Chessica's Dream Journal

I had another short lucid last night. I dreamt I was lying on a mattress together with some other people. They were strangers. In my dream I woke up (FA) because I had to pee. In fact I dreamt I had already started peeing. I "woke up" and hurried up from the mattress, afraid that I had peed on it. Luckily I hadn't. I did an RC, looked at my hands. I had a tiny extra finger on my middle finger. Lucid! I thought to myself I have to stabilize, and I layed down on the carpet rubbing it with my hands telling myself "I'm dreaming". It all felt very real. The dream ended not long after, and I don't remember doing anything more than rub the carpet and getting up again. Maybe except looking at my hands again. They still looked funny. I had some other dreams too, in particular one about being chased by a bear.

Had a LD again last night (or I might have had several). My recall isn't that good at the moment, haven't been keeping up with writing down my dreams. All I remember is becoming lucid by pinching my nose. I remembered wanting to meet Vladimir Kramnik and went looking for him. I remember finding him, but not much more. I have a vague feeling of having several episodes of pinching my nose and getting lucid. I also remember "waking up" (FA) and writing down my LD's in my journal (I remember writing that I had at least two, but maybe four LD's), but when I actually woke up I of course discovered that my dj was empty.

I had a short lucid. A tiny one. All I remember is pinching my nose, the RC worked and I was lucid! I went outside (from somewhere) and before I could do anything I felt myself waking up. I tried to fight it, to stay in the dream, but I lost lucidity. Not sure if I actually woke up or if it was a FA.

I'm out fishing or something with H. We are down by a lake, the lake is milky white in color. A small fire is beginning to smolder a few metres away. H. rushes over to put it out. I follow him. We try to put it out by stomping on it with our feet, but it's not working. I pour the rest of a soda bottle on it and run to get some water from the lake. We successfully put the fire out. We then look up and see smoke rise into the air from a place further up the hill, I get H. to call the fire department. but they don't answer the phone. We get into the car and drive up there. When we reach the top the dream has shifted a bit. H. is no longer sitting beside me in the car, and I have just parked the car at a parking lot in front of my house (only it looks nothing like my house). When I look to the side I se the parson sitting beside me in the car is Magnus Carlsen. I'm supposed to drve him home, and I've apparently forgot it and parked at my house. I get a bit embarresed about driving to the wrong place, so I make up a little lie. I tell him I've forgotten my wallet with my drivers licence in it and I'm going to go get it. When I walk inside the house I see my wallet lying on the front stairs. I find that a bit strange, and as I walk inside I do a RC, a nose pinch. It works - I can breathe! I'm dreaming. Without knowing why I did this I walk straight back out to Magnus Carlsen and go in for a kiss. He backs off a little, but I assure him it's ok - it's just a drem. lol We make out. Really make out. I can feel that he hasn't shaved that day because his stubble is slightly scratching my upper lip. After kissing him for a while I decide to do something more with my lucid dream - what was my goal again? Oh, right! I'm supposed to find my dog H. and ask her to show me a new trick. I go inside the house and find her there. She's qurious about some food that's fallen onto the floor. I gently call her over. She hesitates to leave the food, but when I gently call her again she comes over. She looks funny. More like a cartoon dog than a real dog. I ask her to show me a new trick. She lifts her right arm/paw while she slightly arches her back. I ask her to do something else and after trying for a bit she rolls over. I tell her shes a good girl and hthat she can go get the food she was craving. I think about what else I can do with my LD. I decide to go outside and fly! For a moment I consider going out on the balcony and take off from there, but I decide against it in case I'm not dreaming after all. Don't want to break my neck falling off the balcony... When I go outside it's dark. The sky is lit with stars and I think to myself it's a perfect night to go flying! I start softly waving my arms like a bird (that's always how I fly in non-lucids), I start hovering above the ground slowly getting higher up. Maybe I should try flying differently? Try to fly a little bit faster? I stretch my arms out in front of me (like superman) and start flying faster straigh upwards. I fly like this for a bit until the dream destabilizes and I start falling. During this stage I lose lucidity and fall through a window in my house. H. sits inside and says something to me when I land, but I don't remember what. The dream lives on by itself, and there's no more lucidity.

