Sea of the Unconscious

I was at my house, standing in a courtyard. We had three spare bedrooms on one side of the house, and a building with three dilapidated rooms out in a courtyard.

I became soaked, apparently it was pouring outside. I went in my house and into one of the spare bedrooms. I stripped all of my clothes off and hopped into bed. A lady friend of mine was in the room the whole time. Whoops! Clothing goes back on. Lady friend’s boyfriend comes in, and we all hop on a train ride. I think I see mountains and deserts?

The scene changed to being in the dilapidated courtyard rooms, and I was no longer a character in this portion. In the room was a man carrying a huge fish (catfish?) and a woman in a dress; the room they were in was as big as a warehouse. Time seems to skip. The fish is gone, and the woman is naked and bleeding. Blood covers her back, and it smears her stomach and limbs. She’s bleeding, but I can’t see any lacerations. The man believes that the woman is an alien, and is trying to beat the truth out of her. He believes that an alien cannot die. He takes a narrow mixer beater and stabs her in the stomach with it, sliding it across her abdomen and it spins in her abdomen, just like how it would spin in a mixer. The lady whispers “I am not the alien. You are.”

The woman dies, and the man is sad. He looks up and notices that the walls are filled with what used to be babies and people. The lady had killed these people with magic, which caused the people and babies to come back to life as non-sentient blob people. The blob people had magical powers, so the man used the blobs’ magic to bring the lady back to life. Once alive again, the lady takes one of her feet, placing her right hand on the heel and left on the toes. She pushes them together, the foot curving so that the toes and heel become close. A few drops come out of her foot. She squeezes her other foot in the same fashion, squeezing a few drops out of the foot like one would do with a lemon. Her foot potion has healing properties. She shares her foot potion with the alien man to keep them both healthy and to give them clear complexions.

I and a group of other people were being forced to competitively clean swords that were covered in dust and minerals. Initially I was using a large piece of wood to scrape the dirt off of the swords, but then the person managing us came over to me and handing me a large hunk of cement to use. It was too heavy for me. Two other men became fed up with the tasks and tools we were given. They hopped up on horses and made their way toward an exit: big, heavy, red wooden doors. Everyone else tried to stop them, but the men barged through.

Through the doors came several dead ladies. Their skin and dresses were white like chalk, and their eyes were slits in their faces with blood flowing out of them. I ran. Few places were safe, so I wound up in another dead and monster-infested part of town. I fled into a building and met a girl. Three monsters had followed me, so the girl released magic to destroy or repel the monsters. She slumped onto the floor, her hair now lank and black. We weren’t safe in the building, so we discussed moving to another part of town. As we talked, her energy and magic slowly came back to her. Her hair turned bright pink. Apparently her hair was a gauge for how much magic she could use, like a mana/SP gauge.

Together we left the building, traveled in the monster and dead-infested town, and came upon a small house to find shelter and food. The house was not in a safe part of town either, but I contemplated whether I should stay in the house. The family was so pleasant to me and my fellow traveler.

NYC:
I took a train to NYC by myself and was wandering around. I sat down on a bench and set down my two books, then realized that I was lost. I did not bring a map of New York, nor did I remember which route I took from the train station. Somehow I managed to get home. I remember something about a car. I realized that I had forgotten my books in NY, but didn’t care to go back to retrieve them. My grandmother was at my house when I arrived, and she cooked me a meal. She offered to give me money, but I declined her offer. My sisters came home after I ate.

Corset Wrestling:
The next dream I was wandering around a mall, and a man came up to me and asked me to take his place in a competition. I agreed, and was given a corset, stockings, and high heels to wear. No wonder he didn’t want to compete. I changed into the outfit, and my chest changed to fit better into the corset. I looked at my chest in the corset and thought it looked different from usual. I promptly forgot about my new breasts. The corset cups were a few sizes too small for my new breasts, so my nipples would pop out if I moved a lot. The strings used to tie the corset went from my left thigh up to the center of my left breast. Since I had to move a lot, the strings would become loose. When the corset was loose, my left nipple would pop out between the strings. I had to regularly tighten my corset and tuck away my nipples.

