non-lucid

Dream - Lucid

My dad and I were driving up a snowy mountain in his car, with my mom and brother driving behind us. It was daytime, I think. We saw a lot of wildlife. We came across some deer as we turned a corner, one looking kind of cartoonish and very cute. It was a fawn.
"Look, it's Bambi!", said my dad.
Then, there were black bears in front of us. HUGE black bears. One reared up on his hind legs and roared. We reached the end of the trail, and my dad got out to go look at the bears. He came back with a mangled sleeve and huge gashes in his arm from where a bear had attacked him. It wasn't bleeding, and he was walking around like it was nothing. We knew we had to get him to a hospital. My mom drove up, and my friend Leigh was in the car with her and my brother. Leigh was sitting in the passenger's side. I decided that I needed my iPod before we went to the hospital, since everyone else had theirs. We were then back at home suddenly, and my best friend Mk pulled into the garage in her blue Mustang between my parents' two cars (in waking life there's a pillar there, and definitely no room for a third car). We thought she had gone back to North Carolina for school the day before. She was wearing the clothes I last saw her in in waking life, a sweatshirt from her school, and black sweatpants.
"Sorry!", she said.
I got my iPod.

~

I was at a wedding ceremony of the Maymars? I had an invitation to the ceremony in my hands. It was outside and I was sitting in the front row. I remembered more of this one, but I didn't write it down immediately, so it has been forgotten. -_-

Dream - Lucid

Sigh. I laid in bed, literally, from 12:30am until after 5 before I fell asleep. Wtf, insomnia. I was so tired. I had to cancel my hair appointment this morning so I could get a little bit more sleep.

Despite all that, I did have a couple of dreams.

I was in a HUGE cabin with Chris. We were on vacation or something. The cabin was dark on the inside, and it was nighttime outside. I hugged Chris and commented on the weight he had lost (he's very big in waking life), and that my arms could fit all the way around him. There was a muppet-looking goat there, almost looked like a ram. I "remembered" when there had been another goat there, named Dolly, but she had died of old age. Anyway, the cabin had been left alone for a very long time, so the muppet-goat/ram had been left to his own devices. He had taken over my bed, but he surprisingly didn't chew anything up. I examined wires and stuff to see if he had chewed through anything, but he hadn't. I decided to name the goat Henry.

At some point, I went to sleep, and had a VERY realistic nightmare-within-a-dream. We were hearing noises, but dismissed them as ordinary creaks you'd hear in any old house. Then, I saw a light come on in one of the rooms, which came from the bathroom. I heard a toilet flush as well. I started freaking out saying "Chris, someone's here, someone's here!". We were frozen to the spot. A man stepped out of the room. He looked middle-aged, and looked like a hiker or a hunter. He said he had just been passing through and needed to use the restroom. He started to walk out the door of the cabin, when he turned around and pulled out an ax. We ran, and he chased us. He took Chris down by hitting him in the leg with the ax, and I made it to the stairs before he buried the ax into my leg as well. I remember trying to will myself to wake up, but it felt so real, I didn't think it was going to work, and that we were done for.

I woke up in the dream very paranoid, and asked Chris, who was on the porch, to please make sure all the doors were locked. The goat was now a cat, who looked just like my kitten in waking life, Miss Belle.



At some point, Chris wanted to go for a walk on The Greenway, a walking trail in our town in waking life. It closes at sundown, so we started sneaking in over some rocks and bushes. A cop car started to come so I dove in between some rocks to hide myself the best I could.

~

I know this one was longer, and I should have written it down as soon as I woke up, but I didn't -_-, so I only remember hearing the song "How to Save a Life" by The Fray, and trying to figure out if it came out in 2005 or 2006.

This insomnia stuff is driving me crazy. It's been going on for awhile now. I've always been a light sleeper and I've always had sleeping problems, but never to this extent. Maybe I'm just getting old, haha. I'm about to go post something in the Sleep & Health forum, I'm sure you guys have some good advice for me, you always do.

Dream - Lucid

I fell asleep this morning after being awake for an hour, and slipped into a dream, fully conscious of the fact that I was dreaming. I guess I kinda WILDed!

