non-lucid

Its seems that I am getting more dreams every night and they are getting longer. I realized how to remember a lot of dreams by just not thinking when I wake up. I knew this in theory, but it is a lot easier said than done. Now that I think of it I had a FA with that... damn

Slopping mess:

This was during my first sleep cycle. What I like about this dream was I could see how the dream was coming into effect. Its like I became aware as the dream was being created and was watching REM do its thing.

Everything was dark but not dark at the same time. I was with Kara and three guys at some dark house. Kara was drunk and angry. Everything was not fully developed. They looked kind of melted and would slowly stabilize as the dream went on. I knew the guys did not like me and they seemed like they wanted to fight. Kara kept getting angry at me for no reason and ended up leaving the room with the three guys. I waited in the other room until she came storming out. She was mad at me for not coming with her and I told her I was waiting for her in an angry voice. She started crying and saying something, but the guy came up to her and said not to say anything.

End of the world:

This was a long one, but fell back asleep while thinking of the dream and ended up going back into it and forgetting the first half

A lot of stuff happened and I found out there was going to be a big attack on the world. I was on some boat with me ex gf Kalee. I was telling her about what was happening while she was helping me climb some big pole on the boat. My mom ended up helping me. I was hooking up with Kalee randomly throughout the whole dream until her friend grace came. She left me to and started hooking up with her randomly on the boat. I got off the boat and went to a house with an extra large pizza. I tried to climb the roof, but failed and ended up having to walk around the building. I met a man and started talking with him. As I was about to enter the house, the man turned into a woman and started yelling at me. She said I was stalking her.

Violin master:

I was in my room taking some adderal for a productive day. For some reason I ended up taking four 50mgs (I seem to love popping pills in my dreams lol) I realized I just took 200 mg and freaked out. That was enough to kill someone. I could feel my heart start beating super fast. It felt as if my heart was going to burst out of my chest. I called my mom and said just told me to calm down. I could not do anything that would stress or make me angry. I ended up sitting in meditative pose and trying to calm my heart down as much as I could. I kept doing this throughout the dream.

I had to go to school so I left the house. I stopped by a nearby bench and meditated for a while to help my heart. When I got to the school I started telling everyone about what happened. Someone ended up stressing me out a little by doing something. We ended up leaving school and going to this amazing beach. Walking around I realized my heart was just about better. We got in the car and went to some game place. We were ambushed by the opposing team in our car and they started attacking us with water balloons, paint balls, etc. We were trying our best to defend ourselves and our car but were losing the fight. The house above started to attack them with balloons and they ended up fleeing.
We decided to drive over to our friends house and just chill. We laid on a bed with this big black guy who was playing music on the bed. I kind of got bored so I took a girl with me and explored the house. We went into a room with a violin and I jokingly started playing it. It sounded horrible, but I kept playing. After a while it actually started to sound good and the girl said I was really good. It turned out I was holding the violin the wrong way so I turned it around and put it on my chin. What I played was one of the most amazing sounds I have ever heard. I felt my fingers perfectly hit the string and create this kind of chime that was out of this world. I don't even think a real violin can play that. I woke up smiling thinking how amazing that sound was.

pawn shop: I just remembered this dream
I was at Kara's pawn shop. You had to go through a little house and upstairs to an attic to get there. There was a tall black guy called Tod who worked there with her. I joked around with him a little and ended sitting on a big bench watching Kara work. I had some friends come over and we went over to a barber shop. I suddenly realized that this barber shop was dangerous. The people that worked there killed people for fun. We went in and saw the owner had one giant claw for a hand. He asked if we wanted a haircut and we declined. I just remember joking around with him and the two other guys that worked there for a bit.

I had a girl sleeping over so I did not record my dreams in the middle of the night like I usually do.

