false awakening

I woke after nine hours of sleep. I had zero recall. I had an hour before I just had to get up so I tried to dream some more. My mind was racing with thoughts and I couldn't fall back to sleep. So I did a few minutes of meditation to relax and quiet my mind. Then I started my "I am dreaming" mantra. I had a though about a haunted tour my fiancée told me about but I pushed it aside. I think my consciousness split for a few minutes. I also had a thought wondering if WILD could actually happen. I was doubtful. Then I had a thought of a ghost or demon or something coming for me. I wanted to run but I was paralysed. Then I remembered myself and said no I must be about to dream.

I was indeed in SP. I felt all tingling and twitchy. I told myself I didn't care about whatever was coming it wasn't real. I relaxed and in a few seconds my body became calm. I partially opened my eyes. I could see a brightly lit window. Somehow I mistook this for reality. I did not expect to enter the dream like a FA. So not realising I was dreaming I closed my eyes again. I felt very disappoint. I felt a few twitches of SP and then.... I don't know. Memory gap. I had given up. Next time I will know what to expect!

I vaguely remember getting up and seeing myself dressed with crazy bed hair.

I remember fragments of being in a building at night. Some strange workplace. Using keys on doors. Bruce from where I really work.

Then I was in my ex in laws living room. We had just watched some movie about long haired gerbils with my kids. Their grandmother and grandfather were watching it too. She said to him

"You know what they are selling at the pet store now don't you?"

"What? Long haired gerbils?"

"Yep!"

I wake up.

I doubt I had a true WILD. I did sort of forget myself before the SP. Is this a normal WILD experience?

Amanda visits with a woman and a man. *I feel groggy and tired. I couldn't see well. I am half asleep like I couldn't wake up. We walk out back and had some conversation. We go back in and*
She uses my laptop. She and the strangers are sitting on the red couch that used to be there in the living room. *I go back to bed. I get restless and get up and walk down the hallway.**I try to walk to her and flop on the floor.*I ask what she did to me.*
I am suddenly back in bed and she is standing over me *She rudely hisses in my ear "I don't know if she did anything. But I'll try to make a cure. I can't promise"
I say "thank you"
I close my eyes.*
I feel sp and I think there is nothing else I can do so I give into the sensations of vibrations and tingling and create a fantasy. I bounce back and forth from dream levels. I create a scene outside. I own my eyes in level one. And I see the room but my vision is tinted red. I close my dream eyes
I am lucid. *
I am outside. I look around a field and look up and the starry sky. I begone to fly. I create a war scene. I swoop down and shoot the enemy on the ground with a machine gun. Some shoot back but they all miss. *The scene changes *i am flying over a city at night.*The scene changes to a snow covered and barren place. I continue to fly. I look for interesting structures to explore. I am kissing my flying ability. *I begin bouncing instead. I get bored. I turn around and see a huge moon with 3 smaller identical moons around it.i tell myself that I am dreaming. There is a foggy mist. I think I want to go to the moon. The mist becomes so thick I cannot see. I am afraid I will wake up. I turn back. The scene is now grassy with trees. I bounce around some more.*
I see a police woman.*She is heavy set and butch but also pretty.*
She follows me laughing.*
I am still lucid but think I am really outside running around like a mad man.*
I ask her if I am dreaming knowing I am. She laughs and says no.*
I bounce over a fence and sneak in my house. I lay on the couch and pretend to be sleeping.*Then she comes in and I pull the blanket over my head.*
She looks at pics on my phone and says
Ah ha I got you
I tell her about the dream
Then I am on street
A motorcycle cop woman pulls up in a strange chopper with glass cab
It is*The first woman in my dream. Amanda but older. *I think it is someone I fell in love with in a dream but now she is her and real.
She knows me too.*We are excited to see each other.*We make out
Dream shifts
Vague. I am thinking about my dream. Kids are around
I thunk it would be nice if my iPhone could take real pictures in dreams.*
Some other stuff
Wake up.*