Krista's Dream Journal

Dream - Lucid

I did a guided relaxation track by Kelly Howell right before I fell asleep, and had a very intense, yet extremely happy dream. I felt it was very symbolic.

It was New Year's Eve 2010, going into 2011. It was nighttime, just before midnight, maybe an hour or so away. The air was warm, like a summer night. I was with my mom and dad, and was going to get my best friend whom I consider a sister, Mary Katherine (Mk). We were at a house in a cul de sac in our neighborhood, one that was apparently our house in the dream.

I had a feeling it was the end of the world, but I wasn't frightened at all. I was anticipatory and excited, yet I had this overwhelming sensation of calm. I went to go pick up Mk, and when we got back to the house, we got out of the car. I told Mk my feeling, and she seemed skeptical. Then, in the sky, I saw a big, circular opening in the clouds, and it was moving around quickly. I understood it to be God. It was kind if like something I saw in a music video once:

I told her to look up, and pointed out the hole in the clouds. Mk looked, and immediately said
"I know what that is."
We rushed over to the front porch, where my parents were. We told them about the phenomenon in the sky. My mom looked up and smiled. My dad scoffed. Even so, I didn't get frustrated or upset with him, because, even though he was skeptical, I knew he would be ok.

The winds picked up. It was almost like we were in the vortex of a tornado, but I could see the wind. It was clear, not dusty or dirty. Just clear. I can't explain it better than that. It blew all around us, and more kept coming in waves. Even though we were being hit by this wind, it did not phase us. It wasn't a harsh cold wind either, it was a cool wind that felt like it could blow us off our feet, but we stayed planted to the spot. My dad was getting frustrated, and said, very sarcastically,
"Oh right, God is sending mini tornadoes."
Then, he dropped a whole bunch of spoons he had been holding, frustrating him even more. My mom said, in her infamous "I'm-annoyed-with-your-father" voice,
"Calm down, Brad. You can't be in control of everything, you're not God!"
I was smiling. I still had this calm over me, despite my father's frustration and my mother's annoyance at him. I dropped to my knees, and my mom and Mk followed suit. We joined hands. My father still didn't understand what we were doing, and he voiced that. The tornado-like phenomena kept whipping up and blowing at us, but we could not be shaken.

~

I went to an elementary school choir concert. I had to sit by these girls who were talking about "horny sex" (is there any other kind? ). A little boy sat by me and saw I had a box of toys. I offered him a stuffed lion, but he said he was too old for that. He spotted a neon yellow bouncy ball and took that and started playing with it. I was not happy about it, because he kept throwing it around the aisles. I thought he'd get in trouble, in turn, getting me in trouble. He never did though. I feel like I went to the concert a few times in the dream.

Then, it turned into some Epic Mickey game, where I had to squirt paint thinner on this boss. We were in some big arena. It switched back and forth from me actually being in the game to me just playing it. The boss could still get me when the game was paused. Then, the boss was some vegetarian black lady, whom I kept trying to distract from trying to kill me by asking her questions about why she was a vegetarian.

Dream - Lucid

I didn't sleep much last night, so I can only recall a little bit. I didn't even really attempt to MILD or anything, because I was more concerned about getting some rest since I had to get up very early. I know I had 2-3 dreams though.

I was playing some massive multiplayer game online, and you could change the theme by hitting a certain object. There were Ancient Egyptian themes, futuristic themes, Victorian themes, etc..the theme changes remind me of the game Little Big Planet. The game kept switching from me playing it to me actually being in it. I had to sleep with my friend Jase in the game, though I don't remember doing it. I just remember as soon as I entered the game, I was in bed with him. My brother was also in the game. Awkward, considering my last statement.

~

I was playing with snakes, a Cobra and another type, I'm not sure which type though. I was having fun. My parents were with me. We were in the woods. The snakes bit me multiple times, I especially remember the Cobra biting me. Bites were on my hands and arms, and other areas of my body. They were all red and inflamed, and I could see the puncture wounds from the fangs, though they weren't bleeding. I panicked about the bites, thinking I was going to die from being poisoned, but my parents just laughed and said I'd be fine and the snakes weren't dangerous. My left hand started to swell up, so I got extra worried. Parents still thought I was being ridiculous.

Hoping to get a little more sleep tonight...I'm exhausted already from classes, and it's only the 2nd day. O_O

Dream - Lucid

I MILDed again!

I just used my mantra of "I will become lucid" and also said "I will reality check" a couple of times. Yay! I'm glad I found a method that works. Thanks, Matte!

I was at my house. Some mini leprechaun guy, I think it was supposed to be a guy I know in waking life named Jonni, killed my friend/coworker Virginia in her sleep at her apartment. He was very smart, so there's no way she or anyone could elude him, even if the attack was known about in advance. I was terrified this would happen to me, and my parents were at a movie. I was home alone, and it was getting late. I tried to call my mom and she said they'd be home soon. I fell asleep and woke up quite a few times, each time with a wave of terror upon waking. I called my mom a few more times. I fell asleep and woke up again, and my mom was home, working in her office. It was midnight. I went over to her and told her how scared I was. She seemed annoyed and told me she could just give me a Xanax and lay there with me until I fell asleep, but she truthfully hated doing that for my dad. She said if I didn't fall asleep, she wouldn't do it. I got excited and told her I promised I'd fall asleep. I thought to myself even if I didn't fall asleep, I could pretend so she wouldn't leave.