Girlfriend stealer:

I was with my best friend and one of his girlfriends (he had two) We kept looking at each other in that flirting way. Later Michael left and it was just her and I. We confessed our love for each other and started making out. I later went and bought her a wallet that she loved. The dream suddenly switched to us being in my living room and Michael buying her a purse. I was a little upset, but tried not to show it. His girlfriend did not like his purse and kept whispering that she liked mine better. It switched scenes to me and this other girl he is seeing. We were laying on a bed on the floor and flirting. We started fooling around and Michael called her cell. He did not know that I was there and we were too nervous to tell him. I told her that he wouldn't care and that we should tell him at some point. She said she wanted to give me head and then we could switch so I went to the bathroom to get ready.

Flipping out on mother:

I came home and found my speakers on the floor downstairs. I went upstairs and found my newly cleaned room a mess. My mom borrowed my speakers and messed up my room trying to take them out. I started yelling at her at the top of my lungs and punching walls telling her that she needed to put them back. I had Kara upstairs and felt that she was really uncomfortable so I made a joke saying that I was going to throw away her lipstick if she did not put it away. I could hear Kara laugh upstairs.
I went back upstairs and saw Lindsey and two guys up there talking about drugs. They were all talking about how to stay cool when getting caught by the police while on drugs. They were acting out scenes on what to do if you are pulled over by a cop. It was really funny and the dream ended with me laughing.

I tried salvia for the first time yesterday and had some amazing experiences. I smoked a bowl three times in 20 minutes with my friend and left this dimension. I did it again a couple hours later. I had one super vivid dream that I can remember and a lot of others that were just patches.

Drug party:

I started out playing super smash brothers on the wii. I was doing really bad at first because I could not figure out which way to hold the controller. I was my favorite character kirby. I tied for second place the first game. We played again and this time I was kicking their ass hardcore. I told them I finally remembered how to play. We went into their closet and their was all these different kinds of drugs. Most of them were X and they would make you super social. My friend Alex bought him and I a bag full of them and I just started eating a shitload. As we were going down the stairs he told me to only eat 3 and eat them with him now. I panicked a little in my head, but just went with it and ate three more (I probably ate like 10)
We went down to a massive party and sat down at a large table. On the left there was a big group of my clubbing friends and on the right a big group of my london friends. I was really rolling and knocked over a table and farted. I started making fun of Alex and blaming it on him (we used to do that all the time, but without actually farting) It started to smell really bad so I left the table and went to go find a bathroom.
I really wanted to change into a nicer shirt and went upstairs to change. As I went upstairs I noticed that it was filled with girls and guys with almost no clothes on. I randomly went into a room and asked a girl if she was down to get dirty. Everyone was watching me and I noticed the girl was someone that I knew. We started talking and asking how we were and I ended up leaving the room. I went into another room where a girl thought I was her boyfriend and started making out with me. We were making out on the bed when I saw her actual boyfriend see this and get pissed off. He stormed out of the room and I felt bad and told the girl I would be right back.
I went to go find the boyfriend and found him sitting on a computer chair. He started charging up to me and said he should kick my ass. I told him it was a simple mistake and that he should go to her. He forgives me and goes to her. I walk over to the bathroom and take my shirt off and put on a striped black and white shirt with a hat. I don't like the hat and end up taking it off and leaving the bathroom. Alex is there and says we should go to school.
I leave the party and we are on a bus. I feel so lazy and sluggish and Alex says its because I am coming down on the X. This girl next to me pulls out a big piece of the gum I had earlier and says I can have a bite. I hesitate, but take the gum and feel a lot better.
We get to the school and I go to class. There is a big group project that we have to do, but the teacher says if we can find a small group of friends he would give us extra credit and the project would be much easier. I start looking around for people to join the project. I go to my friend Micheal's class and try to ask him. He tells me to be quite because he is in the middle of a lecture. I leave to the indoor basketball court and start looking for people there. I have a hard time finding people as the dream finally ends.

