Dreamscapes

6/7/10

Meditation:
Tuesday and Wednesday I have class until really late so I cant meditate those days. I did set my alarm for 3 am to do some meditation. Had a successful wild, but when I opened my eyes to get out of bed there was a giant dog in my room that shared the shit out of me and woke me up. Went to rewild but could not fall back asleep.

Dreams:
Zero recall AGAIN!!! This literally never happens. My recall is normally really good. I don't even remember a fragment of a dream.. not even a single thing. I had five alarms go off. One at 3 am. one at 6 am, 620, and 640 for 5 seconds for a DEILD all of which were almost successful. and one at 7 am. At 7 am I was going to try another wild but was so frustrated with zero dream recall I just tried to sleep and get at least one dream. I think tonight I am only going to set one alarm for a WBTB and see if that helps me dream recall. I tried everything from laying down after I woke up and trying to recall ANYTHING. Nothing

Meditation:

Total time: 30 min

Put my meditation music on and laid in cross leg position. After some time my head started to feel like a big balloon. Then It felt like I was one big balloon floating up. My dog started whining and it put me out of the feeling. I saw a flash on green light at one point and it startled me a little. At one point my ear started itching intensely. I put attention on my body and after a min or so it went away. My mind was wandering a bit so next time I will focus my attention on my part of my body and keep it there.

Dreams:

RAP:

I as at my moms house and she was showing me a bill of 10,000 dollars she spent at Costco. I remember thinking that if she spent that much every week we would be paying 40,000 a month for food! I had some friends come over with Kara and they started rapping hardcore. I remember the raps really well but I don't think its an actual song. Last thing I remember is needing to take money out of the atm.

GF trouble:

Went to hang out with kalee my ex. I had no shirt on and a fat friend of kalees came into her parents house with no shirt on. Her parents saw and started clapping. We had a little competition where we would body slam each other and say stuff like ohhhhhh! what now! The friend ended up disappearing and kalee turned into Kara, a girl I am kind of seeing now. She had a phone call and said she would be right back. Michael my best friend appeared in the room and we hung out for a while. It seemed to be a couple hours later and Kara still had not come back from some guys house and I was starting to get angry. She finally came back and apologized to me for a while. I forgave her and got a phone call with some random guy saying he processed my refund.

I had a lot of dreams that night but did not want to disturb the girl sleeping in my bed. I had a party at my house and did not want to record myself in front of everyone.

WILD attempt:

Tried to wild around 8 am (went to bed around 3) everything was going smoothly, but after 15 min my alarm went off again. I was agitated and ended up rolling over and trying to consciously watch myself fall asleep. I fell asleep unaware

6/6/10

Meditation:

Had a great session today. Total time was around 50 minutes. I laid in cross legged position and focused on relaxing my body. For a while I moved my dream hands in sand to try and actually feel it happening. After about 15 minutes of nothing happening I gave up and just relaxed. I felt a pressure in my head, but it dissipated very quickly. After about 30 minutes something great happened. I realized how good it felt to be in this state of relaxation and stopped trying to do anything and just enjoy this feeling. After about 5 minutes of truly relaxing, I lost all feeling in my body. It felt like I was melting. I ignored these feelings because every time I paid attention to them they would be less intense. I continued relaxing completely and enjoyed the feeling of pure relaxation when I started falling. I felt as if I weighed 1000 pounds and was falling into blackness. This kept going on for a while until I felt nothing. It was a really weird feeling, but it felt as if I was a part of the room. It felt as if I had no body and was just floating there. I laid there for a while thinking I would start to see hynagogic imagery of some sort, but got nothing. Actually, the mediation music I was listening to did sound more vibrant. It was as if some of the tunes were ringing excessively. It was a really good feeling so I just laid there until I felt it was time to get up (had to go to work soon and did not know how long I was laying there)


Dreams:


Very excited for tonight. I plan to set my alarm for around 3 am and do the same meditation I just did and see if I can slip into a dream. I don't have to wake up tomorrow until later so I will also set my alarm for 6 am and 8 am. I have a good feeling about being lucid tonight

EDIT: So I had zero dream recall last night This almost never happens.


WILD attempt: