DannyCool

I am in dark tunnels trying to get out of what seems like a game. I get out and enter to an open space like a courtyard. There are two women there. One is the game master and the other her helper but it could be my dream guide. Before I do the next task there is a series of questions as to why I have not been myself IWL. I tell them that when I speak to them I speak in regular English that I was taught in school and can explain any of my emotions or the reality of the world. When I speak with friends in the countryside they use this thick accent and I cannot explain or express everything as I am chained to convention to what I speak about. She listens carefully and selects my next game. I wake up.

I had emailed my friend who I have a good heart connection with to accompany me on an important journey. I was with my girlfriend who was really sweet but did not have the same heart connection that I needed for this journey. She was my girlfriend and I appreciated her more than anyone else but I needed to meet this other lady if my journey was to be a success. We were in the airport around a lot of other people and we were changing flights. I remember all the different security checks and how supportive my girlfriend was. She was a beautiful Japanese girl a used to go out with years ago. I could see my boarding pass very clearly and at one stage I dropped a lot of different things into the rubbish to clear my pockets. She realised that I might have dropped my boarding pass too in the rubbish and helped me retrieve it. She held my hand and looked after me. As we came down the elevator I knew I would have to meet this other lady to fulfil my important journey. There was also a sense that there was a sexual nature to meeting the person with the so called heart connection there was a neediness and a yearning that is hard to identify. I did not know if she would be there or not and she was not. I looked up and down the terminal and she was nowhere to be seen. I even checked online to see if I could contact her. I could see the computer and the websites very clearly. I was logging in on a friends account who use to protect me in the past from falling into desire influenced situations. I was left alone and a bit empty wondering what all this is about.