~

I had another dream, but I swore I'd remember it and didn't write it down. Guess what? I forgot it. I fell asleep and woke up again, and decided to MILD. I did my mantras until I fell asleep.

~

I was in an episode of Family Guy. The story was about how one of the characters met his wife. It wasn't a very funny episode though. We were on a bus going to basic training for the military. I was sitting with a younger version of Peter. He pulled out a bag of pot mixed with cocaine, and said we could just do the coke off our fingers. I really didn't want to do that. He had just pulled it out, opened it, and stared at it for awhile.

We got to basic training. It was nighttime outside. We walked through the grass to a screened-in shed that had many seats in front of a stage-type thing with a podium on it for a speaker. We were supposed to listen to someone talk, but they weren't there yet. I smoked a cigarette with Peter. We saw the girl that one of the characters was supposed to meet. She was a cartoon with long, brown, wavy hair and she was dressed all in blue. She smiled flirtatiously as she flipped her hair. Peter's voice came on in the background to say something like "And there she was.".

The speaker finally came, a big black woman, and we all sat in the chairs. We listened to her talk, and she told us that we had to get up at 5 A.M. every day because one of the people in charge had to get up that early. I thought that was a little ridiculous, but it was the military, so I didn't argue. We were dismissed. I took Peter's hand and he offered me a cigarette. I took one, and he lit mine off of his. We walked past this little area where there were big rocks surrounding a tree in a semi circle. Morrie from Tuesdays With Morrie was there, all cartoonified. Him and Peter made some sort of joke, and we kept walking. We went into another little screened-in shed. There was a big banner lying on a table to welcome us. A big rainbow appeared on the banner. I thought it was very sarcastic sounding, since it was welcoming us to the military.

Wait what? Rainbows don't just appear on banners. I was dreaming! I knew the dream was almost over, but I examined my hands anyway to induce clarity. Things kept fading, but I finally stabilized them a bit. I did an RC. There was a chalkboard/marker board in the room. It had an orange spiral drawn on it with text inside of it. There were little stick people drawn off to the side. I glanced away and looked back. The text had changed, and the spiral was smaller. I floated up through the ceiling and ended up inside my family's bonus room. I could feel that I was going to wake up any minute, so I quickly thought of something I could do in a short amount of time. I decided to fly through space, if only for a minute. I took off through the ceiling and I was in space! It was beautiful. There were purpleish-blue stars everywhere, and I saw an orange galaxy off in the distance. It was amazing. It only lasted a few seconds though, before it started to fade to black.

Dream - Lucid

I worked at Subway again. Kacey, my coworker and one of my best friends in waking life, worked there with me. I had just started back, and she had apparently worked there for years. 2 ladies came in, and Kacey took the register. One lady ordered a sweet onion chicken teriyaki. Kacey rang them up super quickly on the touch screen register, using both of her hands. I started to make their sandwiches. Kacey never gave me a ticket for their order, so I asked her if they wanted their sandwiches toasted. She said no, so I put the bread in the microwave to heat it up. The microwave was filthy. It had lots of crumbs and two pieces of stale bread in it. I wondered if the ladies had noticed.

Now, I'm in my room, and there's a HUGE American flag stuck through a hole in my window. The wind blows it inside.

~

At work with Kacey again, this time we're in the coffee shop where we currently work. She wanted to run to The Gold Rush store, and she wanted me to go with her. I didn't think this was a good idea, as I remembered a dream I had about us all leaving work to get lunch, and how we would get fired. She said we'd only be gone a minute, besides, we weren't busy. I got in the car with her, and we drove to The Gold Rush, which is a store that buys your old gold jewelry. There was a lot of beautiful items in there. I picked up a pair of ball earrings that had a sketch of an Indian-looking elephant on them with an intricate-looking sketch of an eye. I didn't have enough money to buy them, so I put them down. We left the store, and got in Kacey's car. She asked me if I wanted to eat dinner at this Mexican restaurant that was right there on the corner. I told her no, we've been gone long enough, and I reminded her of the dream that I had thought of earlier, which I had told her about before. She said fine, we won't go. We drove past it and it was closed anyway. She stopped somewhere else on the way back, and the parking lot was very crowded. We had to park on the opposite end and walk a little ways to the store. We left, and I complained about how far away she had parked. We got back to the coffee shop, and the radio had been turned off. Customers had moved around all of the furniture. One lady was sitting on one of our big, black plushy couches reading, and she looked up to glare at us.

Andrew, our manager, had been called to come in. He had a huge peace sign gauge in one of his ears, which I wanted to tell him I liked, but never got the chance. He was bringing bus tubs of dishes to the back. He asked to talk to Kacey when she got the chance to talk to him. Then, he saw me and asked to talk to both of us for "a hot second" while we were both back there. He said
"Now I know you guys don't get a lunch break...", and continued on about how we shouldn't have left the store unattended. He didn't yell at us, but was very calm about it. Kacey was on the phone and wasn't listening. She left the back, and I had to explain what happened. Basically, I had to tattle on Kacey. I told Andrew it was her idea, and I just went along with it. I started to talk in a normal tone, but it felt weird, so I whispered instead.