I walked out to the wrestling ring. I was wrestling against a man in a t-shirt and jeans, while I was in heels and had a spinal fusion to boot. The objective was to push our opponent out of the ring each round. I tried to convince my opponent and the person judging the match that I was actually a guy, but naturally no one believed me with my breasts bursting out of my corset.

Our match began, and I lost the first round magnificently. The next two rounds I became much more aggressive though. I punched, tackled, and elbowed my way to victory. My reward for winning was $100 for each second that my opponent and I fought. I didn’t know how many seconds that was, but I asked where I could claim my winnings. The wrestling organization refused to give the money to me, and told me to wait for the check in the mail. I remembered fighting in this competition before and never receiving any money, but I had also lost in the previous match.

This dream felt very familiar, so I wonder if this was a sequel to a dream I had years ago. That happens to me occasionally, but not very often. I can’t remember when I had the first dream though, so I think that the first competition was just a false memory in the dream, rather than a dream I had in the past.

I had a few dream fragments too. I was watching Game of Thrones with my fianceé and sibling. Then another fragment with an ill-fitting bathing suit.

4/26 Fragments:
Something about being in war with the Nazis. Robots were involved. I had a discussion with a sentient robot about war and the civilians that died. Then I had to prove to some lady that I was engaged.
Note: I didn't sleep well, so my recall was terrible.

4/27 Fragments:
I was at my grandparents house with a bunch of my friends. I found a friend of mine to chat with, N. I took N by the hand and tried to find a private place for us to talk. I wanted to explain to N that I was very fond of flirting, and that I didn't mean to lead her on. The entire house and hard was swarmed with people, so I gave up on talking privately. I apologized to N twice without explaining why I was apologizing. Then I ignored N to play with another friend's hair.

I was in class, and I realized that my final grade was 43%. I was informed that I could redo an essay to bring my grade up. I tried to calculate how my final grade would be affected by rewriting the essay, but found it impossible to do the math in my head.

4/28 Fragments:
My grandparents were dead, yet I could see their spirits. My sister and I stood in my grandparents' house, and my grandmother was standing by us. My grandfather was giving my family gifts to remember him by, and my sister was getting the house.

My sister and I walked to a park, then went out to dinner with our father. My grandfather followed us, but I was the only one who could see him. My father wandered off in a trance, and began eating an invisible object. He was eating one of my grandmom's cookies, apparently his gift from my grandfather. Shortly after, my grandfather approached me and informed me that he didn't know what to give me, so I would not receive a gift. I sulked for the rest of the dream and thought about gifts I would have enjoyed.

4/29 Settlers of Lion King Catan:
I purchased a couple of birthday presents for my friend E, namely a game that was a mix between the Lion King and Settlers of Catan. E opened the game for us to play, and suddenly my vision was sucked into the game.
In Lion King Catan, a small hippo decides how to gain access to the throne. His father is king, but the king is dying. Someone else, C, is vying for the throne though, and is much more experienced than the year-old hippo. I have no idea what sort of animal C is. C bribed someone to have the ailing king brought out before the hippo. The king was a fish, and looked pale and lifeless. C took out a knife and cut open the fish king along his spine. C spread open the fish king, and began scraping out the meat inside the king fish. C ate the meat he carved out, the king fish still alive. The king slowly died an agonizing death. The hippo was too traumatized and frightened to lash out at C.

4/30 Heavy Rain and more war:
This dream reminded me of the game Heavy Rain because of the colors and scenes. The beginning of the dream was pretty fragmenty, with people running around a dark building trying to not die.

The next part I was in a class. I was waiting for a professor so I could take the final exam. The professor entered the room and announced that the test was cancelled, we were being taken to become soldiers for the war. We suited up and were driven out to a battle field, watching the destruction pass by as we approached the action. The truck arrived at the center of the battlefield, and I was handed a metal detector and flamethrower. We were given metal detectors so that when we ran out of fuel for our flame thrower, we could search for more fuel cylinders or a new weapon among the dead in the field. I swiped two extra fuel cylinders, and walked into battle.

