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    What Happens When You Lower Your Ambien Dose...

    by , 10-22-2014 at 01:36 PM (535 Views)
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    Alright. So I'm trying to wean myself off of my Ambien. I took a half of one last night and fell asleep no problem, but I woke up at around 2:30am, remembering only fragments about work, and started freaking out a little, thinking I wouldn't be able to go back to sleep. I took a benedryl and went into the other room (my husband was breathing very heavily in his sleep and it was also keeping me awake). This is what happened after I fell asleep.

    I was lucid, but I don't remember if I entered the dream lucid or if I became lucid later. I am having a lot of trouble recalling the specific details of this one, other than we were in a house, and I was trying to cheat on my husband with this guy I knew in middle/high school named Carter H. My husband was around during the dream, and we were trying to avoid him by going into different rooms and such. I do remember at one point Carter expressing how he would treat me well and was excited about being with me. I told him I was excited too. I think I was topless during that part in a bedroom.

    There was a point where I was outside in a garden, and I was afraid of losing the dream, so I took some advice from Hyu and started touching everything around me. There were plants in the plowed ground. I touched their leaves, feeling their realness. They felt a little muted, but it wasn't bad. It helped me to stabalize the dream.

    This dream was quite long, and I can't recall the little details of it all. It was a very...strange LD for me. I seemed to be in a weird mindset (I would never cheat on my husband IWL, especially with someone I barely know and have no interest in!).


    I then woke up.

    ~

    I was in a fairly normal-looking room; nothing weird was going on at all, but I decided to do a nose pinch RC just to keep my awareness up. I did it, and...I could breathe! I was super surprised; I thought I was awake! I think I said "What??" or some kind of exclamation. I did it again just to be sure, and sure enough, I was dreaming.

    Spoiler for Explicit content:


    I woke up and wondered why I did something so superficial with these LDs. I wanted to have another one where I summoned Mike or delved into past lives. Sadly, I didn't get to. :/

    Again, I would like to reiterate that I really don't have any interest in cheating. I love my husband very much. I am really kind of taken aback by these dreams, especially since I was aware that I was dreaming for them. I'm actually a little embarrassed to post them.

    ~

    I was in a dressing room at a department store. I had these black and white comics that I had made that depicted my cheating LDs. One was only a page long, the other a few pages. I taped them to one of the dressing room doors. I then watched people pick the comics up and read them. Some teenage guys read them and laughed. I left the dressing room for a bit. I didn't really want the comics there anymore. I went back and took them down.

    ~

    I was laying in the guest bed with my husband. We were getting ready to go to sleep. My husband put on one of my sleep shirts similar to one I actually own IWL but not the same. It was black with 3/4 length sleeves and lacy shoulders. It was tight on him, but he didn't seem to mind. I was wondering why he was wearing that (he usually doesn't wear any kind of shirt to bed). I guess he must be anticipating a very cold night. I said something about it being a girl's shirt. Again, he didn't seem to mind.

    ~

    Something to do with typing these entries up and an Animal Crossing game that you could only play with a wireless controller and could only play online for a certain amount of time. I was called by a video/game rental place and was asked if C (the assistant CS manager at my job) was my sibling. I told her no, she was my boss. I thought they asked me to verify the spelling of her name after that, but I couldn't hear them very well.
    "What?" I asked.
    They said something again, but it didn't sound the same as before.

    My DJ entries were all centered and spaced like I was writing them in poetry format. I was typing them up. I didn't want them centered, I don't think.

    I then was signing on to play League of Legends. They had really updated the game. My friend Jeremiah was online, and sent me a game request. I was in the middle of doing something else, but I guess I could play a game with him. I accepted his request. I picked my champion, a female one that doesn't exist in the game IWL, and we were then playing. It then looked very cartoony and very much so like FFII graphics. I started getting attacked, but the map controlled so weird. I didn't die, but it was a close call. I went to the settings, and I couldn't change the graphics back; I had to do it outside of game. There were two options I could have picked from, Cartoon or Realistic. It was a new feature that I didn't know about. Cartoon was checked by default. I considered quitting and taking the penalty for it.


    ~

    I seriously felt like I was having fever dreams all night. I'm not sick, no fever or anything, just...what. I don't even know. It probably has something to do with lowering my dose of Ambien and taking that benedryl. It affected my recall as well. I have to stop taking the Ambien though, so my entries may be like this until I even out. I will eventually go down to taking a quarter of an Ambien, then eventually completely being off of it. I am actually happy for that. I miss sleeping naturally; I haven't since November/December of 2011, so for three years.

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    Comments

    1. CanisLucidus's Avatar
      Congratulations on the lucidity, Krista! You've been doing great lately. You know, I really disliked the dreams that I had on Benadryl and I've avoided it ever since. For me they felt very much like fever dreams, just like you described, and I found it quite unpleasant. I'm not whether this is exactly the same thing that happened for you, but I can only say for sure that I didn't enjoy it!

      Hee hee, I was very amused by your husband throwing on the super tight nightshirt with the lacy shoulders. He's a funny character in a lot of your dreams!

      As for how you spent the LDs, I really wouldn't spend much time worrying about it! One thing I've found is that in lucids we'll sometimes still adopt some ridiculous premise from the non-lucid portion. Emotions and impulses can linger between dreams, and impulse control is also super, super low, even during lucidity. The fact that the person was someone you barely know highlights the semi-randomness of the casting job the dream did! I really wouldn't worry about it reflecting any kind of underlying anything, truly.

      Good luck with the transition to completely natural sleep!
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    2. JadeGreen's Avatar
      I can remember when I first saw your title and that it immediately went into purple lucidity and thought "Whatever Ambien Is, it wasn't helping..." I had to google it and see that it was something for insomnia.

      I generally find that things like Benadryl will KILL my ability to dream, like at all. If I've got any kind of crap like that in my system, It's pretty much guaranteed that I won't have any recall.

      I woke up and wondered why I did something so superficial with these LDs. I wanted to have another one where I summoned Mike or delved into past lives. Sadly, I didn't get to.
      Story of my life...

      As for how you spent the LDs, I really wouldn't spend much time worrying about it! One thing I've found is that in lucids we'll sometimes still adopt some ridiculous premise from the non-lucid portion. Emotions and impulses can linger between dreams, and impulse control is also super, super low, even during lucidity.
      ^Right on.
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    3. KristaNicole07's Avatar
      Hee hee, I was very amused by your husband throwing on the super tight nightshirt with the lacy shoulders. He's a funny character in a lot of your dreams!
      Canis, he is hilarious IWL too! My subconscious does an awesome job with him. XD

      As for how you spent the LDs, I really wouldn't spend much time worrying about it! One thing I've found is that in lucids we'll sometimes still adopt some ridiculous premise from the non-lucid portion. Emotions and impulses can linger between dreams, and impulse control is also super, super low, even during lucidity. The fact that the person was someone you barely know highlights the semi-randomness of the casting job the dream did! I really wouldn't worry about it reflecting any kind of underlying anything, truly.
      Yes, I suppose you're right. It just was really...weird. Let's blame the benedryl! But seriously, I felt so feverish and stuff. I hated it. And thanks for the good luck with natural sleep. I failed last night and took a whole Ambien. Gotta go back to half tonight. I'll get there, I hope.

      Story of my life...
      Ugh, it's so frustrating, isn't it? I think it's an awareness thing and being able to remember your lucid goals while in a dream. That part of your memory isn't easy to access from the dream state. We must practice! We'll get there!
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