Then, Kacey and I closed the store and left. Then, I saw what was supposed to be the outside of the coffee shop, all cartoonish, with the sun rising in the background. You hear a voice say
"And Super Mickey comes to open!", and sure enough, I see the back of Mickey Mouse with a red cape on, walking up some stairs to get into the shop.

~

Kacey and I went to a movie. There were two men sitting behind us. Kacey got up to go do something. I sat through the movie, playing with a lip ring on the right side of my mouth. One of the men sitting behind me asked me in a very sexy Australian accent
"Excuse me, but my friend says it looks like I'm wearing makeup. Does it look like I'm wearing makeup?"
I turned around and examined his pretty face. He was gorgeous. He had short, spikey blonde hair and a flawless face. He kinda looked like he had some eye shadow on under his eyes, but it was just his natural face. I told him no, he didn't. Then, my lip ring fell out, and I had to get the Australian man to help me put it back in, because it was a very complicated lip ring. It had more than one fastener, and I had more than one hole for it in my lip. He couldn't really figure it out very well, I don't think we ever fixed it. The movie ended, and the Australian man, his friend and I all walked out together. I was so excited, because the Australian man had talked to and been kinda flirty with me, at least that's how I took it.

I found Kacey. She was in some weird, small basement room of the theater. It looked like a lounge-type area, with couches lining the walls. I was going to tell her about the Australian man, but she first told me about how he had asked her for her number. I was really disappointed and sad, so I refrained from telling her about him. My lip ring had come loose again and I had to ask Kacey to help me put it back in. We walked to her car. It was dark outside. She started to help me put it back in.

Dream - Lucid

So excited that I was lucid again, even if it for a very short amount of time. I used the WBTB and MILD methods, though the WBTB was not intentional. I must say I'll have to try MILD again, because it definitely seemed to work. I repeated to myself in my head "I will become lucid." I paired that with my breathing ("I will" on the inhale and "become lucid" on the exhale). Even if it wasn't instant lucidity, it still seemed to work.

My mom kept coming into my room to turn my TV and the closet light off, and I'd wake up every time and turn them back on. I said something to her about it and she told me she'd stop as long as I turned the volume on the TV down. Ziggy, my old cat from waking life (we had to put him down when I was 14) was there, looking young and healthy. I thought to myself "He's not dead at all, why do I keep thinking he is?"

~

There was a city in the future, but it was medieval-looking. I wasn't really "there", it was kinda like I was watching a movie, but not. I was passively watching events go by. Anyway, they had cellphones, and lots of futuristic technology. They lived in castles built on top of bare ground. There was no grass or trees to be seen anywhere. These two people, a guy and a girl, I think they were teens or young adults, were very adventurous. The boy took the girl to explore an abandoned city. It looked a lot like New York, only it was very run down and deserted. It was from the distant past. Their medieval city was on the outskirts of this run-down New York. They were in an old skyscraper, when everyone started to evacuate and run for their lives. I thought it was because the building was going to topple over, but it looked steady to me. I couldn't figure out why everyone was evacuating so quickly.

~

There was a little boy and his mother. We were all sitting at a kitchen table, I think it was in my family's kitchen. We were all supposed to go to some high school football game or something, and I didn't really want to, but I knew I had to. The little boy did an impression of Snuffy from Sesame Street (the big brown, hairy elephant). He pulled his ears with his hands, and wiggled them. I laughed and said
"Wow! He can really wiggle his ears!"

~

After that last dream, I woke up and wrote in my dream journal. This is when I decided to try to MILD.

I was in a restaurant, a bar I think, and I was tending. There was a very quiet, soft-spoken lady there ordering. There was also this model town, kind of like in the game Epic Mickey (I just picked this up in waking life and I can't stop playing it, haha). I jumped into it, and ended up in this giant grocery store. It looked like Kroger, but much bigger with very high ceilings. I was walking down the aisles and encountering many people. I tried to talk to them all, but they were all mean and wouldn't have anything to do with me. I didn't know why. I finally came up to this Mexican man and tried to talk to him. I was very nice and polite. He started telling me that it was too late, and I should have been nicer to him when I had the chance. He called his wife over, and they walked away. I then "remembered" that I had been to that store before, and was very mean to all of those people, and they hadn't forgotten. I was extremely sad and ashamed.

Then, I somehow realized I was dreaming. I examined my hands, and saw that a lot of my fingers were growing together and were kind of distorted. I felt the dream fading, so I did it again. I started to float up to the ceiling, and did it even though I felt like weights were trying to push me back down. I couldn't figure out what to do. I saw a man go towards this door in the middle of the customer service area. It wasn't attached to a wall or anything. As he turned the knob, he turned around and smiled at me. Instead of following him, which I felt I should have, I had the idea of trying to share a dream. I created a portal like I had in the past, by sticking out my hand and saying "Portal, APPEAR!", but it didn't look the same as my other portals. Instead, it was a small circle with white and rainbow light radiating from the center. I tried to jump in before it had fully manifested, and ended up tumbling through the air in the store. I ended up next to a projector screen, like in Epic Mickey. It wasn't operational though.



