Krista's Dream Journal

Dream - Lucid

I was with Ryan. I remember there being 3 children, 2 girls and a boy. For some reason, we had to buy them each 2 gifts: An article of clothing, and a toy. They gave us lists of what they wanted. We were shopping for them at Old Navy. I remember seeing that the youngest girl wanted these purple-striped panties. I found a pair, but they had multi-colored stripes instead of purple. I looked for the purple ones, but they were out. I picked the multi-colored ones off of the shelf. They looked like a thong. I thought that they were NOT age appropriate, because the girl was so young. I mentioned something about it to Ryan, saying I couldn't believe what 'kids these days' were wearing or something.

I then remember telling Ryan we could get the shopping done faster if we split up, and I went and found the shampoo (??) and he went and got the clothes. We started shopping that way, but somehow ended up shopping together again. I remember wishing that the store had the purple-striped panties, because the girl really wanted them. I kept picking up the multi-colored ones, and finally deciding to get those.

Then, I remember something about a girl named Twila ('twi' as in 'twilight'). I remember being in a room with her and a lot of other girls. She had long, wavy blonde hair. I remember her being at a table with some codine pills on it. I compared her to some girl I used to be friends with in high school named Stephanie.

Then, I remembered that I hadn't bought a toy for the youngest girl. I hadn't been able to find what she wanted, which was some "My Little Pony" doll. The kids all already had their gifts. I decided I needed to go to their house and tell them that I was going to get the youngest girl a toy.

I got to the house, which was at the end of a cul de sac. I had to climb a ladder to get up to the entrance of the house. I got up there, and the parents saw me. They wanted to kill me because I hadn't bought a toy for the youngest child. I tried to explain myself, but they wouldn't listen. They didn't seem angry either; they were eerily calm about it.

I then remember running away and trying to hide from them over and over, but they kept finding me. I remember the father flashing a pair of surgical scissors (not sure what to call them) at me, and I thought to myself "Face your fears, nothing can hurt you right now". It was implied that I was dreaming, and I recognized it, but I still ran from the man, forgetting my thought.

At one point, I was back in the main room of the house that you entered after climbing the ladder. I saw the youngest girl. She had blonde hair, big eyes, and looked like she was about 3 or 4 years old. I knelt down to her height. She said something about me not getting her a toy. She seemed sad. I told her that I was going to get her one, and I promised I would. She looked hopeful, and said
"Really?"
I told her yes, I would.

While I was talking to her, her father found me again. I knew it was only a matter of time. I remember then running to the entrance to the house, and going down the ladder. At some point, I remember trying to transform into Link from the Zelda games, cause then I could kick some ass. I remember seeing Kacey down at the bottom, standing in the cul de sac. I feel like there were many other people there as well. I was talking to and looking at Kacey, when I remembered my thought from earlier.

It's a dream! But I like this dream, do I really want to be lucid right now? I guess I could forget and keep seeing where the dream takes me...no, I haven't been lucid in awhile...fuck it! I looked at Kacey's face. She smiled at me. She looked beautiful. I started to laugh, rubbed my hands together, and took off into the air. I flew above trees. I said
"I can fly! Why? Because I'm dreaming! I can do whatever I want!!"

I then remember feeling the dream fade. I was then down at a very clear river that was located in a field of very green grass. I was standing next to Link. He told me he was "pandering" for gold in the river. He gave me 3 green leaves, one small, one medium, and one large. I then knew he used those to "pander" for gold. I looked into the clear river. Many golden flakes and specks floated by.

Then, I "woke up" and started to type out my dream on my mom's laptop. I was sitting downstairs in the living room. I started to write about how the dream had started with Link and I "pandering" for gold, and me turning into Link at some point.

I then "woke up" again. I repeated the same process. I had to minimize a ton of my mom's files on her computer, because she had a ton of them open. I started looking for my dream, I thought maybe I had saved it as a draft to finish typing later. When I couldn't find it, I knew I had had an FA and was kinda irritated about having to type everything again.

This happened a third time before I finally actually woke up.

Dream - Lucid

I was in a grocery store/office building. Everyone was lined up at these tables all over the store. We were all in pairs. The person I was with, a guy, was making smoothies with weed in them. He made us each one, and we drank them. They tasted slightly sweet, but mostly earthy. We were trying to avoid being caught.

Then, the guy was my friend Melody. She wanted to buy more weed, but didn't have the money. Her dealer was there, this big guy. He was asking her for money and she was begging to pay him later. I told her I could contribute $20 but that's it, and she would have to give me some of the weed. She kept saying "Thank you! Thank you so much!". The dealer gave me the baggie of weed. The problem was, I didn't have the $20 on me; I had to go to the bank to get it. I tried to give it back to him until I had my money, but he gave it back to me.

I then remember being outside my house in the driveway. It was dusk. I was waiting for my motorcycle to come back so I could get back to the store/office with the money. There were lots of people there waiting for their motorcycles to return. Funny thing was, no one was manning the cycles; they were just driving up and people were getting on them. I then had someone warn me to not go back to town, because "everything was getting smashed". I felt like I had heard about this, but still decided I needed to get back.

I got back to the building. Melody had a sheet from her dealer that she had to fill out since she didn't have the money, explaining why she didn't. She pulled out a pipe. It looked similar to mine, but had a much bigger bowl. She packed it and started smoking. She passed it to me. I took a hit, then heard, saw, and felt something.
Thump.
My perpective changed and I saw a wall being shaken.
Thump.
I looked up. The ceiling was glass above me. Through the glass, I saw a piece of construction equiptment. It was what was causing all the destruction in town; it had malfunctioned and was out of control. I remember someone referring to it as a "hammer". It was very tall and yellow. It was barelling towards us. There was a clamour to get to the basement; we all ran downstairs as part of the machine came crashing through the glass ceiling. Glass was flying everywhere. I hoped to not get cut, but thought that it would be better than being crushed. I remember being huddled with Melody in a small corner.

