NyxCC

Date: 30 May

Dream quality and recall: There was an improvement in vividness, my awareness during dreams today was high, with a possible short ld moment. Recall was slightly better than previous days, but still below my average. There was a dreaming/ld theme so I take it as a positive sign. Postponed writing down the dream, so lost some details.

Dream00: I just remember some brief moment of lucid awareness during the dream

Fragment1: I am discussing dreaming with someone

Dream2: I see a classmate and talk to her. Then on same the street there is an older lady that has some connection to charity. A bit later, I am with the same lady but in a store, where I am trying some shoes. They are slightly uncomfortable, but I decide to buy them. I go to the cashier with the same DC woman and explain something about the shoes. The price has been reduced but they are still extremely expensive. Obviously I like them a lot, and decide they are worth it. I barely manage to gather enough money, but find additional small change in my wallet so I happily make the purchase.

Later on, a number of times and for some unknown reason, I keep coming back to the place where the DC woman was, but she is not there anymore. It looks like a room full of lockers now. A group of teenagers follows me and they make bold moves, touching my butt. I become annoyed and threaten them with my bf. I continue on my way until I see a nice place where they sell food and other fancy Japanese items. Bf is also here. I briefly talk to the woman behind the counter. The whole place gradually changes and is now more like a highly specialized store, and the thing they specialize in is lucidity! I see a whole section of lucid- inducing supplements, including G, mucuna, lots of books, crystals, etc. I am very happy to have found this place and consider purchasing some of the things. (CL you may have something to do with this!)

Fragment3: Talking to my aunt

Date: 24 May

Total sleep time: 7 hrs

Pre bed: SJW, 100 mg B6

WBTB: 2x200mg peppermint oil tablets

Dream quality, lucidity and recall: My dreams were extremely vivid today, I dare say, more vivid that real life. I believe this was the reason why I got a number of lucid moments during the night. While being aware that this is a dream, I continued to engage in the dream, soon losing lucidity. My recall has been rather poor again, which made it harder to figure out how it all happened.

Sleep schedule: I had trouble going to bed on time last few nights, but avoided taking sleep aid supps (mel and valerian) for a number of reasons. Messing up my sleep schedule has made me feel very sleepy and possibly affected my recall.

Dream zero: lucid, happiness, no other memory

Fragment1: some kind of game, rocks, I am walking around

Fragment2: my parents at some event

Fragment3: FA, in my bed recalling the previous dreams and happy I just had a lucid. I am between dream and waking state and I realize that this review is taking place in my head. I drag myself out of the dream and wake up to dream journal properly.

WBTB: upon wake I notice how sleepy I am. I try to recall the lucid, but only remember the feeling and no other details. I hold the memory of Fr1 and fr2 in my mind. I go to take some peppermint tablets, then back to bed. I quickly fall asleep forgetting almost everything.

Fragment4: I want to make tea, I am looking at an unused teabag of green tea, which becomes a box, containing two black teas and one green. On the green one is written "blue goddess" and also "hotel memorabilia"

Dream5: We are at some party and it is really late. Lucid moment. I meet a classmate that I like and I want to tell him something. (something like shared dreaming attempt residual that I keep on doing in some lucids). I tell him to come with me in the other room for five mins, but he refuses. I am thinking about my dad coming to pick me up when the party is over, etc. Another classmate of mine (f), we talk with her, she is one of my best friends. She shares that she is really unhappy with her life, and so on. Very emotional connection with her irl and dreams. She begins to cry, and I embrace her, we stay like this for a long time. Another friend of mine (f), comes and joins us and three of us are holding hands in some silent act of consolation...Lucid moment. Memory gap. We are arranging to meet at our new dream apartment, which looks really nice.

Fragment6: someone has bought a toy, it is a car that behaves like rat because it can climb on the windows

Fragment7 DILD: I am in the suburbs, a familiar place but it looks like it is in the past, so I become lucid. Someone is after me, I am running, climbing a fence. . I think I was trying to figure out a way out of the situation, but I cannot remember anything else.

