your beliefs from being shattered. Everyone has a right to believe what they want in their dreams, but man, it's obvious that these aspects, but not only these aspects, makes dreaming something anyone would love to see become true end up being true, as long as they don't let religion, how they were brought up, etc. encroach its subjective nature.

Lol.

I can already predict how people might take this,

"That's absurd!"

"That doesn't make it fun!"

wah wah wah.

Meh. Enough with the Freud mode.

Happy Dreaming, everyone.

In my opinion, dream interpretation is just a vehicle for making false realities an actual reality, excluding any kind of incorporation of waking life of course...just dreaming and anything beyond that plane.

Don't take dream interpretations too seriously, but some people don't really pay attention to that, which was clear in that last ramble I made about that golden eagle nonsense.

Just proof that as long as I believe I'm a part of that, that it will become a reality in my dreams, but really, does anything really matter anymore to believe in the dreaming plane and beyond?

Maybe we're all just nothing, just voids, filling a meaning when it isn't really required, just optional...lool.

But if you go into that mentality that there is essentially no reason to believe something so strongly, it's going to be boring just existing in the dreaming world/plane.

I just wanted to see how I might think if I believed in only practical reasoning in dreaming in general.

I'll probably forget this until I look at it again, I shift and experiment with as many mindsets as I can, without fading myself away from a logical and general one.

So don't think I'm taking the things I've said as absolute law.

Spoiler for This is a lot of st00fs:

This is something that's been really irritating me lately. With the billions of people in this world, it's so easily to be saturated with the thought that people now have a greater chance of being "disposable."

Dream characters. People with a practical sense of lucid dreaming, they believe they represent some element of themselves, some kind insecurity, weakness, strength, stereotype, ideal figure, etc. They want to believe their subconscious is other collaborating with the unconscious mind to create an experience that seems meaningful, or that dreams are only just random processing in our brain.

Then you have the people who are subjective, they believe dream characters can be several stages of a certain person, that they have more meaning, that the subconscious isn't trying to collaborate with the unconscious to create a random experience.

These people introducing abstract reasoning rather than logical and practical means and methods clearly get the most out of lucid dreaming.

Think about it, do people who believe in practical senses would be able to take the burden of possibly experiencing things that may cause a huge shift in what they believe is reality or an illusion?

Are people this weak in being open to many possibilities? Are people this weak to rely on preconceptions of life to sustain a decent reality?

Your reality may not be the same as other people, and yet, there's always a universal medium for people to agree upon. Excluding common sense with biological processes such as sustainability of genes being passed on to the future, protecting family members, etc., I feel these people who utilize practical competence with lucid dreaming can only go so far.

People with subjectivity, they have greater potential, it grows more and more they start to believe in more and more possibilities, they don't constrain themselves.

They don't weaken their potential, they seek to improve it as much as possible. Of course, one does have to have some sense of this reality, even if it may be broken into several pieces, but as long as it keeps them alive, they're okay with it....right?

Body and soul, being trapped in this mortal body, trying to find inner peace in a body that will soon rot and become part of this Earth, and who knows what happens to our soul, if we even have one.

People say they have a good grasp about reality, but is it because you're just preventing yourself from accepting the possibility that you could be nothing?

Instead of using "people say" as a horrible means to create some merit here, let's shift it around a bit. If dreaming can be fulfilling and fun as long as you know how to moderate it, what if it starts to become too much?

What if you start to moderate it more? What if you start to limit that potential to where your dreams start to become boring, and recalling them becomes a chore?

What if you can't get the feelings of excitement and passion anymore? What if you think that dreaming more might make you try to escape waking life?

Is waking life really all it seems to be? We have obligations, liabilities that must be sustained, otherwise, it can jeopardize the lives of those who consider us important....those who are dear to us deserve the right to live life as much as they can before they die...right?

And when a person tries to accomplish a goal in their dreams, like finding a dream guide, because who wouldn't want to feel the added security that there's a part of yourself, the subconscious, that you can interact with.

This is if you believe dream guides of course. If not, then just don't believe it.

Dream guides, there's so much about them, there's so many meanings to them.

In the practical sense, the most reliable and logical and reasonable sense, they are just there to help you with anything related to the dreams, and if it's the subjective sense, they could possibly help you find your spirit guide, astral guide, guides beyond what we think are there.