But anyway, I was fully aware that I was dreaming, but exhibited no control. I was in a bathroom, it looked similar to the bathrooms we had in middle school. The floors and walls were tiled in a dark greenish-blue. A man I'm acquainted with in waking life, Ben (I'm using real names now, stupid initials are getting confusing), appeared in front of me. I had a feeling he would for some reason. We started making out against the wall, when a group of elderly people walked in. It was all women and one man. Ben disappeared, and I was going to leave too, when I realized I had left my purse in one of the stalls. I went to go get it, and all the women were standing around the stall, and the man was walking in there. I kept saying "Excuse me, can you hand me my purse?", but they were too busy chatting it up. I persisted, and the man handed me a plastic shopping bag I had apparently also left in there. I could see my purse behind the toilet. I told him to please give me the purse too, and he started shutting the door. One of the women gave him a q-tip to, apparently, clean out his urethra. He shut the door, and I started yelling at one of the women. She was wearing a white button up shirt, one that I just bought in waking life. I was calling her a bitch, and telling her that I had already asked nicely many times. I took her by the collar and shook her. Everything else seemed to disappear around us. She never said anything, but she looked at me with this sad, terrified face.

~

Something about a bleach spot being on the shoulder of a pastel blue shirt I had that resembles a pastel purple shirt I have in waking life. The shirt was on this big clear plastic hanger.

~

I bought a lot of weed. I think I was at my fam's house. The weed seemed to be gone very quickly, so I went out to get more. I was stopped somewhere by these 2 men, and they asked me if I was buying. I told them I already had, and they said something about their concert. I told them I thought they had meant was I buying weed. They had meant was I buying tickets to their concert. They seemed disappointed. I asked them what their band was called, and it was something having to do with monkeys. They walked off. Now, I'm on a beach in Ohio? I'm wearing very warm clothes, the outfit I wore yesterday actually, and my snow boots. I walk on the shore and watch the water lick my boots. I hoped that the water wasn't going to ruin my boots.

It was actually pretty cool that I ended up on a beach, since my goal setting (still trying to share a dream with GMoney) was on a beach. Yay! I feel like this is progress.

EDIT: I remembered a fragment about me being able to see people's auras. That's really all I can recall.

Dream - Lucid

I can only recall 3 short dreams from last night...I've been having a lot of trouble staying asleep, I think it's because I've been crashing on my rents' living room couch. I'll have my own room again tonight, so maybe that will help with my sleeping and dreaming...the living room is NOT ideal for that kind of thing (people walking around, coming downstairs at the asscrack of dawn, etc. etc...).

Anyway, here's what I can recall.

I started dating my friend JS. I was at work, and I was talking about my new boyfriend to whoever I was working with. They asked me who it was, and I said that I'd point him out when he came in. He finally came in, and wasn't wearing a shirt. Now, I'm sitting at a computer desk, but I'm still at work (I work in a coffee shop). JS comes up behind me and starts to massage my shoulders.
"You're dating JS?", my coworker queries. She sounded very surprised. Then, I was talking to JS about his friends, and about how much support he has from them. I started naming them off to him. I then asked JS what my work schedule was, because he was in charge of scheduling, even though he didn't work there.

~

A girl I work with, L, was working in my fam's kitchen, but it was supposed to be the coffee shop. She had 2 kids. One of her daughters was in there. She had the most beautiful, long, wavy/curly brown hair I've ever seen. It reminded me of a hairstyle that Princess Leia from Star Wars would sport. Anyway, the daughter was about 16 years old.

~

My brother and I were playing hide and seek in my apartment with my dad and my brother's friend. We kept hiding in the same place, which was behind my bed. My dad was the seeker. Dad kept finding me, and I was angry at him for some reason. The last time we played, I bunched up the covers on my bed so it would look like I was hiding under them. Blake's friend found Blake first. It was like they had rehearsed it, so dad wouldn't find me. They high-fived one another. Dad said that he had thought I was under the covers.

EDIT: Remembered a fragment.

I drank the airplane shooter of peppermint shnapps I got from a customer at work, and was surprised that it was gone so quickly.

I had 4 dreams last night, though I can only recall a fragment of one.

