My lucid comeback!

Last night I didn't remember any complete dreams, main cause is getting up at 06:00 in the morning to study for math a bit. (The exam went okay but I'll have to wait and see for the results...)
I did hav one dream-fragment.

1. Ireland

Just before waking up I hear Irish Folklore music, quiet loud actually.


Anyway, we're slowly approaching the end of 2 nail-biting weeks and the most stressful day has yet to come, the results!

Semper Fidelis

Tonight I had some of the longest dreams I've ever experienced, seriously.
I my tag-book in which I write tags of dreams every morning normally 1 dream takes up about 1/5 of a page, the first dream I tagged was 1 page long and the second dream took half a page. That was like 15 minutes of non-stop writing and remembering!

1. Frustration and fear

I was in some sport-gym on a schooltrip and we were doing exercises but my friend kept hitting me on the head with an aluminium bat which hurt a lot and royally pissed me of but I managed to stay calm and not tear his face apart. Another girl was also being attacked by someone with a bat and we talked about how annoying it was, yet we couldn't do anything back for some reason. After several hours I left the room and went outside, there the class was waiting to leave and return to school. The bus trip wasn't included in the dream so I was immidiatly somewhere on a street with the class. Another friend with a bike walked next to me as we returned home, we talked about the trip and about the upcoming math-exam. (IRL it is tomorrow)When we wanted to cross over a street I walked first and the light just turned red for pedestrians but I quickly walked to the other side. I looked back and saw my friend was still waiting with a police-looking man next to him shouting at me in French I think. I knew I was in trouble for crossing the street while it was red so I accelerated my pace and zig-zagged between trees in the hope of losing this police-man. I looked back and saw him running at me, shouting and very angry which made me panick a bit. He got to me and was talking to me in French really angry, he dragged me into an abandoned factory and we stopped in a deserted stairwell. Another guy comes and he's with the police-man, both ask me questions in French with an angry tone. I understand the questions but have difficulties answering them.(IRL I don't have much problems understanding French but talking myself is still difficult, Belgium is half Dutch(flemish)/ half French(Wallonia) and I live in Flanders so I talk Dutch.) They were very racist against Dutch/Flemish people and I actually feared they would kill me cause one of them was already pointing a gun at me. They asked me questions about my family until I lied and said that my grandfather lives in Wallonia after which the two man calmed down and were less racist. I went up the stairwell and ended up on the top-floor of my school. I looked in a classroom and a class was ready to begin their Biology exam, the first question was naming things on a picture of I think a human-nerve or a bacteria. I exited the classroom and went down the hallway where I saw some of my class standing, I asked what they were doing and they responded saying that it's French oral-exam. I thought the two racist guys who interrogated me was the French oral-exam but it wasn't. I looked at my watch which said it was 10.10 and someone said I had to go at 08.50. I was too late.

2. REALLY 'Heavy rain'

I was playing the game 'Heavy rain' as the character Ethan Mars and I was climbing up the abandoned factory from previous dream. It was very rainy and once I got on the roof it collapsed and Ethan fell 10 meters down on the ground. At this point he wore a mask that completly covered his face. One of the racist guys from previous dreams came to him and smashed him with a bat which knocked him out. I saw blood and thought he had died but then the guy with the bat took the mask of from him and I saw that it wasn't Ethan but the other guy, he took his mask of and in the end HE WAS ETHAN. So Ethan just killed one of the racist guys with a bat, now what happens next is quiet weird. Ethan takes an electrical drill, opens up the skull from the dead guy and starts scraping away the brain of the dead guy, after most of the brain was gone I saw the eyes falling back in the hollow skull.

3. The wrong game

I'm playing Shogun 2 total war and I'm having fun but then my mother asks me why I didn't bought the expansion pack FOTS which adds guns and modern cannons.
I felt kinda dissapointed in myself cause I didn't bought it and now I didn't appreciate the already great base-game itself.

4. The failed marathon

I was with school jogging along a path on the green english countryside, I didn't have any problems with my condition but my left thigh hurted a lot. It hurted so much that it caused me to be last, I just couldn't run. The road looked endless and I felt ashamed to be last. After some time we got to an open area were roads crossed over each other in a parkour-way. A small group of guys challenged each other on who would be the fastest, I joined in. As we started I felt a lot of pain and was last ones again but after some time I ignored the pain and ran as fast as I could jumping of the sharp hill that were in the parkour, in the end I won.