It would be nice to have that added sense of security when you can know that when you dream, someone is there to be with you, to make sure that you don't feel alone right?

You want to respect that person, to have fantasies with them, to do things that aren't acceptable to society, at least in a moral and "pure" manner.

Now when someone mocks the other person and their belief with dream guides, and declare that it's just nonsense, without realizing that they are in fact praising other people finding their own dream guide....it's just hypocrisy at it's finest.

There have been many events of people finding their dream guide, and most of the time, it's finding that added security....the desire that could not be achieve in waking life that turns into pain as result, it's finally out there, the potential for it to be slowly eradicated....it's there.

These people deserve that, everyone does. But again, people;s outlook on dream guides and people finding their own depends on the bias and what they know about the person looking for them beforehand....it's clearly obvious based on me pretending to look like the idiot towards some people.

Funny how pretending to be stupid can really bring out the negatives out of other people.

There are some people who respect someone more for finding their dream guide/spirit guide/astral guide/ whatever the hell you want to fucking call it to make you feel good inside.

There are some people who hate a person more for finding their dream guide/spirit guide/astral guide/etc.

Do you see what's wrong with that logic? The latter either has a very ignorant view that prevents them from understanding, especially if they themselves are looking for their own guides, someone they can have a bond with, (again this is only if you believe in dream guides)....and for other people, it's time for them to mock them for trying to find their dream guide.

It's hypocrisy, all humans have to utilize hypocrisy, it's very hard to avoid it. And those who do avoid using it have shallow lives. They don't know what it's like to have a few scars....a few painful events...things that make them stronger.

Now tell me, when these people who try to find their dream guide make fun of people trying to find their own, is it really logical to do that? It doesn't really make sense to do that to people?

If the person's endeavors isn't hurting anything, if it's not affecting the lives of others, should it really be something for people to bitch about and make fun of?

Is it because the people mocking a person's endeavors proof that they have troubled minds, and are insecure with their own beliefs? Is it because a person is trying to experiment with so many ideologies that makes them look crazy?

Sometimes I wonder if people on this forum really think about this. I've seen a growing number of people believing that finding our dream guide is absolute nonsense, and that it's just all an illusion, that it's a fabrication, that we're stupid and and crazy to try and do that.

It's as if they're on this forum to mock dreamers, and ignore the fact that they could be experiencing these things as well. It really irritates me seeing these people.

I mean, you have your own beliefs, stick with them, don't let anyone try to make you change it too much unless you know it's for you own benefit, because there's no point in living if you're being swayed into people schemata of life and dreaming constantly.

It's cute and acceptable to do that when you're a child, because you have no direction in this life, because you have to rely on your family, or some kind of adult figure to sustain the potential that you have in succeeding and surviving.

But clearly, as people grow older, the more ignorant they are sometimes. Sometimes I feel that when people disagree with the potential for dream guides, and the potential that everyone deserves to find their own happiness, they just want a person to be deprived of that.

They laugh at the things they want to do with their dream guides, they mock at them for trying to use them as a sublimation of the pain in waking life that prevented them from being happy.

As long as the person is happy, as long as no one else is being hurt or affected, what is the use to mock with the potential of dream guides?

As long as you're happy with it, and can literally feel it without it being false or fake, people have no right to mock you, no matter how perverted, how insane, how abstract, how illogical it may be.

If you want to deprive a person of their happiness with dreaming, and not pay attention that you are seeking the same goal as well, then you obviously are just out there to ridicule that person for the hell of it, or maybe you're just insecure with your own feelings.

If a person makes fun of you trying to find someone who could be your dream guide, and if they have their own negative thoughts on said dream guide, then let them.

Who cares about these people? They're only trying to bring you down because they can't, or do not want to understand the sense of fulfillment and inner peace that comes with finding your dream guide(s).

If you praise a person for finding their dream guide and love the experiences they have when they post their recall of them, and yet mock or discourage another person for trying to find theirs, you're only making yourself look like an idiot.

You clearly are not paying attention on how "equal" or "fair" you're being towards people. To encourage a person's experience with their dream guide, and then to discourage another for doing so....sometimes I wonder if people really think.

