non-lucid

Date: July 6, 2013
Bedtime routine: MILD & WBTB (WILD attempt, but kept falling asleep)
Total sleep time: 6-7 hours

Dream

I was this person's every meaning for existence. He held me close in his arms as if my life depended on his touch, he cradled my head and looked deeply into my eyes as he rocked me to sleep in his arms like a baby. My skin felt every bit of his exhalation on my face as he leaned in close to me to make sure I was resting. My eyes were close as I listened to his heartbeat as my head pressed against his strong, broad chest. Even though my eyes were closed, I still could feel his stare upon my body as he refused to take his eyes off of me. I squinted my eyes as my thoughts were confirmed as I could see him follow my breathing pattern with his gaze. He would watch my breast rise up and down with each breath, slowly moving my long straight hair off of my chest with his hand...his hands shaking slightly but ever so gently. He treated my body like I was fragile as glass as he carefully shifted positions to make sure I was comfortable. Being as quiet as a whisper, he cautiously rubbed my arms (still rocking me) and told me how special I was. Oh, how loved I felt by him! Never wanting that feeling to end, I cried for what seemed a lifetime, for I somehow knew that it had to end because he was not mine to love...he was someone else's husband.

Note: I woke up totally confused after this dream...but, I never felt so loved and cared for in my real waking life. No doubt.

Date: June 24, 2013
Bedtime routine: MILD & WBTB (No WILD attempts tonight, just MILD)
Total sleep time: 8-9 hours

Dream

I was back in the city I was born in and I was showing my current family where I grew up and how beautiful it was. The quality of life was much different back then...very relaxing. I was showing them the ocean as the sea gulls flew over, the old buildings still standing built hundreds of years ago, and explaining to them the meaning of happiness. As I was talking to my family (in the car) one of the sea gulls flew in the car and out of the back window. This happened several times, so many times, that we became use to the sea gull flying in the car as we would dunk our heads down in an attempt not to get hit .

Dream Frag:

Saw a boy put a gun to his little sister's head and pulled the trigger (Note: I saw a picture of this in real life this week on facebook, so it must have followed me into my dreams as it was terribly disturbing).


Dream Frag:

Someone singing "I remember mama," so intently, so focused, and so emotional.

Date: June 19, 2013
Method: MILD & WBTB (attempted WILD, but fell asleep twice)
Sleep Time: bedtime @ 12:30am WBTB @ 5:45 am for 5-10 minutes, then back to sleep Awake @ 10:30am

Dreamed I was playing with my little baby niece and all of a sudden the house was surrounded by a SWAT team and helicopters outside (police dogs and guns drawn by officers and all). They came in and bullied me and pushed me to the ground while they search the house. I continued to ask them what where they looking for. I was more mad than scared because at first they were just ignoring me. When they finally got through searching the house (inside and outside) they came over to me and jerked me off of the ground and told me to 'hand it over.' I said, "Hand what over??!!" They said to hand of the gene. "We know you have it, hand over the GENE." Then I woke up...

Question: Not sure if 'the gene' was my baby niece or what...

Date: June 11, 2013
Method: MILD & WBTB (hoping to WILD, but fell asleep)
Total hours: 6-7 hours

Dream Frag:
Somebody I knew had just won the lottery and she was telling everyone how rich she was and that she had just got off the plane from traveling from London (No, I didn't get the lottery numbers! )

Dream#1:
A male friend of mine had been in an argument with another male friend of mine and I was a witness to him being shot several times in the butt and in his right leg. I helped him hide from the shooter and from the police in a small house owned by another friend of mine...then I woke up.

Dream #2:
About 2-3 three people were in this bathroom sounding like they were having sex with each other. Another person thought they knew who it was, but I told them that they were wrong, that it was not the person he thought it was, but an alien...yes, an alien was having sex in the bathroom . They told me to prove it by catching the alien, so I waited for the alien to come out of the bathroom. When the alien did come out, I grabbed him with my both my hands. He was no bigger than a baseball. He started to scream and wiggle, but I kept a tight grip on him so he could not escape.