Fragment:
There were two girls in an apartment. It almost reminds me of a dream I had about 2 girls in an apartment a week ago. The last thing I remember is having sex with one of them for a while and I think I finished in RL lol

How to kill a man:

I think I had this dream before, but in a different setting. I was with this one guy who wanted me to kill him for fun. If he dies he can bring himself back to life in a couple days so it was a game to him. I had these circle blades and he was in my backyard running while I threw them at him. I kept missing except for a couple times when I would hit him. It was really vivid and graphic. He eventually came up to my balcony and stood in place for me to finish him. I hit him a couple of times in the stomach and around the body. He asked me to finish him already and suggested slicing his throat with a blade. I remember the last dream I had I did that to him and said I wanted to try something knew. I ended up finishing him, but its blurry and I can't exactly remember what I did

I eventually took a flight to London to go see my cousin and when I got to the apartment he said he had to go to school and he would see me later. His friend was there and I was really pissed because I just flew all the way to see him and he ended up leaving. His friend couldn't find his keys so I started helping him look. I ended up lifting up the couch and finding my friend alex's backpack. He had a lot of money in it and I decided to keep it to use in London. (hes a millionaire so it doesn't matter ) I was hiding the backpack from the friend while he looked.

Remote Viewing:

EDIT: I remembered to tell myself to remember this lol: After this happened I felt the weird brain vibrations that I normally feel right as I am about to have an OBE. When I have a WILD I hear a rushing noise in my ears, but when its an OBE I feel vibrations in my head.

This specific dream was weird because it was so real and it happened 45 minutes after I went to bed. I was downstairs in the computer room. My moms phone kept ringing and it started to get annoying. I floated to her and gave her the phone. At this point I remembered that I was upstairs sleeping and started freaking out hardcore. I started screaming and had this immense feeling of freight. I started floating back to my room and everything started to go black. I woke up in my bed in meditation position and it had only been 45 minutes after I went to bed.


Two dimensions:

I record my dreams and I 100% don't remember recording this or remember this dream at all.
I was at two separate realms. One was where I did not forgive my dad and one where i did. We were in fake space fighting on spaceships. I went to another dimension to fix something and my other dad was helping me fix it and we went on this quest and stuff. - Exact words from me ahaha

Elevator shooting:
Was hanging out with an old friend Kerra. We were cuddling a little and I tried to kiss her. She kissed me back a little and we cuddled some more. There was this party at her friend Jamies house and we ended up going. She invited me personally and I was bragging to Kerra about it. She later told me that she sent me the invite because she liked me and wanted me to come and that it wasn't fair for Jamie to just invite her friends. We were in the elevator when I suddenly pressed the emergency stop button. We were making out when suddenly;y 5 bullets went through the elevator door. I freaked out and pressed the ground floor. We were talking about what to do when I accidentally hit the 15th floor to the party instead of the garage floor. The elevator started going up when I hit the 10th floor before we could go up there. We got out of the elevator and saw dead people and heard shooting. Just then someone fell from up top. We started running downstairs but there was a guy with a gun down there. I lost Kerra and started running around the stairs for a while until the end up the dream.

Fourth of July:

The dream started out with us hanging out in a basement. Someone had been kidnapped and we were waiting for them to return. We find out its the fourth of July and that the fireworks are going to start soon. I run out of the house and see that we were at my house. I wanted to get on the roof to get a good view. I almost became lucid when I started thinking that I should just fly onto the roof. Instead I got the ladder and climbed onto the roof. I sat there and saw two giant streaks of red and green fireworks. It was a partially cloudy night.

The roof started shaking a bit and I went into the giant window on my roof. I ended up on a train to London. My cousins were there and I asked them how we can get off. They said that once the train starts, there is no way off. It was 30 pounds for the train. I had no money so I asked my cousin for 25 pounds. I remember feeling bad for asking. We were trying to make the train move faster so we wouldn't miss the firework show. I kept thinking of ways to get on top of the train because that would lead back to my roof. The train finally stopped and we got off and teleported into someones house. I took more money from my cousin and left them at the house to go back onto the train and back to the firework show.

I was on the train again when it started shaking. People in the back started screaming and I saw a giant serpent attacking the backside of the train. For some reason I wasn't scared and was frustrated that we would be delayed for the firework show. I went into the back cabin where there was a giant burst of water shooting through the door. I held my breath and waited for the water to subside. I ran back to the front of the train and started climbing to the roof. The conductor said that it was forbidden to go up there, but I ignored him and kept on climbing. When I got to the top I saw that it was a mix between my roof and the train. Below we could see the sea serpent destroying the bottom half of the train and at the top people were preparing for the firework show.

