Katsuno's Awesome Ninja Tales!

Okay, last night I went to bed extremely tired and extremely late...didn't do meditation because I couldn't even sit upright anymore. The 4 hours of Parkour training yesterday were also really exhausting.

1st: Me and a team of people had to infiltrate some kind of research lab. We had weapons and a plan so we went inside. For some reason the lab was completely destroyed and it looked a bit like in a horror movie. It was dark and some lights were flashing once in a while.
So we went to the elevator to get down into the depths of the facility. Somehow the plan of the laboratory looked like there was a gigantic cave underneath the lab.
The elevator wasn't working anymore so we had to crouch through the air shafts. It was really dusty in there.
Suddenly we heard a noise. It was a kid laughing. Damn, I hate kids in horror movies.
We continued crouching through the shafts until we finally reached the cave. It was gigantic and pipes were all over the place. This is where my recall kinda gets foggy.
I think we fought against some monsters and I lost all my teammates.
The next thing I remember is climbing up a pipe when suddenly a really scary looking kid was standing in front of me. It looked at me with dark eyes and started laughing. Suddenly it teleported in front of me and looked me deep into my eyes. I was so freakin' scared!
Now a nightmare started. The kid said something about "This will be your worst nightmare" in a really scary voice.
My dream vision faded and I was caught in some kind of black fog while random scary images were flashing up in front of my eyes. Adrenaline was pumping through my body.
Suddenly I realized that I actually like scary stuff and started enjoying the fear. I embraced the fear and it was a really interesting feeling. On one hand I was scared to death but on the other hand I was smiling.
Then it all stopped and the kid disappeared I think.

Interpretation: The thing with raiding the lab was probably coming from me playing Arma 2 all night. The scary thing, well my worst nightmares as a child were little girls in black dresses in horror movies.


2nd: I only remember fragments here. Something about me being in a crowd of people talking to this girl. She was pretty so I tried to pick her up. At some point I could see how she was losing interest in what I was saying so I switched tactics. I made jokes about how people always use cheap tricks to pick up girls and I was just being myself at that point. Suddenly she gained interest again and at some point I pulled her home I think.

Also, I had a daydream of me being challenged to make out with a girl during the day, which I did with a very beautiful girl. Then we went in a train and the daydream continued the laboratory dream. Apparently, me and my friends were hired to clean out the laboratory after the first team (which was the first dream) died there. For some reason the girl I made out with was also there. I asked her what the hell she was doing there and she said she was the owner of that laboratory. Plot twist much lol
Before we went into the lab, I stopped daydreaming.

Okay, last night I failed badly because I got no sleep. I went to bed at the usual time but I wasn't able to fall asleep until like 1 AM.
Tonight I'll fall asleep instantly though because I did parkour for 4 hours today

I also noticed that ADA is becoming a passive process in my mind, I don't even need to put in effort anymore. I actually enjoy being aware all the time because life is more intense that way.

Yay

Last night doing ADA and analyzing my dreams finally paid out. The more I consistently do ADA, the more I get a 'feeling' of my dreams. I'm gonna continue doing this.

Lucid:
I was in some kind of house. It looked like a luxury mansion and the furniture looked really expensive. For some reason it was my house and apparently I was the richest person in the world. Awesome.
Suddenly I started to become aware. I realized that this feels different than RL and I got lucid. But I liked the thought of being rich so I decided not to interrupt the dream.
Actually, I wanted to try to observe a dream anyway so this came in handy.
By doing ADA in the dream everything became extremely real. I felt just like when I do ADA IRL. Suddenly a guy came to me. He was my butler.
I told him to mix me a drink as I like dream food/drinks. He went on and I kept observing the environment. That house was amazing! I felt the same way I want to feel in real life: No worrys and just enjoying life.
When my butler was done, he gave me some orange cocktail. It tasted like maracuja and orange with some alcohol. Yummy
I always had to keep reminding me that I was dreaming and doing ADA. But through the meditation training it wasn't even that hard anymore.
Suddenly my 'parents' showed up. They weren't my real parents but I didn't mind. They said I can go wherever I want because I'm rich. Suddenly I noticed how the dream environment just changed. It's really interesting to see how normal dreams change locations without you actually realizing it. Thanks to ADA I did noticed it though.
I was now at an airport with a huge mall inside. For some reason I had to chose a country to fly to in my holidays.
Sadly, at that point I lost my focus and my lucidity...and I can't remember what happened afterwards. Something about meeting a girl from my old class and talking to her about hairstyles lol


