non-lucid

Dream - Lucid

I was laying in my bed on my stomach. Paul was sleeping next to me. I hoped he didn't try anything.

Then, it was morning, and we were up and out of bed. Brittany, a girl I met in one of my classes, laughed and said Paul had stayed at my house every night. She was right. I thought about it, and he had. I didn't understand why though. I mean, nothing had ever really happened between us or anything.

We were then laying in bed again. I was laying on my stomach, and I felt Paul put his arm over me and kinda cuddle me. I was so tired I didn't fight it. Paul then said something about us partying all night and staying up till dawn. I told him I couldn't because I had a test in the morning. He kept on talking about it anyway.

Another morning came. We were both up and about again. I looked at Paul, and all he was wearing were these mustard yellow boxers. I didn't look at him for too long; I didn't want him to get the wrong idea. I quickly averted my eyes.

I then went to class. I was in this big auditorium that reminded me of my old middle school auditorium.

Then, I was in bed again, and figured out I was dreaming. I looked around, and the TV was in the wrong place. I then did I finger count: 5 on the right hand, 6 on the left. I got up out of bed and went to phase through a wall, hoping it would take me somewhere else.

I was too hasty and didn't think through were I wanted to go, however, and things went black. I was in bed again after a few seconds of darkness, but I was still aware that I was dreaming. I decided to go get my brother and show him around the world of lucid dreaming. I got up out of my bed and hovered a little. I then went to my door to exit the room. I decided to not phase through it this time since the last time ended in blackness. I turned the handle, first doing another finger count.

I then was in my brother's room, trying to get his dream body out of bed. I don't remember much else from this part of the dream.

The next thing I know, I'm standing in front of a mirror. I look at my reflection, bu I discover that I look totally different. My hair is much darker, straighter, and longer, and my face looked much different and a bit younger. I concentrated a little more on it, and I started to be able to recognize my eyes on the unknown face staring back at me in the mirror.

I then decided to try something I've always heard about, but have never had experience with. A lot of people have told me that when they see their reflection in their dreams, it's horrible, disgusting, and terrifying. I've never had that experience, so I decided to try something to see what would happen. I said, out loud to my reflection,
"I want to face my demons. Show me my demons."
My face started to morph and change, every so often stopping in a distorted position. It would enlongate, flatten, my eyes would shrink, my face at one point looked kind of like an ass, etc. It just kept doing that. I could even feel it happening physically.

However, it wasn't scary. Just kinda weird.

I was then in a room somewhere. I felt the dream losing stability, so I started to feel and concentrate on my surroundings. I ran my hand over a glass surface, focusing on how real the glass felt. Below the glass was a metal surface. I did the same for that. I felt the cold, shiny metal under my fingers. It made the dream feel more stable.

Dream - Lucid

I was in what looked like my 11th grade English classroom. The teacher handed us back a test that we had been working on before, but hadn't finished. I started to pick up were I left off as I talked to the girl sitting beside me.

Then, I figured out I had a choir concert that night. One of the girls in the class, a black girl with pretty, short hair said she wasn't going to the concert and that she hadn't been to any of them (apparently she was in choir too). I couldn't decide if I wanted to go or not.

Then, I was in my car, driving down the road one of my good friends lives on. Her neighbor, Nick, the first guy I ever had a crush on in waking life, was outside by the mailbox. He had his back turned to me. As I drove by with him on my right side, I slowed down, reached my hand out the window, and touched his back, kind of rubbing it to get his attention. I noticed that his green shirt was very soft. I then kept driving down the road. I didn't look back to see if he turned around or not.

I was then at my house in the kitchen, debating on whether or not to go to the choir concert or not again. My mom was all dressed up and ready to go. I then noticed the time. 7:30pm. The concert had already started. I told my mom I wasn't going to go, and that it was ok for me to be missing the concert. She said something, but I can't remember what.