The alien started to change shape in my hands by getting smaller or becoming a liquid as an attempt to slip out of my hands. All I could think about was if the alien escaped, I could not prove I had seen one, so my main goal was to hold onto the alien for proof (why can't I remember my main goal is to pay attention to a dream sign...like an alien having sex? ). Then, the alien became extremely sticky in my hands and the colorful pattern on the alien's skin stuck (or merged?) onto my skin and then my skin began to resemble the alien's skin . I started to freak out thinking I was going to turn into an alien and everyone was going to think I was the one having sex in the bathroom so, I let him go...and woke up pissed.

Late Journal Entry: June 6, 2013
No Method (long day at work, just went to bed)

Piece's of a dream #1:
Living in Columbus Ohio for a short while with my sister then it was time to go back to my life in another state. I have to make a decision on if I was ready to move to my state, or stay in Columbus and live closer to my family.

#2:
Inside a school cafeteria eating lunch and my son was singing and I told him to be quiet because he could not sing.

Napping:
I was baby sitting and showing new mothers how to bath their newborn babies. They were very nervous and I could hear their heart beating so loud and fast. Many of them could not be in the same room and had to step out for several parts of the demonstration.

Date: May 30, 2013
Method: MILD & WBTB (attempted DILD)
Sleep Time: bedtime @ 1:00am WBTB @ 6:00am for 5-10 minutes, then back to sleep Awake @ 10:00am

Dream #1
I was planning on putting on a play for my mother with some people (?). We were moving several props to the center so people would be able to see them from a distance. These props included items that belongs in a kitchen and a living room (I guess like furniture). No matter were we moved these props, there seemed to be a problem and we never could get this issue quite right. After some time of moving things around, my mother had passed away in this dream (by the way...my mother is alive) and my father and grandmother had built the most beautiful skyscraper in her memory. It was so tall, the tip of the building was covered by the clouds. The skyscraper was made of pure gold with reflective mirrors all over it. The gold shined brighter than the sun itself. As the building glistened in the sun, it almost look transparent. It's beauty was absolutely awesome!

Dream #2
I needed a ride and I didn't know where I was. It was very dark and I was crying and I was scared. I went into a store and asked the owners if they new the bus route and they asked me where I was going. I couldn't tell them exactly where I was going, I just cried and told them I wanted to go home. The owner felt sorry for me and said that he will give me a ride home. I was still crying because even though I had a ride home, I couldn't tell the person which way to go. I remember passing a building in my dream that said "San Bernadino Hospital."

Fragment
A huge metal barrel I was rolling around and groceries were inside of it.

Date: May 20, 2013
Method: MILD & WBTB
Sleep Time: Can't remember but I believe I had gotten around 7-8 hours of sleep.

Dream #1
Dreamed I was in an elevator with Albert Einstein and Nickola Tesla. The elevator was going up and then all of a sudden it stopped abruptly. I looked at my fellow elevator friends and said, "Something is wrong." I felt like I was becoming lucid, but at that exact moment, the elevator spun out of control and the dream faded and I woke up. Damn it!

Dream #2
I was in my sister's apartment and she was having a party for some kids. they were running around all crazy from the sugar 'high' and constantly drinking sodas. I was trying to help my sister move furniture out of the way and I noticed several mice marching on the floor in a straight line...this scared me to death...so much that I woke up...AGAIN!

Dream Fragment #1
I was carefully painting a child's table and chair in primary colors.

Dream Fragment #2
Shopping with my sis in law at a Kmart and we both wanted a pair of curtains we saw during the 'sidewalk' sale. The curtains were for spring and you got 2-4 curtains for a dollar. We both wanted those curtains so bad...

Note to self: Do you think Albert Einstein and Nikola Tesla in an elevator with you was your dream sign? Uh...YEAH!

Date: May 15, 2013
Method: (MILD before bed) then WBTB & WILD
Total Sleep Time: 8-9 broken hours (bedtime 12:00ish am-4:00am) WBTB (4:00am-4:10am), then slept from about 4:15am-5:00am (husband woke me up ) then 6:00am-10:00am
Category: Dream, Dream Fragment, & Non Lucid

Dream #1
Dreamed I was in the store with some students I haven't seen in a very long time. I was introducing them to my family and I was calling their names out one by one. They had grown up and they wanted me to come into a store with them so they could by some sweets to eat. This is was the biggest candy store I have ever seen. The students bought so much candy that the store immediately sold out. There were these old ladies baking some weird kind of pastries that I had never seen before. The old ladies said that the store was out of candy, but the students would like to eat these pastries because they were sweet like candy...and then I woke up.

Dream #2
Dreamed I was helping someone clean a huge bathroom with a lot of bleach. The bathroom was gleaming white and the person was telling me the importance of using as much bleach as possible to keep it clean. We had the longest conversation about bleach, but I can only remember a little of it. I do remember having the feeling that who ever I was talking to kept the conversation going regarding the importance of bleach. There is more to this dream, I just can't remember the fine details

Dream fragment
I remember seeing the face of one of my husband's old childhood buddies and he wanted to have sex with me. He kept asking me and I kept saying no and then he said he will just do the other thing that women like for men to do (you know what I'm saying here don't you?!) and I still said no (Note to self: This should have really been a dream sign to me because I would have never refused something like that !!!).

Date: May 13, 2013
Method: (MILD before bed) then WBTB & WILD
Total Sleep Time: 8 broken hours (bedtime 12:30am-4:30am) WBTB (4:30am-4:40am), then slept from about 4:50am-7:00am (son woke me up to tell me he is going to school) then 7:10am-10:00am
Category: Dream Fragment, & Non Lucid

Dream Fragment #1:
I was with someone selling several items like fish tanks, juke boxes, neon signs, snacks and drinks. My GOD son was their telling me that someone would not let him get something to drink and I got mad at them and mad them hand over the drinks.

Dream Fragment #2
I was at some sort of workshop or conference...it could have even been a church with several people and I was listening to a teacher that I know (LC). I started to walk home and started seeing my neighborhood. Walking down the street were several animals. First I saw dogs with long leashes pulling them, but no one was on the other end of the leash pulling the dogs. It was like the people were invisble with the leash hanging in the air and the dogs were being pulled (possible dream sign?). Then, cows and maybe a bull started coming down the same street...then I got distracted by a clothesline ...I felt like something was wrong, but instead of becoming lucid, I just woke up.

Note to self: 1) Not feeling well and I took some cold medicine, so I don't know if this had an effect on my dreams . 2) Don't give up, just be thankful that you're remembering something! .

Date: May 10, 2013
Method: MILD & WBTB
Total Sleep Time: 8 hours (bedtime 1:00am-5:00am) WBTB (7:00am-8:00am), then slept from about 8:00am-11:00am
Category: Dream, Dream Fragment, & Non Lucid (again )

Dream Fragment: I was in a store looking for clear duct tape and had a hard time finding it. I found duct tape with solid colors, duct tape with patterns, duct tape with several colors, duct tape with pictures, but no duct tape that was clear. I believe I needed the duct tape to ship a package (I am currently in need of clear duct tape to ship a package in real life, so I guessed that is why I was dreaming about it).

Dream #1: Dreamed I was at some sort of football practice or physical fitness event. Football players were doing some sort of routine and they needed the football player’s wives to participate (I think I was a football players’ wife). Anyway, some of the wives were teamed up with football players that were not their husbands and some wives were replaced with professional football cheerleaders to do the routine with the football players. The wives were very upset and jealous over this because the (dance?) routine required the football players to really hold, grab, grope, and touch their partners .

Dream #2: I had a dream last week of seeing my niece and her child (I haven’t seen them in a couple of years). In the dream from last week, I was able to see the child in great detail, I haven’t see the child since she was born, but in that dream, the child was at least 2 y/o and had her hair in two huge ponytails and was wearing a little dress with flowers as the pattern on her dress. In my dream from last night, I was with my niece and her child and at that very moment, I remember saying to her, “Hey, I dreamed this scene last week! I saw this exact scene in my dream from last week! The baby IS wearing her hair in two huge ponytails AND the baby IS 2 years old! I was right!” In my dream, my niece just looked at me like I was crazy and said, “Oh.” At that moment, I should have become aware/lucid that I was dreaming, but sadly, I didn’t and I woke up…I thought I was really talking to my niece about the dream I had .

Note to self: Focus on your awareness…how clear does a dream sign have to be for you to become lucid ?????[/COLOR]

Date: May 8, 2013
Method: MILD & WBTB
Total Sleep Time: 8-9 hours (bedtime 12:00am-5:00am) WBTB (5:00am-5:45am), then slept from about 6:00am-10:00am
Category: Dream (short) Non Lucid (again)


Dream:
Dreamed I was at some after school program with a bunch of kids. One kid started just talking to me and we began to wrestle (play wrestle). I had very long hair and he began to pull it out by the fist full…oh yeah, I looked down and I was wearing a bikini .


Note to self: Bikini wrestling could have been your dream sign. You know you would never bikini wrestle...or would you ???

Date: May 6, 2013
Sleep Time: 6 hours
Lucid Dream Technique: MILD & WBTB

Dreamed I was taking care of what I believe was a flea. I cared a great deal for this flea. There was an emotional attachment so strong, I felt like this flea was a part of me. My love and commitment for this flea was tremendous! I cared for this flea like a mother loves and adores her child. I provided comfort, security, and attention everyday to the flea. Even though I could barely 'see' this flea with my naked human eye, I knew this flea existed and I knew this flea was a 'life.' Then, one day, I anxiously came home and went looking for the flea and to my astonishment, my flea was nowhere to be found. I mourned for what seemed a lifetime, for my love was gone and no more...I cried forever.

Note to self: What the hell ???

Date: May 7, 2013
Sleep Time: 6-7 hours
Lucid Dream Technique: MILD & WBTB

Dream Fragment: Dream I was at a restaurant and I ordered a lot of Chinese food with an extreme amount of Broccoli Rabe. I ate and ate until I couldn’t eat any more. Funny thing is…out of all the food I ordered; I only ate the broccoli rabe.
Feelings or thoughts: Totally content and satisfied.

5/4/2013

Dreamed a woman and a man were dancing at some party...all of a sudden the female had the dance spotlight on her and she started dancing and doing all of these weird moves like she was in a dance competition. Everyone started to cheer her on as she did all the latest dance moves. The more pumped the crowd got, the harder she danced. She twisted her body into all kinds of shapes, jerked and spun around rocking out to the melody. At one point, she spun around so rapidly, her spiritual body double spun right out of her physical body and landed right in front of me ! The 'dancing-spiritual' body double was still in a full spinning rotation as the 'real' lady just kept on dancing. Even after the music had slowed down and the real lady and slowed down her dancing, her dancing spiritual double was still in front of me spinning away like a 'toy top'...then I woke up.


Question to myself: Why didn't I see this as a sign (the woman's body double) and do a reality check and become lucid ???

5/3/2013

Dreamed there were two woman and each one of them had a problem with the other. Several people had gathered to hear them sing and they were feuding and they asked me if I would not mind hearing them sing to determine who was the best. I told them that I would only judge the competition if they let me choose the song and they agreed that this would be alright. I told them they must sing a duet song together. They didn't want to, but they knew they had to since they already had agreed. I chose the song (can't remember what song it was) and they began to sing. By the end of the song, they could not remember why they were feuding in the first place :bravo:.