Anyway, SUCCESS!
This is awesome, especially considering that I went to bed at 3 AM last night.

Last night I don't remember anything. I got 10 hours of sleep but my memory is nothing. Zero.
It's as if I was in deep sleep for the whole night.

I even meditated before going to bed.

This is weird now but I'm just gonna continue doing ADA until results show.

Last night I was so tired of not sleeping the night before that I totally forgot meditation.
However, REM-rebound kicked in and I had awesome dreams.

1st: I was visiting the local carnival with some friends. We walked around in a huge tent with lots of people drinking beer and stuff. My friend gave me some money and we both bought the stereotypical bavarian beer. I tasted it and it was so tasty!
We then walked around some more while getting a little bit tipsy from the beer. We met other friends and that's about all I remember.

Interpretation: I couldn't get the chance to visit the actual carnival this year and I was really angry. Probably some regret-memory of mine.

2nd: I was on a castle with lots of wizards. I was a wizard myself and I had the Fairy Tail mark on my arm. Suddenly a huge army approached the castle. We were told to defend it. A bridge was seperating the castle from the army. Suddenly a huge dragon appeared and just crushed my mates. I tried to attack the dragon but it was way too strong for me. The army approached and we tried to defend the castle but we just couldn't. At some point the castle was overrun and we lost.

Interpretation: Fairy Tail rocks! I love that anime and almost every night I dream of it now.

3rd: I was sitting in the bus to my village. Some random strangers sat next to me and talked about how they drink lots of water during the day. I told them that I barely have any water with me when I go to school and we had some random conversations. I felt some kind of 'vibe' from myself that showed that I was very confident.

Interpretation: Pickup dream, I flirted with one of the strangers and I felt like I could totally control the conversation.


Had another dream but it was very personal so I'm not gonna write it down.

My plans for tonight are a little different. I'm gonna continue doing ADA but when I go to bed I'll try some self-hypnotization experiments. I've read something on a different DJ and I want to try it out.

Had to stay up all night because some friends of school slept over at my house.
I did a lot of awesome awareness training and I finally found out that I'm not doing ADA to get lucid but rather to increase my overall life quality...life is just more intense if you are aware of all the sensations.
Maybe this will help the awareness to carry over into my dreams.

So for tonight I'm gonna continue my "Don't even try to get lucid" method and hope that my subconscious will force me to do a RC.

Okay, last night I didn't get lucid again. But I think I know why...so I came up with a way to change this now.

I'm in a hurry so I can't write much. Short interpretation of my dreams:

1st: Dream about a girl I dated and something about a waterpark.

Interpretation: Memories and wishes to meet the girl again. Waterpark was probably a memory of my childhood.

2nd: Dream about visiting my dad for the last time, he was about to die. I was really sad and cried in the dream. Then something about our new cat being really cute lol

Interpretation: My dad is really sick and he's probably gonna die soon. I always pretend to not be sorry for him but I will be sad if he dies anyway.

Alright, last night some drama happened so I decided to not count it as a 'official' attempt. I'll just do whatever I did yesterday for today.

Here's my short DJ of what I remember:

1st: I dreamed of playing Stacraft against someone. We built lots of Motherships and he defeated me in the end.

Interpretation: Memory/Wish of me playing starcraft again.

