non-lucid

I absolutely hate dreaming about my work. It infests my life enough during the day why does it have to invade me at night? And what's worse is the only way I can parlay my work into a dream sign is if I do RCs at work all the time and... That's just hard to do.

Any suggestions?

The main event:

I remember working at Brew and Grow with Mike. We are hanging out working when Scott arrives with the truck. Rather than bringing it through the back door like normal he comes through the front. The first pallet he sets down is tall but skinny. Alex comes over to help unload it and I ask him how big of a truck we have. He says about two hours worth of work.

Only one dream last night.

It seems lately that my dreams aren't hitting me right when I wake up. I quit doing the WBTB (I was waking up my girl) and I'm thinking that has something to do with it. Now rather than remembering a few deeper dreams at random spots in the night I'll wake up and remember a list of separate dreams. This morning, for example, I woke up and remembered three different and distinct dreams. Awesome.

I pull into a concrete parking lot and park right in front of a building. I get out and walk past a guard rail and right past a glass door. It dings and I look behind me to see Lawrence emerge from the building. He waves me over and we head inside. As we enter the building he explains to me that the guy behind the counter owns everything in here. He is impressed. When we get inside I realize it is some sort or hot dog joint. It reminds me of top dog or skeeters. The man behind the counter is probably in his mid forties and dark skinned. He has dark black hair and looks a little sweaty. The customer in front of us buys something and it costs him almost twenty bucks. I'm shocked by the mark up.

I am in an elevator and I want if to take me to the first floor. However once I get there the elevator turns back around and brings me flying back to the top of the building. My heart is racing. Once we hit the top floor the elevator turns upside down. I'm close to freaking out but somehow I keep my cool while it goes plummeting back to the first level. But we go through the first level and suddenly I am in a basement level. I smack some sort of emergency switch and the elevator creaks to a halt. The door in front of me flies open to reveal a load of wiring. I start pulling on wires and eventually manage to pry the door open enough to slip out.

I am in a subterranean area. There are boxes and pallets everywhere and it seems sparsely lit. I'm nervously walking around looking for a way back up when I see a body lying on top of a half empty pallet.

I am at the counter of brew and grow and I'm ringing customers out when an elder man and his wife and kid come up. At the time I was jotting things down in my notebook, mainly adult websites for some reason as well as all my social networking info, and I'm worried that he'll see it or his kid. I check them out and for some reason tear off the paper with the info and hand it to his wife and I tell them to contact me if they run into issues.

I run into some band members there. We start small talking about each others tunes. We are both very complimentary and polite to eachother. Then I decide to leave. I hop in my car and start cranking the acoustic version of stillbirth. I drive away and end up pit stopping at a mcdonalds. I go inside, just passing through, when i see Leah walk in. I sit at a table to hide sort of and watch her walk by with a grin. I then get up and head outside and back to my car which is somehow a convertible with a selectable roof. It's starting to rain so I raise the shell of the roof and drive off.

Also I got to talking with the singer, and a good friend, of my band and we get onto the subject of dreaming and I, hesitantly, brought up lucid dreaming. It turns out he's done it quite a few times before. It's really inspiring and I think having someone like that to talk to is going to help me out in the long run.

Wow. Five good recalls in one single night. A new high for me! They were decently vivid too, at least the longer ones were, and a few of the fragments were literally flash in the pan. What makes me really happy about this is that I did not perform WBTB. I simply remembered that many different dreams upon waking. Hopefully I'm getting close! I'm RCing about 10 times a day, on a guess. As well as perusing the forums occasionally. Every time I RC I repeat to myself "If I'm dreaming, I will become lucid" and I look around the room for any signs of dreaming. Does that, coupled with my daily DJ, seem like enough to incite a DILD?

Anyways: onto the dreams.

I'm walking through some sort of in between that goes from rural Illinois to downtown Chicago. The goal is to meet a bunch of friends as well as my wife's dad at a place to eat dinner. We are trying to decide where to eat when i decide that a steakhouse sounds good. So I go through this in between and end up in a little long room with two wide red couches and two wide tvs. It doesn't say it anywhere but I know this is a Blackhawks fanclub.

I wee Vern there and we decide to go on ahead. He asks me where I want to eat. I think a moment and decide on this steak house. With my steak knife with me for some reason we set out to walking out of the club and down the street.