Then, just as we thought the whole thing was over, the whole machine fell down into the building. I thought it was going to land on me, but it landed right in front of me instead. It had trapped some of my friends under it. I remember seeing my old friend Cameron trapped under the huge machine. He was crying out for help, a pained look on his face. I reached out to him.
"Cameron!", I cried. Many people were reaching out to help him. I remember people touching his face.
Then, I saw my friend Jason trapped as well.
"Jason!", I cried out. I reached out to grab his hand.

I then remember typing out this dream in my DJ here on DV. I remember typing out a weird title in the "Title" box. I worried about the drug content of the dream being discovered by my college.

~

I was in Ryan's van with him. We were parked next to my neighbor's house. There was a van parked next to us with two older women sitting in it. They looked like they were up to something. Ryan and I were trying to figure something out or we were talking or something, and after awhile, the ladies were still there in their van. Hmm...

Then, I remember walking through the halls of what looked like my elementary school. I saw two dead dogs in the hallway. One was a big brown dog, and the other was a small Beagle laying in a space under my neighbor's mailbox. It was like I was inside and outside at the same time. I then knew that the ladies had killed the dogs and left them there. I remember seeing a few girls crowded around the dead Beagle and patting its head. I thought that maybe he was still alive.

I then remember talking to Ryan. He mentioned a brown dog named Espresso, and I told him that dog was the dead dog in the street/hallway. He gave me a weird, surprised look. He said
"Oh...", and then something else...can't remember what.
I remember then telling him that was what the ladies in the van next to us were doing. Either they dumped them there or they placed them there and ran them over.

I then remember being under some pavilion outside. It was after my first class of the day, and it had a bunch of booths set up for food. I remember looking at one line and seeing two people from high school: Megan and Daniel. They were apparently dating. I remember seeing Daniel wearing a white shirt with small flower shapes cut out of it. I thought about this for awhile: Why would he be wearing that? He's a dude. I examined the sleeves. They weren't ruffled or anything. I decided he was just wearing whatever he wanted.

I then turned around and saw a Chik-Fil-A booth. I wanted lunch, but they were only giving out biscuits and some nuggets. I remember hearing someone say something about a biscuit being a "snack".

Dream - Lucid

I remember Kacey and her ex boyfriend being in some office room and sneakily trying to make/watch porno (the porno they were watching was of themselves). I feel like I was somehow doing it too, but not with them.

I then remember looking at some carnival ride that went really fast. It would light up in yellows. You entered a box and the ride took you around very fast in a square. If you landed on one of the corners of the square, you won a prize. The winning box would light up green. I remember telling Kacey that I had won the prize once.

Then, I was on some crazy carnival ride that took you back and forth, like a see-saw, and then upside down and right side up very fast. I remember it was blue. I did NOT want to be on the ride, and I kept hearing, every time the ride would switch directions, someone saying
"Hold on!"
I held on tight to a bar. I remember holding on with only one hand at some point.

Stress and lack of sleep is seriously killing my recall. But school will be over soon, so that should take some stress off. Thank. Goodness. -_-

Dream - Lucid

All I remember from my first dream is stretching my real body at the end of it and waking up actually stretching.

~

I was in some dark woods. My mom was trying to kill me. Not just me, but a lot of people. I was trying to avoid her.

I then remember being in a dark creek bed with little water in it. My mom came from the distance, and looked over the creek at me. She told me she was going to kill me. I stuck my face in the small amount of water in he creek and pretended like I was drowning myself. I actually thought about really drowning myself while I was down there. I let out my breath. My mom saw what I was doing.
"Good.", she said.

As soon as I knew she was gone, I got up out of the water. I walked a little ways down the drying out creek bed. I saw guards behind me, searching for people. I knew that they shouldn't see me.

I also remember seeing my mom again, but it was like we were in my house now, which was still pretty dark. My mom now knew that I was alive, so I decided to tell her how I felt. I told her that I was upset with her because of what she was doing. She denied it, saying that she hadn't been doing that at all.

Then, I remember being outside in the creek bed again. I was sitting on a rock. Next to me was a small white cat. Her fur was all tattered and you could see that she had a lot of fleas; they were crawling around under her fur. I then knew that her father had gone missing, and she was very sad because there was a good chance that he was dead. I started to talk to her, trying to ask her if I could help her find her father. She just looked away from me. Then I asked her something, I don't remember what, but she said
"Because you're stupid."
I replied
"Oh? Where did you hear that from?"
"The newspaper.", she replied.
"I don't care about that.", I said.
I then started trying to talk to her about herself, trying to distract her from her sadness. I asked her what she was interested in, and she started talking about "partitioning", which, in the dream, meant hunting for very large diamonds. She started telling me about a famous "partitioner" in Argentina. She started getting very excited. I looked at her again, and she was now a girl, not a cat.

Then, I remember feeling my permanent bottom retainer in my mouth with my tongue. It then fell out in two pieces. It had never fallen out before. I spit it out into my hand. I thought about going to the orthodontist, but it was Saturday, so they were closed. Someone next to me told me they were easy to put back in. I tried to put it back in, but wasn't sure if I did it right. I felt it back in my mouth with my tongue.

Dream - Lucid

I was at my wedding...I was going to marry Ryan. It was outside in a green field. There were tons of chairs set up. We had never had a rehearsal dinner, so I was kind of worried about how things would go, but I hoped it would work out fine. I thought about being up at the alter, saying my vows. The wedding was to be at noon.

Then, I remember seeing a soccer field that kind of looked like a volleyball court behind where we were supposed to have the ceremony. I remember seeing Kim, a girl I work with, playing soccer with a group of people. My boss told her she wouldn't get credit for something because she wasn't going to be at my wedding. She said she knew. I wasn't really too concerned about it. The only thing was, I thought the game may interfere with the ceremony. Someone kicked a soccerball and it went out of bounds towards me. I took it and threw it back to them.