Dream8 DILD: I am on the street and see a small boy and his mother. The vividness is incredible. He throws large stones at me, I am worried that he will break my ipod with the stone, but it is ok. He continues throwing stones, while initially concerned about my safety I realize this is a dream, so no need to worry that much. The stones are very colorful, lots of them on the ground. I pick up one and go menacingly to the boy. I can't bring myself to throw one at him, so I decide to threaten him instead. I do so, in pseudo French. It is really hard to express whatever it is that I am trying to say, so I end up making strange words that don't exist. At this point or a bit later I lose my clarity. I go over to his mother and begin apologizing about my French.

Dream9 DILD: Family and other relatives are discussing politics, I try to remain impassive. I am indulging in a chocolate cake and then drink some mayo salad that grandma has made. It doesn't taste as usual, and I say it out loud, grandma is a bit offended. Family is leaving somewhere. I am on the bus station in my hometown, cross on red light, and continue on my way to our old home. As I am walking, the dream kind of jumps forward, so I find myself in front of our door. I think to myself "Why did I decide to walk, when I know I could just teleport here?", Hmmm, teleport here? I am aware that this is a dream now. I still want to go in the place so I start unlocking the door. Then suddenly I hear a slightly scary metal sound, like movement of keys. I remind myself not to pay any attention to it, and that it will disappear. Instead it gets louder, comes closer.

I concentrate on unlocking the door, but even as I move the key, the door won't open. I begin thinking why is that, the sound is now really close. I decide to face it, and look down the stairs. Pfuu, it is just my dad! He comes and opens the door and we are in! I am in the corridor with dad, it is dark, and kind of...too dimensional. I am talking to him, but it is hard, and my voice sounds really distorted. I try again but the effect is the same. My prospective memory finally activates, recalling the first two of three step task, interact with a DC, ok. Then eat something. I see a small plant in front of me, and think no! I head to the kitchen to look for food. It is dark, the furniture is different and I cannot remember where the fridge is. I finally find it. At that moment dad comes with some strange foamy orange juice cocktail drink. I take it and think for a while whether that counts as eating something, then have a drink. Before I can enjoy any taste, the dream totally falls apart and I am back in my bed. I remain still and wait a bit, but nothing happens, and begin to think too much, so I wake up. Note to self: maybe be a bit more patient next time?

Comments: I have been getting more of these lucid moments but I really don't know how to account for them in my private dream count as well as on DV, because they are kind of short and I'm having problems with lucid recall.

At the end of the month, I probably will be including a total count, with a reference how many of these are micro-lucids. Before, I counted every lucid I had as plus one, but now I look more at the length and quality. This is getting so confusing. Anyways, I still think it is a very good progress for the past two months. If my dream control ever gets really good, one day I would like to go back and relive those dreams and remember them in full detail.

This journal entry will be more like a reminder to myself. I had about 5-6 dreams, all of them a more or less uneventful rehash of old places and people, that are clearly DS to me. Here's a brief summary:

Dream1: My school again; this time it was about a forum for the school

Dream2: My best friend from school was at our old place

Dream3: My mom at another town from my past, we also went to KFC?

Dream4: Strolling in my hometown

Dream5: In front of my grandma’s place, then waiting for my grandma inside; some people in the neighbourhood were partying, listening to Gangnam style

Fragment6: In a tea shop?

Total sleep time: 7hrs

Dream recall method: none used

Other: Tried WBTB during last hour of sleep but got a phone call

I'm keeping it short and simple today. The usual relatives stuff is sooo boring, but at least they make a good DS. Every time I see my relatives, I could be dreaming! Wake up!!!!!

Dream1: My parents have switched their home with their friends. Every housewife has made some food for the other family. So we are at their house eating their food. They are at our house eating what my mom has cooked. Soon one of them arrives to report back that the food mom has cooked is terrible. She is sitting at the dinner table at the time, then bursts into tears.