2nd: Dream of me playing Basketball against some people. I felt useless and lost the game in shame

Interpretation: Fear of me being bullied because of not fulfilling expectations.

3rd: Dream of me doing Parkour and meeting David Belle

Interpretation: Probably memory of me talking to a friend about me becoming David Belle one day

4th: Weird dream about the father of my friend trying to kill me while I sleep. I woke up sweating

Interpretation: No idea xD

Alright, last night the results blew my mind.

I can remember 8 dreams and almost everyone in detail (which I'm going to write here shortly) and I had about 4 FA's where I did ADA. Also, I got a feeling of how my dreams feel.
In the following I'm gonna write my dreams and also I'll try to analyze them.

1st Dream:

I only remember this dream vaguely because it was the very first dream I had. Basically this dream was a whole rehearsal of a video I watched before going to bed. It was about Pickup and I even knew that I was going to dream about this when I went to bed. But instead of fighting it I accepted the fact that I would eventually dream about this video and well, I did. I woke up after this dream (after about 4 hours of sleep) and knew that this knowledge was now memorized in my brain.

Interpretation: Well, you dream about what you've seen that day (especially if it was right before going to bed). I'm kinda glad because dreaming about something you did during the day strengthens the knowledge.

2nd Dream:

This dream was pretty weird. At first I was in my car with my mother and we drove around in a nearby village. Suddenly the water level rose and there was water on the street. We tried to drive away but the road to get out of the village was blocked by water. Everywhere I could see people trying get away or trying to block the water. In the dream I remembered how I've seen this before (IRL) and I parked the car at the highest place in the village. Suddenly the water level rose again rapidly and all the cars on the road were flooded. I told my mom that we are lucky to have parked up on the hill. For some reason I was now at the road standing in the water up to my knees.
My mom told me to get to the car so I started walking. Suddenly the water rose even higher and I had to swim. The water looked like a swamp and it was really really deep...just like swimming in a lake. While I was swimming I woke up.

Interpretation: I actually drove over a flooded street some days ago so I guess this dream was just an old memory getting mixed in the dream.

3rd Dream:

This dream was some kind of nightmare. I was the dude from the game "Postal" (which is extremely brutal and scary sometimes) and I was walking along a huge hallway. I felt like I was in hell (which is a place where you go in the game at some point) and I had a sledgehammer and a revolver. Suddenly some mutated hell-dogs attacked me. They were huge, red, bloody and extremely ugly. They tried to jump me but I could hit them with the hammer and just smash their skulls. Then I took the revolver and shot them but they took about 3 shots to die. Suddenly one of them got me and tried to bite me in my face. I managed to throw it off and just destroyed him with the hammer.
I reached some kind of door and woke up. The whole dream I had a negative and scary feeling.

Interpretation: I don't really know why I dream of this game, haven't thought about or played it for many months. But I was always kinda scared of it so maybe it's a unresolved trauma.

4th Dream:

In this dream I started on a huge field of grass. In the distance I could see some kind of tower made out of dirt. On top of it was a platform. The sun was shining and the whole atmosphere and the environment reminded me of Fairy Tail anime. I approached the tower and there were 2 people which I didn't know. One of them was standing on the platform always falling down and climbing back up, the other one was on the ground looking up to the guy and screaming something like "You can do it!".
I just jumped up the platform somehow (I don't remember) and when I was standing on top of it there were 2 new people. They were both characters of Fairy Tail (Erza and Natsu I think) and I hugged Erza. Somehow I felt like the Natsu was Lmrhone and I was like "Wow, we're in Cardia!". I didn't recognize that Fairy Tail has nothing to do with Cardia lol
That's about all I remember and I woke shortly after.

Interpretation: I got no idea what those 2 guys earlier were doing. I only laughed about how he tried to constantly get up the tower. Maybe something about how I laugh about people who try too hard to do something IRL...
And the other thing was my wish to have a SD and go to Cardia I think.