People started to fill up the empty seats that were set up. I was laying on my stomach to the right of the alter. I was wearing a strapless wedding dress. I noticed that my bridesmaids were all late; I didn't see any of them. The seats were full now...there were tons of people on both sides.

Then, a director by the alter started to direct the organ. The Wedding March started to play. I thought it was just a rehearsal of the music, so I just stayed where I was and watched. But then, I saw Ryan and his groomsmen walking to the alter. I thought about how it was said to be bad luck for the groom to see the bride in her wedding dress before the wedding. I also thought that Ryan must be confused, because this is just a rehearsal...right?

I remember seeing the director quietly counting the beats off to himself as he directed. He then looked at me as if to say "We're waiting for you, get up here!". I started to mouth to him whether or not I needed to be up there or not. Ryan and his groomsmen were standing at the alter. I then remember seeing 3 of my bridesmaids in long, black dresses covered in sequens standing at the alter. They had HUGE tags that the bridesmaids hadn't taken off of them yet. I guessed they were going to return them. I remember Rachel being one of the bridesmaids, and then a girl I barely know in waking life that I went to high school with, Lindsey, being one. I can't remember who the 3rd one was. They still weren't all there though. Upon closer examination of the bridesmaids' dresses, I noticed that they had some crazy, huge headpiece attatched to them. Wtf?

~

I was in a house. I was laying down to go to sleep. My bed was in the kitchen. I remember hearing music play. A woman was cleaning the kitchen, which was only lit by the light above the stove. She laid down next to me and tried to cuddle me. She whispered something in my ear. I said "no" to whatever it is that she said.

Then, I remember seeing Nick. He told me it was a shame that I was getting married, since so many guys liked me.

I then remember being by the kitchen sink. A lizard was swimming in a large glass of dirty water, which was sitting in the sink. The lizard was Kacey's, and I was watching him for her. I dumped out the dirty water in the glass, and filled in with clean water from the tap. The lizard then proceeded to use the bathroom, dirtying the water again. The glass was warm. Gross.

I was then going to fill the sink up with water and let him swim in there, but decided I first needed to put Belle, my cat, away first so she didn't eat him. I asked someone if the "Spanish room" was being used. I then saw my old high school Spanish teacher, Mrs. K. She said no, the room wasn't being used. I thought this was odd for a second, but didn't look too far into it.

I took Belle into the "Spanish room", which was located in the back of the house. It was a beautiful, old-timey-looking bedroom. I remember seeing big, billowy off-white curtains. It was very cute. I put Belle down in the room.

Dream - Lucid

I was trying to take a nap, and was having some hypnogogic hallucination about my friend Amanda, when all of the sudden, I felt sleep paralysis take over. I felt the heavy buzzing sensation in my head, and instantly knew I was about to enter a dream. I started trying to envision a scene I wanted to enter. I saw a dog's tail wagging in black space.

I felt the floaty feeling in my head that I usually feel when I enter dreams, and opened my eyes. I could still feel my body in SP (and could throughout this whole experience). I was in my room, laying in my bed. It was very bright in my room. Everything was very vivid. Next to my bed, I saw my friend Grace, and a girl I went to high school with, Kelsie. I thought about how I hadn't seen her forever. It looked like they were reading my dream journal, which is placed on the pillow on the other side of my bed in waking life. I got up off the bed, and was then crawling on the floor. My room was much spacier than usual, and there was nothing on the floor; it was very clean (another good indicator that it was a dream ). I crawled over to my full-length mirror, which was propped up against my chest of drawers in a slightly different place than it is in waking life. I see myself in the mirror. I'm now all the sudden crawling on the bed instead of the floor. I examine my reflection. I'm wearing all dark clothing. I thought I looked relatively normal and like myself. My eyes started to feel heavy, and I lost the dream and woke up.

Dream - Lucid

Didn't get much sleep last night, but it was totally worth it because...I GOT TO SEE LADY GAGA!!!

Anyway, on to the dreams.

I remember something about running an obviously red light, and then seeing a cop car with his lights flashing behind me. I started to pull over, but he passed me.

~

I was watching something play out before me; I was an observer. The plot was Donnie Darko-esque. I was in a house, and a young boy of about 9 or 10 was re-doing a part of his life, a part that was supposed to kill him, but he got to go back and re-do it so he didn't die.

His little sister was laying in a bed, and him and his parents were at the foot of the bed. They had a small fence-type thing that the boy had set on fire, and they were throwing things at the girl in the bed. They were laughing as they did it, making fun of her for something. The boy left, but first, put out the fire.

The fire was what was supposed to kill him. I heard the boy narrating what was supposed to happen: The fire was supposed to get out of hand, and there was supposed to be an explosion that he was caught in. He was supposed to be sent to the hospital, because his injuries caused him to "lose control of his bowels". Then, he was later supposed to die.

The boy watched these things play out, and regretted going back; he knew he had to die to keep the order of things. He willingly went back in time again so the events would play out like they should.

~

I remember waking up next to my friend, Caitlin. She had reset my alarm clock to go off at 9 instead of 8. I knew I was going to miss class and not be able to finish up my homework, but I was so tired, I didn't care.

Dream - Lucid

I was in the car at night. I was riding with Rachel, who was driving. Apparently, we were going to get married. I wanted to marry her AND Ryan. We found someone who would do it, but instead of Ryan, Rachel's friend Christina was there. Weird. I remember being in front of the person marrying us.

I didn't have a wedding band, but an engagement ring. The ring was super cheap. The band was gold and it had a small diamond set in it, though I don't think it was a real diamond. I remember it being a little too big as well, and it kept sliding around on my finger. It also kept bending; it was extremely malleable.

I remember also skipping data analysis, even though I'm out of absenses in that class. I did approach Rachel in a classroom, and asked her if we could at least have a wedding ceremony. She seemed bothered by my asking, and pretty much told me she couldn't afford it. I knew that I had rushed into things by marrying her; I felt like I should have been more patient. I didn't want to even be with her, I wanted to be with Ryan. I was dissappointed in myself for rushing.