And now for sole reason I'm doubling back. I've walked back through the in between to go get my friends. I'm looking for Jake Chris and Lawrence. For some reason I know they have begun to cross the I'm between, which now looks like a corn field, so I head back to cross it.

I try to wade through it but it is too thick now. I decide to walk along side it instead and i soon make it halfway across when suddenly Chris, wearing dress pants a button up and a tie, emerges and greets me. Jake is right on his heels. We have a short discussion about some rapper before I tell them what's for dinner.

Nate Phil and I are hanging out in the basement of what I assume is my parents house. There is a punching bag hanging from the ceiling and the other posts have wrap around them for more martial arts.

Phil and Nate are hanging out when I come in with my laptop and a fresh recording of one of our songs but this Time with drums on it. I start to play it and Phil is instantly annoyed cause he is tired of hearing that song over and over again.

I play it anyways and he says it is actually pretty cool outside of the timing issues. As he is saying this I am tending to a small hydroponic garden in a tent. The floor of the tray in the tent is covered in a milky orange substance. I start cleaning it out when the guys decide they want to go outside.

So we do and it's really late and dark out. I bring my laptop with me but through the walls I can hear the music we were blaring. It's avenged sevenfold. I go back inside a few times to turn it down.

Eventually my mom comes out for a minute after we head back in and says she will wake me up at nine. Phil is closed to passing out when he, alarmed, asks if they have to leave then as well. I tell him no and not to worry about it and to enjoy sleeping in.

Randall Cropp


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Fragment. I'm with some group of people when this creature called the Machi appears. It looks like a monster of the Seachen People out of the Wheel of Time series. It looks like a dragon but the size of a horse. Someone kills it and I remember getting very sad.

Leah and I are watching some sort of talk show with Keanu reeves on it. There are a bunch of kids that he starts to play fight with. We are watching the event from overhead and at an angle. Keanu is diving around and throws a marker at this little girl. It nails her in the forehead and she drops like a bag of rocks. I remember laughing in my dream. This happens to three kids.

Fragment. I dream I make myself admin on Militate.

I dream I'm driving up some road at night and turning on corners. I'm out in the country. There is a car right behind me. I have my laptop out and am trying to catch a WiFi signal. I finally do catch one and I pull over. The car behind me passes.

So I woke up this morning pretty let down. I only had two really minor dream fragments:

In my first dream all I remember was putting on some really long razor extension, those black plastic guards, onto my electric shaver and then beginning to shave my beard.

My second dream I'm walking down some sort of hallway to a gymnasium or auditorium. I am with a group of people. We go through these big double doors and are told to grab a bunch of orange benches and chairs and tables to bring back to a bigger gym for some sort of presentation. In the dream I remember asking myself 'Why can't we just present here?' and then that's really it.

I had to work hard to remember those tiny fragments. It was almost an hour after I woke up that I remembered those.

Had a bit of trouble remembering my dreams in the morning. I wrote one when I woke up at 5ish but it came out pretty incoherent. I have no idea what this means:

And suddenly I'm tagging along as I follow someone else down what appears to me to be a dream room.

When I woke up in the morning, for good, I had to walk around and really try to remember what I dreamed about. Normally I woulda thought that I wouldn't be able to come up with anything but I managed to remember two more:

I'm visiting some sort of house out in the middle of nowhere where a bunch of people my age are living or at least partying. I'm there to visit and i don't quite fit in. I have a journal I keep with me where I write my secrets and personal stuff. This place is at the end of a very tall hill. Leah is there I think.

I remember at some point we are all in this big open hot tub area that is surrounded by nothing but glass.

So when I finally leave I forget to grab my journal and i am very worried that someone might read it. So I call Leah and ask her to grab it for me.

I'm visiting my mother on what appears to be a mostly abandoned farm. I don't think it's hers but it does seem like she is vacationing there. It sounds like something my mom would do. I walk into the dark grass and there she is tending a bunch of plants that are on a big table. She says something to me but I'm not sure what exactly.

Suddenly I'm in some sort of office building and there seems to be some sort of jurrasic park inspired ride there. It looks like one of those kid roller coasters that take you by little scenes from the movie to try and scare you. I figure I have nothing better to do so i hop on. The ride begins right away and I'm first taken to an exhibit with a raptor. I force myself to scream and laugh and to make it sound like I'm having a good time. I don't know why.