I was then in my room on the phone with Nick. He was trying to tell me about his memoir that he was apparently writing. I was listening, asking him where I could find it to read it and such, when I got interrupted by my brother. I told Nick to hold on and for my brother to go away. I then got back on the phone and kept listening to Nick. The interruptions kept coming as soon as Nick would get going telling me about his memoir. I kept having to tell him to hold on. I felt really bad; this had to be getting annoying for him.

Dream - Lucid

I was with my friend Paul. It was somewhere that I was spending the night for some reason. We were upstairs in some kind of bonus room. The only light in the room was a desk lamp at a desk Paul was sitting at. I was really tired, and laying on the floor on some blankets. I had a pillow as well. Paul was sitting in a desk chair which was turned towards me. We had been talking, but I don't remember about what. At some point, he was even massaging my feet. I hoped that he didn't think they were gross.

Then, I was so tired, I just decided to close my eyes and go to sleep.

I was then...I'm not really sure. I was in some white room that looked futuristic. We may have even been in space. This is where I figured out that space velociraptors had taken over the Earth. It was sometime in the future. The world was also running out of its water supply.

Even though these space raptors had taken over the planet, there were plenty of humans left. The thing was, they were living in constant fear. If the humans went outside, they were fair game to be eaten. People were getting picked off one by one. It was a horrible state.

I was told by some guy that we had to go back and get some people. We were then on Earth (a couple of men and myself) in my backyard. It was quiet, and the sky was grey. I knew we didn't need to be outside, though there were no raptors in sight; being outside was risky business in these times. I saw my brother at some point; he was helping us out.

I was then in my house. I don't really know what we needed the people for, but I was in there to get them. I walked through my kitchen, and then into my living room. It was quiet; I didn't see anyone inside. I saw some of the people who came with me outside through the windows.

I then felt like I lived there. I felt scared for my life. I felt the fear of the people of Earth.

Suddenly, through one of the windows, I saw them. A pack of raptors was running through my backyard. They were red with black, stripe-like markings on their backs. My breath caught in my throat and I dropped to the floor on my hands and knees. I frantically tried to crawl away from the windows, and ended up seeing some more passing through the front yard through the windows in our piano room. I felt like their vision was based on movement, so I tried to be still as I laid low. One of the raptors looked around as it passed. I hoped it didn't see me.

I started to panic, and immediately became lucid. I tried to think myself awake, but that wasn't enough. I started to say it out loud.
"Wake up, Krista. Wake up. Wake up!"
At first it didn't work. I closed my eyes and opened them in the exact same scene I had been in before.

Then, I closed my eyes and opened them again, finding myself back in the room with Paul. I was so relieved, but extremely sleepy. I looked next to me and noticed that Paul was laying on his stomach reading next to me on the blanket that I was also laying on. On the other side of Paul was a small child, a little boy. I think it was his nephew. I thought Paul was probably trying to make a move on me or something, but I didn't really care at that point. I was so tired that all I wanted to do was sleep. I turned to lay on my stomach as I cuddled my pillow a little. I moved a little closer to Paul, in a way hoping that he would cuddle with me.

I then fell asleep again.

I was back where I had been, but I didn't feel as scared because I knew I was dreaming. Part of me just wanted to let the dream play out a little more, so I didn't really do anything to control it.

I was then on the Earth mission again, but I was at a different house this time. I knew I was dreaming, so I knew no one was in any real danger. I quickly decided to try to transform myself. I'd never done that before. For some reason, I decided to try to transform myself into Pikachu. Why I decided on Pikachu is absolutely beyond me. I concentrated for awhile, but it wouldn't work. I stood in front of a mirror to try to guide the transformation by watching myself. The best I got was one of my legs started to turn yellow at the thigh. I tried for my other leg, but no dice.

I then went away from the mirror and tried to shrink myself, seeing if I could do it that way. I shrank a little, but just ended up squatting on the floor. I then laid on my back to try to watch my legs shrink. Nope, no dice. Grr.