~

Austin had cut his hair (which he really needs to do in waking life, haha), and had gotten a couple of strands dyed light purple and light pink. We laid down in my bed to watch a movie, and I knew he wanted to have sex, but I was on my period. Then, I remember having a big "Elizabethean collar" on, which is a cone-shaped collar that you put on animals after surgery so they don't pull their stitches out. I had to wear it as some sort of brace, but I only wore it in private. I remember looking in the mirror at my reflection. I looked ridiculous with that thing on.

Then, I was at some apartment, and there was a giant bucket of LSD-laced brownies. I started eating them, when my friends Leigh and Andrea came over. They ate them with me, and we couldn't get enough. We started watching a really trippy movie. Everything was very vivid. At some point, the lady that lived next door to the apartment we were in came over and I had somehow pissed her off. She had to use our microwave, so when her stuff in the microwave was done, I left to hide, afraid that the lady would call the police when she found out we were doing all this acid. I found all these secret nooks and spaces in the apartment, it was pretty awesome. I explored for awhile, then came back, and the lady was standing in the doorway with her friend, and they were watching the movie.

Dream - Lucid

I was on a bus with a group of people. I think we must have been going to a theme park. There was a guy and a woman who were falsely advertising some ride and its safety features on the bus. It was like a live infomercial. The features included some type of weird orange head strap. I was pissed because they were falsely advertising. We went back in time, and changed something about the history of these people and/or the ride, staying on the bus the whole time.

~

I was at work, and it was Christmas Eve. We were closing early. It was dark outside, and so we turned off the lights in the shop. I went in the back to get something, and when I came back out, there was a line to the door, and people were being rung up. I threw my hands up in the air and said
"What the fuck! What the fuck. All these fucking people!", and I stormed into the back. I was absolutely furious.
I started going off to another employee, Kim, about it, and she just started to tell me how much of a bad employee I was. I got really upset and didn't say anything back. I later thought of how I should have said how bad her closes usually are. I started to think about the f-bomb outburst, and how all the customers had heard me. I knew they would tell my boss, and I'd get fired. Now, people are sitting in the dining room in the dark, drinking their coffee even though we're quite obviously closed. More people started to come in, and we had already taken the drawer out of the register to count down the money. I yelled "We're closed!" at the people on their way in, and they left. I started to come up with a plan to quit before I got fired for this.
There was a customer in there, a bigger woman, who was very understanding to my plight. She watched me put some weird laminated cards away under a counter, and I could just tell she was kind and understanding. She talked to me a little, and it was nice, though I can't remember what was said. I was very glad to have her in there at that moment. I saw more people in the parking lot walking in, my friend Courtney and this girl I know from my choir class. They saw that we were closed and one of them threw their hands in the air in frustration, and they turned around and walked away.

Dream - Lucid

So I finally slept last night. Like really slept, none of this waking up every hour bs and not being able to go back to sleep.

As a result, I guess from sleeping so hard, I can't recall any dreams from the first half of the night, but I woke up once, turned the heat up and went back to sleep and had another dream that I can only recall bits and pieces of. It was a very long dream though.

-I had some kind of surgery done that was supposed to help me to stop smoking of all kinds, weed and cigarettes. I had stitches in the middle of my right side, in between my ribcage and hips. The incision was horizontal.
-At some point in the dream, I made out with this very butch lesbian I know in waking life. We were in a giant bed somewhere, and the room was dark.
-I kept picking at and itching my stitches, and it made them feel all tingly.
-I kept on having to pull huge wads of tar out of my mouth. It started off black, but gradually turned dark purple the more I pulled out. It seemed like no matter how much tar I would pull out, there would always be more.
-There was someone in this dream that I kept trying to find, but for the life of me, I can't remember who it was.

Dream - Lucid

My dad and I were driving up a snowy mountain in his car, with my mom and brother driving behind us. It was daytime, I think. We saw a lot of wildlife. We came across some deer as we turned a corner, one looking kind of cartoonish and very cute. It was a fawn.
"Look, it's Bambi!", said my dad.
Then, there were black bears in front of us. HUGE black bears. One reared up on his hind legs and roared. We reached the end of the trail, and my dad got out to go look at the bears. He came back with a mangled sleeve and huge gashes in his arm from where a bear had attacked him. It wasn't bleeding, and he was walking around like it was nothing. We knew we had to get him to a hospital. My mom drove up, and my friend Leigh was in the car with her and my brother. Leigh was sitting in the passenger's side. I decided that I needed my iPod before we went to the hospital, since everyone else had theirs. We were then back at home suddenly, and my best friend Mk pulled into the garage in her blue Mustang between my parents' two cars (in waking life there's a pillar there, and definitely no room for a third car). We thought she had gone back to North Carolina for school the day before. She was wearing the clothes I last saw her in in waking life, a sweatshirt from her school, and black sweatpants.
"Sorry!", she said.
I got my iPod.