I'm taken by a few more exhibits before I decide this is too lame for me. I hope off of the ride and begin to hoof it outta the building. I don't know why I'm completely alone.

So I woke up this morning and couldn't remember any of my dreams. I went to the bathroom to brush my teeth and wake up a little bit and then suddenly I remember two VERY long dreams (for me) in vivid detail. And they were very different from eachother. How awesome is that? So it isn't an LD but it's still something. My dreams are picking up which has to be a good sign.

This was an epic dream. I come into the dream as a guy who lakes vaguely like my buddies dad (Jake k) invites me to come to his sons wedding. In real life I would never go because the son in question is an asshole and has Been horrible to me. But I follow the guy anyways.

He leaps onto an electric scooter and I guess I do too be because we take off on the pavement towards a turnpike once there I see a small replica scooter in the sand. I wonder to myself if I should grab it.

I don't because I decide he'd tell me if I should or not. We continue on and suddenly we are no longer on the scooter. In fact we are running. To the wedding. But first we slide to a stop under another sandy overpass and i see a bunch of bottles in the sand. The man next to me glances at a piece of paper and says I have to collect them. I glance at them and see that they are cologne vial looking containers of a coffee mixture. I realize to myself that these must be wedding favors and I am instantly disappointed because I was hoping my party favor would be a job offer. I try not to let it show and I continue to follow the man until we arrive at a beach where there is this gigantic boat in the water. It has a giant anchor to it's side and it appears that the captain of the ship, who is the brother I realize, is fishing for dolphins by shooting the anchor forward and slowly pulling it backwards.

And wouldn't you know it. Suddenly I am in the water and caught on the anchor. I struggle to climb up the giant mechanism until i come level with the boat from the anchor side. I am still underwater somehow and breathing through a giant blow off tube. I make my way nervously over to his boat and leap on board unsure as to how I'd be received. I glance into the water and see fins caught in the anchor.

And then we are walking down the sandy beach and my wife is there. So is my buddy Phil i realize. I start to tell Leah we need a vacation near a beach but she doesn't quite understand what I mean somehow and I storm off.

For some reason I'm in a co Ed shower and there is this totally hot black woman there. I'm minding my own business when suddenly she pulls me close and I think we have sex.

Next thing i know I'm at where I assume is my house. I walk up the stairs and go into my room and get on my computer. Shortly thereafter my irl wife shows up and we start fooling around a little bit. I try to go to this website that has adult material but I have problems accessing it because it has a specific and very inappropriate password on all the boards.

So I don't know why but I'm suddenly outside of an old looking wal mart. I drive up to the glass doors and park my car there. I give a wary look behind me at a crew of messed up looking beggars and then go inside.

All I remember from being inside is seeing the same woman from the shower. She is with who i assume is her friend and also her boyfriend. She sees me and asks if I remember her because she is pregnant. I freak out and say no and leave.

Outside of the store again I have to get around the beggars. Their faces seem to be peeling off and they seem to want my car. I run to my car and throw it open and hop inside. I glance in the back to make sure nobody is hiding and realize I'm in the wrong vehicle. I roll outta the car and sprint to whee my car really is. I repeat the process and that's all I remember from that dream.

Finally I get to avoid checking the "fragment" box

So I've had 11 dreams recalled in the last 3 or 4 days. Definitely not bad and muuuch better than I had been doing. I guess it was just my hectic schedule/lack of proper sleep. Anyways I have three more to report for you guys. I could have had a 4th, I'm pretty sure, but it faded before I could get a good grip on it. Sometime they come back over the course of the day but this one didn't.

Dream One: Playing music with a buddy. This was a cool dream because when I was walking around, in the dream, with the guitar and strumming it felt really cool to actually be able to play something. I can barely play in real life.

Austin a friend and I are behind some sort of eat out spot on like a back patio where there are more tables and such. I'm convincing Austin to stay and play the show with me and to move in with me. He's reluctant to but finally agrees to as long as he can leave every night by midnight to go home to his parents. At the time I think it's odd that he's willing to do that.

