Krista's Dream Journal

Slept a little last night, but for some reason, I didn't sleep very well, and was very restless. I even took 2 melatonin to try to help. Bleh, one would think that a night of no sleep would cause you to pass out the next night. Not the case with me, apparently. Yay sleeping problems! -_-

Anyway, here are some fragmented dreams from last night. I know there was more to them then what I have, but oh well. I did my best.

My choir teacher from last semester was teaching a different class, no idea what class. I was in the classroom, sitting at a desk you'd find in a middle/high school (the ones with the little baskets under the tops for books and such). The room seemed dimly lit, and the carpet was dark blue. She was giving us some sort of assessment test. I didn't remember the material or what it was over, but I wasn't prepared for it. I took it and handed it in. She graded them, and when she handed mine back, she told me I had made the highest grade. I looked at it, and I had made a 2.9/3.0. I had only missed something by a tenth of a point. I was very, very surprised. She was very impressed, and said "Krista, I would love to be your pastor." I found this to be a little off, but I just went with it, since in waking life she also directs a church choir. She was beaming when she said this. She was wearing an off-white shirtt.

Then I was in and out of restless sleep for awhile. Finally went back to sleep at some point during the tossing and turning and had another dream.

I dreamed that someone, I think my friend C, was staying the night with me, though I have no idea where we were. I just know it was dark in the room. The same part kept repeating, with us waking up at 10:00am to the alarm on my cellphone. Every time, I was very groggy upon waking.

I'm not sure if this is from the same dream, but I was in a museum of some sort, and there was a display of a guy in a glass box laying down with a bed slowly crushing him. I was with a group. There was a bar on the bed that kept going through his neck. It looked like it was going to sever his head, but I never saw it do so. It always came pretty close. He was terrified and in pain. You could see the terror on his face. He kept trying to stop the bed, but it kept coming down on him. There was no blood, but I could clearly see the muscles inside of his neck. On top of the box, there was either a picture or a statue depicting a shriveled, dark body of what looked like a child covered in blood with a huge shard of sheet metal in his neck. The picture/statue was not detailed in the face. The display was something that was supposed to warn people that beds can act as sharp metal and to be cautious...something along those lines. I kept seeing the box and the statue over and over again. I thought the display was terrible.

More restlessness, then I dreamed I was in my family's kitchen, and I was standing beside my mom, who was washing dishes and watching the little mini-TV that's attached to the top of one of the cabinets. In the dream, my mom had been an actress in a lot of plays and movies, but she no longer did it. I was jealous of her, because acting is something I've always wanted to do, but have never been able to get the hang of. I was also happy for her though. I saw flashes of her in movies, doing a great job. Then, something about Justin Bieber (lolz), though it didn't really resemble him. He had freckles everywhere, and his hair was very dark, I'd say almost black, and he had a bowl cut. His arms and legs were also very hairy (yay puberty!). He was with a friend of mine, not sure who. They were in the top floor of a house that was on a small cliff right next to the ocean, though there was no beach around. The sun was setting, and there were many pinks and oranges in the sky. I met Justin Bieber, and had a little conversation with him. I talked to him a couple of times in the dream, though I don't remember exactly what was said. I told my friends I had met Justin Bieber. At some point, I was with my friend MK, and we were in one of my friend's houses. He pulled out one of those containers that come full of blank CDs or DVDs, but there were no CDs or DVDs in it. It was full of weed. I knew my friend MK didn't like weed, so I told her we didn't have to stay, but she said it was ok. I don't ever remember smoking the weed.

And that's all I remember really. I actually tried to WILD last night, and I got very close, but as soon as I started to feel the onset of sleep paralysis, I got excited and then I heard a sound come from upstairs, so I lost it. I will say that my recall is improving. Ever since I came back to DV, I've been remembering more and more dreams. What's funny is I used to have little to no trouble remembering dreams before I started college. Then life happened I suppose, heh.

Well, my lack of sleep caught up with me this afternoon...just woke up from a nap. Here's what I remember from the dreams I had.