~

I was at a wedding ceremony of the Maymars? I had an invitation to the ceremony in my hands. It was outside and I was sitting in the front row. I remembered more of this one, but I didn't write it down immediately, so it has been forgotten. -_-

Dream - Lucid

Sigh. I laid in bed, literally, from 12:30am until after 5 before I fell asleep. Wtf, insomnia. I was so tired. I had to cancel my hair appointment this morning so I could get a little bit more sleep.

Despite all that, I did have a couple of dreams.

I was in a HUGE cabin with Chris. We were on vacation or something. The cabin was dark on the inside, and it was nighttime outside. I hugged Chris and commented on the weight he had lost (he's very big in waking life), and that my arms could fit all the way around him. There was a muppet-looking goat there, almost looked like a ram. I "remembered" when there had been another goat there, named Dolly, but she had died of old age. Anyway, the cabin had been left alone for a very long time, so the muppet-goat/ram had been left to his own devices. He had taken over my bed, but he surprisingly didn't chew anything up. I examined wires and stuff to see if he had chewed through anything, but he hadn't. I decided to name the goat Henry.

At some point, I went to sleep, and had a VERY realistic nightmare-within-a-dream. We were hearing noises, but dismissed them as ordinary creaks you'd hear in any old house. Then, I saw a light come on in one of the rooms, which came from the bathroom. I heard a toilet flush as well. I started freaking out saying "Chris, someone's here, someone's here!". We were frozen to the spot. A man stepped out of the room. He looked middle-aged, and looked like a hiker or a hunter. He said he had just been passing through and needed to use the restroom. He started to walk out the door of the cabin, when he turned around and pulled out an ax. We ran, and he chased us. He took Chris down by hitting him in the leg with the ax, and I made it to the stairs before he buried the ax into my leg as well. I remember trying to will myself to wake up, but it felt so real, I didn't think it was going to work, and that we were done for.

I woke up in the dream very paranoid, and asked Chris, who was on the porch, to please make sure all the doors were locked. The goat was now a cat, who looked just like my kitten in waking life, Miss Belle.



At some point, Chris wanted to go for a walk on The Greenway, a walking trail in our town in waking life. It closes at sundown, so we started sneaking in over some rocks and bushes. A cop car started to come so I dove in between some rocks to hide myself the best I could.

~

I know this one was longer, and I should have written it down as soon as I woke up, but I didn't -_-, so I only remember hearing the song "How to Save a Life" by The Fray, and trying to figure out if it came out in 2005 or 2006.

This insomnia stuff is driving me crazy. It's been going on for awhile now. I've always been a light sleeper and I've always had sleeping problems, but never to this extent. Maybe I'm just getting old, haha. I'm about to go post something in the Sleep & Health forum, I'm sure you guys have some good advice for me, you always do.

Dream - Lucid

I fell asleep this morning after being awake for an hour, and slipped into a dream, fully conscious of the fact that I was dreaming. I guess I kinda WILDed!

But anyway, I was fully aware that I was dreaming, but exhibited no control. I was in a bathroom, it looked similar to the bathrooms we had in middle school. The floors and walls were tiled in a dark greenish-blue. A man I'm acquainted with in waking life, Ben (I'm using real names now, stupid initials are getting confusing), appeared in front of me. I had a feeling he would for some reason. We started making out against the wall, when a group of elderly people walked in. It was all women and one man. Ben disappeared, and I was going to leave too, when I realized I had left my purse in one of the stalls. I went to go get it, and all the women were standing around the stall, and the man was walking in there. I kept saying "Excuse me, can you hand me my purse?", but they were too busy chatting it up. I persisted, and the man handed me a plastic shopping bag I had apparently also left in there. I could see my purse behind the toilet. I told him to please give me the purse too, and he started shutting the door. One of the women gave him a q-tip to, apparently, clean out his urethra. He shut the door, and I started yelling at one of the women. She was wearing a white button up shirt, one that I just bought in waking life. I was calling her a bitch, and telling her that I had already asked nicely many times. I took her by the collar and shook her. Everything else seemed to disappear around us. She never said anything, but she looked at me with this sad, terrified face.

~

Something about a bleach spot being on the shoulder of a pastel blue shirt I had that resembles a pastel purple shirt I have in waking life. The shirt was on this big clear plastic hanger.

~

I bought a lot of weed. I think I was at my fam's house. The weed seemed to be gone very quickly, so I went out to get more. I was stopped somewhere by these 2 men, and they asked me if I was buying. I told them I already had, and they said something about their concert. I told them I thought they had meant was I buying weed. They had meant was I buying tickets to their concert. They seemed disappointed. I asked them what their band was called, and it was something having to do with monkeys. They walked off. Now, I'm on a beach in Ohio? I'm wearing very warm clothes, the outfit I wore yesterday actually, and my snow boots. I walk on the shore and watch the water lick my boots. I hoped that the water wasn't going to ruin my boots.

It was actually pretty cool that I ended up on a beach, since my goal setting (still trying to share a dream with GMoney) was on a beach. Yay! I feel like this is progress.

EDIT: I remembered a fragment about me being able to see people's auras. That's really all I can recall.