I went out with my sister and father, and argued with them. My privileges were removed, so I turned my car key over to my father. I was furious. My father drove us home. I withdrew to my room to find that it had been ransacked, for my parents had suspected that I was hoarding pigs in the house. My sister was the one keeping the pigs though. These pigs were quite rare, and she informed us that we'd be heartless people if we did not care for them. I became angry and jealous that it was acceptable for Dana to keep pigs in the house. I imagined that I would have been punished if I had brought them home. I then contemplated asking to take one from my sister.
Then the scene changed. My fiancé was coming to visit, and I was angry because I still did not have car privileges and I could not easily leave the house. We decided to push my car into a neighbor's yard to make it seem like we had left in my car, despite me not having the key. We planned to stay at a bed and breakfast for a night or two.
Then the scene changed again. My fiancé didn't exist, and I was ten years old. I was still angry with the world and grounded. We shared the house with a lady, so I went to her room to cool off. The neighbor got some water for me. When I drank out of the cup, I realized I had bit into my dream pet fish. It was dead. My mother appeared and claimed it was an ill omen, while my father claimed it was a good meal.
We weren't allowed to travel outside because it was flooding, and the pouring rain was very harmful. My father pulled us out onto the porch to show us that the rain was taking the water out of the houses, grass, and people. I was afraid to be hit by the rain on our porch. Since the rain was removing color from people and objects, I imagined the raindrops would cause me pain.

Fragment 1: My high school friends came to the house, which actually looked more like my uncle's house than my own. I suggested that they all go into the basement while I put on clean clothes. I offered pizza to my friends and family before I went upstairs to change. I hugged one of my friends, and I might have gone to a grocery store.

Fragment 2: I was helping to roll up feathers, debris and grass clippings on a field with my friends. The field vaguely reminded me of Green Hill Zone from Sonic. After cleaning, I was holding a tub of fried chicken strips, and I let a buddy of mine take a piece. He chose a piece that was just a couple of coarse hairs attached to a skin flake. The hair and skin reminded me of my pig's, except pink and fried. My friend ate the fried skin and hair, unperturbed.

Fragment 3: I was driving around in my car. I was out on the road at 6:47AM, and the two closest gas stations were closed. I figured that one would open at about 7, so instead of just parking and waiting, I drove back and forth between the two, hoping that one of the gas stations would open before I ran out of gas. I paid for the gas with a credit card.

I began my dream as a transgendered African-American lady. I believe I had been biologically male at birth, but had gotten surgery in order to make me female. I had a child, and initially I thought it was biologically mine. Then I realized that even with a surgery to give me lady parts, that didn't mean I'd be able to give birth. I became confused and wondered if maybe the child was birthed by my sister, who was also African-American in this dream. I asked my sister to watch my/her(?) child while I traveled. All I remember from traveling is seeing traffic lights.

Then I remember being at my family's house, but they didn't feel very familiar to me initially--none of them were my waking life family. I spent some time with my mother and sister, and then became drawn to a closet. Without asking, I determined that my brother had gotten trapped in there recently. My brother had dressed up as a girl, stepped into the closet and closed the door. Once the door was closed and he was inside, the closet refused to let him out. The closet had detained him because he was crossdressing. Someone else had to open the closet door from the outside to let him out.

While my father (he looked like my real dad) was watching TV, I went into the closet and shut the door. I felt that the transgender closet was a trial I had to overcome, and that it would lead to an epiphany. As expected, the closet door would not open once I was inside. I pried my fingers beneath the door and pulled. I quickly panicked, and for an hour I yelled, screamed and cried until my father heard me and opened the door. The transgender closed helped me realize and accept my gender, not sure how. Once I was freed from the closet, my brother entered the house. He has just finished mowing the lawn. I was very happy to see him, but he didn't want to talk to me out of nervousness and shyness. He was probably uncomfortable because I knew about his crossdressing and his experience with the closet.