New restaurant:

I was hired at a new restaurant in Sammamish. All the old people I worked with were there. The restaurant was completely different than normal and it looked really upscale. The manager kept getting on everyone's case to do better. I remember there was a lot of new food being served as well as the old stuff. It was not completely a new restaurant but a weird merge between the old and the new. Ashlee was working there and she was wearing a short skirt. We were alone in the back room and I slowly lifted her skirt and started grinding on her. She started smiling and I stopped because I knew what was going to happen later. I forgot about some customers that wanted a strawberry lime dessert and they started to complain.

Later Ashlee and I were in the back room having sex. She stopped and asked if I was liking the sex. I asked her why and she that she wasn't enjoying and we should try a different position. I started to get offended and the dream ended.

RPG rescue:

First dream of the night and I can't remember too much of it. I was kidnapped by some evil guy and put in the basement. I somehow escaped and stole three of his daughters. They were really dumb and could not really speak or listen well. It was as if they were dumb npcs. I started to lead them through the jungle to safety but kept getting attacked by monsters. It was as if I was a mix between a rouge and a priest from world of warcraft. I remember getting really frustrated because I would try to vanish and cheap shot the monsters because they could kill the sisters. I kept failing and they kept dieing. After a group of them died I resurrected them. This repeated for a while until I got better at vanish, shadowstep, cheapshot, eviscerate .

Flying battle:

This was by far one of the coolest dreams I have had in a while.

I was flying super fast on the freeway on my way to bellevue. My best friend Michael started to fly by me as soon as I started thinking about him. (that happens alot. Every time I think of something, it happens) I felt his energy was a little off and thought he may not be the real Michael. I remembered a certain thing clarity would say and started whispering to myself - "may I be surrounded and protected by white light" I kept repeating this until finally Michael surrounded himself by black light and tried to attack me with its energy. A brilliant white light burst out of my body and started protecting me against his dark energy. The freeway disappeared and was replaced by black smog. The blackness was surrounding me but my white light was stronger. Eventually I came to a point where see again. I heard evil Michael scream in anger and turn the other way. Finally I made it to downtown belleuve. It looked so real and I suddenly knew this was a dream. I became fully lucid and started to fly around a little. No longer dreaming I noticed how high I was and kinda got scared. Whenever I am really high up in a lucid I get a sinking feeling in my stomach. I started to unstably fly down into the near forest. I felt myself waking up
Time to DEILD: I laid for about 5-10 min and got nothing. Normally I would be in another dream by now so I just turned over and went back to bed.

Sonic the movie theater:

I was in some movie theater playing sonic with Michael. I was some new guy named sun and Michael was sonic. We were battling against each other. My guy was tall, skinny, and red with mini solar flares shooting out of his head. We were running to collect coins. The game ended and I ran out of the movie theater room. The manager asked me to leave several times. I eventually said ok I am leaving.... you FUCKING ASSHOLE. He started laughing and said it was inappropriate and that I needed to leave now.

Rome:

I was in Rome walking around. Two girls around 18 came up to me and asked me where something was. I showed them what they were looking for and somehow ended up moving a big tray of pizza to another table and ate with them. They both really liked me and bought lunch for me. I was invited to go with them and their family to some hotel. I slept with both of them and ended up going to dinner with the family. They bought me dinner and we ended up on some couch messing around.

There was so many more dreams I remember, but only fragments. I forgot to record those and just went back to bed. I briefly remember some sort of lucid dream, but every time I get close to it, I lose it.

I was up literally all night the night before partying and finally went to bed. I had like 9 dreams but forgot all of them except for a couple fragments. I really should have just written them down, but I was too tired.