I was then in the white futuristic room again. I was told that the raptors had not originally come to kill, but when they got to Earth, they saw us and felt sorry for our species because we were so stupid and blind, and decided to take over the world and kill us. I also figured out that the world's water supply was pretty much out; someone said they didn't know for sure, but had heard someone on Earth, referring to the water, say
"Oh shit."

I then was at my college, about to play a woodwind concert for band. I was holding my clarinet. I was walking down a bright hallway, when I saw the trombone players start to walk towards me, going on to play the brass portion of the concert. I then saw Austin (my ex in waking life who really does play trombone). His hair was shorter and he looked a lot younger. He wasn't wearing glasses either, as he usually is in waking life. I walked right by him, and he looked right at me. I then noticed that he had gotten shorter....waaaay shorter. In fact, as he walked by me, I turned around and he had shrunken a TON. I figured it was an illusion and he did it to himself. On top he was wearing a suit jacket, white shirt and tie, but on the bottom, he was wearing these baggy black pants with tons of ropes or belts that went from one leg to the other. I figured he had used those to make it look like he was way shorter.

Embarrassed, I turned to a friend and said
"I can't believe I'm dating him."

Dream - Lucid

I had just gotten a baggie of weed. I was driving to Mk's house in the middle of the day with it. I'm not sure why I was going there.

I got there (it was in a different location than in waking life) and went in. I was then in a room with a little wooden breadbox looking thing sitting on a small table. Mk started to come in the room, and I shoved the baggie in there to hide it from her. I didn't want her to see that I had brought it. I put a couple of other things in there too, but I can't remember what.

We talked and I stood in front of the breadbox to make sure she didn't try to get in there for any reason. I was nervous that she would find it.

Then, I was going to a birthday dinner for Austin. My mom was with me, but I think we drove separately. I had the weed in my car. We went to Chili's where he was having the dinner, but we got there a little early, before Austin showed up. It kind of looked like Chili's. The walls were all wooden. To my left there was a huge table with a long booth seat.

Austin and his grandparents showed up. I said hello to Austin and wished him a happy birthday. I then decided I needed to leave to go smoke my weed. I didn't even stay for the dinner.

~

I was about to go to UTK (a university in my state) to go to my friend CZ's birthday party (wow birthdays were the theme last night, apparently). It was nighttime.

I was at the university and in CZ's dorm. Her boyfriend, Max, was there too, along with some other people. CZ was sitting on a couch. She was very happy; she had a huge, genuine smile on her face.

CZ and I then had to travel through some grass to get to the main place where the party would be held. We went through it, and I got some little cuts on my legs from it for some reason. At the end of the grass was a nurse's station where 2 female nurses sat at desks. They had to treat the cuts because the grass had been treated with chemicals that could eat away at your skin. I did notice that my legs stung a little. CZ had explained all of this process to me beforehand.

I sat down and one of the nurses, a middle-aged woman, started to explain to me why they had to treat me. She started to put some weird brace on my leg. Her hand wandered up my thigh and close to my vag. She was about to molest me! I grabbed her wrist and tried to move it away, but she resisted hard. I told her I was just going to go without the treatment then, and started to get up. She moved her hand and told me to please sit back down. She then doctored my legs properly.

CZ and I were then where we needed to be at the party. The room was really awesome, it was like another dorm, but it had its own kitchen area and a spacious living room. There were a few people in there, my other friend Caitlin being one of them. She was sitting on a bar stool in the kitchen area. Caitlin apparently went to this university too (not so in waking life). I was so amazed at the quality of the dorm.
"Wow, this is really nice!" I said.
Caitlin said something to me, but I can't remember what. She went over to the kitchen sink.
Everyone seemed really happy.

Dream - Lucid

I felt myself moving into a dream. I wanted to sit up, but not until I knew for sure I was dreaming.