So i star jamming some finch song on guitar while waiting out back for people to come and a few kids pass by on their way inside. They are super impressed by what I'm playing. Finally it's time for the people eating to come out and watch the show. They start filing out to the various tables and I take the stage. Suddenly I'm really nervous and I realize I don't know any songs. My wives parents are there and I'm scared i disappointed them.

This was the tiniest sliver of a fragment.

I also remember some odd fragment as well. I can't remember if what position it is for but my buddy Justin recruits me for his band. And then I'm hanging out with my buddy Josh. And then the dude from hello goodbye is walking down the stairs while playing a ukulele and singing.

Weird

Another basketball related dream. Fffuuu. Why don't I RC? I know my dream signs..

I'm playing full court basketball with the Chicago bulls against some random other guys. I get to one end of the floor and go up for a huge dunk but some defender pulls me down. As I land I go right back up from the other side to try and put it back. I go onto a message board and see a thread about best dunks you've ever missed.

So I finally got a good nights sleep and I remembered four dreams. I only managed to write down three of them, however.

I'm in some kinda wal mart and I am trying to be nice to this guy and group of people that all play this game together. For some reason they are mean and I manage to stGe a fKe funeral for them. So I do and trick everyone until this guy that looks like Jake k. comes in. He's part of the grpup I tricked people about. So I immediately sprint off down an aisle to try and get away but he keeps popping up. He seems almost chill about the whole thing but I know he's mad and can't let him catch me. I go diving outta these steel truck bay doors and take this huge jump and i go flying through the air. Right before I do I see a stack of kids toys that toys geared towards liberals. Then I go sliding out the truck door and taking a huge jump. Right as I jump I hear some more conservative style folks talking crap about what I did. And now I'm flying through the air and everything is smaller. I hear someone mention something about soldiers and then I start to land.

I'm hanging out now in front of a house right across the street from a basketball court. It's getting dark out but I don't care. I call my friend Austin and ask him to come over and play ball with us (and I don't know who 'us' is). So he shows up and then I wake up

or some reason I'm driving over to where I assume my buddy Austin lives. I get there in time to see another friend go inside. I follow him inside. The house is cluttered and two stories. There is stuff everywhere. Austin comes down the stairs and tells us to follow him upstairs as he has a treat for both of us. We follow and for some reason I'm suddenly holding two bowling balls. One I really did used to own and the other I'm not sure where I found/got it. It was jarring enough that I think I came close to lucidity.

Too tired to write down my dreams last night. These two were from the night before.

I'm working at brew and grow and it's crowded. Alex and mike are working in back and I'm alone up front. I'm helping one customer and then a small group walks in and stars asking questions. The lead guy is wearing some sort of rain coat. I start trying to help him and I realize that the computer isn't working properly and that our sales system seems really screwed up. As I'm talking another woman walks in and i glance over and ask if I can help her. She points behind me and tells me to tell president bush we have a roof leak. I smirk and tell her I can tell Obama. I then notice bow bad it's leaking and sprint to the back to ask Alex to help these customers because I'm so frustrated with the system that I'm about to cry. He does and I grab a ton of buckets and run back up front and start layin them out to catch the leak. One bucket has a ton of sand in it. The leak is pretty bad and then I notice mike crouching in front if the hop freezer with a basket of hops in his hands. He's putting them back in the freezer. I'm immediately frustrated because he ditched the counter duties to stock and I ask him if he's stocking. He says yeah and that a customer just left these there. I peak in the basket and it too is full of sand. I remember thinking that hops don't need to be constantly cold and he shoulda helped me anyways. I wake up.

Giant bathrooms in a mansion
I keep going to the biggest stall in the corner with my laptop and watching adult videos. Brazzerz. Kitty corner in another stall someone left their laptop in there. I go in Again and this time choose a tiny stall closer to the entrance. Once inside a video starts playing of pro bowl Tommy Harris in a locker room with some half naked chick doing a wwf style interview. Camera cuts ahead to a college football game where his team wins a super high scoring game and all the players leave the field and throw their cleats into the air and they land on their bus. The q.b threw for 187 yards 5 TDs and 3 int.