5. Casino Royal

I'm playing a very pixelated game set in the 18th century, my guy had a gray wig on his head like the style was back then. I entered a casino that looked VERY GREEN. I got to the poker table but didn't have any chips yet, so I went to another table to order some. A small sentence at the bottom of the screen said 'Loot?'.

After about 4 days of bad DR and blurry fragments (except the wizard dream and the super-agent one... Quality in exchange for Quantity... [10/06/14] - Dream Journals - Lucid Dreaming - Dream Views) I had some decent memories. And there's immidiatly some weird shit going on in them (especially the last one), PREPARE!

1. Chaos

I'm getting in the back of my car as my family is ready to leave the parking-garage. I notice my IPad and headphones are still in the trunk and my sister asks if I can take her's to. I climb out of the window as the car is already driving through the garage, I crawl over the roof and open the trunk. I stand in it keeping my balance and look for the headphones, after some searching I find them and throw them to my sister. (At this point the car suddenly had no roof) I jumped back into the passenger seat at the back. Now I'm not sure wether the next part was linked with this dream or an entirely different dream but I'll just put it here. As we're driving down the highway I notice that there's a cat in the central part of the highway. We stop and I think about how dangerous all of this actually is, cars are driving everywhere and my mother is suddenly on a bicycle riding towards the cat. I run after her and I see the cat run across the highway under a car, I close my eyes thinking it will hit one of the tires but luckely none of the tires run over the cat. After that the cat meets up with some kittens at the side of the highway and they dissapear into the scrubbery.

2. The wrong party

I'm sitting at my computer and notice noise coming from outside, I look out the window and see there's a party going on in the backyard with many people in suits and dresses. For some reason the level of the garden is at the same height as the bedroom and one woman sees me. I go downstairs and see that the door to the backyard is closed, like we didn't organised this party nor were we invited, yet it took place in our backyard... Suddenly I talk to my dad about how much the suroundings have changed. My view shifts to a satelite-view above the house and I see there's a thin stroke of beach behind the house, next to a lake. (IRL this isn't true, we live in a town near a city.) There's a date in the corner of the satelite-photo and every time the picture changes the date goes more and more towards the present day. I can see the beach slowly being build over with new houses and I say "I wish we could go back in time and have the beach again.".

3. The WTF-film

I see a young boy (10-12 years old) sitting on the street with some light summer clothing on. Then I see a group of naked guys walking to him, they pick him up and the boy shouts for help but nothing happens and they carry the boy away. Then I see the boy again crying (Now I know some thing bad happened to the kid but I don't think he got raped.) laying on the street, I know that he will talk to a grown man in some time and this man will take revenge on the group of naked guys but I don't see this happening, I just know. I remember a flash of the group of naked guys attacked by the man with a crowbar but none of them die. Then I'm the boy and we're years later, I'm in a group with a woman, a man and one of the guys from the naked-group, still with a scar from the crowbar he got smacked with. However this guy said he didn't do anything to the boy back then, he just happened to be with the group and actually tried to protect the kid. We walk through some hallways and it's dark but not too dark, so I could still see enough to navigate. We enter a room and there's a giant cobra, maybe 10 meters long and 0.5 meters thick. He attacks the man who took revenge years ago and kills him. Then he attacks the woman, the rest of the team including me run back through the door and close it behind us. We stop and one of the team members says "Shouldn't we check if she's okay?", I walk back to the door and open it just enough to stick my head out. I see the woman getting eating by the cobra, starting at her head, it crushes the skull with his jaws and I see her face losing structure. Somehow I manage to not scream, I calmly close the door and slowly look back at the team with a shocked expression. One of them says "And, how is it?" I shout "RUUUUUUUUUUN!!!!!!!!!".

Last night was the first night in I think a week that I was able to fall asleep quickly, I got atleast a good 7 hours of sleep and it also seems like I'm not that tired throughout the day. Vividness is slowly returning as I had 1 dream tonight and I'm hoping on getting more. I'm also glad that I'll be able to sleep a bit longer tomorrow.