I remember then, at some point, asking Rachel if she believed in coincidence. She told me yes, and started to explain why. I told her I didn't, and that I thought everything happened for a reason. She countered me by saying that only some things happen for a reason. I didn't understand a lot of what she was saying.

Then, I remember being outside in a huge pool of very clear water. I remember flashing my ring at a guy who had asked me out. The ring now didn't have a stone, but had a black oval in its place.

I then remember going underwater, and seeing a group of guys standing under there. It was like there was a small town under the water that had been flooded (I have been playing too much Zelda in waking life, haha). I swam to the bottom, and let my breath out so I would sink and be able to stand on the bottom. I talked to the guys. I then went up for air.

When I got to the top, my old friend Josh was there. I was talking to him about how upset I was about the whole marriage situation, and he said, after some talking,
"I won't be home from 2-8, but why don't you come over at 8 to keep me company?"
I knew what he meant by that...I would be cheating. I saw the seductive look in his eye. As he was leaving, I nodded and said yes, I would be there. I didn't feel super bad about it, but I did feel a little bad.

Then, I remember being in a huge, open stone field that was surrounded by some small buildings and trees. I thought I was under the water again, but upon further examination, I figured out I wasn't. I was talking to a lesbian, and I was telling her about the situation. I then concluded as I was talking
"You can't marry more than one person. I'm not even gay!" Big duh moment.
I then remember pulling out the marriage certificate. It looked very unofficial, and looked like a photo copy. It had Rachel's, Christina's, and my signatures on it. I ripped it up.

~

I was in some apartment/school. It was kind of like dorm rooms. People were stealing all of these things out of the rooms, things that were "bad", or something. I went into someone's room and took a poster off the door. I remember hearing the crumbling of paper as I took it with me. I went outside to put it in a car, but felt so bad about stealing, that I went back into the room and laid the poster down on the bed.

Then, I remember walking in a hallway that looked like a middle or high school lobby. I was with someone else, a guy, and we were walking towards the front door to leave. We were stopped by an old acquaintance of mine, Sean. He told us to stop, and then said that we had to go through a certain door because it had The Lord's Prayer posted on it. I said to whoever I was with as we passed Sean
"I've known The Lord's Prayer since I was little..." I didn't think it was neccessary for us to stop and read it.
We approached the door, and saw the prayer posted on it. I don't remember if we used that door or not.

Then, I remember watching a war. An ex, Jake, was fighting in it. He had a hand-held cannon that he was using to fight with. I was watching him fight while sitting at a table. He was in a field. I remember watching him use the cannon, and every time he would, some of his hair would fall out.

After awhile, he approached me, and said
"Every time I use this, some of my hair falls out!" He pointed to his head.
I remember he was wearing a brown hoodie with the hood up.

Then, Jake told me the war had been a stalemate. I then asked him
"How can you tell who wins and who loses?"
He replied, very smartass-like
"Well, the team who celebrates is the winner...and..."
I cut him off and said
"I know that. But how do you know who wins and who loses?"
He started to answer, but I woke up.

Dream - Lucid

I was at some weird amusement park. I’m not sure what was going on, it was kind of videogame-esque. I remember seeing characters climbing these ladders to get to the top of something. Some of them kept falling, but would catch a ladder before they hit the ground.

I also remember some type of indoor roller coaster. We were trying to get to a part of the coaster that they were going to use, but decided not to. I knew it was probably a dead end, but we tried anyway. We opened up this passageway that looked like a mouth, and we were going into a throat. We rode the coaster to the end. Sure enough, at the end there was another mouth, but not more tracks. We had reached a dead end. I was wondering how we would get back. I remember the whole time a female voice was guiding the process and making suggestions.

The last thing I remember is watching the roller coaster car exit through the water through a tunnel topped with a flock of cartoon vultures. Their talons formed the tunnel.

~

I remember a dream about band camp. I remember being outside. Then something about Ryan and I talking about getting married.

~

I was watching myself in 3rd person, but it didn’t look like me. I, however, knew it was me. It was almost like a movie. I was taller with long, black hair. Some of it was pulled back. I was wearing a green dress that reminded me of the 50’s. I was pregnant with Ryan’s baby. Someone was measuring my stomach. I seemed happy. I thought that I had quit smoking by now since I was so far along. The belly looked almost like there was a pillow under my dress.
I then remember going to a gym to work out. I was self-conscious about myself, since I was pregnant. I saw my exposed belly, because I was wearing a sports bra (all of this is still in 3rd person) as I got on a treadmill. Then, I noticed the lady next to me was pregnant too. She had a lot of zig-zagged scars on her belly though. I then knew that she had had a lot of abortions, and the scars were from that.

Then, I was back in 1st person and myself again. I was with Ryan, overlooking what was supposed to be my grandparents’ house. It was overlooking a lake. There was also a walkway from the house that went out into the lake; it looked like it was made out of random floating objects. I recalled a story to Ryan about how my grandparents liked to go out and sit at the end of the walkway, but my grandma had gotten so old, that she couldn’t walk out there anymore, and my grandpa had to carry her. I was very sad as I recalled this, and I cried.

~

I was lying in Ryan’s bed. It was morning. I knew I was dreaming, and started to feel myself leave my body, as if I was having an OBE almost. I opened my eyes, and my vision was super distorted; one of my eyes was seeing one perspective and the other eye was seeing something else. It was like…one of my eyes was seeing out of my real eye, and the other out of a dream eye. Holy crap it was weird. That kept happening over and over again. I kept going back “in” my body, and feeling sleep paralysis overcome me, and I would “re-enter” the dream (even though I was already dreaming). I’d get up, and my vision was always distorted. I kept trying to fix it by saying to myself “Detach to your dream body, detach to your dream body…”, but I couldn’t fix my vision.

