The Erratic dreams of StaySharp

Another lucid dream, once more proving to me at least some parts of me seem to be regenerating. Or not decaying further. Either way...

...the first part of the dream I can recall begins with me being in some kind of 'mall'. While it felt and was treated like a shopping mall, it much more looked like a home, that was maybe a little bigger than an average house. The interior was largely gray with some white, relatively normal I'd say, it didn't look fancy but acceptable by my standards. I remember the living room, there was someone I didn't know, a Playstation (1) and a staircase when walking through the room, which felt very spacious as it was connected to the other rooms, no doors or stuff that made you feel you changed the room.
I eventually walked up the stairs, and remember a more white kitchen like room, with an silver oven placed at an convenient height to work with. Somehow I felt and noticed that the dream played during a different time than reality, I was somewhat in the past, and first upon realizing that planned to make use of it to change things for the better.
I'm not quite sure what happened, or how, but then I'm standing on a small ledge, outside of a building, 20 m above the ground or something. The view I saw was... absolutely amazing, apocalyptic and dark. A feeling emerges I couldn't describe, a more valuable experience than I could ever get from watching even the most emotional movies in real life for hours. I'm falling down and I realize I'm dreaming, I feel relaxed and fine.
I'm in a big zone, I don't even know what it was, a train station, a building, maybe just an open place with some constructions. I was testing around with gravity, and again I also was flying a little. My girlfriend was there as well, she asked me if I was still dreaming, I did an reality check and replied that I was of course still dreaming. After some more time of being lucid but somehow doing nothing fancy I felt my focus fading for a moment, then I woke up.

Man, if just for once I would actually start doing something relevant upon becoming lucid...

This dream likely started somewhere earlier, but I have a gap in my memory here.

The first thing I remember was that I was flying a few meter above the forest of a ridiculously huge mountain, it went down at an angle of around 45°, and I was aiming for a very certain person, which was marked with a blue symbol in my vision. There were a few trees which were higher than others, the color was a dark, strong green and it was a bright and pleasant day. Soon I reached the bottom, and barely managed to stop without colliding with anything since I picked up quite a pace. Down there also was one exceptionally big tree. I landed gently, the ground was covered with some very light gras patched. Somewhere here I became lucid, once again through realization only. I didn't really do anything fancy though and lost lucidity fast. From here I only remember I found the person I was searching for and sat down on the table were he/she was waiting. The table was big enough fo 6 people and there seemed to be more tables and other things around.

Well, I wish I would've stayed lucid so I could've made something out of it, but I got lucid again after barely more than a week, so now I'm definitely sure that things are looking up.

My last lucid was already weeks or months ago, and my last lucid with good control and details was defnitely months ago.

It began with some kind of event, it was night and there were many people in something like a stadium. There was some kind of woman with a deo-spray goblet (WTF...) on a pedestal, closely surrounded by people. During this part of the dream I was not yet existent and only observed. The woman flew away with a missile and some dude clung to her missile with a rope. He wanted to get up to her, there was some dialog I could remember, but honestly it was pretty nonsensical stuff, like comments from the dude about the age of the woman. He eventually stopped on a clocktower or something, held the missile and let it rotate around the tower so it would speed up and he could get up to the woman. The physics here we're pretty broken.

Eventually one of them, the dude I think, dropped down from the missile into the city. I then assumed his position, searching for the woman, but there was no one anywhere in the city. I came around a corner, it was day again, the street was empty, and there were boring buildings to both sides of the street. My mind suddenly became a lot more clear, I wanted to do a reality check, but considering the events that previously happened I knew that I was dreaming and no RC was necessary. Instead I focussed on stabilizing, imagined wings, flapped my arms and started to fly, immediately it was like the gravity was largely negated for me. I couldn't properly imagine the wings but kept on trying to train myself a little. When I flew up I got to see an absolutely astonishing panorama of nature with mountains and greenery, the closest mountain had a sharp stone peak at the top, but none of the mountains were covered with snow or something like that. I could see at least as good as in reality, maybe even a little better. I kept flying for many minutes until my mind got clouded a tiny little bit again. I flew into a building, probably a school, and there I met a particular weird monster with a magic wand (both from UT2k4, the so called magic wand is a different version of the shock rifle). It fired at someone and I planned to rob the weapon from it, but then I lost my focus on the dream for a moment and woke up. It somehow was similar to dropping something out of carelessness, I might've been able to continue the dream otherwise I guess.