Dream - Lucid

I can only recall 3 short dreams from last night...I've been having a lot of trouble staying asleep, I think it's because I've been crashing on my rents' living room couch. I'll have my own room again tonight, so maybe that will help with my sleeping and dreaming...the living room is NOT ideal for that kind of thing (people walking around, coming downstairs at the asscrack of dawn, etc. etc...).

Anyway, here's what I can recall.

I started dating my friend JS. I was at work, and I was talking about my new boyfriend to whoever I was working with. They asked me who it was, and I said that I'd point him out when he came in. He finally came in, and wasn't wearing a shirt. Now, I'm sitting at a computer desk, but I'm still at work (I work in a coffee shop). JS comes up behind me and starts to massage my shoulders.
"You're dating JS?", my coworker queries. She sounded very surprised. Then, I was talking to JS about his friends, and about how much support he has from them. I started naming them off to him. I then asked JS what my work schedule was, because he was in charge of scheduling, even though he didn't work there.

~

A girl I work with, L, was working in my fam's kitchen, but it was supposed to be the coffee shop. She had 2 kids. One of her daughters was in there. She had the most beautiful, long, wavy/curly brown hair I've ever seen. It reminded me of a hairstyle that Princess Leia from Star Wars would sport. Anyway, the daughter was about 16 years old.

~

My brother and I were playing hide and seek in my apartment with my dad and my brother's friend. We kept hiding in the same place, which was behind my bed. My dad was the seeker. Dad kept finding me, and I was angry at him for some reason. The last time we played, I bunched up the covers on my bed so it would look like I was hiding under them. Blake's friend found Blake first. It was like they had rehearsed it, so dad wouldn't find me. They high-fived one another. Dad said that he had thought I was under the covers.

EDIT: Remembered a fragment.

I drank the airplane shooter of peppermint shnapps I got from a customer at work, and was surprised that it was gone so quickly.

I had 4 dreams last night, though I can only recall a fragment of one.

I was in my room at my family's house, and it was nighttime. It still had all my furniture in it (all my furniture is at my apt in waking life). It was the day before my college's graduation, but I wasn't graduating yet. One of my best friends, CR, was about to graduate. She really wanted to hang out, because we hadn't done anything in awhile. She told me she didn't care what we did-we could drive around and find something to do-she just wanted to hang out. At some point, I was sitting at the computer in the bonus room (hasn't been a computer in that room for years in waking life). I was watching a video from CR's New Year's party. It was of her, KS, and both of their boyfriends. I was jealous that they had had such a great time, so I closed my eyes so I wouldn't have to watch it. I could still hear it though, and I could very clearly hear KS's boyfriend's voice. Then, someone dumped out this random bag of stuff I had onto the counter, my pipe being one of the items. I got mad because I was trying to conceal the pipe, and so I went to hide it, not without dropping it on the floor in my room and spilling all the resin out onto the carpet first. I hid the pipe in a clear plastic drawer.

~

I was hanging out with BH, an old friend from high school. Someone else was there too. We were at his apt. I did something to make him angry, so I left.

~

I had JB's (an ex) hat. It was black and covered in zippers. Tucked inside of it was a card and $41 from his new girlfriend. I kept having flashes of us together before, and how I "remembered" him cheating on her with me. I thought this girl must really love him. The card had notes from written all over the inside of it, "I miss you" and such, but never "I love you." I looked for an "I love you," but never found one. There was also a drawing folded up inside the card, but I don't remember of what, I just know that JB had drawn it. Also, there was a beautiful sketch of a rose on the inside, shaded with a pale pink. I saw where JB had written a little note back to her, but I couldn't read his handwriting. The only word I could make out was "kitty." At some point during all this, I ended up sitting on my family's living room couch (their house seems to be a recurring theme for me right now). I took the $41 and tried to start tearing up the card, but it was very tough. I finally started to, and thought "Well I can't give it back to him anyway, since I deleted his number and have no idea where he even is."

~

JB could turn into a dog. A beautiful, yellow, medium-sized fluffy dog. He looked almost like an Australian Shepard mutt. He was with me, but not. It was weird, we were hugging and stuff and acting like we were together, but it didn't seem right, I guess. We were with someone else, not sure who, and we were outside. It was nighttime. JB was in his dog form, and the other girl that was with us didn't know it was JB. He ran up to me and I started petting him, then I told the girl it was JB, and he transformed back into a person, first growing very tall and skinny, then evening out to his normal size. I hugged him during the transformation. Now, in high school again, and it's the last day. I was in an english teacher's class, one whom I was not particularly fond of in waking life, but it wasn't english. I think it was history. The classroom also looked like my classroom from the 6th grade. The teacher, Mrs. H, was going to read us a chapter out of the book. "How boring.", I thought to myself. She started reading, and the girl next to me, CF, a girl I was friends with in high school, was on her laptop, laughing at something on YouTube. I thought to myself "Chelsea doesn't go to MTSU...", which is a university, not a high school. Then, I was in my family's bonus room again, and two people were in there. They were a boy and a girl, all decked out in "punk-rock" clothing. The boy was standing on the windowsill playing the electric guitar, and the girl was on an exercise bike. She had long, blonde hair with a hat/bandanna, and an anarchy symbol cut into her arm. I was trying to explain Christianity/spirituality to them, and they kept laughing at me and making snarky comments. I got angry and took this whip type thing and started trying to hit them with it. They acted like I wasn't doing anything at all, even when I hit them. Usually though, I would miss and hit the blinds behind the guy instead. It was very frustrating, not to mention I had to jump very high to even try to hit the guy, and everything was much bigger than me and the people were much taller. Then, the girl had to go because, she said
"My Atheist friend is going to commit suicide."
She was going to go try to stop them from doing so.