Everything was then very dark around me, like it was the dead of night. I saw a window in my room where it wasn't supposed to be. I kept saying in my head
"I'm dreaming, I'm dreaming."
I sat up, feeling no resistance, but then, I suddenly snapped back down like a rubber band.
Bummer.

~

I was in high school band again. I had my bass clarinet out, and I was playing it, just messing around a little. I was standing, then I was sitting in the band at some point. A girl I used to know, Cathy I think, was playing a tenor sax. She was just beginning to learn how to play it. I looked over at her. The tenor sax looked HUGE. I mean, those things are already pretty damn big, but this one was as wide as a tenor and as long as my bass clarinet.

I looked at my reed. I realized that this was the first time I had gotten my bass clarinet out since high school, and that I should have checked it out before just putting it together and playing it. Who knows what kinda gross shit was in there? I started to take it apart in the band room while talking to someone.

At some point, I talked to my old band teacher as well.

Dream skip.

I was about to see Chris again, for the first time in almost a year. Lots of things had changed; he was dating someone else and we hadn't really talked since January. I was really excited to see him.

Then, Chris was there. We were hanging out in an off-white room, I don't know where we were. I know everything was very clear and bright, like it was in the middle of the day. We were laughing and catching up, having a great time. I wanted so badly to tell him how much I had missed him, how much I wanted to spend more time with him. I wanted him to leave his girlfriend and come back to me, but I never said that. I couldn't bring myself to. Regardless, we did some hugging. It was nice.

Chris and I were then on a train. It was a strange train, as it ran on a single track that was raised up above the land, like a monorail. Below the tracks was green grass; we were in the country. The conductor wasn't there, so Chris had to drive the train. I was in there with him. The car was empty and colored grey steel. The only thing it had was a small steering wheel that looked like the steering wheel to a pirate ship, only smaller. I watched out the window as Chris drove the train. We took a curve and had a really close call; the train almost fell of the tracks, but Chris adjusted enough to fix it.

Then, I looked ahead on the tracks. There was a sharp curve coming up, and the track looked corroded. Chris did the best he could, but the train fell on its side and almost all the way off of the track. The right wall of the train fell out, and so did Chris. I rushed over as he was falling and grabbed his hand, saving him from falling to the ground some distance below. I had a rush of adrenaline as I did this, and felt the need to say something that had been bottling up the whole time we had been hanging out; the whole time we hadn't spoken or seen one another.
"I love you," I said.
He did not respond. What was I expecting?

I pulled him back up into the remnants of the train.

We were then suddenly on the ground below the rail. The ground was no longer grass, but a hard, greyish flooring was below our feet. An official-looking woman approached us. She had her blonde hair pulled back tight, and was wearing a suit.
"So far, 8 people were killed," she said, referring to the accident.
I stepped in and defended Chris, telling her that it wasn't his fault and the track had been corroded.

Then, we were back in that room we were in originally. In a way, it now reminded me of a kitchen. Chris got on the phone, a land line, and was talking to someone about how he would be in San Fransisco in a month. I then remembered that he was moving to Chile in a month (he is in waking life). I started to feel defeated. I couldn't believe I had forgotten that.

Dream - Lucid

I was at my house in my living room. I was standing, and my brother was sitting on the couch. We had just found some weed seeds, I think we found them in the car. He asked me
"Are you going to smoke some weed?"
I replied, pretty surprised that he asked me that,
"No, I don't have any. Why?"
"Because I never get to hang out with you."

Then, the seeds were in this small, plastic teal container that kinda looked like this pencil holder I had stuck to my locker door in high school. My brother and I were both on the couch. We were apparently flying to Chicago, but it was like we were playing pretend that we were flying to Chicago. My mom came in the room and we then said
"We're in Chicago!"
But we were still on the couch in my living room. I truly believed we were in Chicago though, it made perfect sense.