I was in my room at my family's house, and it was nighttime. It still had all my furniture in it (all my furniture is at my apt in waking life). It was the day before my college's graduation, but I wasn't graduating yet. One of my best friends, CR, was about to graduate. She really wanted to hang out, because we hadn't done anything in awhile. She told me she didn't care what we did-we could drive around and find something to do-she just wanted to hang out. At some point, I was sitting at the computer in the bonus room (hasn't been a computer in that room for years in waking life). I was watching a video from CR's New Year's party. It was of her, KS, and both of their boyfriends. I was jealous that they had had such a great time, so I closed my eyes so I wouldn't have to watch it. I could still hear it though, and I could very clearly hear KS's boyfriend's voice. Then, someone dumped out this random bag of stuff I had onto the counter, my pipe being one of the items. I got mad because I was trying to conceal the pipe, and so I went to hide it, not without dropping it on the floor in my room and spilling all the resin out onto the carpet first. I hid the pipe in a clear plastic drawer.

~

I was hanging out with BH, an old friend from high school. Someone else was there too. We were at his apt. I did something to make him angry, so I left.

~

I had JB's (an ex) hat. It was black and covered in zippers. Tucked inside of it was a card and $41 from his new girlfriend. I kept having flashes of us together before, and how I "remembered" him cheating on her with me. I thought this girl must really love him. The card had notes from written all over the inside of it, "I miss you" and such, but never "I love you." I looked for an "I love you," but never found one. There was also a drawing folded up inside the card, but I don't remember of what, I just know that JB had drawn it. Also, there was a beautiful sketch of a rose on the inside, shaded with a pale pink. I saw where JB had written a little note back to her, but I couldn't read his handwriting. The only word I could make out was "kitty." At some point during all this, I ended up sitting on my family's living room couch (their house seems to be a recurring theme for me right now). I took the $41 and tried to start tearing up the card, but it was very tough. I finally started to, and thought "Well I can't give it back to him anyway, since I deleted his number and have no idea where he even is."

~

JB could turn into a dog. A beautiful, yellow, medium-sized fluffy dog. He looked almost like an Australian Shepard mutt. He was with me, but not. It was weird, we were hugging and stuff and acting like we were together, but it didn't seem right, I guess. We were with someone else, not sure who, and we were outside. It was nighttime. JB was in his dog form, and the other girl that was with us didn't know it was JB. He ran up to me and I started petting him, then I told the girl it was JB, and he transformed back into a person, first growing very tall and skinny, then evening out to his normal size. I hugged him during the transformation. Now, in high school again, and it's the last day. I was in an english teacher's class, one whom I was not particularly fond of in waking life, but it wasn't english. I think it was history. The classroom also looked like my classroom from the 6th grade. The teacher, Mrs. H, was going to read us a chapter out of the book. "How boring.", I thought to myself. She started reading, and the girl next to me, CF, a girl I was friends with in high school, was on her laptop, laughing at something on YouTube. I thought to myself "Chelsea doesn't go to MTSU...", which is a university, not a high school. Then, I was in my family's bonus room again, and two people were in there. They were a boy and a girl, all decked out in "punk-rock" clothing. The boy was standing on the windowsill playing the electric guitar, and the girl was on an exercise bike. She had long, blonde hair with a hat/bandanna, and an anarchy symbol cut into her arm. I was trying to explain Christianity/spirituality to them, and they kept laughing at me and making snarky comments. I got angry and took this whip type thing and started trying to hit them with it. They acted like I wasn't doing anything at all, even when I hit them. Usually though, I would miss and hit the blinds behind the guy instead. It was very frustrating, not to mention I had to jump very high to even try to hit the guy, and everything was much bigger than me and the people were much taller. Then, the girl had to go because, she said
"My Atheist friend is going to commit suicide."
She was going to go try to stop them from doing so.

Interesting set of dreams. They all seemed to end up at my family's house for some reason. I tried to set an LD goal like I did yesterday, but I never ended up lucid. I did keep waking up last night too, it was kind of a restless night. I'll just have to try again tonight.

I finally had an LD for the first time in a very long time!!!
This was also a potential shared dream with GMoney, but he doesn't recall any dreams from last night. We'll have to try it again. For now, here's what went down last night.