Interesting set of dreams. They all seemed to end up at my family's house for some reason. I tried to set an LD goal like I did yesterday, but I never ended up lucid. I did keep waking up last night too, it was kind of a restless night. I'll just have to try again tonight.

I finally had an LD for the first time in a very long time!!!
This was also a potential shared dream with GMoney, but he doesn't recall any dreams from last night. We'll have to try it again. For now, here's what went down last night.

Dream
LD

It started out with me at my family's house. Everything was vivid and clear. I had just purchased a new smoking apparatus that involved crystals and had something to do with dreaming. I opened the box in the downstairs bathroom, which was covered in my dirty clothes (it is in waking life too, haha ). I left the box in the bathroom, then went to go smoke some pot. I was high, and didn't care that my parents probably knew. I think I did this a few times, sneaking around to get high then returning, then I had to go take care of a neighbor's dog. So I got on my bike-scooter thing, it was almost kinda like a Segway, and rode down the street, high as a kite. I crashed into a short wire fence, and hit the soft, green grass. It didn't hurt at all. An older woman with a curly gray perm approached me and asked me if I was alright. I told her I was fine. She asked if I needed a ride, and I told her no, I could walk since my house was right down the street. I went into the neighbor's house, which looked like a cabin on the inside. There were a couple of other people there. I think I got high again, then I left the house. Now, I remember being in my car in my family's driveway. I was still high. I couldn't get it to start properly. It would start very slowly, then I'd drive forward and backward in the driveway, never really parking.

This is where I became lucid. I don't know what triggered my lucidity, but nonetheless, I was excited. I examined my hands so I wouldn't get too excited, then I started messing around, floating through ceilings and stuff. There were so many things I wanted to do! I hadn't been lucid in so long. At one point, I tried to make my ex, A, appear, so I could ask him some things, but quickly got distracted. I knew there was something I had to do, but I couldn't remember what. I was floating up through a ceiling, and the scene was very strange. I was inside, but only the bottom half of eveyrthing was inside. The top half of the dreamscape was outside, and I saw rolling green hills under a clear blue sky. It was beautiful.

Then, I remembered the goal I had set: To share a dream with GMoney. Before I went to bed, I read Man of Shred's shared dreaming tutorial, then wrote down my goal, and how I was going to achieve it by creating a portal to GMoney's dream. I had also come up with a password, 'cheeseburger' is what I picked. This had all been discussed in the Research forum, except for what the password was. That I had to come up with on my own. Now, I'm in the cabin again, and I was with NS, whom I hadn't seen in a very long time in waking life. I created the portal by saying "Portal, APPEAR!", and sticking my hand out in front of me and concentrating. Lo and behold, a shimmering purple portal appeared in front of me, accompanied by ambient music. I asked NS if he wanted to go with me, and he didn't respond, so I took his hand and jumped into the portal. I kept my focus on my hands so I wouldn't wake up. There was a shimmering purple mist surrounding my hands, it was so vivid. We floated in the purple hazy darkness for awhile, when I realized that it wouldn't work because NS couldn't come with me.

Now, everything fades to black, and I'm in my family's driveway again. I repeat the portal process, and this time, a light green portal appears. I jump in, and focus on my hands again, which now have taken on a light green mist. It takes but a few seconds for me to reach my destination. The portal had taken me to another cabin-type room, with two twin-sized beds, a nightstand with a lamp softly illuminating the room between them, and a full-length mirror propped up against the wall, like the one I have in waking life. There are three teenage boys in the room, two are sitting on one of the beds, and the other is sitting on the edge of the other bed. I quickly pick the one on the end of the bed out as GMoney. He appeared to me as a 15 or so year-old-boy, with light brown skin, a black shirt with some kind of circular pattern in the middle, and very colorful, beaded sleeves.
"GMoney?", I said.
"Yes?", he replied.
"It's me, Krista from DV."
He beamed, and so did I. I approached him, and we stared for a few seconds, not able to wipe the smiles off our faces. I remembered that I had to tell him the password, and I stammered,
"The password...the password is 'cheeseburger'."
"Cheeseburger...", he said, dreamily.
We hugged for a long time, and it felt so warm. I was so excited to be having a potential shared dream!
"Thank you for welcoming me to DV.", I told him.
I put my forehead up against his, and we kept smiling, so excited about (possibly) sharing a dream. The two other boys in the room, one blonde and one with a buzz cut, did not notice us. One of them said
"Man, is he out?", in reference to GMoney. He was supposedly asleep on the bed in between them, but I didn't see his body.