~

I was sitting on a chair in a white kitchen-like room. My friend Paul was there. We were talking, and I looked to the right for a second. When I looked back, Paul had gotten a seat and sat RIGHT in front of me. He was still talking to me, but he was right up in my face and smiling. I felt kinda weird about it, I felt like he may want to try to ask me out or something. I turned away a little as he kept talking and smiling.

Then, I was in a house with a bunch of women. I think it was nighttime; everything seemed kind of dark. Some girl was in the shower with this guy who I think wanted to have sex with all of the women there. It was a weird situation, I can't really remember much else about it.

Dream - Lucid

There was some plot line to this dream, but for the life of me, I can't remember what it was.

I was in a dim room, sitting on a dark red couch with my best friend Mk and someone else, though I'm not sure who. I think it was a guy. Mk was sitting in between this other person and me. I started to feel really tired, so I cuddled up next to Mk and laid my head on her shoulder to fall asleep. I felt her lay her head on mine as my eyes closed to go to sleep.

The next thing I know, I'm up and walking around outside in a parking lot. It was sometime in the evening; the sun was starting to set. Someone from a big, white van yells to me
"Hey! Krista!"
I turn to my right, and I see the outline of a person in this van. I could only see the outline due to a huge glare in my vision from the sun. At first I thought it was Ryan, but as I got closer, it was a guy in about his mid-20s with brown hair. He looked very youthful; you could see it in his eyes. I had no idea who he was, though.

He kept talking to me, and I kept responding, when suddenly, he said
"You have no idea who I am, do you?" When he said that, I looked at him, and he looked like this polysomnographic sleep technician (who is a woman) I worked with the other night in waking life. She has short brown hair in a pixie cut. I kept thinking maybe it was her, but something in the back of my head said I was wrong.
I ignored the comment and kept talking to the person. They didn't seem to notice that I had avoided their question.

Dream - Lucid

I was at a water park in the daytime with my mom and some other people that I didn't know. A child asked me to come up to the "big slide" with her. I climbed some stairs and found myself at the top of a HUGE slide. It was like a tube/tunnel slide. I wondered why this was at a child's park because it was gigantic and frankly, kind of scary.

I decided to go down the slide. There was a gigantic, sharp drop at the beginning. I felt my stomach go into my throat as I went down. There were lots of twists and curves and I was going very fast. It was so much fun!

I got to the bottom and went up to the top again. The child had brought some stuffed animals with her this time. I grabbed two Beanie Baby cats to go with me as well.

The slide had kind of changed, the drop was gone, but I didn't seem to notice. I thought about going down on a towel to make myself go faster. I went down again, and this time, close to the end, a huge troll or some other huge creature sneezed, and got its green mucus all over me. Ew. But I just figured it was part of the ride, though now I wasn't going as fast because of it. Oh well.

At the bottom was my mom and someone else, a short guy. He apparently had a crush on me, but I didn't have one on him. I saw too that the park had been taken over by some evil villains. They wanted the short guy. I couldn't let that happen. One villain approached us. He looked kind of human, but his face was wider and his skin very pink. He kind of reminded me of a pig. I pictured him coming out of a cage in the wall.

To protect the guy, I told them he was my boyfriend. I reached for his hand. He cautiously took it, because he didn't know what was going on. We walked back up the stairs of the slide.

When we got to the top, I wanted to kiss him. I had to bend down a little to do so. It made me think that I was "the man" of the relationship. I then felt more like a man. Weird. We kissed, but just a little one.

Dream - Lucid

A gigantic nuclear bomb had been launched at China; it had come from space. It completely destroyed China, Europe, and pretty much that entire side of the planet.

On the other side of the planet in the U.S., I was at home with my family. My mom and brother were definitely there, but I'm not sure where my dad was. Everything was eerily quiet and dark. There was no wind, nothing. Despite our distance from the affected side of the world, we were under a nuclear winter. Radiation could easily kill us. I was worried about that.

At that moment, we were easily some of the only survivors of this nuclear catastrophe.