Unfortunately I didn't remember any of the things I wanted to do in my lucids, and so only flew around.

I was at some kind of bus or tram station, I think it was somewhat similar to one I know in real life, always driving through on my way to work. Oddly enough the actual street or railroad seemed to be missing though. There was a lot of gravel on the ground and a cat, I remember touching both and being surprised at how realistic it felt and used it to try a slow stabilizing start on my dream which also worked at first, somewhere in between these scenes I also must have done a RC as I was lucid most of that time (I also remember that RC, just not when exactly I did it).
After I thought I took the dream slow enough I intended to fly, succesfully turning into Ryuuko and jumping off a near cliff, gliding for some way, then I remember how I suddenly saw myself (or Ryuuko) from behind, able to pick up on some details (mostly the not black as thought, but instead colorful, blue-green scales, but it also ended my dream. It also looked like some kind of forest but I can't remember the details as much as I'd like to.

I was on my way to work, I was driving in a car through the mountains, and it was a beautiful, already somewhat bright day, the complete opposite to my actual way to work. I got lost there but realized how far away from reality all this was, then I suddenly was in a building with a nice view of the mountains and did a nose-pinch RC, with success.
Out of a strong urge to fly I dashed forward, broke the glass of the window and spanned my wings, starting to glide immediately. The world then was filled with repeating patterns which I could control to some degree, but the dream faded fast.

Well this is the first dream in my DJ which I'll tag with nightmare, though it doesn't qualify as a real nightmare since it didn't get me unnerved at all.

I was in my home (which of course looked totally different like always, the rooms were rather thin and long stretched), my girlfriend was present as well but barely participated at all. At some point I had a weird somewhat painful feeling in my mouth and then half of a tooth broke off. I was somewhat annoyed but didn't remotely react to the situation like one would in real life, at some point the half tooth in my hand suddenly was a row of 3 which stuck to each other as well as being half soft and crumbly (really weird consistence). Then the PSU of my PC started to smoke and I just calmly turned off the electricity, one ore 2 more minutes later I had a thought along the lines of "Well fuck all this, this is a dream anyway". (Yeah, even when I have something nightmarish I don't really care)

I don't really know if there was much of an intermission here, maybe just a few seconds maybe 2 minutes.

I thought that I wanted to have a lucid dream, I was sleeping before (definitely didn't open my eyes) but I've just been seeing some phosphenia, I focused on what I've seen and I tried to see grass and a simple green landscape. It was hard but I had success! What I've been seeing slowly morphed and I barely felt my body at all. After a minute or 2 I was in a forest and I turned into Ryuuko as much as I could, I didn't feel much from my new body but at least I had my wings, I used them for strengthened jumps to get up into the trees, but that's where my dream ends already. I lost awareness and woke up soon after.


Well this was my first real DEILD and my first success in really getting into a dream from a state of phosphenia. There's been at least one case before were I was very close already though.
I guess my first WILD may really draw close

I was lying down in bed like usual and it was my 3rd sleep phase that day, I configured my smartphone alarm (Dream as Android) to skip recording 27 minutes, and I had my 56th lucid dream. I tried focusing on phosphenia as usual and fell asleep within very few minutes.

I was in my home (which like usually wasn't remotely like my actual home, it was a big and complex building) and was only wearing underwear. I became lucid fast for no specific reason.

I tried to fly and while that worked the windows and walls proved to be impenetrable, I even tried using a flame blast which materialized as a dark red beam, which however didn't leave a scratch, I guess my home is supposed not to be destroyed by me
So I just went through the doors (like 5 rooms, the building was big and mostly blue), and when I was outside I could fly perfectly and with exceptional ease, it was easier than walking is in real life. It was night und I was looking at things from above, the house looked smaller and more normal from the outside. I applied some kind of invincibility nano armor scales and let myself drop to the ground, slightly shattering the ground.

Then I went through a forest and tried focusing on details, with a lot of success, for the first time I can really recall that the details were absolutely like in real life, maybe even slightly better. After some time I had contact with some people and tried reading what was written on some chocolate, after just a second of focusing I was able to read, and consistently at that, things didn't change once written at all. I even noticed some false grammar which after waking up proved indeed to be an perfectly correct assumption from me. I also tried some but it didn't taste crazy or anything, just pretty weak like chocolate. Someone was offering me chocolate with hazelnuts but I wasn't interested.