5th Dream:

This is a compilation of multiple FA's but I'll treat them as one dream. It happened after I went to bed with the intent to be aware and do ADA. Well, in the FA's I woke up and did ADA but I didn't realize it was a real dream due to False Awakening. That's why I switched my ADA routine to do a RC at the end everytime.

Interpretation: Not much to say about this, usual FA after going to bed with intent.

6th Dream:

This was a Parkour Dream. I was in some foreign city walking around in my usual parkour clothes. I reached a park and some jerks were trying to climb up a roof and yelled "Parkour, Parkour!". I was like "Whatever" and ran up to a different house. It was perfect for parkour so I climbed up and after some actions I was on the roof.
After that I got bored and walked around the city. I then met a girl I know from class and we talked. That's all I remember.

Interpretation: My usual ego trying to brag when I see people doing things not the way they are supposed to do

7th Dream:

I was now at a huge beach. There was a gigantic ship that resembled the ships the vikings used. I walked to the ship and entered it. For some reason all my classmates were inside trying to row. They wanted to sail across the sea to the other side of the beach (which was completely stupid because it was just like 50 meters and the ship was so huge).
I sat down and helped them to row. We talked about some stuff I can't remember and when we reached the other side I got out and woke up again.

Interpretation: Memory of meeting my classmates.

8th Dream:

It was night. I was in some kind of huge garden. I was able to use magic and I walked around looking for something. Suddenly some enemies appeared, they looked like small wizards. I ran away and got to a graveyard. I don't really remember what I did but I think I fought using magic and the whole area reminded me of Fairy Tail and Tera Online. At some point I woke up, very short dream.

Interpretation: No idea at all. Lately I like the thought of being able to use magic thanks to Fairy Tail anime


Alright, that's all about my dreams.

My plans for today/tonight are to keep doing ADA (actually I'm doing it right now and I can't really stop anymore) and meditate when going to bed. And well, I'll just go to bed without any intentions other than to keep the awareness up.

Here's the current situation: I've been out all day and I'm physcially and mentally tired. Luckily I'll go to bed early so I'll get about 10 hours of sleep.

My plan for tonight is to figure out a way to get lucid in a dream (DILD). I've re-read the ADA tutorial and I noticed that I did it improperly for a long time. I'm changing this right now as I'm trying to be aware of everything that happens while I'm writing this entry. I can even notice how my fingers hit the keyboard.

When I go to bed I'll meditate for about 20 minutes, trying to completely clear my mind. And when my mind is clear I'll go to bed.

There's nothing to win and nothing to loose, I won't be mad if I don't get lucid as I'll try to get rid of my ego. If I don't get lucid it simply means I have to change something, there's no mistake.

In case I don't get lucid, I'll write down exactly what I dreamed of, how I felt when I wake up and basically anything that I can notice. That way I'll be able to figure out what I need to change.

One thing is important though, and I just figured this out while writing a PM to Windy: I will do the opposite of what I'd normally do now. Instead of thinking about getting aware in my dreams before going to bed (after meditation), this time I'll just try to be myself in my dreams. My real self is doing ADA all the time so by not trying to change myself I should have a pretty decent chance of getting lucid
Also this takes care of the self-fulfilling prophecy of telling myself to wake up in the morning to write down my dreams even though I should be able to wake myself up after my LD's (which basically makes me expect to not get lucid in the end).

Let's see if just completely being myself and stopping my ego will be the solution.

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Alright, this is the beginning of my upcoming 30-Day challenge to become able to have lucid dreams every night.

In this first entry, I'll write down my goals for the challenge and also the basic things I need to improve.

As I write this basically just for myself I'm not even sorry for any grammar errors.

Basic requirements for the challenge:

-I will go to bed at 8 pm everyday during the week and around 10 pm at weekends (unless I'm going out at night to improve my social skills).