Lucid in my house:

I was in my house sitting on my round table with my ex gf Kalee. I remember sitting there thinking how much I missed her (I actually don't though in reality) and I remember seeing a big red book on the table. If I concentrated enough I could change words on the book. That made me lucid. I got up and started to walk outside. Kalee stopped me and asked if I wanted a bj. I said no thanks and walked through the door effortlessly. I looked around at how cool everything was. I jumped off my balcony and onto my grass. I remember moving somethings around the yard with my mind. I decided to jump really high and as I was falling I stopped time. I remember thinking how amazing it was for me to have that much dream control. I started to feel the dream fade so I prepared myself for a false awakening.

I woke in my bed and instantly did a rc and was lucid. I jumped down my stairs and walked into the kitchen and tried to walk through the balcony door again. I did not work and I remember that almost everything I tried was not working. My dream control was off. I went to the left of my balcony and remembered people wanting to get to the bio dome on the moon. I decided to try and open a portal. I started singing some metalica song and moving my finger around to create a door. I felt power in what I was saying but nothing happened. My mom came onto the balcony and started yelling at me. I laughed at her and told her it was a dream.

Roller coaster:

I was on a giant city wide roller coaster in downtown bellevue. It was really massive and I was on it with some class. We were going around on it looking at the city for what seemed like forever. I remember my vision zooming out and looking at the entire city with the ride rapped around it. At one point my ride started to slow down and got hit by another cart. My cart started to speed up and eventually flew off onto another rail. As it was falling I unbuckled my seat belt and jumped off to safety. I had some officials come over to me and ask me questions about what happened. I remember this dream being really long and this was only a small fragment of what happened.

Wolfs:
For some reason I ended up going into the woods behind my house with a group of random people. Out of nowhere a wolf came out and killed everyone except me and my dog. I ended up staying with the wolf and getting really close with it. Outside the woods at my neighbors house I remember seeing the neighbors looking outside their window at us with a weird smile. I somehow figured out that they were planning to hunt and kill us and that they could turn into wolves at will.
We ended up saying goodbye to our wolf and he dissipated into the woods. I ended up calling Edward from twilight to come help us. We were in my room talking about what to do when my ex gf came over. She was knocking on the door, but I did not open it. Edward told us that we had to go to Connecticut where there were almost no trees for a couple of days until the neighbors lost my scent.

Bahamas:
Went to Atlantis with one of my best friends Alex. We almost instantly got into a fight and left to go play golf. We were still arguing when I decided to just go home. I was driving to the airport when I decided that leaving is stupid and that I would drive back to Atlantis.
When I got there a weird thing happened. I was sucked into a game. There was a giant maze I had to get through in order to be allowed entry into Atlantis. It turned into an overhead view and showed me driving through little tunnels. I would get hurt in the car so I moved out of it. I started to lose life every time I went the wrong way. Eventually there was a map that opened up and I found the exact route. I got back into my car and drove up into the registration office.
I was greeted by the office woman and I checked into my room. The woman said I needed a guide to show me around. The weird thing was I knew I was going to wake up soon and did not want to waste my time She said it was a necessity and we had to do it. I called Alex on his cell and told him that I was in Atlantis and he should come over to me. He said he was in a tent and that I would have to go get him.

Marriage:

We were somewhere on a boat and I was getting married later that month. The problem was that there was another woman that I was seeing. We had one big dinner with both parties there. They were giving me wedding gifts and I decided to tell them the wedding was off. Some people did not care, but some people were really angry about the whole situation and left. I was told to go to the woman's dads work and apologize. I went with the woman I liked and we went into his factory. My new girl met up with my old girl and they disappeared somewhere in the back with the dad. I remember watching the conveyor belt move with all these new toys being made. Eventually I met up with my ASL teacher who was about to test me on my final exam (I had earlier that day) We sat in a group and two girls said they had to leave. I remember asking him why they were leaving

WILD: Woke up at 3:30 am. Started seeing HI but for some reason I just was lazy and rolled over! I could not even do it for more than 20 min. For some reason in the early mornings I am just too tired to lay in one position for a certain amount of time. I ended up not being able to fall asleep. The weird thing was that I had that Bahamas dream in-between not being able to fall asleep. That means I did fall asleep.. I just don't remember falling asleep and waking up again.

Had some deild timer go off. I almost instantly went into a dream but I did not even realize it and just fell asleep.