I walked out into the garage, and Ryan was there, looking through some old stuff we have up against the wall. He turned to look at me. I'm not sure whether or not we spoke.

I went upstairs to look around, and saw that part of my room had caved in. I laughed and called my mom and brother to show them what had happened. It's not like I'd be needing that room anyway, we needed to get out of there.

We were trying to find somewhere safe to go. I was going around the house, collecting things that I thought we may need. I picked up a couple of throw blankets, both cat-themed with little mice and such stitched into them. I was scared that I may touch something that was affected by the radiation. As I scanned the room, everything had this still, stifling air about it. I gathered up a few more things, though they weren't necessarily things that we would probably need. I just wanted to save everything.

Dream - Lucid

I was at my house, trying to get ready to leave for school. I was running a little behind. I had put on a navy polo and khaki pants, and couldn't find a belt. I went downstairs into the kitchen, and my mom was standing at the sink doing dishes. I asked her about a belt. I then noticed that she was wearing 3 belts: One across her stomach, and the other two closer to her chest. I called her out on it, and she gave me a belt, which I had trouble then deciding whether or not to really wear it. I put it through the belt loops, but thought it looked funny with my shirt hanging over it. I tucked in my shirt, and was very uncomfortable because it made my pants a lot tighter. I could barely breathe. So then I put it on my stomach like my mom had it. Hated that, so I just opted to put it where it was supposed to go and try not to worry about my shirt.

I then saw my brother and his girlfriend, Sarah, sitting at the kitchen table. Sarah was supposed to take us to school that morning, but just her and I. Not sure what my brother was doing. We got in her car, and she started to drive. We talked a little bit. I looked down at the clean seats, and they were black.

We were then back at the house for some reason. I looked at the clock, and it said it was 6:59am. I started flipping out, telling Sarah we were going to be late.

All of the sudden, we were at the school. It was my old high school. First period was about to start, but there was an event going on outside the choir room. We joined the crowd and watched some pop singers perform on a stage, though I kept having to move and stand on my tippy toes to see anything that was going on. It was a radio station that was doing a charity show that night. I was excited about going to that. I also thought to myself that most of the kids in school probably didn't know about this event, since it was a band/choir event.

First period was lingering closer. The crowd started to disperse. I started trying to locate Sarah again, when I saw Austin in the corner of my eye. He was wearing a red shirt. I spotted Sarah close to where Austin was and started to approach her. Austin then started to approach me. As I started to talk to Sarah, Austin came up to me. He touched my shoulder, and I looked up at him and told him hi. He then started to walk away towards the doors to the school. I was trying to get his attention to figure out what he wanted, but he just kept walking away until he opened the doors and left.

Then, Sarah and I saw that a lot of people had cookies. We turned around and started walking the other direction, when she spotted two tables set up full of different types of cookies. I wanted to grab a giant one, but I didn't see any left. We both grabbed plates and started to fill them up with different cookies. I broke a couple of pieces off and ate them. They were light, soft, and delicious sugar cookies with frosting and sprinkles.

Sarah was enthusing about the cookies, and then we both saw a plate of giant frosted cookies cut into different shapes. My plate was so full, I didn't know how I was going to eat all of those cookies. Oh well. I took a giant one anyway.

Then, I knew we were late to first period. I was trying to figure out whether or not I needed to go to the office to tell them I was there, or if I should just go to first period.

I was then outside. It was daytime. I don't remember who I was with now, but I was with someone else, a guy I believe. We were trying to climb a wire fence. We climbed up and up and up, and when I got to the top, I felt something sticky on the top bar of the fence. I didn't see anything weird there, but it kinda grossed me out. I still kept going, though. I climbed over to the other side of the fence and started to climb down.

Dream - Lucid

All I really recall about this dream is it being like a video game. First, I was in a classroom. It looked like one of my elementary school classrooms.

I was in a house at night, and I had to watch out for something in there.