-I will keep a detailed Dream Journal to analyze how the things I've done during the day affect my dreams.

-I won't use any external help like alarms or isochronic-tones to aid in lucidity.

-I will meditate for at least 20 minutes a day (everyday).

-I will not give up before the 30 days.

-I will not, under any circumstances, make any excuses just to protect my ego.

-If I don't have the chance to sleep (for reasons such as going out at night), I will add another day to the challenge until I've successfuly done it for 30 days.

Goals

I want to:

-Be able to erase my fear of not being in control of my mind.

-Learn how to wakefully induce a lucid dream (WILD) and adapt to the new situation every night.

-Finally do something until the end without quitting beforehand.

-Understand how my dreams form and how my non-LDs behave so I can be able to find a way to get lucid in my dreams consistently.

-Become a better person through meditation and to be able to control my emotions.

-Be able to get lucids even when pressured so I can finally participate in the IOSDP's experiments and projects.

-Understand how dream time works and how to influence my perception of time in the dream.

Dream Goals

-Become my RPG character Matsukio and explore Cardia.

-Meet Windy in a shared lucid dream.

-Fly as high as I can and then just freefall to the ground until I hit it, hopefully simulating the pain.

-Find out what my deepest fear is and then confront it to get an adrenaline rush.

-Practice Pickup.

-Create an awesome location for Parkour and activate real life gravity to make it more challenging.

-Learn how to do close-combat.

-Completely indulge myself in frustration and anger and enjoy the rampage.


More Dreamgoals will follow when I actually have success.

3 Types of Motivation

Negative Motivation: I want to surpass everyone else to brag about it. I want to compensate for everything that has happened to me in the past and live out my revenge. I want to use Shared Dreaming to hurt everyone who has hurt me in the past.

Neutral Motivation: I want to be a better person and improve my life quality. I'm doing this only for myself aiding my self-growth. I'm doing Shared Dreaming just for fun.

Positive Motivation: I want to refine my knowledge so I can teach others how to prevent the mistakes I did. I want to help other people to improve their lifes. I want to show the world that Shared Dreaming is possible and open their eyes.


Alright, that's it so far. Starting tomorrow I'll write goals for every upcoming night, what I want to improve that night and how I plan to do it.

I never had a dream like this before...it was weird, disturbing and realistic. When I woke up I thought that all this was a real memory but luckily it was just a dream.

The dream began in a street not far away from my home. It was dark and I had a shovel in my hands. The beginning of this dream is pretty foggy...I see an old friend of mine (well, he was my friend years ago but he became a douche so I didn't talk to him anymore) and for some reason my mind is filled with thoughts of murder. The next thing I remember is me hitting the back of his head with the shovel to kill him. I didn't feel bad...in fact it felt quite enjoyable. It was this ecstatic feeling you get when, for some reason, your mind just goes blank and you are in pure rage. And while being in this phase you manage to hurt someone/something and it just feels so good. The feeling of revenge when the world treats you unfair...the feeling of beating up a person you absolutely hate because he made you hate your life....this takes me back to my 7th grade when I used to get bullied :/
Anyway, at this point I woke up. I remembered the dream and wanted to go back to it. I fell asleep again and the dream continued. I now was in my house and planned where and how to bury his dead body. It was so realistic and I went over every detail so the police won't find it. I decided to dig a deep hole on some field and bury him there. The dream skips and I'm not on the field in front of a deep hole. I could see the roots of the plants in the dirt and I threw his body in the hole. Then I filled it with earth again and left. Dream skips again and I'm now reading the newspaper that his mom is desperately searching for him. I didn't feel bad again, I felt even better. The police was searching all over the area but they couldn't find the body. Next thing I remember is the police coming to my house to question me. I let them in but tell them that I haven't had contact with him for many months and they had no evidence whatsoever. I don't really remember the next part but I think I went to the hole again to check something...I woke up.