1. A herring-thief!

I was in the storage room of a supermarket and it seemed like in the store itself a party was about to start cause the first herring of the season would be presented. Infront of me was the herring on a plate, I took a bite and felt like I was a thief and had ruined the whole party that was about to commence. It was then when a woman of the store walked into the storage room with a crowbar and violently smacked me on the head. As the crowbar made contact with my skull I didn't see it through my own eyes but suddenly I looked through a camera that floated infront of me filming my face. I could see a lot of blood coming out of the deep cut the blow carved into my forehead. I fell to the ground in agony and partially paralysed, she ran away and I laid there looking through my own eyes again at the herring on the ground. I could barely move and was very disoriënted but knew I had to run away before the police came. I stumbled across the room and pushed a door open, suddenly I'm in my backyard which is surounded with high fences. (IRL too) I thought about quickly climbing over them and felt a strong sensation of stress, fortunatly my alarm went of at this point waking me up.

I might try a WBTB tonight with a MILD or SSILD technique.

Last night I wasn't able to fall asleep until 02:30 while I had gone to bed at 23:30, and next day I had to get up at 06:00 to study some more for the exam so I barely slept at all.

I know I had some dreams but they were either too blurry or my REM-cycles were simply too short for a vivid dream.


The exam went well (Chemistry) and tomorrow I have English which I'm learning right now as I'm typing this! So today I have nothing to do, I'm exhausted so why not try a WILD in a few minutes?

After I was back home from the exam (French) and had sat on the computer for about an hour writing previous entry I had under estimated how tired I actually was... I was exhausted. I decided to lay in my sister's bed as it's better quality than mine and I decided to do a WILD. For the first time I decided to throw some breathing exercises into the WILD-mix and did that for 10 minutes. I was really relaxed after just 15 minutes, then I just let my mind wander around and sometimes fall back thinking "Don't fall asleep...". After 30 minutes I felt my body getting slow and heavy and my head started to tillt to the right, I didn't care and let it just happen but then something weird happened. Suddenly I feel like I get inflated like a balloon, my inner-ears swell like when you drive around in the mountains and for the very first time did I hear auditory hallucinations because previous attempts at WILD failed or I did them using Binaural beats. I heard a bee or wasp flying over my head which was mildly worrying but again I just let it happen. It happened two times but I never knew how to transition, my only succesfull WILD attempts were pretty much DILDs that happened after WILDs. Anyway at some point I fell asleep and I had many FAs and a bunch of dreams. Also my sense of time was completly distorted, I was worried when I woke up I had slept all day and tomorrow I have another exam, but in the end it was just 2 hours.

I think in the future I will only use afternoon naps for WILD and keep night for SSILD or other techniques.

Last night I was able to have a good sleep and my WBTB-alarm woke me up at 05:30, however the loud alarm shocked me and I moved to much. For some reason 2 nights in a row already do I decide to perform WILD instead of SSILD, I don't know why. I've had very rare succes with WILD so why am I so drawn to it? Is it the mysterious sensation I miss from the one time it worked? Anyway I've also been noticing my DR getting weaker and weaker combined with me getting more and more tired everyday I wake up, so I decided to temporarily stop my WBTB-alarm and sleep normal. Until my DR gets better I wont interupt my sleepcycle anymore.

1. School profile

I was waiting in a hallway for an exam to start when I noticed touchscreens hanging of the wall, the others seemed interested in them too. I walked up to it and pressed a screen, it displayed a picture of me with my name under it and which class I'm in. However the picture of me had some flaws, my chin was too large and I had a beard. (IRL I always shave myself.) My friend laughed at the photo and I said "Well, it's not that bad is it?", then another person pushed me away so he could operate the touchscreen.

Chances of lucidity are low, need to get my DR back up and then I will do a WBTB with SSILD and NOT WILD!

Last night I had planned on doing another WBTB combined with SSILD but due to there being a nasty thunderstorm outside and it being REALLY hot I was barely able to sleep at all!
So I cancelled my WBTB-alarm which was set at 05:30 in order to have enough rest for the exam the next day.