Had a pretty good night as far as dreams. A lot of sexual dreams O_O and an almost successful DEILD.

DEILD:
had my alarm set to go off around 6 am. The alarm goes off for 10 seconds and says YOUR DREAMING... YOUR DREAMING... DONT MOVE...DONT MOVE before it goes off.

I hear the alarm, keep my eyes closed, and within one minuite hear the familiar wind blowing in my ears. It stops and I try to imagine a dream scene unfold. Nothing happens. eventually just fall asleep. What I forgot was... back in the day when I did this almost every morning, the wind stopping meant I was already in the dream and that I can open my eyes and do a RC. Oops

Walk:
My cousin came over and told me we were going to the Bahamas. I went to go to a storage unit to find some stuff for the trip. I found some shoes with poop on them and a couple other crappy things. Was in my neighborhood walking my dog. I had that feeling of being followed or watched. I started going home when for some reason i went up some stairs and into someones house. They freaked out and I apologized and said I had no idea why I came into their house. The owner said "Hey, by the way.. thanks for the hotdog grilling machine!!" I started running back home because I felt as if someone or something was chasing me. My dog Bella was walking really slow and I kept pulling her.

Lindsey:
This is kind of a sex dream.
Was with my first girlfriend Lindsey. We went into my room and I asked her for a bj. She said she wanted to but that we should go to my restaurant first. We go there and I find a pillow to hide her while she was doing it. She was about to give me head when she suddenly spits and says I taste gross and that I should wash myself off. I tell her to go wait in the car and I would wash myself and finish the beer on the table. I remember a lot of people at the resturant were watching us.

Orgy/party:
This one was after I slept for about 10 hours. Super vivid and real hahaha
There was some massive event in downtown bellevue where everyone was partying. I drove over and found it 100% packed with college students like me getting wasted. I drive over to my dads old condo and park. There are people doing crazy things and drinking in the parking lot. I meter maid comes over and checks my car. I am kind of worried but I remember that it was guest parking and there was nothing he could do about it.
I call my friend michael and tell him how crazy it was and he told me he hasn't even left his place yet! I started walking around and decided to go to the mall while I wait for him. There are people drinking all over the streets and no cars can move. I walk and end up seeing my friend Ruby there. She joins me and we start walking back to my dads condo.
I lay on the bed with her at the condo and we wait for michael. There is action going on in the hall and I told her I would be right back, I wanted to try something crazy. I see some girls looking at me near a closet. I say to one of them "want to go in the closet and mess around?" She starts following me, but when I look back its a guy. He freaks out and goes over to ruby (crazy but as I am writing this I start to remember another dream I had.. it was just a flash.. now its gone ) and tells her I am a creep. I get pissed off and kick him off the bed. He flys into the wall and almost breaks it. he gets up and leaves.
We are still waiting for michael. We start to cuddle, but are really jumpy because ruby is kind of michaels girl. He finally comes in and sits on the bed. He randomly makes out with the guy I kicked off the bed and I kind of freak out. Then two girls start to makeout because michael made out with a guy. Ruby comes over and sort of makes out with me. Another girl gets on the bed and pulls me over to make out with her. We end up on the floor and she pushes me to two other girls and all four of us make out. I isolate one of the girls and start making out with her. I wake up happy

Have not been home for a couple days way too much partying.

06/10/10

The only dream I can recall is

Arrested:

Was at someones house for a new years party camping trip. My best friend Michael was there and we were laying in the grass looking at the stars. There were some light fireworks in the sky and we started talking about girls. We randomly started arguing with people and someone was really pissed at me. Instead of hitting me, they went for my dog and broke her foot I started hitting the person (might have been a woman) and I think they died. I get scared and start packing my clothes up to get out of the place before the police arrive. Right before I am about to leave I see police in full body outfits searching the place for me. They have guns with green laser pointers. I start to turn around and go the other way when I realize I cant escape and start moving towards them.