Maybe I'm just being surrounded by idiots.

And if this was too long for you to read, oh well, deal with it. And if you find it annoying, oh well, deal with it.

People never really think before they dream...do they?

But hey...it's your life, if you want to be clouded with practical reasoning, go for it! But you're only doing it because you're afraid of going beyond the scope of this world.

You have every right to constrain yourself like that, because honestly, it's the most logical and sane reason. No person would want to continue finding something that will inevitably create tensions and conflicts with their schemata.

But for those people seeking happiness and subjectivity, abstract reasoning, infinite possibilities, or whatever, stop using your logical reasoning to try and define why they're trying to be subjective.

Never think that dreaming can be defined that quickly, that it can be constrained to limited science. Humans will never understand the potential dreaming can provide until they experience it themselves.

It's one of those things that you can't rely on the scientific method. And if you use the scientific method to rely on defining this to be part of this reality, then you will be limited only to that, and will never find what your scientific procedures could never verify.

If you define life based ONLY on the scientific method, it just shows you're a human being...without creativity.

Just know the method was created and collaborated by humans, so it's easy to think someone who doesn't follow that type of procedure is an idiot right? But really, who has the right to think a person is incompetent because they don't follow a method that will always have to be updated and replaced with new discoveries?

This is why I hate humans in general. Some people are just ignorant, and rely on what humans created, instead of creating something for their own benefit.

And with that, have a good night's rest.

Edit:

I got lazy putting dream guide/spirit guide/astral guide/etc. This can apply to whatever guide(s) you believe to be out there.

I hope you have some time to watch this Kaomea, you probably have a sense of what this woman will be saying if you do watch it, but it does make me consider on who I'm interacting in dreams.

I can see why you want to see future selves of other people. I don't think you're doing it because you want all the spoils, and seeing them at a state that is supposed to be the epitome of their whole being, I think you're digging deeper into trying to eradicate any preconceptions you may have for another person.

Which leads me to believe that part of you is seeing a part of me in your dreams where my soul is essentially deceit-free, even though I'm not feeling it right now because of my sporadic nature in emotions in waking life lately. Going from passive to stressful, and to even small contemplations of degrading my life to the point where my dreams are the only way for me to have some modicum of hope that this reality is still worth going through.

You've mentioned that experiences in your dreams are meant to enhance waking life, and from watching the same video, it's clearly obvious omcasey1 sees things in a different light now, and if you do watch it, you'll see she admits to being more considerate, thoughtful, and appreciative of others and the environment around her.

But the question I have for you, Kaomea, is there a point in your life where you might see things differently to where you see this dimension in another dimension like casey did in the video?

I would like to believe what casey said, but this is something that has to be done on personal means. But near the end of the video, she is a bit confusing, for me at least.

It seems she's mentioning she's shifting towards the mentality of Solipsism, but at the same time, it's not believing only she is real, she starts to connect it to how all of us can create this sort of universal collective consciousness.

Again, it's hard for me to believe this until I experience these things myself, and because I know I still have preconceptions and bias towards dreaming, despite knowing that I found some things about you in your earlier life, it makes me wonder if because we have a liking for each other as friend that we're open the other person entering our realm.

I don't mean that as invading your minds, just seeing each other in the dreaming plane.

I can see why AA Michael declared his perspective to you on the person you meet in your dreams is essentially stages of their whole being, sometimes it can be an evolution, or it can be a regressed state.

I honestly do not think it's unhealthy for you to only search for future selves of myself or anyone else, that is, if you already accept infinite realities into the equation, and infinite you's, and me's....I think I'm starting to understand Michael clearly now. It's making more sense to me.

But still, because I'm inexperienced compared to you Kaomea, seeing the world based on being accustomed to this reality, it is still difficult for me to full comprehend and feel the type of energy casey in the video must be saying, but that's further proof that I should strongly consider dreaming lucidly.

I'll just put that as a long-term goal, to see things in a different dimension. To see this world in a different plane, because even though I'm clearly open to this possibility, it's my mentality of this world that constrains the potential for me to understand things clearly.

Anyway, I wanted to mention that to you, Kaomea.

When we do meet each other in the dreaming plane, promise me you'll stare at my eyes deeply, and tell me whether or not you still feel the same vibe from other projections/stages/evolutions of myself.

