salty

Me and erii are flying through a world
The world is not seen but felt
It is intense
I am becoming exhausted from continuing to push through
We reach what we came for
It feels right
as we approach it, it is overly intense
The intensity makes me feel almost sick
I keep pushing and make it through some kind of barrier
I am overwhelmed with information all at once
I am above earth
It looks extremely different
I see something flaming hurtle towards earth
it is so large there is a massive shockwave that covers most of the side of earth I'm viewing
It looks brown
Now all that was green and blue I saw from air is nothing
things begin to change and energy shifts
now I am not seeing anything but feelings are all over the place
The earth is red completely
It glows red
energy is intense and very hyper
I am on the surface
I see nothing but smoke
I feel alot of heat
Now I am slipping into darkness and losing my awareness of this scene
I see a huge twisting ball of energy that is white and blue
It is very chaotic
it seems to be pulsing
it feels sick
like a dying heart
like an old person with a dying body
hurting all over
its very strange and I am confused what this is exactly
I cannot leave
I feel stuck
and it grows more and more chaotic
then at once it is nothing
and now it is everywhere
the energy which was once a ball is spread across in every direction incredibly far in particles
Now I feel like monster compared to these sand like particles
I feel all of them
everyone filled with life
its own sentience
they are like stars
I see lines interconnecting them
In three dimensional patterns
the patterns are infinite as far as I can see
They appear chaotic just as the ball
Now I am small
I am flying through space
Still incredibly large
I come to a whitish blue star
It feels aggressive
With nothing to be mad at
It is so isolated
it is individuated
and nothing can effect it
yet it seems angry
and resentful
at what?
It feels like it angry at the universe
It makes no sense
I feel hatred
I feel pain
Why does it feel these things?
It is nothing more than a piece of the larger ball of energy
yet it is alone and cannot be harmed
But it hates?
I am confused so deeply it hurts
I feel sick
I feel like I'm melding into a painting which is this star
Then all at once I realize that the star is me
And the world of stars I called space was all humans
all dis unified
All lonely
It hurts so bad
The loneliness is killing me
I can't stand it
I am going insane
I am incredibly confused and scared
I felt fear I didn't know existed
every human seems so distant
Every star is so far away
I am floating alone
Yet I enjoy it
I am not sure why
But I enjoy it
I feel like I could float here forever in acceptance
But then something happens
I don't feel like a star in this strange universe or whatever anymore
Now I am in my dream body
Floating in a monster of energy beside erii
The energy is ripping like a storm
Yet we are safe
I see her body glowing
I cannot even make out physical features just the glowing shape of a body that is red
I am exhausted
eventually I push through and we are flying as hard and fast as we can to get out
We return to the place which we left before we came here