So I tried to WILD last night but that afternoon I'd gotten bitten to hell by mosquitos and I was constantly fighting the urge to scratch my legs (where I was bit up) and, as you probably know, being fidgety isn't conducive to trying to WILD. So after a while I just gave up and went to sleep. I recalled two dreams though which is nice:

So my realtor, John, for some reason is watching the store I manage (in real life) for me in the dream. I decide to go ahead and walk through the warehouse and to the back where there is a dumpster (just like in real life). Right next to the dumpster (not in real life) is a tall and flimsy basketball hoop. There's some dude there shooting a ball at it and he starts telling me how he saw Russel Westbrook outplay Kevin Durant in 1 on 1 basketball. I don't know, first of all, why they would play eachother as they are on the same team. But whatever. I'm not lucid so I go with it. For some reason I tell the guy that Kirk Hinrich and John Wall are going to be the best guard duo in the league next year (even though Hinrich is going to be riding the bench) and the dude chimes in: "Don't forget about (Keith) Bogans." And I add, "Or CJ Watson. Yeah." Even though those two players are not even on Hinrich/Walls team IRL.

The dumpster behind me, I remember, is full of old boxes. The guy I'm with starts bouncing the ball on the rim and I hear the door beep behind me (meaning a customer has entered the store). I go back in and storm to the front. For some reason I'm furious and I yell at John and tell him he ruined something or other and then I woke up.

Couple things: Basketball players and my IRL work are two major dream signs for me. I've known this. Before going to bed last night I even said to myself (until I fell asleep) "If I see a basketball player I will perform a reality check." I guess I didn't actually see anyone (just chatted about it) but it's interesting to note, at least.

Next dream:

So a dude comes to kidnap me while I'm in an altered version of my real life house. We're in a room (that doesn't exist IRL) and this guy comes rushing in. I have a bat at the ready and I take a giant swing at him. He pulls out what looks like a giant fluorescent bulb (that for some reason seems to come apart like tap) and starts attacking me with it. And then all of a sudden Leah and I are in a sort of run down casino/hotel looking place. There's a small food court looking area and a desk that is barred. There's a black guy behind it and he's running a giant lottery ball (where you pull a ball out of the jug and if it has your #, you win). I remember fighting the dude but I don't realize how we got where we are and I'm instantly distracted. I buy a lotto ticket and then Leah is hounding me to call the cops. So I try to dial 911 on the phone but for some reason it doesn't work. No matter how many times I try to dial it I always accidentally hit the wrong # or it just straight up doesn't work. And then for some reason I try 411. And suddenly, just like in my prior dream, I'm furious with Leah and as I'm on the phone we're fighting and cussing at eachother and it's just an ugly scene. I'm worried that the guy is still at our house and then that's really all I remember.

For how my routine works go ahead and hit up this thread. Otherwise let's just leap right into it.

Last night I went to bed a little bit later than I wanted to and I think I was a bit too tired to really maximize the effectiveness of my routine. I started to do my "countdown" trick before I went to sleep and I think I almost got into SP (my heart began to race, my body felt numb) and then I reality checked..and nothing. I tried again and ended up straight zonking out. I woke up again at 5:30 (when my WBTB alarm is set). For whatever reason I wasn't tired feeling so I had to make myself go back to sleep. And as I started to do my countdown... I passed out again.

Then I woke up at 8:30 and could only remember one dream. Pro: I could recall it. Con: It was pretty short.

Maybe I'm still recovering from trying to do the Infinity Course. That thing really messed with my sleep schedule...

It always wierds me out when dreams happen like this but I am suddenly in my dream, running down the court, playing basketball. Nobody says anything but I instantly perceive that I'm playing in an all star game. The gym is pretty stark. Big, but stark. Wood floors and plain white washed walls. There are two hoops. I know we are in the middle of a game but at any given time I can only see one or two people and never myself. OK. So I'm running down court and I pass the ball off to this tall white guy with darker black, and blond, streaked hair. He catches the ball and immediately puts up an awkward shot. The guy that came back to D him up gets the rebound and dribbles off. I know instantly that this guy is Darko Milicic. He is sweaty and looks very unsure of himself. I walk over to the guy and start giving him pointers. Telling him to just relax and calm down. And, when he gets the ball, just to slow the game down and put up a confident shot. I don't have a clue why I am giving him basketball tips when he's in the pros.

That's about all there was to the dream. Really short, written out like this, but it seemed to take up a lot of 'dream time'. Again I see my dream sign, basketball/basketball players, I really need to start doing RL reality checks whenever basketball is brought up. Hmm..