Then, I remember getting up again in this strange state, with my vision all distorted. I could see my nose at the end of my face, but when I lifted my hands into my field of effed-up vision, I couldn’t see them at all. I did this again at some point soon after this, and tried to poke my finger through my hand. This is where things get real trippy. I saw two sets of my hands; one that looked solid that my finger wouldn’t go through, and then another almost out to the side that was transparent, that my finger would go through. Then, I saw that second set of hands again in a black space. They were merely outlines of hands filled with tiny blue dots. I thought that this was something astral, but I wasn’t sure. The whole thing was very strange.

Then, I remember getting up again, and worrying that I was acting out everything that I was dreaming. Ryan would think I was absolutely crazy. I worried about that for awhile. Then, I remember getting up and Ryan being awake. He pointed to a spot on the bed that looked like poo. He told me I did that. I said really? I did? And he said no, he was just kidding. O_O

Then, I remember being in my strange lucid/whatever the fuck kind of state I was in again. I was trying to leave my “real” body to enter my dream body again. I remember Dr. D, my data analysis teacher being there. I was trying to show her and some other people that I was lucid, that it was a dream, and I could do some really crazy things. I started to phase myself through tons of different surfaces; I remember one being chain-link fence. It felt weird to phase through that. The surfaces appeared one after the other after the other.

I then remember getting a grade sheet back from Dr. D about what I did. There were two grades on there: An A and a B. Next to the A she wrote something about how great of a teacher I was. The B didn’t say anything next to it, but I think it was my grade on how I was phasing through all that stuff.

The weird thing is, I knew I was dreaming in the dream, but I didn't know I was dreaming that I was dreaming...does that make sense? I have no idea what to make of that; I was lucid, but it was a weird state of lucidity. o_O

Dream - Lucid

I remember something about doing some study, something about lucid dreamers and non-lucid dreamers.

~

I was on a school bus, sitting on the left side towards the back. We were going on some band trip. It was nighttime. I remember some guy from elementary school being on the bus. I had had a crush on him or something. We were all talking about how many girls had liked him.

I then remember I was the only one sitting on the bus seat, and I had wanted the guy from elementary school to sit with me. Instead, a girl I knew in very early elementary school came and sat next to me. She asked if she could first, and I said yes. I fell asleep on the bus.

When I woke up, we were at our destination. A band parent was trying to tell us all what to do and where to go. Everyone started to get off the bus. I picked up my bags and left too.

The next thing I remember is sitting at a kitchen table in a house with some of my friends. One girl, someone I knew in high school, Sarah, was sitting next to some guy she was apparently dating. I was sitting next to the guy, putting me at the very end of the large table. We were all laughing and talking. I noticed I was sitting next to a counter that had some spiders on it. Sarah lifted up the guy, who killed the spiders. I looked at the guy, who was still lifted, almost hoisted over Sarah's shoulder. He had a green dinosaur tail and dinosaur legs.

I then remember waking up outside. It was still nighttime. I was behind a white van. I had apparently fallen asleep standing up. Anyway, I started to hear a noise; someone was coming. I ran into the house that we were all staying at, and started to run into the kitchen. I saw someone approaching the door that I had just entered.

I made it into the kitchen, and was with Sarah and another person. A man entered. He was disheveled-looking, with greasy shoulder-length dark hair and some facial hair (he looked very similar to the dog-killing man from another one of my dreams). I was scared; we all stared at him with dropped jaws. He pulled out a gun, and fired it at me. I flinched, and all that happened was I felt a puff of warm air go by my head. Apparently, the gun was out of bullets. He commented on this, and said he'd be back later to have sex with me. Then, he started to steal things around the room, mostly food items; I distinctly remember him taking some boxes of granola bars.

He then left, and I was very upset, scared, and overwhelmed about the situation. I bawled. I saw myself in third person, and I had tears and snot all over my face from all the crying I was doing. I went up to Sarah, who looked the same as I did with the tears and snot, and said
"He almost killed me...he almost killed us!"

I woke up terrified. I was afraid to go back to sleep for a few minutes.

Dream - Lucid - AP

I remember having 3 dreams about Katherine last night, but I can only remember a bit of one.

I was with Katherine outside of this movie theater. It was kind of run down. I also remember being inside one of the theaters. Throughout the dream, Katherine was carrying a laptop with her. I also remember a man being with her. He looked older and kind of messy, with messy, shoulder-length dark brown hair and some facial hair.

I remember being in the bathroom with her. She was talking to me as I looked for a stall. I found one, and noticed that there were only 3 walls of the stall, and two toilets in it. I sat down on the toilet. I peed for a long time, still talking to Katherine through the door.

Then, a black girl about my age who was with a white girl walked up. The black girl walked into the stall, which wasn't hard, since there were only 3 walls. This made me think about a comment Rman made on one of my dreams, one I had about being walked in on in a stall. I quickly forgot, however. The black girl looked at me for a minute, and I looked back. I felt kind of intruded upon, but dismissed it since there were only 3 walls, afterall. She started to change her pad while talking to the white girl that was with her.

I then remember talking to Katherine as she was sitting down inside the bathroom. She was on her laptop. I remember wanting to get out of there; wanting to leave, but I tried to be patient. I remember Katherine saying something about someone "stealing something right in front of her face." I started to think about our falling out, and hoped she didn't bring that up, because I was in no mood to argue or fight.

I then remember seeing some theme park behind a building that we were at. The sky looked cloudy, like it might rain. I was surprised that there was a theme park there, and commented on it to Katherine. I also said something about me going to Universal Studios over spring break. She said "Yeah, there's a theme park here!", and then all the sudden we were going down this green water slide with her in front of me.

~

I woke up in my bed, and had to use the bathroom. I was thinking about my dreams. I felt very awake, and I stretched as I entered the bathroom. I tried to turn on the light in the part of the bathroom where the toilet and shower are, and it wouldn't come on. "I bet the other one's out too...", I thought. Then, I tried the main light, where the sinks are. It wasn't working either. "Really?", I said. I still had to use the bathroom, so whatever.