Then I was in some kind of weird building (nothing too fancy but I just can't describe it, there was a lot of stuff scattered all over the place) were I was talking with generic dream characters about jokes, I know I remembered one of them after waking up, but forgot it now cause it was not that interesting.
I was constantly wondering when the dream would end and this time around it seems my REM phase got weak and I woke up (I think there was something in real life helping as well).

I'll skip my improval notes because this dream was kind of like breaking my personal wall of sound that had be keeping me down for nearly 2 years! When I woke up my alarm just started recording so all that happened within like 25 minutes of me falling asleep. When resuming sleep I felt that the barrier keeping me from falling asleep conscious "took a serious blow", but after some minutes I fell asleep normally again. I may still take some weeks or months till my first real WILD but for the first time I feel I'm getting close!

(I think I'm not recalling the real beginning of this dream, so I'll start from where I start remembering the dream)

I was sitting in a bus and it was night, I think the bus was driving through some kind of tunnel. I was looking up and there was a hole or window in the bus there and at some spot we were driving through I could see the sky and the stars. It was just for about 2 seconds that I could see them and the first moment they looked normal but the next moment the amount of stars I could see started to heavly increase and they were forming a shape, a little like a magical seal. I was literally thinking "WTF?" and pinched my nose, and I could breathe perfectly, making me immediately lucid. I got up and looked around me (there seemed to be some random stuff in the bus) and told myself "all this is not real", resulting in some energy coming from me (I think) which dissolved everything to a more clear state, as well as helping me to stabilise.
Like usually I teleported to another place, I was left in a rather empty room, pretty dark but with some blue and purple colors. Looking out of one of the windows I saw space, looked like a blue galaxy. I wanted to go there so I went closer to the window with the intent to pass through it, but when I came closer I saw a reflection in the window, caused by the lamp in the from, preventing me from going there. So I simply opened the window and jumped through which worked well, I told myself "there's no gravity in space" so I only fell a few meters down and then I started floating. The blue part looked a lot like it had been painted to a wall because I could see a cube like shape from the inside (like when you are in a room). I turned around and went to a more red part of space, there was a sun and a bunch of asteroids around it. I thought about a certain track called Nebula (EBF3) which I then heard playing. The details of the stellar objects were going down a lot though and I only saw them in polygons. I was lightly jumping from one asteroid to another and tried to raise the details but I woke up.

Everything started when I was in a city and I was about to witness the launch of someone. He was supposed to be launched by a catapult; I think he was wearing some kind of armor. Not sure whether I was actually existent at that point but I'm sure I was watching the scene in 3rd person, it seemed to be spring and it was rather bright. Upon launch I followed the "human projectile" which flew quite a long way until landing in a winter forest. The snow was 10-20cm deep, the weather itself was pretty clear, though not much light came through the trees. At this point I was definitely existent, and I was searching the dude. Not sure if something more happened here but then I found an entrance to the underground and went in.

I'm pretty sure I went down a dark staircase into a big forsaken complex, which remembers me a lot of the Talenta boarding school I was in some years ago. The building itself was pretty long stretched, 4 or 5 levels high and there was no real separation for rooms, it seemed to be more or less one big room. I seemed to know that place really good as I always knew where to go. Somewhere around this point I had a girl who went with me, she had green medium-short hair and was a few years younger than me (15-18 I guess).

Minute for minute I heard more and more sounds in the building and it seemed like suddenly there were a lot of people, though there should have been no one, then there were people (primarily girls) with brooms scattered everywhere, they were apparently part of a project to tend to this forsaken complex once again. They were however hostile to us as we were seen as intruders. The girl which was with me used some incantations (that's when I saw her the first time by the way) to defend us while I navigated through the corridors to avoid contact, I specifically remember she used a "Defensive Map" spell allowing us to see where people were in this complex. At that point we were in a sort of canteen, left of us a lot of tables and seats, right of us a small stair and the kitchen. It was pretty bright, as it was day and one side was pretty much a big window.
Some minutes later in the same place I think it was dark and I was being attacked by a weird dude, he seemed to be dangerous. His eyes were a little weird, he had a strong green iris and the pupil was cross shaped. He tried to stab me with a weird tool but I catched his arm and started to stab him with a similar but longer tool into the face, specifically targeting his eyes, though I didn't seem to make much damage. I told my companions (thinking that there are a few around) they should help me because he raised another knife already. At that point I woke up.