Then I somehow obtained the ability to travel back in time, I believe my brother taught me. I drew two squares in the air with my hand, and that was the key to time travel. I traveled back in time to a couple of places that my dream claimed that I had visited. I time traveled back to the time I was in the closet. Now, when a person time travels, he/she left a sort of square water mark at the places and times that they departed from. Upon time traveling into the closet again, I saw a square water mark not left by me. My brother had arrived and left the closet via time travel. He had traveled to every single place I had visited myself. He appeared to have followed me via time travel, and had showed me the way.

Then I had a computer screen in front of me. It inquired whether I wanted to borrow books about time travel, and if I had already had experience with it. I declined the screen's offer to borrow books due to my new knowledge and experience with it.

I was in my kitchen with many other people. My aunt was handing out crackers to the strangers in my house. People were becoming ill, and if they ate more than one pack of crackers and peanut butter, their condition would become much worse. I had two packs of the crackers. I didn't appear to be dying or zombifying.

I don't remember anything else, my dream recall this morning was pretty bad.

First I was at some sort of school. I went to a science class, and I think I wanted the teacher’s phone number. It was on a paper (maybe the syllabus?) but I did not take it. I liked either the teacher or one of the women in the class. I think that I had hoped that the teacher’s number would help me contact the student.

Was in a cafeteria/food court and was approached by a young man. He told me that I had good earning potential, and so he tried to convince me to marry him. I was engaged, so I refused. I was also turned off by the fact that I did not know this man. He explained that his ailing grandfather would leave lots of money to him if he was engaged. I asked him what the rush was, and he stated something like he didn’t know when his grandfather would die. So he had to work fast. Once he realized that I wasn’t going to change my mind, he moved to the table next to mine and found a girl to ask. She was happy to find she and the guy had common interests, and accepted the proposal. I was angry with the man for not explaining the circumstances to the girl. Then the girl’s friend started talking about how the drunk dwarf men had all been hitting on her because she was short. I chuckled.

Then at some later point, I was in charge of a portion of an army. We had three eggs, presumably duck or goose eggs. They were in a caravan that was carrying our supplies, but then I was told that the caravan was going to explode! I was told that I only had time to grab one egg. I looked at where the eggs were kept—in a fridge, like what you would see at grocery stores that are completely open in the front. The eggs were in containers filled with salad. I hesitated and wondered why I only had the time to save one egg. I also might have wondered why the eggs were being kept in a cold place rather than an incubator. But I grabbed two eggs and scampered off to safety. I attended a meeting for the army leaders, and everyone brought their own eggs to the meeting. To the right were huge blue eggs, larger than a person’s head, and to the left the eggs were normal sized. I placed my two eggs on the table to the left and sat down in front of them. The army leader went to the front of the room and explained to us how being noble was considered a weakness. That was why we were ordered to grab only one egg. I asked a question about the eggs, and the answer I received infuriated me. I became dizzy with rage. I stated, “So it’s okay to kill the eggs because it’s just like an abortion!” Everyone in the room stared at me angrily. I was handed a black card, a sort of warning, so I put it in my mouth. I was reprimanded by a peer, so I bit down on the card and started drooling on it. I suddenly realized that the black card might have signified that my egg was to be destroyed. I was not bothered by this punishment, for I had a spare egg anyway.

I started recording my dreams about a month ago, but did take a two week break as I went on vacation. On the 5th, I thought "I will realize I'm dreaming" ad nauseum while I was trying to fall asleep.

I remember nothing for a brief time, as I presumably fell asleep, then was suddenly standing by the side of a pool. Normally I never remember starting a dream, nor do I ever realize I just appeared at one spot. I gasped and thought to myself "I'm DREAMING." As soon as I realized this, my body tingled with energy and excitement. I felt as though I was the dream world. I was the world, and so I felt the energy of the world in my body, it felt so exhilarating. It only lasted a moment, then I woke up. I think everything became blurry or white.

I'm not surprised by such a short first LD, but I do hope I have more soon so I can adjust to the excitement more easily. I will be sad if it takes another month to have a second LD.