Dream2: I am going to grandma, then back home. She gives me a call that I still owe my aunt some money. "I gave her 1000, I have paid my dues", I said. Then I call my mom to double check with her. Zzzzzzzzzz

Dream3[after WBTB]: After falling asleep I am almost getting there, thinking about LD and DV in the dream, about the technique of one the guys. I am in a store, they sell some things where you can put your talisman, I stare at the object, almost there.....the phone rings and wakes me up. Argh!

Total sleep time: 8 hrs

Dream recall method: noted key words on paper pad upon naturally waking up during night. Next time will write a sentence instead of key word and try to write more legibly

Dream1 Keywords, 3 hrs after falling asleep: ballet, rain?

Fragment2: I am watching as a famous comedian gets to the stage. As he does so he stumbles and falls and everybody is commenting that. Apart from that the audience loves him. He is participating in a challenge game, where he has to match 16 large pictures shown on a screen to the word describing each, but the word is in a foreign language. There are a few pictures of animals like three pups on the pics. He makes a mistake in his first choice.

Fragment3: I am back to history class (DS) and the history teacher is angry with me because I am late again. One of my nerd classmates is ready just like in old times with a long paper which she is about to read in front of the whole class. I wonder out loud how she manages to do that, to prepare so well, now that she has a husband a son and a job to take care of.

Fragment4: I am in some apartment full of people. I notice that hardcore music is playing in the background. While I do enjoy it, I think it will be too much for my guests to listen to it for such a long time, so I decide to change it. I go to the strange music making device where there is place for like five CDs, and turn the music off. A strange silence follows...
In one of the rooms there is a guy that fixes electrical appliances and stuff like that, there is a queue on the door, people waiting for him. There is a lamp that he repaired so he will bring it out for people to collect. I kind of like that guy, so some almost innocent play starts to develop, but I interrupt the whole thing. He goes to the nearby room and I follow him. I look at him and I know he is an alien, because his shape begins to shift. This is very interesting to observe, very fast his facial features and body color change like on that MJ song, but he retains the same size and the facial features are always male.

Fragment5: I am with my good friend on the streets of my home town. We were supposed to go somewhere, but my mom appears and demands full attention and that I simply abandon my friend on the street. She tells me we are going to where grandma is waiting, a place my parents bought in the dream.
I don't want to leave my friend but still tell her that we are going somewhere else. My friend decides to come along.

We are in the place now, my grandma, mom and me are sitting on a table, food on the table, some delicious cakes. An old pensioner comes and tells me that he would like to eat cake so much but he normally cannot afford it, so whenever he has the chance to buy a cake he enjoys it so much. My grandma asks what the old man just said and my mom replies that he just said that he likes cake. That is so not true, and I become angry shouting that the old man has no money for the cake. My grandma does not care at all. This makes me even angrier so I spill the orange juice on her.

During day: 6xRCs

Total Sleep time: 6+ hrs.

Other info: Went to bed quite late, fell asleep even later.

Dream recall method: DS review

After waking up couldn't remember almost anything, so I went over my DS, checking for a gut/ memory reaction. Got a confirmation with 2 DS. Today I have only fragments

Fragment1: My dad was riding a bike, which later transformed into a skateboard. He was performing some unbelievable stunts.

Drawing a line under water in the same place where other tracks were.

Fragment2: I am in something like student housing, got my own room there. Some guys which I know in the dream leave the room and I lock the door. One of them had to return he forgot something, it is agent Cho from the Mentalist but he looks even prettier. He asks me where the knife is, it is laying on the desk nearby. Some bad guys smoke cigarettes outside, one of them resembles Ross from Friends.

Fragment3: I am having a way too honest conversation with grandma, where I complain a lot and feel like a complete loser. My aunt is lying on a bed, next to grandma, using my blanket, and a pillow I identify as mine. She plays, or just uses as another pillow a toy rabbit which my grandma says is very important to her, so grandma wants it back.

Fragment4: An unpleasant person from my past. I notice her in the midst of a crowd. She is wearing Sari type of clothes, orange color predominantly. She expects to win some kind of award and when that does not happen I see her face convulse with anger.