I also remember riding in a car with a couple of other people. Something had happened as to where when we got mad, we'd grow these insane beards or mustaches. Wtf? I wanted to fix that because it was silly.

There was a football stadium in there somewhere too.

~

I was outside in what I think was a football stadium. The sky was very blue and it was daytime. There were other people around as well. They looked kind of cartoony.

I spontaneously just knew it was a dream. I flew into the air, but not too high. I wanted to let the dream play out to see what happened.

But of course, that didn't happen. I was then in a mall, watching people walk by. I decided I wanted to try to visit Hyu again. I walked around, searching for a wall or something I could draw a portal on. I found a pillar, and just as I was about to draw the portal, I thought of how Hyu teleports to get places, and how much faster that is. I decided to give that a whirl.

Only problem with that was I had no idea how to even begin to do that. I stood by the pillar and saw many people walking by. I though of my destination, though all I knew about that was it was wherever Hyu was. I thought about that for a little bit, and things started fading. I was losing the dream because I was just standing around doing nothing. I started to walk around, but everything went black.

~

I was then somewhere else. I tried to count my fingers, and was coming up with 5, sometimes 6, but I thought I had just miscounted those times. I tried to make an extra finger grow out of my hand, but couldn't. I had an inkling I was still dreaming, though.

Ugh. I need to get my dreaming skills back up to where they used to be. It's so frustrating.

EDIT: My mom just called me and told me she had her first lucid dream where she had control! YAY!! I'm proud of her!!

Also, I was her dream guide! She said that I was in all 5 lucids she had this morning, and I told her that she was dreaming, she could do whatever she wanted, how to switch dreams, and how to reality check!!

Just had to add that...I thought that was so cool!!!

Dream - Lucid

I was in a classroom somewhere. I was given a test to take. For some reason, I was really, really angry. I kept trying to scream and yell, but it was like I had drainage in my chest and my voice was all raspy.

Then, I figured out why I was so damn angry: My parents had gotten a divorce, and my dad was about to marry my uncle's ex-wife (who is dead in waking life). I was so pissed. I couldn't believe my dad would do that. I couldn't even believe my parents weren't together anymore. I was RAGING.

I was then in a garage. It reminded me of a garage we had in a different house. It was daytime outside. My dad and my uncle's ex-wife were trying to set up for the wedding, which was going to be held in the fabulous garage. My brother was there too, helping them set up. I refused to help them set up. I was so angry. I kept trying to yell "Fuck you!" and "You're a bitch!" and various other profane statements, but I still couldn't yell. That made everything so much more frustrating. I then tried to punch a wall, and it was like punching through water; when I hit the wall, I just tapped it because of all the resistance I was experiencing. I tried again and again, and I couldn't punch the damn wall. SO FRUSTRATING.

At one point, I had an empty water bottle that I had written "Fuck you" in black marker around the mouth. I put it in the garage. When I came back in there at another point, it was on the floor.

I then went inside and saw my grandpa eating lunch and reading the paper. I gave him a big hug. It was the only thing that happened that was good. I didn't let him go for a bit.

I then hadn't talked for awhile. I was in another room with my brother. I was trying to tell him how angry I was about the whole thing. I started yelling my profanities again, and this time, I could yell because my voice had had a rest. It felt so good to yell and get my anger out. I knew it wouldn't be long though until my voice went out again.

This happened again at some point, and in the garage, I did manage to get a few choice words out, but not many, because my voice quickly went out again.

Dream - Lucid

I was at work (wow it's been awhile since I've had a work dream), and Leslie, one of my coworkers, had baked "special" brownies and a "special" chocolate cake. Both looked fudgey, moist, and delicious. She had left them there. I remember them sitting behind the counter and I hoped that no one tried to sell them because they were, well, special.

I noticed while looking at the brownie pan that most of it had been eaten. I snuck a big handful of brownie and ate it. I hoped it would kick in soon.