I then tried turning on the light in my room so I could at least have a little light in the bathroom. Only one lightbulb flickered. It was very dim. I then turned on a second light in my room of a second fan that was there. The same thing happened as did with the first fan light. I remember thinking that this would be a good opportunity to try a WBTB, since I felt more awake, and I had been up longer than originally planned.

~

I was at my old apartment. I was in Caitlin's room. She was with our other friend Katie. They were getting ready to go to a party. They asked me to go, and I told them no, I didn't want to. They left.

Then, I was with my friend, Leigh. I was at her house. She told me Caitlin was getting too crazy and drunk at these parties, saying that she was pulling "carnival tricks" or something, trying to pull her eyes out of socket and stuff like that, and going way too far with it; it was becoming very dangerous. I thought about seeing her do that in the past. She also said that it was mostly Caitlin, and Katie was actually not as bad about it.

Then, I asked Leigh if she had any weed. She pointed out a white and grey marbled stone-made pipe that was sitting on a dresser beside a picture frame. She said there was a little left in there. She mentioned something about our friend, Bret. I started to smoke the pipe.

Then, I was riding in the car with Leigh, smoking the pipe still. I looked down into it and noticed it was out; nothing but ashes left, though some looked like they were still burning slightly. I started to feel a little high. I thought about people possibly seeing me smoking in the car, but I didn't seem to care too much, though I tried to stay alert. I was talking to Leigh.

~

I was on stage at my high school's auditorium. I was holding sheet music. I was a first act for some program we were performing. I was singing; rehearsing. The song started with F quarter notes and the words were "Teenie, Teenie" at the beginning. My choir teacher said something about me being intimidated or scared about going first. I honestly thought I would be too, but I didn't feel that bad. I was singing the music, and I sounded pretty good. "Teenie" sounded like a different word as I sang it though, because I was pronouncing it weird. I thought about performing for a crowd as opposed to an empty auditorium. I didn't feel very nervous about it, surprisingly (I get VERY nervous about this kind of thing in waking life).

Then, I remember sitting out in the auditorium, watching a group of 3 sing the next song.

Then, I remember being back up there again, and this time, we were singing to die. It was strange, it was like we were all sick, and we were going to end our lives. There was one alternative that she mentioned that I didn't like (can't remember what), so my teacher suggested another, and gave me a screwdriver I was supposed to sing into and it would rip my skin off as I sang, leaving nothing but bones. I wasn't ready to die yet! I didn't want to do this. I started singing into the weird screwdriver and reading my music. Nothing really happened. I remember seeing some eighth notes on the page.

Instead of killing myself, I decided I just needed to take my dirty clothes off. I started to walk away, taking off my dirty clothes until I was down to my underwear, which I also took off. I threw it all in my hamper.

Dream - Lucid - AP

The first dream I had, I'm almost positive I was lucid, but all I remember about it is being in a forest. As soon as I woke up from it, the details were gone.

~

I was with Kacey. I remember being at work at first, and then we were at some marine biology school. That's where she was studying. I went to sit in on one of her classes. My data analysis teacher, Dr. D, was teaching. I thought that was cool that she taught biology and statistics.

I sat down at a desk, and pulled out a bowl of oatmeal. I was eating the oatmeal throughout the class. Dr. D taught and showed us some film clips of marine life. When she showed us the clips, she turned the lights off.

When the class was over, she turned the lights back on. I got up out of my desk, and looked in front of it. There was a huge pile of oatmeal spilled there. And I mean HUGE, there is no way anyone could eat that much oatmeal in one sitting. I commented on it to Kacey, saying that I guess I spilled some. She said
"Yeah, that's why someone asked what that sound was." Apparently, it made a weird noise when it spilled.
I cleaned up the oatmeal, scooping it into a plastic shopping bag. I put the bag in a suitcase, which was lined with plastic. I bundled up the plastic, and threw everything away. I looked back in my suitcase, and the oatmeal was still there. I threw it away.

Then, I remember some guy coming up to talk to me. He looked about 30-35 or so. He was blonde with a mustache, and had a high-pitched voice. He asked if I remembered him, and started talking to me about my dad, and how he had been one of his patients. He said his voice was so high because he had "X syndrome" (fragile X syndrome in waking life). He walked away. I could not for the life of me remember who he was.

I went outside, and the guy was out there smoking a cigarette. Kacey had said something to me about me needing to avoid him or something. He started talking in his high-pitched voice again.

~

I was with some friends, some people that I'm not close with in waking life. We were all apparently close friends though. It was a group of about 5 or 6 of us. We were at a restaurant, Cracker Barrel maybe.

Then, I remember starting to go back in time. I started to experience an alternate past. I was with the same group of friends, and we were at a gay club. It was an actual gay club we have close to town in waking life, but this one was in a different town. I thought about that for a second. It was dark in the room, definitely a club setting. We were all laughing and having a great time. The time setting was either right at the end of or the end of high school. We were sitting at a table with a bench waiting for the drag show to start. I remember a little bit of the drag show. It was kind of movie-esque. I remember thinking to myself at some point
"If I would have done this, I wouldn't be the same person I am now."

Then, I remember it being stormy. It wasn't nighttime anymore. We were in some other building now, and were being herded into a hallway with lots of windows because there was a tornado warning. My old 7th grade English teacher, Mrs. B, was directing us where to go. I remembered seeing other people go into these interior rooms with no windows. I was baffled: Why would my teacher bring us into this room? There were windows everywhere. You could see how dark the sky looked out the windows.

I decided to say something. I asked Mrs. B why we were out in this room when there were so many windows. She said we had to be there. I started to argue with her, yelling about how stupid and unsafe this was. She yelled back. I think there was some physical fighting involved. I knew I was getting in trouble, but I didn't care. I was pissed.

Then, I remember being in a bus, driving away from the area. The sky looked clear, but then I saw a tornado form. It was a smaller tornado, but I saw it pick up a barn. It wasn't too far behind us. I "remembered" when this had happened in my "real life".