I dreamed I was swimming underwater. I can't remember using any breathing devices or anything. My friend Lawrence was leading the tour along with a few other people. Everything is tinted hazy blue.

We come to a narrow hallway with a large door at the end. The guys start moving towards it when I see a glowing parrot looking fish. I'm immediately told not to touch it because if I do it will kill me. So I evade it and we are helped through the gate.

Once through we are in an even larger area. There is a fairly narrow hallway sort of area that leads up s set of shallow steps and those steps lead into the wide open reef we came to see.

As we walk up the narrow steps I am stopped all of a sudden and someone points out a little hole in the base of the steps bi am told not go touch it because if I do it will come unplugged and suck me backwards and shoot me outta the room. That's good enough incentive for me to be careful.

With that in mind I continue forward and am constantly on edge not to touch anything. I see s semi large floating egg, about 12" long float by and I ask one of my guides If I'm allowed to touch the dragon egg even I'd just to save it from floating down the stairs and outta the room. The guide says no and as I watch the egg float by it flashes back and forth between the image of a fish and then back to the image of the egg.

For some reason Lawrence ends up getting way ahead of us and it's making the guides nervous. I tell them that I want to go back and they point towards the door at the end of the steps. I go to it and open it and then immediately I see the red parrot fish that kills on touch. It is alone in the vast blackness. I change my mind about leaving and turn back around.

I dream that a small group of people and I are heading down this steep forested hill. We reach the bottom and realize there is no true way out except climbing back up the other side of the bowl we climbed into. Before we do I take time to notice these absolutely gigantic trees that seem to tower over everything and while I do that I notice the spiders.

The spiders are gigantic and they have weaved a giant web around the entirety if the forrested bowl we walked into. I scream bur our leader ignores it and begins to climb up the side and past the enormously fat spiders. I'm frozen with fear and decide to follow too late. They take the spiders by surprise and manage to make it through a tiny hole in the web. The fat black and bulbous spider crawls over to the hole and seals it up. I am stuck.

I really think that binaural beats don't work for me. Whenever I listen to headphones and try to sleep I just cannot do it. Last night I barely got any sleep at all. It was horrible. I only remember the vaguest fragment of a dream:

My brother in law is on a roof and so am I. But the roof I am on is a good 15 feet away from him. I look around. It's sunny out and it looks like we're in the desert somewhere. The setting kinda reminds me of Assassins Creed. I suddenly run forward as fast as I can and leap towards the other roof. I hit the side of the building and my fingers barely clasp the edge of the roof. My heart is pounding and I'm able to pull myself over the edge. I lay there for a second before continuing towards my brother in law. I get to him and say something to him. I can't remember what I said. But I know I mention that we're on some sort of mission. So I point across the way and tell him, after exchanging a few words, that we need to head over there to fight off a few people. After that we need to jump back towards another building where we can meet up at our 'base'. So we do. We jump across and again I barely make it. My hands are just barely over the edge of the ledge. I pull myself up. We fight off a few people on this new building before heading back to the building with our "team". For us to get there we can't jump straight to the roof, we have to hit the ground and then scramble up a rope ladder. I go first. I hit the dusty ground and am on and up the ladder before I can take a second breath. My brother in law attempts the same thing but as soon as he hits the ground he moves too slow and is swept away by a group of men in ninja costumes.

I also remember a few little fragments but I'm not going to write those down. I barely got any sleep. It was terrible.

I dreamed that I was in some bigger, darker, version of my parents old house. This man and woman were there. And then it was a store, somehow. And they were shopping. I ask the person I'm working with if the two "had left yet". She says yes and I say: "Thank goodness," and as I say that I notice they are still here so I quickly change it to, "Because I needed to use the restroom." so as not to annoy them or make it seem like I'm badmouthing them. Anyways, I go back to use the bathroom and for some reason there's a woman with the guy that I wanted to leave and she's freaking me out. For some reason she's suffering from this "Alzheimer" like disease that can only be cured by this product called 'squid juice'. What it does is it (the disease) slowly makes you forget everything you love. I somehow gave it to her. Then Justin Long is somehow there and he's hunting me down and I'm trying to hide. He never catches/finds me. But I hear him saying that the 'squid juice' doesn't cure everyone. He pours some of it on his hand/face and worms start to bubble out of it and then he says, "It doesn't always get to what is inside.". And that's all I really remember.