Then, I started to ask GMoney about his clothing, and if it appeared to him like it did me. I started to describe the colors of his beaded sleeves, which were white, dark red, orange, and dark blue. He said I had it all wrong, and started to describe them as much different colors. I then asked what I was wearing. I thought I was in my work uniform. He told me I was wearing dark blue hoodies. I looked in the mirror, and I looked like I did when I was 14, before I had ever colored my hair or anything. It was its natural dark brown. I was also wearing a black hoodie, and I told GMoney this. I was wearing my very old work pants as well. I lifted up my hoodie to see the shirt underneath. It was black with pictures of photographs on it. Then, I noticed that the two other boys in the room were up, one was standing on the bed and watching me, the other was standing off to the side, behind the bed. The one on the bed said to the other,
"Dude, you're missing the best part!"
I then asked GMoney,
"How can they see me?", to which I received no reply.

Then, I knew I was going to wake up, and I did.

Then, I had a regular dream that I was at work, watching a lady with her young, blonde daughter. The daughter wanted all these things that we have that are made by local artists, and the mom said no, and started to leave. The daughter pitched a fit, and I thought to myself "This must been what it was like to raise me."

Props to you if you read this far. The LD/shared dream was extremely epic and vivid. I was so excited to have accomplished the goal I had set prior to falling asleep. Also, I've NEVER had the level of control in an LD that I had last night. I've NEVER created portals before, and I've NEVER even entertained the idea of sharing a dream. I was very proud of myself, and very excited. I even managed to stay in the dream, despite how excited I was. I kept a level head.

Thanks, DV! I couldn't have done this without you.

Well, here I am again, awake. I've been awake since 12:30. I have to be up at 5:30 anyway to be at work at 7, so I figured I'd just go ahead and post the one dream I had. Won't be going back to sleep anyway.

Bold=dream

I was in my family's bonus room. The light was very bright, and everything looked very clear. I was with my friends B and C. We were shooting rotting, gray zombies as they came at us. It was kinda like a video game. B used her gun to shoot 3 in the face enough times to bring them down. I said "Let me try!". She handed me the gun and 3 more started coming at us. I shot them in the neck and face, but one was very close and almost got us. I ended up bringing them down before they could reach us. C took the gun from me and took his turn at shooting zombies. After that, the dream started to become eerily realistic. It didn't feel like a game anymore. It seemed to get darker in the room, like it was nighttime inside, but still light at the same time. Very strange. Zombies are everywhere now, not sure where B went, but C was still with me. I become terrified for my life. C said "Don't let them get you..."

Then, I woke up, half expecting to be in the bonus room. I was panicking. Also, I looked at my phone to check the time, and C had sent me a message 20 minutes before I woke up, which was kinda weird.

I took a melatonin last night, and I'm thinking I probably shouldn't do that again. I used to take it a lot with no issue, but I guess that's changed. That nightmare was way too realistic for my taste...

Happy New Year, everyone! I finally got an appreciable amount of sleep, even if I woke up quite a few times.

Here are some dream frags/segments from last night...I can't really recall much more than this, though I know there was a lot more.

Bold=Dream

I was telling my mom (I’m staying with my rents right now in waking life) that I was going to stay back at my apartment for the night, even though I had work early the next morning. She laughed knowingly when I told her this, but didn’t say anything. She knew I was going to stay with someone, which was, in fact, my plan. I was going to invite my friend, A, to spend the night. Before I fell asleep, I was actually thinking about this.

Woke up, couldn't go back to sleep for about an hour and a half. Finally went back so sleep.

I was in the mall.

Woke up again this morning, rolled over and went back to sleep. I remember this last dream being longer and pretty awesome, but I can only remember the last part.

I was watching a movie, but it wasn't like on a TV screen or at a theater. It overtook my vision, like I was in it, but just passively observing. It was a cross between Wayne’s World and Watchmen (I should add that I've never seen Watchmen in waking life). I had a sense that I had seen the movie before, and I knew what was going to happen. There was the end of a scene. It took place in a restaurant. There was a guy with a big, brown mullet, and it reminded me of Wayne's World. That's the only thing I remember about that scene. The next scene was lit in an ice blue and reminded me of Watchmen. I saw a zoom-in to a sheet of glass with a razor blade and a lot of cocaine on it. I started hearing a hard rock song about cocaine. Then, there was a slow zoom to a big metal door leading to some sort of garage or something. It was very steamy in the room. Then, I saw someone in a pickup truck, with the glass all messed up on the sunroof. I saw a face breathing heavy steam onto the messed up part of the glass. Then the scene zoomed out to the bed of the truck. I saw someone slink out of the back window in a very smooth, fluid motion. It was WakingNomad. He had been doing cocaine. He looked like his profile picture, which reminds me of an elf. He had the head of his profile pic and no shirt. He had leaves covering his crotch and legs like pants, and some going up his torso and onto his head. He had a devious-looking smile on his face, like he was up to something.

And that's all I can recall.

I know I had a lot more going on than what I recall in the dreams, but it's ok. I'm sure my recall will improve more with time, and I'll be able to get it back up to where it was when I originally joined DV 4 years ago.