~

I was in my room with Ryan. He had apparently moved into my family's house with me. I thought about how awkward that would be, with him staying in my room and my family being there. He came into the room wearing this dark blue button-up shirt with a light blue shirt underneath. His pants were blue plaid pajama pants. We were apparently going out to eat or something, and I didn't have the heart to tell him that his outfit looked bad. He said he really liked that shirt. I thought it looked like a girl's shirt.

I remember there being some big, black grill-type thing in the middle of the room. It was more like a box, that when you opened it, it started to get hot. You could see the hot, glowing metal. You closed it when you wanted it to shut off. I opened it, and there was some wolf in there, but it wasn't a real wolf. It bit my hand and I laughed, because it didn't bite it hard. Apparently the wolf-but-not-wolf was my friend.

I then remember something about my cat, Belle, being caught in there and needing to be let out. I remember seeing her running around my room.

Then, I saw that Ryan had cleavage. It wasn't weird until I woke up.

Dream - Lucid - AP

I was driving around at night. I was supposed to go pick up my friend Tony from his house. A light came on my dash signaling my airbag was in danger of going off. The light was blue. I figured it was because I had been leaning on my steering wheel or something. It started to make a motion like it was going to go off, and I was afraid it would. I called Ryan to ask him what I needed to do. He told me
"There's a suit, well, part of a suit in your trunk that you can put on."
I didn't want to put a suit on to protect me from my airbag. That sounded absolutely ridiculous. So I didn't do it.

Then, I remember picking my brother up from some house in our neighborhood, and he drove. I told him we had to pick up Tony, and I directed him to his house.

~

I was on campus. I was dating some guy that's in one of my classes whom I really am not very fond of in waking life. I was driving, and I parked very close to one of the buildings (very unrealistic to park anywhere near a building on campus in waking life). He called me and asked me if that's where I parked. He then pulled up beside me. I got out of my car, and we gave each other a big hug.

Then, I remember some kind of contest, and I was voted off out of it. Then, all the people who were voted out came back and got to vote the people out who were still in the contest.

Then, I remember being at my house. I was in my parents' bedroom. I saw Kacey going into my room. She, apparently, had long conversations with Tabita before bed. I guess I was jealous, and told her
"I want to talk to you before you go to bed too."
She asked me if I knew when she did something, can't remember what, and said I could talk to her then. She went in my room and shut the door. I had no idea what she was talking about.

Then, I remember being in my mom's old van. I was a dog, though my vision was mixed between being black and white and color. I decided to shift completely to a dog, and my vision tunneled a little, and was completely black and white. I think I was a Beagle. I started to bark at some people walking by walking their dogs in my neighborhood.
"Woof woof!"
My bark sounded slightly like my voice.
Then, my alarm clock woke me up. -_-

Dream - Lucid - AP

I was in my room, and I was looking through the drawers of my old desk (I don't have it anymore in waking life). I found a little orange jar with weed in it. I was very surprised, because I haven't had or smoked weed in months (in waking life). I decided to keep it hidden for later.

I also remember something about my neighbor selling me these candy-looking things that were really some kind of drug. They looked like Runts candy. One piece was red, and the other yellow. He gave them to me in a bag. I put them away where the weed was. I remember seeing some of the weed spilled out into my drawer. I heard someone approaching my room. I was trying to clean up the mess in the drawer. I scooped the spilled weed into a miniature wine glass, and put a black stopper on it.

Throughout this experience, I kept wondering if it was a dream or not (it was very realistic), but didn't look too far into it.

~

I was outside the restaurant Mcallister's. I thought that was weird, since we rarely eat there. I decided to do a reality check, although I already more than suspected what was going on. I looked away from the Mcallister's sign, and it said something like "Mcinter's". It's a dream!

But I woke up. I didn't move so I could re-enter the dream.

I was inside Mcallister's with my family, but it looked dark and much different than what it really looks like on the inside. I thought maybe they remodeled or something. We sat down, and upon closer inspection, I figured out I was dreaming again. I rubbed my hands together. (I did this many times throughout these dreams, and it worked wonders!)

I then remember being outside on campus, and my ex, Jarrod pulling up with his old roommate, Dave. They both looked kind of different. I didn't notice them at first, but Jarrod yelled "Hey girl!" from out the window. I then noticed I was with Katherine. We walked over to them and got in the car. Jarrod was talking to me as I sat in the passenger's side seat, and Katherine was sitting in the back with Dave. Jarrod started to drive. We were going to his and Dave's apartment. I had a foreboding feeling, but I didn't think it had to do with me, but it had to do with Katherine. She was in trouble.

We got to their apartment, and Dave and a bunch of guys started to gang bang Katherine. I walked past them because she didn't seem too upset about it; she wasn't objecting or anything.

Then, I may have woken up again, but I again didn't move, and re-entered the dream.

I was outside. It was sunny. I was walking down this path. I remembered the talk about doing dream drugs from a thread here on DV. I decided to try to make a mushroom appear in my hand. It didn't work.

There was a lot of green grass everywhere. I saw this old couple. They were standing by a hill. In the hill were these little shelves. In the shelves were these chocolate-covered things. The old lady said that they were some kind of drug, something like MDMA, but she called it something else. I asked her if she needed them, and she said yes, because if she didn't take them, she'd get cranky. I walked away a little bit, then decided to try out a bit of telekinesis. I focused on one of the chocolate drugs, and pulled one into my hand. I ate it, then woke up again.

Didn't move, and was in the dream again.

I was outside again, and MK was with me. I wanted to get to the moon, but I decided to ask her where she wanted to go. I was excited to show my best friend what I could do in my dreams; I wanted to take her with me! I tried to make a portal the old way I used to do it, but then remembered the new way I learned. I drew an outline of a portal on the wall. I asked her if she wanted to go to the beach? The moon? She didn't really answer, so I decided to go to the moon. I concentrated hard on Nomad's DJ entries about the moon, and the portal turned black. I entered it, and felt myself getting sucked in. I was sucked through blackness. I concentrated so I wouldn't wake up.