So I had my first lucid in months!! And the first lucid in Sensei's competition. It was so much fun! Yay!

I woke up at 7.30 this morning and I wrote down 3 dream fragments. I probably could have dug deeper and remembered at least on of them fully, but I'm stuggling with the motivation to write the dj. and so they stayed only fragments. I then lay awake for a bit thinking I would do a WBTB, I was awake for maybe 20 minutes? Then I got comfy again and tried to go to sleep. I repeated a mantra to myself for a minute or two about how I would fall asleep and realize I was in a dream. After a while of twisting and turning, not being able to fall asleep I did a nose plug, and I could breathe! Only through one of my nostrils, but I could breathe!! But how could it be? I was still in my bed trying to fall asleep! But wait, was I? I looked around and realized I wasn't in my bed after all. I was on a mattress on the floor somewhere else. I got up and went to the bathroom, doing another nose plug (I couldn't believe I was lucid) still could breathe, but only through one nostril. I kept my nose plugged for a while, wondering how I could do that and not "choke" in real life, I then realized it's only my dream body that's got its nose plugged... Even though I was lucid my awareness was low at this stage. I suddenly realized I was standing in a bathroom scrubbing the toilet and I thought "I'm not using my LD to scrub down a filthy toilet!!" So I stood up and tried to remember my goals. I remember the competition and some of the tasks. Should I try flying? I have had a plan that if I did become lucid I would summon a 'musical muffin', eat it and try to sing! So I placed my hands behind by back and thought "when I bring my hands in front of me again there will be a musical muffin in my hands. And there was! It was a bit unclear/hazy, but had a creamy cheese topping with a 'musical note' as a decoration. I hurried to take a bite, and as I did I wondered how it didn't taste anything. After eating a bite of it I tried to sing - very quietly, because I was afraid someone might hear me. And I was disappointed, my voice was even poorer than in real life. LOL! Here the dream gets a little blurry, I can't remember quite what happened, but I think I had a FA where the nose plug RC failed.

I also remember dreaming about writing in my dj about both the lucid dream and some other dreams - it's so frustrating waking up and realizing you have to do it all over again, haha. All in all I remember 4 fragments, 2 dreams and 1 LD! A very, very good night! I'm so happy!

A question though: Did I just have my first WILD, or was this just a regular DILD? Did kind of feel like a DILD, but then I really thought I was still awake so it might have been a WILD... I've heard so much talk about the weird sensations one gets when wilding, and I didn't feel any of that...

Fragment:

Something about roofing material, they had some imperfections. At R & K's house?

Fragment:

Redecorating a house, but it's not mine. It belongs to a Swedish couple. I'm house sitting while they are away. Something about turning the lights off or leaving them on.

Dream:

My boss is sitting at his desk. He's got a tie on, but he's tied in some silk paper into the tie knot. I laugh and try to pull it out. He tries to explaining he's been seeing a lot of people do this (get silk paper stuck in their tie). Somehow a video of a couple of musicians is supposed to explain this. The musicians are young, the video is made a long time ago. They are supposed to be well known, but I only vaguely recognize them. It's a man and a woman. Then he shows me a new video of them, this time they are older (about 50-60 yrs?). They are performing on a stage in both of the videos. I remember thinking how much they've changed. They used to be young and beautiful, now they just look old and tired.