Dream
LD

It started out with me at my family's house. Everything was vivid and clear. I had just purchased a new smoking apparatus that involved crystals and had something to do with dreaming. I opened the box in the downstairs bathroom, which was covered in my dirty clothes (it is in waking life too, haha ). I left the box in the bathroom, then went to go smoke some pot. I was high, and didn't care that my parents probably knew. I think I did this a few times, sneaking around to get high then returning, then I had to go take care of a neighbor's dog. So I got on my bike-scooter thing, it was almost kinda like a Segway, and rode down the street, high as a kite. I crashed into a short wire fence, and hit the soft, green grass. It didn't hurt at all. An older woman with a curly gray perm approached me and asked me if I was alright. I told her I was fine. She asked if I needed a ride, and I told her no, I could walk since my house was right down the street. I went into the neighbor's house, which looked like a cabin on the inside. There were a couple of other people there. I think I got high again, then I left the house. Now, I remember being in my car in my family's driveway. I was still high. I couldn't get it to start properly. It would start very slowly, then I'd drive forward and backward in the driveway, never really parking.

This is where I became lucid. I don't know what triggered my lucidity, but nonetheless, I was excited. I examined my hands so I wouldn't get too excited, then I started messing around, floating through ceilings and stuff. There were so many things I wanted to do! I hadn't been lucid in so long. At one point, I tried to make my ex, A, appear, so I could ask him some things, but quickly got distracted. I knew there was something I had to do, but I couldn't remember what. I was floating up through a ceiling, and the scene was very strange. I was inside, but only the bottom half of eveyrthing was inside. The top half of the dreamscape was outside, and I saw rolling green hills under a clear blue sky. It was beautiful.

Then, I remembered the goal I had set: To share a dream with GMoney. Before I went to bed, I read Man of Shred's shared dreaming tutorial, then wrote down my goal, and how I was going to achieve it by creating a portal to GMoney's dream. I had also come up with a password, 'cheeseburger' is what I picked. This had all been discussed in the Research forum, except for what the password was. That I had to come up with on my own. Now, I'm in the cabin again, and I was with NS, whom I hadn't seen in a very long time in waking life. I created the portal by saying "Portal, APPEAR!", and sticking my hand out in front of me and concentrating. Lo and behold, a shimmering purple portal appeared in front of me, accompanied by ambient music. I asked NS if he wanted to go with me, and he didn't respond, so I took his hand and jumped into the portal. I kept my focus on my hands so I wouldn't wake up. There was a shimmering purple mist surrounding my hands, it was so vivid. We floated in the purple hazy darkness for awhile, when I realized that it wouldn't work because NS couldn't come with me.

Now, everything fades to black, and I'm in my family's driveway again. I repeat the portal process, and this time, a light green portal appears. I jump in, and focus on my hands again, which now have taken on a light green mist. It takes but a few seconds for me to reach my destination. The portal had taken me to another cabin-type room, with two twin-sized beds, a nightstand with a lamp softly illuminating the room between them, and a full-length mirror propped up against the wall, like the one I have in waking life. There are three teenage boys in the room, two are sitting on one of the beds, and the other is sitting on the edge of the other bed. I quickly pick the one on the end of the bed out as GMoney. He appeared to me as a 15 or so year-old-boy, with light brown skin, a black shirt with some kind of circular pattern in the middle, and very colorful, beaded sleeves.
"GMoney?", I said.
"Yes?", he replied.
"It's me, Krista from DV."
He beamed, and so did I. I approached him, and we stared for a few seconds, not able to wipe the smiles off our faces. I remembered that I had to tell him the password, and I stammered,
"The password...the password is 'cheeseburger'."
"Cheeseburger...", he said, dreamily.
We hugged for a long time, and it felt so warm. I was so excited to be having a potential shared dream!
"Thank you for welcoming me to DV.", I told him.
I put my forehead up against his, and we kept smiling, so excited about (possibly) sharing a dream. The two other boys in the room, one blonde and one with a buzz cut, did not notice us. One of them said
"Man, is he out?", in reference to GMoney. He was supposedly asleep on the bed in between them, but I didn't see his body.