Bold=dream

I was playing Starfox 64, but it was a bit different from the actual game, levels were different and kind of run together (probably due to faulty recall). I was not doing very well. There was some bird-like character that doesn't occur in the real game. Actually, now that I think about it, I think he was a gray penguin character from Animal Crossing: Wild World who had goggles on his head. Think old-timey 1930's airplane pilot style.



In the dream, his name was Hangar. His picture popped up on the screen a lot. The game graded me on all the levels using letter grades that it would show after the levels. The level before Venom (Venom is the final level on the actual game), in this case it was a fiery lava level, I think I made a C+. I think the highest grade I made on a level was a B. I somehow made it to Venom, but it was in space instead of on the planet like it is in the game. It said the previous time I played it, I had made an F on Venom. It showed me this by showing the Hangar character on the screen before Venom and showing me the F somewhat next to him. I started seeing big glares, mostly on the left side of the screen and, even though I was locking onto and killing enemies, I couldn't really see my ship or a lot of the enemies I was killing.


And then I woke up and went back to sleep for a few minutes and had another small dream.

I dreamed I was on Facebook, and looking at my newsfeed. The status of a girl (let's call her K) that I am no longer friends with on Facebook or really at all (old roommate in waking life, we had a huge falling out, almost ended up in court, had to block her phone number...big mess) popped up. The status was the first one on my newsfeed, and said something about her going shopping with her friend Cory and how she was glad they could go do that or something, but before I could read the whole status, I think I stopped after the "shopping with Cory" part, I got this anxious feeling in my stomach, and started shaking and dropped my phone, which I was apparently holding and trying to text with. I finished what I was doing with it, told myself to stop being silly, composed myself, and looked at the rest of the status. Then I had all these flashes of close-up Christmas ornaments on a very green Christmas tree. The last one I remember is the close-up edge of a very red ornament.

And then I woke up. I am so glad to have gotten some sleep. I feel so refreshed. Plus, I recalled some dreams! Couldn't have asked for a better afternoon.

So I didn't get ANY sleep last night, I think it's because I took Lunesta the 2 nights prior to last night (rare for me to even take it in the first place), and last night I didn't take any. But I've really been itching to post these ever since I re-discovered DV...this summer, and actually a few nights ago, I had some pretty intense dreams, which (I felt) carried a LOT of symbolism.

Dreams are in bold.

WARNING: These dreams are controversial. Proceed at your own risk.

Oh, and also, these are mostly notes...I'm trying to recall the best I can. I wish I had journal'd these right after I had them, but, it is what it is. Anyways, here we go!

I was being nailed to a cross. The ground was dirt beneath me, and the day looked overcast, but bright. I had this sense of duty, even though I was suffering. I knew that this was something that I had to do. Now, my cross has been raised, and I am hanging there, staring at all the people below me. I thought to myself something along the lines of "I have to do this." It was very intense. I wish I could recall more of the details that I was seeing throughout the dream, but they are blurry. The biggest thing I remember is the sense of duty I had. It was very strong.

I had many more dreams like this throughout the summer, some very graphic, some had things in place of the cross. In one I remember being nailed to a snowman, with the man I was dating at the time, Daniel, nailed to the other side. I got down from the snowman very easily, but he could not. I tried to get to the other side to help him, but I couldn't. I saw the side of his body, but I don't ever recall seeing his face. I just knew that he needed help getting down, and I couldn't do it.

I even remember seeing and examining the holes in my hands in one of these dreams, and it was incredibly realistic.

Now, fast-forward to the past couple of months...

A very dear friend of mine told me a couple of months ago that he could see auras, and he told me he saw mine as purple, and that it's always been purple. He's always had a 6th sense for people, but he only recently has been able to actually figure out what was going on, after talking to an African medicine man.

I was intrigued, to say the least, so I decided to look up some information on auras and auric sight. I even started trying to "see" auras through tutorials I've read. Anyway, that's all fine and dandy. Now, onto the dream. I had this one a few nights ago.