And then for some reason Leah and I are at this really run down looking movie theater. We're on our "honeymoon" (don't ask me how I know this) and we wanted to go see a movie. So we get our tickets and, at first, have a helluva time finding our movie room. Somehow we end up like a mile past our actual room before having to double back. We find it, room 13, and go in. Immediately I'm hit by the smell of must and decay. There is a woman wearing loose sweatpants, she's a big woman, and the first thing she says when we come in is: "Finally ya made it." So we go all the way into the room. The actual silver screen is nice but instead of cozy chairs there is a gigantic white bench/pyramid that is covered in kids. We make our way over there. The kids are yelling and loud. There is a man at the front of the room by the screen trying to calm them down. He can't. So he sends in a "band jockey". A band jockey is a guy that is in the band that entertains the kids between shows. I don't know how I know this. So he comes in and asks the kids to quiet down, they don't. He gets mad and leaves again. When he comes back, again, he's dressed in some bizarre "Bashir" costume. He has a big oily black mustache and a giant wig. The kids listen after laughing a little bit. And then we're somehow back in our "hotel room" and I remember trying my hardest to get out of the clothes I was wearing and to bag them up. The smell from the theater is clinging to them and it's making my dream self gag.

I couldn't sleep well last night. I'm on my fourth day of the Infinity course (I'm at the point where I'm doing MILD and hand theory before going to bed and then waking up a few hours for the WBTB technique). But I kept waking up. I don't think I ever fell into a deep enough sleep to make the WBTB technique work. I tried listening to binaural beats while I was asleep but I think they kept me awake.

Til next time.

So I'm driving up to Sterling to see a movie. With my mom, I guess. And for some reason a few other friends are there: Lawrence, Austin, maybe Chris. We get to the theater and I don't even sit near my mom. It's a war movie, I think. Afterwords as we are filing out of the theater my mom comes jogging over to me and I go to give her a hug to say thanks for coming and goodnight. She asks if I want to go grab some dinner though. I can tell she wants to just to prolong our time together. I tell her that I can't because it's getting late. So she's sort of disappointed but she leaves anyways.

Then for some reason I suggest going to grab dinner to my friends. They don't really want to go but for whatever reason they say "Yeah, OK." Lawrence is reluctant but eventually caves and Austin seems gung ho to do it. So we split up to our respective cars and decide to meet at a restaurant. I get to the restaurant and realize that I'm still waiting for them. I don't know how I know but suddenly I realize that Lawrence got into a car wreck. And that the police officer on the scene took his sweet time taking Lawrence to the hospital, on purpose. And I'm furious that the man would risk my friends life just to be an asshole.

For some reason I'm pulling into a Wal Mart parking lot. I'm about to hop outta my car and run inside, to buy an ethernet cable of course, when I realize that I forgot the power cable to my laptop at work. I'm instantly annoyed (I'm super paranoid about doing this, in real life) and measure what I should do. Should I run back to work real quick? Leave it there until tomorrow? So I decide to run into Wal Mart real quick and THEN head back and get the power cable. I'm miffed but I go inside anyways and start making my way towards the cables. I hear over the intercom: "Is it OK to still sell it? Do I really have to buy it?" And I pass this guy in the pencil/paper aisle who was actually doodling on all of the sketch paper. And some Wal Mart employee was telling him he can't do that and he has to buy it. As the two guys are talkign I quietly pull out an eraser and start erasing all of his doodles. I remember thinking that I'm helping them but I realize I'm not erasing the doodles 100% so it probably doesn't matter.

And then I'm at the cable aisle. There's a heavier fellow there, obviously an employee--he is dressed in a blue button up and jeans and has a name tag on and is also balding, and a woman. The woman is looking for some sort of cable that has spider mite protection inside of it. For whatever reason the employee asks me if a certain product will work for her and I say, "Yeah, it sure looks like it." As if the item even exists. And then I ask the employee if he has ethernet cables and he rolls his eyes as if that's a stupid question and says, "Yeah."

I woke up this morning and walked around for a few minutes and could not remember a single dream or even a fragment and then suddenly the above all came flooding back into me.