Then, I started to ask GMoney about his clothing, and if it appeared to him like it did me. I started to describe the colors of his beaded sleeves, which were white, dark red, orange, and dark blue. He said I had it all wrong, and started to describe them as much different colors. I then asked what I was wearing. I thought I was in my work uniform. He told me I was wearing dark blue hoodies. I looked in the mirror, and I looked like I did when I was 14, before I had ever colored my hair or anything. It was its natural dark brown. I was also wearing a black hoodie, and I told GMoney this. I was wearing my very old work pants as well. I lifted up my hoodie to see the shirt underneath. It was black with pictures of photographs on it. Then, I noticed that the two other boys in the room were up, one was standing on the bed and watching me, the other was standing off to the side, behind the bed. The one on the bed said to the other,
"Dude, you're missing the best part!"
I then asked GMoney,
"How can they see me?", to which I received no reply.

Then, I knew I was going to wake up, and I did.

Then, I had a regular dream that I was at work, watching a lady with her young, blonde daughter. The daughter wanted all these things that we have that are made by local artists, and the mom said no, and started to leave. The daughter pitched a fit, and I thought to myself "This must been what it was like to raise me."

Props to you if you read this far. The LD/shared dream was extremely epic and vivid. I was so excited to have accomplished the goal I had set prior to falling asleep. Also, I've NEVER had the level of control in an LD that I had last night. I've NEVER created portals before, and I've NEVER even entertained the idea of sharing a dream. I was very proud of myself, and very excited. I even managed to stay in the dream, despite how excited I was. I kept a level head.

Thanks, DV! I couldn't have done this without you.

Well, here I am again, awake. I've been awake since 12:30. I have to be up at 5:30 anyway to be at work at 7, so I figured I'd just go ahead and post the one dream I had. Won't be going back to sleep anyway.

Bold=dream

I was in my family's bonus room. The light was very bright, and everything looked very clear. I was with my friends B and C. We were shooting rotting, gray zombies as they came at us. It was kinda like a video game. B used her gun to shoot 3 in the face enough times to bring them down. I said "Let me try!". She handed me the gun and 3 more started coming at us. I shot them in the neck and face, but one was very close and almost got us. I ended up bringing them down before they could reach us. C took the gun from me and took his turn at shooting zombies. After that, the dream started to become eerily realistic. It didn't feel like a game anymore. It seemed to get darker in the room, like it was nighttime inside, but still light at the same time. Very strange. Zombies are everywhere now, not sure where B went, but C was still with me. I become terrified for my life. C said "Don't let them get you..."

Then, I woke up, half expecting to be in the bonus room. I was panicking. Also, I looked at my phone to check the time, and C had sent me a message 20 minutes before I woke up, which was kinda weird.

I took a melatonin last night, and I'm thinking I probably shouldn't do that again. I used to take it a lot with no issue, but I guess that's changed. That nightmare was way too realistic for my taste...

Happy New Year, everyone! I finally got an appreciable amount of sleep, even if I woke up quite a few times.

Here are some dream frags/segments from last night...I can't really recall much more than this, though I know there was a lot more.

Bold=Dream

I was telling my mom (I’m staying with my rents right now in waking life) that I was going to stay back at my apartment for the night, even though I had work early the next morning. She laughed knowingly when I told her this, but didn’t say anything. She knew I was going to stay with someone, which was, in fact, my plan. I was going to invite my friend, A, to spend the night. Before I fell asleep, I was actually thinking about this.

Woke up, couldn't go back to sleep for about an hour and a half. Finally went back so sleep.

I was in the mall.

Woke up again this morning, rolled over and went back to sleep. I remember this last dream being longer and pretty awesome, but I can only remember the last part.

I was watching a movie, but it wasn't like on a TV screen or at a theater. It overtook my vision, like I was in it, but just passively observing. It was a cross between Wayne’s World and Watchmen (I should add that I've never seen Watchmen in waking life). I had a sense that I had seen the movie before, and I knew what was going to happen. There was the end of a scene. It took place in a restaurant. There was a guy with a big, brown mullet, and it reminded me of Wayne's World. That's the only thing I remember about that scene. The next scene was lit in an ice blue and reminded me of Watchmen. I saw a zoom-in to a sheet of glass with a razor blade and a lot of cocaine on it. I started hearing a hard rock song about cocaine. Then, there was a slow zoom to a big metal door leading to some sort of garage or something. It was very steamy in the room. Then, I saw someone in a pickup truck, with the glass all messed up on the sunroof. I saw a face breathing heavy steam onto the messed up part of the glass. Then the scene zoomed out to the bed of the truck. I saw someone slink out of the back window in a very smooth, fluid motion. It was WakingNomad. He had been doing cocaine. He looked like his profile picture, which reminds me of an elf. He had the head of his profile pic and no shirt. He had leaves covering his crotch and legs like pants, and some going up his torso and onto his head. He had a devious-looking smile on his face, like he was up to something.