This dream was pretty long, so no wonder I woke up then, I probably was due some time already. Shame he didn't stab me, the standard dream invincibility would have surely made me lucid.

I was in some kind of company building, and the place I was sitting on was very much like the living room in my secondary home, there was some dude staring intently through the window (actually it was a door with a big window), searching for something in an inappropriate way. He was kind of annoying but I didn't care to much, however someone else went there (he had a small dog with him) and opened the door to see what's going on (there was a big dog out there, however the small dog scared the hell out of him, which I found pretty funny). When I was looking outside a moment I saw something shooting star like, but it was somewhat bright outside and due to it being pretty big I figured it was an meteor. Kind of thrilled I went outside to see what was going on and then I managed to spot some planets in the sky, at first only a few, then about 10 which were coming closer. 2 of them were somewhat earthlike so I wondered if one of them was earth, I kinda zoomed in but saw that the continents didn't match earth so they both had to be different planets. Now really excited I ran around with something particular in mind while thinking. I was running across a large plain with several different zones, some even separated by fences, some vegetation here and a few smaller buildings there. There were a bunch of Chinese looking people everywhere shooting with small water guns at people to keep them from moving around, and while some of them thought it was a game, the people in some area noticed something was up when a big wave was coming in, they were trying to do something against it but I figured to keep running, as I was about to leave the place I came to the conclusion I've got to be dreaming so I did an RC and became lucid. The dream was somewhat really instable and I tried at least 3 different stabilization techniques (looking at my hands, rubbing them together and my WSS) without success. At some point I also wanted to go in some certain direction into a grey looking forest for no reason and used super speed and flying with great success until I got tangled up in a tree at which point the dream finally started to collapse for real. I kind of managed to stick to it hard enough so that it just minimized into a smaller window and even managed to force my dream to tell me how stable it was, then I got a big red font across the window, like this:

Stability: 18%

The number was changing somewhere around that value and I didn't manage to pull it up anymore so the dream faded. However only into a false awakening which strange enough I didn't manage to catch up to. I woke up in an unknown room, my girlfriend and some other girl were sleeping in the same room, and I got up to write my lucid down like I'm used to, apparently we exchanged a few words but the dream already faded, and this time for real: I woke up.

After a dry spell for pretty much exactly 2 weeks I finally had a lucid, and a pretty long and awesome one as well.

The dream starts with me standing on some balcony, suddenly I have a very strong strange feeling in my mouth and some of my teeth are lose, a moment later when I was looking into the mirror most of my teeth came crumbling out and I was stressed out wondering what the hell was going on. But I did an RC, I couldn't breathe, or so I thought but I kept checking as hard as I could and in fact I could breathe, so I got lucid and forget and ignored the stuff about my teeth immediately.
I remembered how I was breathing through my pinched nose last time while I was underwater (Icy pit) and I had the strong desire to repeat that, I closed my eyes shortly and something strange filled me, I opened them and thought and said "Water!" with a strange intonation and the whole room immediately started to fill up really fast in front of my eyes. It also was an borderless change to an completely different building since I changed the location itself, still underwater of course I've been swimming around for a while and then decided to go to the surface to try flying out which worked without problems. I've been flying around this building (it seemed to be slightly underground, there were a lot of things floating around, even a bag of whales), and decided to try summoning a Spytfire (Spaceship from the X3 games) but because somehow I didn't do it instinctively and strong enough I only summoned a very basic chassis, I worried about wether I’d recall the shape correctly. I decided to exit the building, the windows which were up top led outside into a city apparently in the middle of spring. Then there’s a small gap, something about a shard of glass and showering on the street removed my lucidity for a moment but I regained it pretty fast (though unfortunately at this point I already forgot about the things I wanted to do outside). I tried advanced flying into the sky (which looked beautiful) but somehow it didn't work properly, I could only get a few meters and started to grab and hold something invisible, as I pulled down the sheets a big puppet like thing revealed itself and I kinda think it was responsible for the fact I couldn't fly (it also had a name, something with John). I just took it apart piece by piece and made some of the DCs around hostile with that. But even though I still couldn't fly properly I was far away from getting myself catched by a few normal DCs, so I went around a bit to find another place to fly but woke up then.