I don't remember much of this dream, but this part really stood out. I was looking at my reflection in the bathroom mirror for my aura, and all the sudden, I saw my third eye. It took over my vision. It was against a black background, shrouded in shades of purple and blue. It looked like an actual eye, but different. It had the shape of an eye and the details, but it was all blue and purple. It also almost looked "ancient" and was very intricate. I did not see any white in the eye where white was supposed to go, nor did I see any brown (my actual eyes are brown). It's so hard to describe, but I knew I was seeing my third eye, the brow chakra. It was very vivid and mysteriously beautiful.

Very strange dreams, I'd say. I have a history of weird, vivid, even symbolic dreams, though none have ever been to this extent. I'm glad I finally wrote these down somewhere.

Bold=Dream

I was in the shower, it was apparently in my parents house, but I remember it being very strange like it was inside but also outside at the same time. It was nighttime. Anyway, for some reason I had my phone in there. It was sitting on one of the little ledges on the wall. All the sudden, it was gone, and I looked around frantically for it, and saw a very obese man wearing a plaid shirt and jeans run off with it. I chased him down to a little river/creek (I was either doing this naked or with a towel on, I can't quite remember this detail) and jumped on him to try to tackle him. Obviously, he was very large, so I couldn't bring him down. Instead, I shoved my fingers into his eyes to blind him, ripped the phone out of his grip, and took off running. Then, I remember going back to my house and telling my mom about what had happened, and she suggested I call the police. I thought that was a good idea, but I don't remember if I ever did it.

The rest of the dream is pretty blurry, unfortunately. I do know there was a bit more to it than that though.

I've been thinking about LDing for the past few days, but I still have yet to do so. I miss it...hopefully I can get back on track with that soon!

Well, I haven't kept a dream journal on here in forever (I went by a different tag on here years ago, and was pretty actively involved in the forum/LDing, but life happens sometimes I suppose ), so here we are.

I haven't LD'd (intentionally) in quite sometime, but I do randomly gain control of my dreams sometimes, but usually it's either for a split second or I fain control for a little while then wake up. I used to LD all the time, and was getting quite good. I'm thinking it's time to perfect those skills once again.

Anyways, I ramble. In this entry I'm going to recount a dream I had about 6 months ago, and also the dream I had last night. The reason I'm starting with this older one is because it was extremely vivid, and, I feel, very symbolic. Dreams are in bold.

It started out with me in my old room at my old apartment. It was light in the room, except for in the bathroom, which I was standing directly in front of. The lights were off in there, and I had this horrible feeling of dread in my stomach, because I knew the dark bathroom contained something I didn't want to see, something that would upset me, but I didn't know what it was. I slowly started to walk into my bathroom. When I got in there, I turned on the lights and looked on the floor by my sink. My ex-boyfriend, one I had/have a very interesting history with in waking life, was lying there on the floor. I thought he was dead, so I cradled him into my arms and started to bawl and shake him and yelling for him to "please wake up!". Finally, he opened his eyes, and I was so relieved that he was alive. But then, he started yelling "I can't see! Krista help me, I can't see!" Yet, his eyes were open. He glanced around blindly, and I took his arm over my shoulder and started to stand up.

Then, I woke up, feeling like I had more than just a dream.

I still feel that this dream tried to tell me something. I think I have to help him "see" something, but then again, maybe it was just a dream.

And now, onto the one I had last night.

I can't remember a whole lot before this point in the dream, but last night, I dreamed I purposely cut off 3 of my toes, my big toe on and second toe on my right foot, and a toe on my left, can't remember which, and sewed them back on. They didn't bleed or anything, just stung a little. I tried to ask my mom to come look at the stitches because I felt like they weren't on there properly, and she kept telling me she was busy and she'd look later. Then, all the sudden, we were in the car on the way to Wisconsin to see my grandparents. I kept looking at my feet, hoping the stitches didn't come out and my toes would fall off. I kept thinking about the "last time" I had cut my toes off and sewed them on, and how this time they look ok, but not as great as when someone helped me with the sewing part. We got to Wisconsin and said hello to my grandparents. There was patchy snow on the ground as well, and the sun was out.

That's all I remember before I woke up. Very strange dream, but I've had stranger, haha.

Well that's all for this entry. Hoping I can get some LD entries in here before too long. Happy dreaming, y'all!