And that's all I can recall.

I know I had a lot more going on than what I recall in the dreams, but it's ok. I'm sure my recall will improve more with time, and I'll be able to get it back up to where it was when I originally joined DV 4 years ago.

Slept a little last night, but for some reason, I didn't sleep very well, and was very restless. I even took 2 melatonin to try to help. Bleh, one would think that a night of no sleep would cause you to pass out the next night. Not the case with me, apparently. Yay sleeping problems! -_-

Anyway, here are some fragmented dreams from last night. I know there was more to them then what I have, but oh well. I did my best.

My choir teacher from last semester was teaching a different class, no idea what class. I was in the classroom, sitting at a desk you'd find in a middle/high school (the ones with the little baskets under the tops for books and such). The room seemed dimly lit, and the carpet was dark blue. She was giving us some sort of assessment test. I didn't remember the material or what it was over, but I wasn't prepared for it. I took it and handed it in. She graded them, and when she handed mine back, she told me I had made the highest grade. I looked at it, and I had made a 2.9/3.0. I had only missed something by a tenth of a point. I was very, very surprised. She was very impressed, and said "Krista, I would love to be your pastor." I found this to be a little off, but I just went with it, since in waking life she also directs a church choir. She was beaming when she said this. She was wearing an off-white shirtt.

Then I was in and out of restless sleep for awhile. Finally went back to sleep at some point during the tossing and turning and had another dream.

I dreamed that someone, I think my friend C, was staying the night with me, though I have no idea where we were. I just know it was dark in the room. The same part kept repeating, with us waking up at 10:00am to the alarm on my cellphone. Every time, I was very groggy upon waking.

I'm not sure if this is from the same dream, but I was in a museum of some sort, and there was a display of a guy in a glass box laying down with a bed slowly crushing him. I was with a group. There was a bar on the bed that kept going through his neck. It looked like it was going to sever his head, but I never saw it do so. It always came pretty close. He was terrified and in pain. You could see the terror on his face. He kept trying to stop the bed, but it kept coming down on him. There was no blood, but I could clearly see the muscles inside of his neck. On top of the box, there was either a picture or a statue depicting a shriveled, dark body of what looked like a child covered in blood with a huge shard of sheet metal in his neck. The picture/statue was not detailed in the face. The display was something that was supposed to warn people that beds can act as sharp metal and to be cautious...something along those lines. I kept seeing the box and the statue over and over again. I thought the display was terrible.

More restlessness, then I dreamed I was in my family's kitchen, and I was standing beside my mom, who was washing dishes and watching the little mini-TV that's attached to the top of one of the cabinets. In the dream, my mom had been an actress in a lot of plays and movies, but she no longer did it. I was jealous of her, because acting is something I've always wanted to do, but have never been able to get the hang of. I was also happy for her though. I saw flashes of her in movies, doing a great job. Then, something about Justin Bieber (lolz), though it didn't really resemble him. He had freckles everywhere, and his hair was very dark, I'd say almost black, and he had a bowl cut. His arms and legs were also very hairy (yay puberty!). He was with a friend of mine, not sure who. They were in the top floor of a house that was on a small cliff right next to the ocean, though there was no beach around. The sun was setting, and there were many pinks and oranges in the sky. I met Justin Bieber, and had a little conversation with him. I talked to him a couple of times in the dream, though I don't remember exactly what was said. I told my friends I had met Justin Bieber. At some point, I was with my friend MK, and we were in one of my friend's houses. He pulled out one of those containers that come full of blank CDs or DVDs, but there were no CDs or DVDs in it. It was full of weed. I knew my friend MK didn't like weed, so I told her we didn't have to stay, but she said it was ok. I don't ever remember smoking the weed.

And that's all I remember really. I actually tried to WILD last night, and I got very close, but as soon as I started to feel the onset of sleep paralysis, I got excited and then I heard a sound come from upstairs, so I lost it. I will say that my recall is improving. Ever since I came back to DV, I've been remembering more and more dreams. What's funny is I used to have little to no trouble remembering dreams before I started college. Then life happened I suppose, heh.