I think the real reason for me being unable to fly at the end of the dream was that the dream wasn’t stable enough anymore, if just I wouldn’t have forgotten to stabilize. Still this dream once again broke my records in terms of detail and length for lucids.

Split Finger or Zombie Freeman:
Two dreams with a nearly similar end. I was in an electronics shop talking with someone while being in the body of another person. I looked at my pointing finger (no clue which side) and noticed there was a deep cut in it, and one side was white, probably dead. I did some other stuff; I think I was talking to the staff there. The next time I looked at my finger it was completely split in half, and I was only able to properly control one side, while the other moved erratically. Then I woke up simultaneously to thinking: "Dream fucking fuck" (direct quote).
The alternative was me in a long hall with red carpet and a lot of doors, seeing Gordon Freeman as a zombie swinging with his cane, coming in my direction. This time with me waking up simultaneously to thinking: "Whoa, fucking fuck" (direct quote).

Sasuke Ghost + Materialization + Wormhole = Silence:
I was (3rd person I think) floating above a grey city. All buildings were slightly damaged, however completely empty, no people no furniture no other stuff. Just plain walls. I saw Sasuke floating around with a cloak and glowing red eyes, he was sort of a ghost. Something happened which materialized him and he smashed into a small building, revealing a violet/blue glowing wormhole which swallowed him.

Spoiler for Odd dice game (Sexual Content):

I was in an unknown room with an nice looking girl and we were about to have sex, however she had pain upon starting normally, so she told me to search for an alternative. I had 2 six-sided dice which could produce 10 different results each (well, nice dream paradox) and threw them for an idea. They showed 1 and 2, of which one meant "Anal". So I asked her for an opinion but after noticing she was frozen like a crashed program I woke up
I also remember there was an bathroom involved at some point of this dream, I think right before we went into the bedroom, but not sure.

Musical Glide:
The first dream of this night, I was in a open place on a way that went down a really long way. I sorta started to glide down there and the music (for the first time) involved primarily music (there was music in reality but the track in the dream was completely independent), it really got my bashed mood (fell asleep with a terrible mood) high up and simply induced an overall awesome feeling.

Limes and Stuff:
I was in a city and the dream primarily involved Limes (Green ones as well as unripe yellow ones) on a tree in the middle of a city. I remember having a conversation with a bunch of DCs about the limes.

Odd memory:
I was back in my old favourite boarding school. I was recalling different (unreal) states of my boarding school, especially two big ones, one symbolized by blue the other by red. There was also a logo for the school which changed together with the phase (the first logo looked a lot like the one of my current city).