For most of the night I wasn't sleeping but in some weird limbo between sleeping and awake, I could open my eyes at any point but I didn't have a sense of time anymore so I laid there for 3 hours motionless. However at last I fell asleep and had 2 long vivid dreams.

1. The creepy/not creepy place?

I was outside some old abandoned castle in the middle of some swamps and it was getting dark, my dad's with me and we decide to enter it using a side entrance on the right. There were stairs going down and we were in a hallway that looked like a public toilet, everything was abandoned and crumbling apart. I could see everything in a greenish way like we used glowsticks, I walked further and turned right, suddenly the dimensions of the inside changed and the hallway of the beginning was now part of a large open room. There were sky-lights in the ceiling every now and then letting in some ambient light, it looked like it was a deserted ski shop with skies hanging of the wall for sale. We decided to take some of them as they looked good, in total we took 4 pairs. Then we heard a noise from the door we entered, I crawled under a rack and saw a woman entering, suddenly there were people around the place like it was some sort of mall. As I tried to casually walk away she walked up to my dad and asked "Did you two just steal my skies?", we started bringing up some story why we had those skies in our backpacks and it actually sounded legit, like I expected she would let us go but she didn't believe us. She said, give the skies back and that's $50 for stealing. Dissapointed and slightly annoyed my dad gave 50 bucks and we leaved, however I managed to keep one pair of skies in my backpack. After that we went down some abandoned hallways again and at some point through an open door on the right I saw a modern classroom and my cousine sitting there doing his exam. There were about 50 other students in there and then he waved at me, I waved back and continued down the hallway. It turned to the left and then again to the left so me made a 180° turn in total. After that we exited the castle on a side entrance on the left, I noticed my dad was missing and walked up to the front of the castle behind the central pond. I looked at the middle through some of the large windows and saw an entity floating through the main hallway of the castle which gave of a dim white light. I began to get scared as I just saw a ghost and I'm standing alone in a dark swamp near a haunted castle. It was pitch black and I decided to go home, I used my IPad as a flashlight which showed me the way back. Ones I got home I knew I had to defeat that crazy wizard that lived in that castle and held my dad in his dungeon. I had to find my blue wizard-shoes! I found one at home but knew the other one was at the haunted castle so I went back and acted like a was someone that was simply lost in the Woods, I friendly introduced myself to the wizard and saw my other wizard-shoe laying on some planks on the ground. I waited till he looked away and put it on.

2. Secret spy-agent

I'm some sort of super agent chasing down a terrorist in a city, the sun is setting. We run over balconies and rooftops, suddenly a giant down on the street level starts trying to smack me of the balcony, as I run away from his giant hand I can hear the buildings crashing down behind me. At last I stop on a balcony above a bar from which the railings are full with barbed wire, I ask the owner who's on the balcony too to remove it but he responds agressivly. I know there isn't much time and the terrorist is already climbing down to street level. I say "Ah fuck the wire anyway" and jump right over the railing, very fast and acrobatic do I manage to climb down the side and continue my chase. He runs further up a plaza were he tries to climb up somewhere but I get to him and pull him down, throw him on the ground and take him out using some super kungfu punches. Another terrorist attacks me and I take him down too using my close-combat skills.

I hope next night I'll be able to fall asleep properly and attempt another WBTB with SSILD. I must say however that even though I had just 2 dreams they were both extremely vivid and long. Each lasting over 30 minutes I'd guess.

Tonight I woke up around 2:30 because it was storming really bad, sadly I think this distorted my REM-cycles and I could barely remember anything.
Also I tried doing SSILD again but for some reason I wasn't able to get in the right mood so it didn't work, I suspect that the first time it might've been a placebo-effect...

1. The exam-dillema

I was in some sort of gym but the room was full of randomly placed walls and I knew I had math-exam in an hour or so. I hadn't learn yet so I really wanted to review everything atleast ones but if a teacher saw it I would get a zero.

2. Fragment

I'm walking around in some suburbs... really that's all I can remember.

3. Where am I?

I'm some sort of wizard with a cape and climb in some sewers but the go down and end up in some sort of dungeon with skeletons. I do a spell which kills quiet a lot of them but there's still way too many for me to fight. I crawl through an opening and use some sort of broom to knock out a drain, suddenly a swarm of bees comes out. They want to sting me but for some reason they can't and I climb out of the sewers.