Well, my lack of sleep caught up with me this afternoon...just woke up from a nap. Here's what I remember from the dreams I had.

Bold=dream

I was playing Starfox 64, but it was a bit different from the actual game, levels were different and kind of run together (probably due to faulty recall). I was not doing very well. There was some bird-like character that doesn't occur in the real game. Actually, now that I think about it, I think he was a gray penguin character from Animal Crossing: Wild World who had goggles on his head. Think old-timey 1930's airplane pilot style.



In the dream, his name was Hangar. His picture popped up on the screen a lot. The game graded me on all the levels using letter grades that it would show after the levels. The level before Venom (Venom is the final level on the actual game), in this case it was a fiery lava level, I think I made a C+. I think the highest grade I made on a level was a B. I somehow made it to Venom, but it was in space instead of on the planet like it is in the game. It said the previous time I played it, I had made an F on Venom. It showed me this by showing the Hangar character on the screen before Venom and showing me the F somewhat next to him. I started seeing big glares, mostly on the left side of the screen and, even though I was locking onto and killing enemies, I couldn't really see my ship or a lot of the enemies I was killing.


And then I woke up and went back to sleep for a few minutes and had another small dream.

I dreamed I was on Facebook, and looking at my newsfeed. The status of a girl (let's call her K) that I am no longer friends with on Facebook or really at all (old roommate in waking life, we had a huge falling out, almost ended up in court, had to block her phone number...big mess) popped up. The status was the first one on my newsfeed, and said something about her going shopping with her friend Cory and how she was glad they could go do that or something, but before I could read the whole status, I think I stopped after the "shopping with Cory" part, I got this anxious feeling in my stomach, and started shaking and dropped my phone, which I was apparently holding and trying to text with. I finished what I was doing with it, told myself to stop being silly, composed myself, and looked at the rest of the status. Then I had all these flashes of close-up Christmas ornaments on a very green Christmas tree. The last one I remember is the close-up edge of a very red ornament.

And then I woke up. I am so glad to have gotten some sleep. I feel so refreshed. Plus, I recalled some dreams! Couldn't have asked for a better afternoon.

So I didn't get ANY sleep last night, I think it's because I took Lunesta the 2 nights prior to last night (rare for me to even take it in the first place), and last night I didn't take any. But I've really been itching to post these ever since I re-discovered DV...this summer, and actually a few nights ago, I had some pretty intense dreams, which (I felt) carried a LOT of symbolism.

Dreams are in bold.

WARNING: These dreams are controversial. Proceed at your own risk.

Oh, and also, these are mostly notes...I'm trying to recall the best I can. I wish I had journal'd these right after I had them, but, it is what it is. Anyways, here we go!

I was being nailed to a cross. The ground was dirt beneath me, and the day looked overcast, but bright. I had this sense of duty, even though I was suffering. I knew that this was something that I had to do. Now, my cross has been raised, and I am hanging there, staring at all the people below me. I thought to myself something along the lines of "I have to do this." It was very intense. I wish I could recall more of the details that I was seeing throughout the dream, but they are blurry. The biggest thing I remember is the sense of duty I had. It was very strong.

I had many more dreams like this throughout the summer, some very graphic, some had things in place of the cross. In one I remember being nailed to a snowman, with the man I was dating at the time, Daniel, nailed to the other side. I got down from the snowman very easily, but he could not. I tried to get to the other side to help him, but I couldn't. I saw the side of his body, but I don't ever recall seeing his face. I just knew that he needed help getting down, and I couldn't do it.

I even remember seeing and examining the holes in my hands in one of these dreams, and it was incredibly realistic.

Now, fast-forward to the past couple of months...

A very dear friend of mine told me a couple of months ago that he could see auras, and he told me he saw mine as purple, and that it's always been purple. He's always had a 6th sense for people, but he only recently has been able to actually figure out what was going on, after talking to an African medicine man.

I was intrigued, to say the least, so I decided to look up some information on auras and auric sight. I even started trying to "see" auras through tutorials I've read. Anyway, that's all fine and dandy. Now, onto the dream. I had this one a few nights ago.