Well, this was really disturbing...I haven't felt this feeling of frenzy for many many years and I'm over my past. I'm in control of my emotions now so I'm pretty happy that this was just a dream :O

So last night I also had many fragments (just like last time) but this time they were really weird...

1st: (fragment) There was something about Naruto and I wasn't part of the dream. I just saw how Rock Lee appeared and I think some people fought...

2nd: (fragment) This time I dreamed about One Piece. And I was part of the dream. Luffy was with me and the fishman pirate Arlong appeared. It seems like he was resurrected and now wanted to kill us. I think we fought with him...

3rd: I was on Dreamviews and wrote down my DJ from the experiment night (how ironic). For some reason I wrote it down in german and told the other members that they would have to translate it lol. I wrote down my dreams about One Piece and Naruto and I think Lmrhone dreamed about the same thing. And I was chatting with Windy.

4th: Something about a computer game. I think it was Terraria. It was as if I was a character from the game in 2D but I could still talk and hear it like I was in a different place. I watched myself being a character while controlling myself from my computer. There were other people with me and I dug really deep into the earth. The last thing I remember is fighting against some kind of boss.

So last night I had mostly fragments but some of them were really weird...

1st: (fragment) I was inside some kind of house with other people and a ghost attacked us. I'm not sure why but we had to run away and sometimes it appeared in front of us to attack. At some point I had a shotgun and shot it.

2nd: (fragment) I had the same shotgun from the last fragment but this time I was in a research facility or something like that. Soldiers kept running towards me to stop me but I had to shoot them down.

3rd: (fragment) I dreamed of Windy getting lucid. It's really foggy but I think she even talked to me or tried to reach me... The whole memory has the feeling of Windy's energy

4th: (fragment) I was on some kind of ship in the desert. I had a weapon and a friend of mine tried to get to me. Now I noticed that it was actually a game. I think I shot in the air a couple of times...

5th: (Lucid Daydream) So when I woke up I tried to do Lucid Daydreaming to get to Windy. I opened a portal and jumped through it. Suddenly I was flying high up in the sky. I summoned another portal and this time I was standing in a forest with some kind of 'altar' in the middle. When I went on it I passed out.

So last night I had a really fun dream


The first thing I can remember is being at some kind of New-Year-Party. We were outside and everybody wore thick mantles and jackets. I sat down on some bench with my friends and this girl appeared. She reminded me of somebody but some facial features were different. She had blonde/black hair and looked really beautiful. She came over to us and we talked. For some reason I knew a lot of things about her. Maybe we met before. So suddenly the firework started and it was New Year. Everybody cheered and hugged and this girl looked at me and smiled. She kissed my cheeks so I grinned and acted as if I wanted to kiss her mouth. Suddenly she responded to that gesture and we kissed. She laughed and said that she thinks I'm cute. I was so astounded that I just blabbered some senseless stuff. Suddenly it was day again. I walked towards a forest and noticed a really big gate. It reminded me of Avatar because it was pretty much that Steampunk/Traditional style. I wanted to get up there. Some DC's told me that I have to jump while pushing myself up with airbending. I noticed I was dreaming but decided to go with the dream. So I ran towards the gate and jumped with all my force. *Bam* "Ouch..." I hit the ground after falling about 5 meters. I stood up and tried again. Same thing happened but this time I got further in the air. I got pissed and jumped with all my force and tried to push the air down to propell me. *Whooosh!" I flew toward the top of the gate. It was so close only some inches and......I fell. Just before hitting the ground from falling like 30 feet I saved myself by pushing the air below me to soften the fall. So this time I got really pissed. I jumped up and just focused on airbending. MADE IT! Yes, I was standing on top of the gate. But it was not enough. I jumped forward and started to fly with airbending. It was the most amazing thing ever. It felt so awesome and I could see the whole landscape below me. I returned at landed. "What can I do now?" I thought. But as I walked on the dream faded and I woke up