I was in the Mensa of a unknown boarding school, someone was complaining about the knives being nearly unable to cut buns at all, I told him that I already knew knives which were completely incapable of cutting buns and that at the boarding school I was talking about (Talenta) the spoons were used to cut the buns instead of the knives (this is indeed a true story out of reality, god those friggin’ knives…). I was making myself raw sandwiches (with cheese and salami) which I would toast back in my roam where I had a sandwich toaster (again these sandwiches came unchanged right out of the reality, along with the toaster). As I returned from the Mensa (happened with a small gap, and strangely I was in Talenta) I was talking about something with one of the housemasters (which strangely was not older than me), something different came up and he went outside followed by 2 girls, I had something to do for a moment as well. After that I went out to search him in the building, and after a short moment I found him in one of the bureaus. I saw a sort of tooltip over his head, which a title (it was pretty long but I don’t remember everything, something like “…Anti-Khaak-SSSe”). With another gap I met up with my girlfriend and another girl my girlfriend knew, in a big building which was new to me, it was pretty bright and the roof was mostly made out of glass.
They were playing games in a N64 like console; it had generally bad graphics on the screen (you even had to readjust for every single game), but it was equipped with all types of controllers for all limbs and a virtual reality device. Somewhere in the middle of these games we went over to another TV in this building, which was left from us. For some reason they started to watch a Hentai (porn), and apparently I already knew (from ratings or whatever) that it was a pretty bad movie. I saw 2 girls strapped to crosses and there were 2 other girls talking about how they were bad and something devil like. For a moment the TV faded and I saw the scene like reality. One of the restricted girls said: “And you call me a devil!” to one of the free girls, which actually had blue skin, black hair and a thick strange tail. Without saying anything she got rid of that skin and the tail, which apparently was just a costume. I got pretty bored of this and since rape was about to be happening in this movie I had no intentions of continuing to watch this; we were at the console again.
At some part of the game I was in the virtual reality interface and I was seeing earth from space, I still saw a cube which had something to do with the game and there was a lot more blue surrounding earth, likely water. From there on it was 3rd person for a while and I saw a shuttle flying towards earth, and a voice explained me a lot of partially correct physics (like a documentary). I got to see a small thermal video of this shuttle, still flying down, where I saw how the heat builds up at the tip of the shuttle. At some point the within the thermal video the shuttle entered the ring of water, and the voice told me that at 5000°C a C-Liquid would be generated at the tip of the shuttle, which would stick to the shuttle and keep the heat there, I also started seeing normally again. This C-Liquid was black. And that at a higher temperature (5500°C I think) this liquid would gain fat like properties, making the liquid still stick to the shuttle. But the liquid would then be unable to stick together to a big bubble on front of the shuttle like it did before. I saw black streams of this liquid flow besides the shuttle.
After another short gap I found myself back on earth, the topic was still (space) travel. I got to saw a lot of unrefined glider and rocket prototypes. The voice explained that some of those rockets might soon take us further than anything has done before. I was still in a documentary but got my body back, I tested one of the glider prototypes. It was square shaped with a few fins and a round section in the middle, equipped with some sort of round gliding blade (whatever it really was, hard to explain). It was pretty small, maybe 50cmx50cm. However without any special power source it was able to carry me downhill without me touching the ground once and it was also pretty easy to control. It wasn’t perfect but the construction was pretty neat actually (that is if it would work in real life).

The dream was beginning with me being in a building, I kinda thought of a school but judging by my clothes (only swimming pants) I guess it was also a swimming bath. Some dude was joking around with his swimming glasses and had some soft pads in there. He was making some joke about boobs but I wasn't really interested in whatever he was doing there. I explored the area in search for a useful bathroom but unlike the building which was in a normal state, the bathrooms looked horrendous, each one in a special way. The last one I remember was especially bad. All lights were wasted and everything was covered with 50% rust, and there was this feeling of danger.

The dream faded in quality producing a gap in my recall.

After a while I was in some sort of open building, more like a garden, plants of all types everywhere covering even big parts of the walls. I was in the pedentive of a small dome, sorta like this:

From there I could look through a hole onto a round table in the dome below. I had some bad quality again and the only thing I remember is that something made me know I'm lucid, but again I didn't also understand I'm lucid.

I found myself sitting at this round table with my girlfriend (looked just slightly different, darker red hair). I was looking back into some other part of the building as I saw some people chasing a sort of living green tumbleweed with roses, they did it to save their lifes. Caught by this WTF-moment I spoke out "I must be dreaming". And then vividness hit me in the face like a ion storm, suddenly also understanding I was dreaming I screamed out the same thing again. I thought about calling a dream guide, but my girlfriend said "Took you long enough", making me assume she might've been my dream guide that moment. The scene drastically changed.

I found myself in a ridiculous huge landscape, with reddish-brown ground and small rivers of lava everywhere. The ground was uneven, hills and mountains were scattered everywhere. The urge to fly hit me and I instinctively raised my arms to the side and jumped from the hill I was standing on, gliding barely a few meters above the ground. I didn't feel any air pass, but except for that it was pretty realistic.
(I had some doubts about flying because I've seen stories about failing attempts as well as guides on DV, but my confidence in my instinct was stronger)
I heard my girlfriend/dream guide say something like "You can do it, but together we can fly even higher". I soared above the next hill and spotted a mountain with strange statues and wanted to take a look at it, so I circled around it, rising upwards in the process. The statues loooked like they were for some deity, made by a long extinct civilization, some of them being a few hundret meter high. I also saw some geometrically impossible stone shapes.
Somewhere close to the top I spotted a different part which resembled a part of a room, with completely different, comparibly small figures. They kinda reminded me of an odd type of horror movie (not a real one) that was however pretty cool and had a message to it. With that the dream fades...