I don't remember much of this dream, but this part really stood out. I was looking at my reflection in the bathroom mirror for my aura, and all the sudden, I saw my third eye. It took over my vision. It was against a black background, shrouded in shades of purple and blue. It looked like an actual eye, but different. It had the shape of an eye and the details, but it was all blue and purple. It also almost looked "ancient" and was very intricate. I did not see any white in the eye where white was supposed to go, nor did I see any brown (my actual eyes are brown). It's so hard to describe, but I knew I was seeing my third eye, the brow chakra. It was very vivid and mysteriously beautiful.

Very strange dreams, I'd say. I have a history of weird, vivid, even symbolic dreams, though none have ever been to this extent. I'm glad I finally wrote these down somewhere.

Bold=Dream

I was in the shower, it was apparently in my parents house, but I remember it being very strange like it was inside but also outside at the same time. It was nighttime. Anyway, for some reason I had my phone in there. It was sitting on one of the little ledges on the wall. All the sudden, it was gone, and I looked around frantically for it, and saw a very obese man wearing a plaid shirt and jeans run off with it. I chased him down to a little river/creek (I was either doing this naked or with a towel on, I can't quite remember this detail) and jumped on him to try to tackle him. Obviously, he was very large, so I couldn't bring him down. Instead, I shoved my fingers into his eyes to blind him, ripped the phone out of his grip, and took off running. Then, I remember going back to my house and telling my mom about what had happened, and she suggested I call the police. I thought that was a good idea, but I don't remember if I ever did it.

The rest of the dream is pretty blurry, unfortunately. I do know there was a bit more to it than that though.

I've been thinking about LDing for the past few days, but I still have yet to do so. I miss it...hopefully I can get back on track with that soon!

Well, I haven't kept a dream journal on here in forever (I went by a different tag on here years ago, and was pretty actively involved in the forum/LDing, but life happens sometimes I suppose ), so here we are.

I haven't LD'd (intentionally) in quite sometime, but I do randomly gain control of my dreams sometimes, but usually it's either for a split second or I fain control for a little while then wake up. I used to LD all the time, and was getting quite good. I'm thinking it's time to perfect those skills once again.

Anyways, I ramble. In this entry I'm going to recount a dream I had about 6 months ago, and also the dream I had last night. The reason I'm starting with this older one is because it was extremely vivid, and, I feel, very symbolic. Dreams are in bold.

It started out with me in my old room at my old apartment. It was light in the room, except for in the bathroom, which I was standing directly in front of. The lights were off in there, and I had this horrible feeling of dread in my stomach, because I knew the dark bathroom contained something I didn't want to see, something that would upset me, but I didn't know what it was. I slowly started to walk into my bathroom. When I got in there, I turned on the lights and looked on the floor by my sink. My ex-boyfriend, one I had/have a very interesting history with in waking life, was lying there on the floor. I thought he was dead, so I cradled him into my arms and started to bawl and shake him and yelling for him to "please wake up!". Finally, he opened his eyes, and I was so relieved that he was alive. But then, he started yelling "I can't see! Krista help me, I can't see!" Yet, his eyes were open. He glanced around blindly, and I took his arm over my shoulder and started to stand up.

Then, I woke up, feeling like I had more than just a dream.

I still feel that this dream tried to tell me something. I think I have to help him "see" something, but then again, maybe it was just a dream.

And now, onto the one I had last night.

I can't remember a whole lot before this point in the dream, but last night, I dreamed I purposely cut off 3 of my toes, my big toe on and second toe on my right foot, and a toe on my left, can't remember which, and sewed them back on. They didn't bleed or anything, just stung a little. I tried to ask my mom to come look at the stitches because I felt like they weren't on there properly, and she kept telling me she was busy and she'd look later. Then, all the sudden, we were in the car on the way to Wisconsin to see my grandparents. I kept looking at my feet, hoping the stitches didn't come out and my toes would fall off. I kept thinking about the "last time" I had cut my toes off and sewed them on, and how this time they look ok, but not as great as when someone helped me with the sewing part. We got to Wisconsin and said hello to my grandparents. There was patchy snow on the ground as well, and the sun was out.

That's all I remember before I woke up. Very strange dream, but I've had stranger, haha.

Well that's all for this entry. Hoping I can get some LD entries in here before too long. Happy dreaming, y'all!