Tonight I am doing nothing so I can get back on a regular sleeping schedule

6/7/10

Meditation:
Tuesday and Wednesday I have class until really late so I cant meditate those days. I did set my alarm for 3 am to do some meditation. Had a successful wild, but when I opened my eyes to get out of bed there was a giant dog in my room that shared the shit out of me and woke me up. Went to rewild but could not fall back asleep.

Dreams:
Zero recall AGAIN!!! This literally never happens. My recall is normally really good. I don't even remember a fragment of a dream.. not even a single thing. I had five alarms go off. One at 3 am. one at 6 am, 620, and 640 for 5 seconds for a DEILD all of which were almost successful. and one at 7 am. At 7 am I was going to try another wild but was so frustrated with zero dream recall I just tried to sleep and get at least one dream. I think tonight I am only going to set one alarm for a WBTB and see if that helps me dream recall. I tried everything from laying down after I woke up and trying to recall ANYTHING. Nothing

Meditation:

Total time: 30 min

Put my meditation music on and laid in cross leg position. After some time my head started to feel like a big balloon. Then It felt like I was one big balloon floating up. My dog started whining and it put me out of the feeling. I saw a flash on green light at one point and it startled me a little. At one point my ear started itching intensely. I put attention on my body and after a min or so it went away. My mind was wandering a bit so next time I will focus my attention on my part of my body and keep it there.

Dreams:

RAP:

I as at my moms house and she was showing me a bill of 10,000 dollars she spent at Costco. I remember thinking that if she spent that much every week we would be paying 40,000 a month for food! I had some friends come over with Kara and they started rapping hardcore. I remember the raps really well but I don't think its an actual song. Last thing I remember is needing to take money out of the atm.

GF trouble:

Went to hang out with kalee my ex. I had no shirt on and a fat friend of kalees came into her parents house with no shirt on. Her parents saw and started clapping. We had a little competition where we would body slam each other and say stuff like ohhhhhh! what now! The friend ended up disappearing and kalee turned into Kara, a girl I am kind of seeing now. She had a phone call and said she would be right back. Michael my best friend appeared in the room and we hung out for a while. It seemed to be a couple hours later and Kara still had not come back from some guys house and I was starting to get angry. She finally came back and apologized to me for a while. I forgave her and got a phone call with some random guy saying he processed my refund.

I had a lot of dreams that night but did not want to disturb the girl sleeping in my bed. I had a party at my house and did not want to record myself in front of everyone.

WILD attempt:

Tried to wild around 8 am (went to bed around 3) everything was going smoothly, but after 15 min my alarm went off again. I was agitated and ended up rolling over and trying to consciously watch myself fall asleep. I fell asleep unaware

6/6/10

Meditation:

Had a great session today. Total time was around 50 minutes. I laid in cross legged position and focused on relaxing my body. For a while I moved my dream hands in sand to try and actually feel it happening. After about 15 minutes of nothing happening I gave up and just relaxed. I felt a pressure in my head, but it dissipated very quickly. After about 30 minutes something great happened. I realized how good it felt to be in this state of relaxation and stopped trying to do anything and just enjoy this feeling. After about 5 minutes of truly relaxing, I lost all feeling in my body. It felt like I was melting. I ignored these feelings because every time I paid attention to them they would be less intense. I continued relaxing completely and enjoyed the feeling of pure relaxation when I started falling. I felt as if I weighed 1000 pounds and was falling into blackness. This kept going on for a while until I felt nothing. It was a really weird feeling, but it felt as if I was a part of the room. It felt as if I had no body and was just floating there. I laid there for a while thinking I would start to see hynagogic imagery of some sort, but got nothing. Actually, the mediation music I was listening to did sound more vibrant. It was as if some of the tunes were ringing excessively. It was a really good feeling so I just laid there until I felt it was time to get up (had to go to work soon and did not know how long I was laying there)


Dreams:


Very excited for tonight. I plan to set my alarm for around 3 am and do the same meditation I just did and see if I can slip into a dream. I don't have to wake up tomorrow until later so I will also set my alarm for 6 am and 8 am. I have a good feeling about being lucid tonight

EDIT: So I had zero dream recall last night This almost never happens.


WILD attempt: