dream fragment

I slept fitfully last night. At one point I enter into sleep paralysis. Instead of yielding to the natural urge to fight it, I let go, as I am now accustomed to doing. I let the full body virbrations over power me and I quickly "slip through". I am now in a forest and this is the hunger games. I tell myself I am dreaming and fly up to a night sky with a view of deep space. I lose focus and float down. Someone wants my help. I think that I am awake now. I tell myself as soon as this is done I will go back to my dream. I am "holding the dream inside me". I feel as if it is a physical thing in my chest. I hold on to it for some time as I run along a forest path behind some girl. Somewhere along the way ( maybe I get bored) I lose all traces of lucidity and cannot remember anything else.

I woke after nine hours of sleep. I had zero recall. I had an hour before I just had to get up so I tried to dream some more. My mind was racing with thoughts and I couldn't fall back to sleep. So I did a few minutes of meditation to relax and quiet my mind. Then I started my "I am dreaming" mantra. I had a though about a haunted tour my fiancée told me about but I pushed it aside. I think my consciousness split for a few minutes. I also had a thought wondering if WILD could actually happen. I was doubtful. Then I had a thought of a ghost or demon or something coming for me. I wanted to run but I was paralysed. Then I remembered myself and said no I must be about to dream.

I was indeed in SP. I felt all tingling and twitchy. I told myself I didn't care about whatever was coming it wasn't real. I relaxed and in a few seconds my body became calm. I partially opened my eyes. I could see a brightly lit window. Somehow I mistook this for reality. I did not expect to enter the dream like a FA. So not realising I was dreaming I closed my eyes again. I felt very disappoint. I felt a few twitches of SP and then.... I don't know. Memory gap. I had given up. Next time I will know what to expect!

I vaguely remember getting up and seeing myself dressed with crazy bed hair.

I remember fragments of being in a building at night. Some strange workplace. Using keys on doors. Bruce from where I really work.

Then I was in my ex in laws living room. We had just watched some movie about long haired gerbils with my kids. Their grandmother and grandfather were watching it too. She said to him

"You know what they are selling at the pet store now don't you?"

"What? Long haired gerbils?"

"Yep!"

I wake up.

I doubt I had a true WILD. I did sort of forget myself before the SP. Is this a normal WILD experience?

Head in my mommas lap. she was stoking my hair like when I was a child. View of myself in a pavilion by a river. Not my momma anymore but a beautiful woman. So comforting. Peaceful. I hear an Angelic voice whisper "salvation" over and over. I jolt awake.

I was playing with Helium balloons at work and there were differnt things attached to it.

Old ladys house. Cooking. Fancy house. Nice comfy couches. Feeling that she wanted me. Disturbed.