Then, I was at some resort. It was sunny outside, and next to the resort was a huge pool. Many people were at it, swimming and talking to one another. I walked up to the pool area. There were many people sitting at tables and talking. I asked an older woman
"Where are we?"
"The moon.", she replied.
I decided to ask someone else. I asked the man she was sitting with where we were.
"The moon.", he said.
I asked a third person, someone sitting at a different table.
"Where are we?"
"North Carolina.", the person replied.
Ok...

Then, I remember being in a room at the resort. Ryan was in there with me. I decided I wanted to try to have sex with him. I asked him, and he seemed reluctant to do it for some reason! I told him we'd make it quick. So he agreed. I started to take my pants off and woke up.

Didn't move, and went back to sleep, re-entering the dream.

I was still trying to get my pants off. I guess it didn't really matter that much, since I was dreaming (dur) if my pants were off or on. I don't remember ever getting them off, but then Ryan asked me
"Can we take this outside?"
I said yes. We went out on the balcony, and started having sex. I could see people below me, people in the pools and such. They were looking up at us. Some were smiling, some laughing. No one looked disgusted. I didn't care, it was a dream! I can have sex wherever I damn well please.

Then, I remember being out at the pool. MK was there again. She was running towards something, and I chased after her. I asked
"So are you in my dream, or am I in your dream, or are you just a projection of my subconscious?"
"Neither.", she replied. I thought maybe she didn't hear the last part of the question. I asked her again
"So are you just a projection?"
"What?", she replied. She had heard me, but she didn't understand what I meant.
Then, a girl I know from choir, Sarah, appeared. She said something along the lines of
"Yes, a projection of your subconscious." Then, she disappeared again.
MK stared at me and smiled. She had never personally answered my question, but oh well. I have more exploring to do!

I went to the edge of the pool, and put my hand in the water. The water gave me a lot of resistance for some reason. I pulled my hand through it a couple of times. I tried to close my hand in the water, but it resisted. Strange. I wanted to show MK that I could fly. I wanted her to fly with me. I told her this was a dream, and she believed me! She laughed, and said something, though I can't remember what. Something like "Well that explains a lot!".

I took off to fly. MK did not go with me. I flew over the pool, and into this field. It was almost desert-like; the ground looks dry, but still kind of green. I saw many beautiful flowers, plants and trees. I remember seeing some lavender-colored flowers. I stayed closer to the ground so I wouldn't lose the dream.

Then, I saw a kitchen clock hanging in the sky. I laughed and thought something along the lines of "How cliche!". I saw a lot of other weird things in the field, but the clock was the one I remember most.

I then was approaching a tree house. It was very big; it had three stories. I entered the top story, and as soon as I went through the door, I heard a microwave beep. The room looked cozy and quaint. I really liked it.

Then, I woke up.

Throughout the dream, I did a ton of hand-rubbing to keep everything vivid and clear, but I can't remember exactly what points I did it at. I just know that I always was rubbing my hands together. How have I just now discovered this?

Dream - Lucid - AP

My tattoo's colors looked strange and faded. I decided to go get it touched up. My brother and I went to the tattoo parlor where I originally got my tat. We walked into one of the rooms. My brother was going to touch it up for me. We wanted to get it done as quickly as possible so they didn't find out that one of their tattoo artists wasn't doing it.

I laid on the table, and told my brother to put on some latex gloves. He got them out of the box and put them on. He then implanted these tiny seeds into my body that would bloom into the colors of my tattoo to touch it up. I told him that's what Josh, the guy who originally did my tattoo did.

We went to the counter to pay. The girl asked what Josh did. I told her it was a touch-up. She asked to see my tattoo, and I told her it was on my back. I turned around anyway, and she looked down the back of my shirt. I saw the tattoo somehow; it looked like a temporary tattoo. The colors hadn't taken yet. I was worried that she'd notice, but she didn't say anything about it. My brother paid for it. The girl took the money and took the tip out of my brother's change, maybe $5 or $6, and put it in the tip jar. My brother and I left. On the way out, we saw Josh, the tattoo artist, working in a room on a tattoo on a girl's back.

~

I was in my house. I had 2 small daughters--they were about toddler age. They were Ryan's children. The older one had very short red hair and freckles, and was very fussy. The younger one had longer brown hair, and was calm and content. She looked older than the redhead even though she wasn't.

I remember playing with the younger one in the downstairs bathroom. I was asking her if she wanted to play with all these toys. I kept pulling them out of these drawers of a toy-holding cabinet thing against the wall. They were my brother's old toys. She asked me a question about the moon. I answered. She then asked me if the moon was big because everyone in Africa could see it the same way. It was kind of a question, but more of a statement or observation. I thought for a second, and agreed with her. I thought about how intelligent she was. I thought she may already be smarter than me.

Then, I left the bathroom to get the red-headed daughter from upstairs. There was a boy's baseball team practicing up there. They were wearing white and blue uniforms. It looked like they were outside, but they were inside. Weirdness. The red-headed daughter was up there with them. A fat guy, resembling the guy from my "Dreaming of Not Sleeping" dream, was holding her. He was yelling and cussing for some reason. I got really pissed off that he used that language while holding my daughter. I took her from him and started screaming and cussing at him. He was screaming back, but I kept screaming over him and interrupting him. He got the team together and they left.

I then remember seeing my friend Grace in the house, and telling her what happened. I then realized how ironic the situation had been.

I took the red-headed daughter into the downstairs bathroom to play with the younger one. I remember the older one crying, and me picking her up, which stopped the crying. I then forgot their names, or at least the red head's name. How embarassing. I was talking to someone about the redhead, and kept referring to her as "her" because I couldn't remember her name.

The redhead then turned into my cat, Belle. She ran off with a toilet brush in her mouth. I took it from her. I hoped she wouldn't get poisoned.

I kept thinking about how smart the younger one was. I remember bragging about her to someone.

I also remember the living room being decorated for Christmas, with the tree and everything. I hoped the baseball team wouldn't come back.