Dream:

I'm in a house. It's my house (but it's nothing like my house for real). I'm in the living room with my two dogs, and a small gorilla. The gorilla apparently is my pet. I call it and it comes jumping towards me on its hands and feet. I ask it if it is hungry by petting its belly and asking 'are you hungry?'. It enthusiastically shows me it indeed is hungry, and after doing a trick I say 'Go!' and we go to get it some food. When I get to the cabinet where I keep the pet food I see my dog M. I find a bowl and fill it with kibble and treats. She's been eating very little lately, and to my delight I see her taking big mouthfuls. After a while she stops, and just sniffs the treats, but won't eat any more. My dog H. is there too, and I trow her some kibble which she grabs 'in air'.

Dream:

I'm driving on a dirt road in the mountains. I've got a car trailer connected, and there is another car driving behind me. We make a left turn onto a road that's in really bad shape, more like an old tractor path than a road. It's partly closed off with two large rocks, but we manage to squeeze the cars through. I get the feeling the road is on private property. After driving a while the road stops. There's a big solid rock/snow wall blocking it and we have to climb. I think my cousin A. is with me. We start running towards the wall, try to run up it as far as possible without sliding down. We get quite far up, but I can't hold on and start sliding down again. I try another time, and when I can't run any higher I dig my boots into the snow wall and start climbing. We eventually reach the top. I've got a feeling this is sort of a boot camp.

Dream:

I'm at a cabin. Two guys are there, I don't know them. One guy is down on his knees washing the floor with a black and white checkered wash rag. There's a reason he's washing the floor, but I don't remember why. He's explaining something as he is washing, and I can see the floor getting wet when he mops the floor with the wash rag. The other guy is Morten Harket in AHA, apparently he has brought along some soap and shampoo, but he got the "wrong" type. He bought soap and shampoo for women. The first guy decides he will go get some other shampoo for M.H, because if he finds out he bought the wrong kind he will feel stupid and too feminin. I take a look in one of the drawers in the cabin. There's a lot of old stuff in there. Small bits and pieces of stuff and old packages of mints etc. There's an old bottle of nasal spray there, it has to be squeezed on the sides to make the bottle spray. I smile at how old it is. The packaging looks at least 20 years old.

Fragment:

I'm outside a shop, there are big wooden boxes with lids on them. I lift the lid on one of them thinking "being a dream I could find anything inside one of these!" (Not sure if I was lucid or not, so I don't count this as a LD) Inside I found wooden planks.

Fragment:

Something about a dirt road running along some green fields. I'm standing a bit higher up in the terrain looking down at it. My mother says something about geocaches?

Fragment:

Something about writing on some boxes with a nearly invisible marker. They are boxes used for moving, but I don't know what's in them. I think I'm watching them for someone.

Fragment:

Some scenes form work.

Dream:

I'm in the city, I'm riding a bike. I can see people around me. Tourists and some people standing outside a police station wanting to apply for visa. Some of the people try to stop me, but I bike on past them. A man with dark skin (a tourist) is staring at me. I think to myself it must be because of my height (I'm tall!). The city changes and becomes an airport. A French lady is looking confused. There's a board with tourist information on it, and it's got a touch screen. The woman tries to get to the touch screen, but she's too short, the screen is to high up. She stops me and asks for help. I help her. She asks what my name is. I say my name. She tries to repeat it, but the pronunciation is wrong, she leaves out the 'r'. I say my name again, and she tries to pronounce it - wrong again. I say my name using a French accent, she laughs (I do too) and she says it correct this time. I then try to find something she can stand on to make her reach the touch screen, but she won't have it. She begs me to stay and help her.

Dream:

A tombstone. A lady asks me to show her my pets last resting place. I show her the tombstone. It's shaped like a regular tombstone, but the lower part is shaped like a food and water bowl. A hamster is running around on it looking for food and eating. A man appears. He's part of a village of people that are actually cats ... They dislike Scandinavians because we apparently have a virus that can harm them (the cat people). I get the feeling it's all quite pseudoscientific. He backs away when I approach him (he's in the shape of a white cat). The dream ends with me petting/communicating telepathically with a black cat nearby.