I then was with some Indian guy. I had a big crush on him. I connected it to the dream I had the other night about an Indian/Middle Eastern guy trying to stab me. Romantic, right? Anyway, I saw it as a premonition on my part that I was going to fall in love with this guy. He was pretty attractive.

Then, I was at my old high school, walking down the band hallway. Tons of kids and some parents were there, going through their lockers. I think it was the last day of school, and they were cleaning out their lockers. I hoped that no one thought I was still in high school.

Dream - Lucid

I was in a crowd somewhere, when I felt a prodding at my back. I got away from it, because I knew it was someone trying to stab me; they had been at it for a long time. I had no idea who this person was; they had been very elusive. I actually had a scar on my back from where they did stab me once already. I remember mentioning the prodding to someone.

Then, I was in my bed at home. It was nighttime. Someone was laying with me, though I can't remember who. I was laying down, when I felt a sharp stab into my lower back. It had come from the mattress, like the perpetrator was under my bed. I could visualize the puncture in my back; it was small but deep, right on my spine, and was definitely bleeding.

After getting that wrapped up and doctored a little, I remember running my hand across my lower back. I could feel the scar from the previous stabbing, which was only a few inches from where the new injury. It felt like a cigarette burn scar, or something to that effect.

I was then in a crowded room again. I think it was some sort of dance or party. At any rate, I spotted someone at the edge of the room, away from all the others. He was a short Indian or Middle Eastern-looking guy who was about my age. He was holding up a silver metal...something...

And then I saw it. A blade popped out of the top. It was a box cutter. This was the guy who had been stabbing me! I said
"You."
He looked at me. He had had no idea that I had been there watching him for a bit. He took off to run, and I chased him. He tried to go up some stairs and through a door, but I caught him and tried to wrestle the box cutter away from him, and finally succeeded.

~

I was on a school bus with a bunch of other people, heading to some gathering. I remember my boss, her daughter-in-law Shannon, and her grandson Hudson being there. Shannon's blonde hair was much longer than it is now in waking life. Her and Hudson were sitting behind me, and I think my boss was beside me. We were with some other people too, though I can't remember who. My boss wanted me to give Hudson a snack, so I rummaged through a bag to find the snacks. I pulled something out and offered it to him, but he didn't want it. My boss told me to try the Cheerios. I found the bag of Cheerios, but there were only like 7 or 8 Cheerios in the bag. I started to give them to Hudson. He took the first one and said
"This is the best Cheerio!"
I then just handed him the bag.

We were then out of the bus at our destination. It was like we were in a big, open Colosseum with a dirt floor. It was nighttime outside. I feel like we were there to battle something. I remember we had to take a break, but I don't recall what we were doing before and after the break. All I can remember is us huddled in a group talking to one another, probably strategizing. I also remember seeing my boss's shirt, and thinking it might be see-through, hoping it wasn't, and then looking back and seeing that it really wasn't. She was wearing the weirdest clothing; a dark shirt under a grey and white-striped tank top (resembling one of my own in waking life) that was too small for her.

Dream - Lucid

One of my cats was sick, though I can't remember which one. She was at the animal hospital, and I was very worried that she wasn't going to make it.

My mom then came in and, without saying much of anything, told me the cat didn't make it. She didn't tell me that she was dead, but that she had herpes on her hypothalamus. I had a feeling she was dead before my mom even told me that though.

I even asked my mom flat out if the cat was dead, and I'm pretty sure she never really answered me.

~

I woke up, and went into the linen closet to get a towel. I put the towel in the bathroom and shut both doors (one that leads to the hall and the other that leads to my room). I looked at the door to my room, and saw the faint glow of my light. I opened the door, and the light was off...weird. I turned the light on. Only one of the 3 lights on my overhead fan came on. I shrugged it off.

I then wondered about the light in my closet, which is always on. I opened the closet door, and the light was off! I said
"I turned this light off?", or something to that effect.
I turned the closet light on.