Because if not, I will ask youeventually.

Because when I see you in my non-lucid dreams, I see parts of you that are passive, and sometimes I wonder if you do that on purpose to tempt me to take the lead instead of being submissive most of the time.

What I'm saying is, with someone who is used to astral and etheric experiences, you sure do sustain a type of humbleness that makes me question whether or not I'm experiences patches of who you are.

Are my eyes set on looking at you in the past, rather than the future? Is this my way of my higher self understanding you quickly because He/she/it wants me to live in the past to understand why you want to see me in the future?

Tell me, are you sure your seeing my in the future, Kaomea?

It could all just be expectations you know............of who you want me to be......

Which relates to how you like as much fun as you can from your dreams, but still having control when DC's get out of hand or get too "subjective" with you.

Tell me,

What will you do when I start being too subjective, and things get out of hand?

Will you constrain me with bolts like you did with Hades?

Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm


If Hades himself, or your projection of him can experience humility from being constrained by bolts, then the possibility of me going out of control is still there.

Anyway, that's all for now.

But I'll leave you with this.....


When I do attempt to dream, people in waking life tend to be insignificant to me. I don't mean your typical "this is a second life" kind of mentality...I literally forget about these people when I do become lucid.

At least, that happens most of the time when I enter the dream state from a WILD, and not a DILD/MILD.

When I do become accustomed to lucidity, I'm afraid there might be some parts of myself you won't like. But I just want you to know that when that time comes, acknowledge those dislikes of yours.

Remember what I said about what it takes to have a long relationship with someone? Even though you have more experience than me, you deemed what I declared as "lovey-dovey" and "cheesy."

I admit, sometimes when I do exhibit a romantic type of mentality, I feel awkward and think I shouldn't be doing this, because it feels cheesy and not worth it.

But I think one reason for that is because this world has so many people to the point where romanticism is basically a fairy tale. Anyone with the right words can tempt a woman/man in their arms, and when they realize it's the wrong person they exhibited this "love" towards, it's already too late.

Which is why I'm still insecure about having relationships in waking life. There's just so many possibilities, so many "What if I met this person instead of that?"

"What if I met someone more beautiful?"
"What if I met someone more intelligent?"
"What if I met someone more sociable?"
"What if I met someone more fragile?"
What if I met someone more kind and loving?"
What if I met someone more thoughtful?"

It's always more, more, more, more, more.

I may not understand why you wanted to engage in taboo and irrational relationships in the past, but based on what I'm insecure about with relationships and all, I think I understand why you went down that path before.

There's always the possibility of meeting someone better than the person you have now.

When we find a lover in our lives, even though attractive people still spark an interest to the person, that same person will always believe their lover is better.

But what makes me think that they're saying that is because they have added security, the risk of abandonment is low, and exhibiting effort towards someone who could be better is pointless when they have someone who can satisfy their needs.

Sometimes I wonder if this is the subjective matter of how our body dilutes our perception of things like the Selfish Gene Theory, where we are only considerate for augmenting the possibility that our genes will be passed on to the future.

People try to deny and think we're more than just animals who want to pass our genes, but really, who are the ones being fooled here?

If we're so complex to not have to full believe in that standard that we here to pass on our DNA to the next offspring, what does that say about humans in general?

Could our minds be declaring this to us to make us feel better, to make us feel that we're not just here being vessels to pass on traits to another vessel?

Are we really more than just animals? Are we just high and conceited of our own kind, humanity, to be able to think that we're the only ones on this planet, and possibly the universe as a whole to think we can pass on more than just our genes???

That doesn't even relate to what I'm trying to tell you, I think.......

Anyway. Good night...or good morning I should say....lol.

I stumbled on this video on youtube, and gizEdwards made a video on the Swallowing Reflex and it relating to WILDS.

The first segments are generic if you read guides on stopping the swallowing on here, but the last part of using a pillow to prop your mouth to where you don't have conscious effort in keeping it closed is definitely interesting!

I can't wait to try it out, because I do keep a conscious check on my mouth region after that last lucid where I almost choked to death (from building up saliva)

It's worth it for all you LDrs who either do WILD or go home, hahaha

fjg