4. A new watch

I was ready to go to school and I put on a new watch, it was quiet heavy and looked like it had gold and diamonds on it. I put it around my wrist because with my previous watch IRL I put it higher up.

I'm going to research on what I can do tonight to raise my chances of getting lucid again, I'm really bored now that I didn't had an LD...

Alright! I had a lucid dream tonight after doing a WBTB and SSILD, if I can get frequent results using SSILD it will become my main technique for induction. I really don't know why or how it works but I look forward to next night.

1. Killer planes...

I was with some friends near a wall and next to the wall were seats, there was an opening in the wall were a small plane frequently flew through. We wanted to sit as close as possible to the hole so the plane would barely miss us, one friend sat so close the plane near smashed his head but he said I shouldn't worry.

2. Alright lucid, and now what?* (SSILD)

I was flying above a pine forest and suddenly I know it's a dream, I land in the forest and the pine trees are red and orange. On the ground level the water is 1 meter high and I do an RC to check, as I plug my nose and breath in I can clearly feel the cold air going down my throat. Suddenly I'm quiet worried of the fact I'm standing in water. (IRL I really don't like standing in water while I don't know what's in it...) A large waves formes and throws me off balance, as I go under I get teleported to a place I can't remember but it was urban. There I did the nose plug RC over and over cause I just couldn't believe it was true, then I looked at my hands and saw they were deformed. I tried flying several times but failed, after that I tested myself with some basic questions... "How old am I?", which I answered wrong cause I said "I'm 15 years old.", while actually I'm 16. DERP! For some reason after many failed attempts of flying I got bored for some reason and woke myself up. (I feel stupid now, I could've done more things...) I was suddenly in my bedroom and it was Sunny outside. Then I fell asleep again and woke up ones again but now it was raining. I got out and asked my sister who was already awake "Has it been that grey for whole the morning?", she said yes and I knew I had an FA... I should really do an RC everytime I get up now.

One thing to note is that last year when had a DJ I had my first LD after 8 entries and this time I had an LD again after 8 entries... according to the other DJ I should now have a night without an LD and then I should have a night with an LD again. Let's hope I can break the chain and become lucid tonight already!

Hi everyone, this morning when I woke up I knew I had atleast 6 dreams but only one was clear and vivid, the others were completly fragmented blurry shards.
However, that one dream that was vivid was so vivid that it was actually LD-capable, what I mean with that is that it was clear enough that there was a decent chance of me getting lucid had I payed more attention.

1. Missing the bus

I'm at school on the playground talking with some friends and we have a baseball bat with a ball. I say "Hey, see if you can smash that ball over the building?", nothing happens. Suddenly I'm walking infront of the schoolbuilding down the street and know the bus everyone's on for a school trip has gone the other direction but it will pass me on the next street. Before I can reach that street I can already see the bus passing and I run but it's too late. I jump up and wave with my arms hoping someone will notice it in the bus but nothing happens. I know more things happened but I just can't remember them.

2. Sneaking fail

I'm playing a stealth game (I think MGS4) and I'm about to enter a light office from the dark room I'm in first. The offices have a tropical style to them, as I enter the other room two men are talking in it. I go in guns blazing and shoot one guy through the head I think, the other one pinnes me to the ground and I'm busted.

3. The distorted stadium

I'm on the side in some weird stadium which is really blurry, I barely remember how the the sides of the stadium looked or even how the ground looked. I don't want to go in the field but people who sit next to me convince me to do it.

4. A Paradise of vividness...

I'm flying over a small tropical Island with a palace in the middle and on each side of it swimming pools. A voice tells me about he history of the building. Suddenly I'm with a group of people in swimming clothing walking through a dark tunnel to the swimming pools on the left of the palace, there's one woman who's pregnant yet wearing a bikini which freaks me out a bit. We sit in the pool and the waves of the ocean go over the low wall surounding the pool every now and then. Suddenly the waves get higher and it starts getting dangerous, I start going back and notice I'm suddenly the pregnant woman... as I walk back the waves get so large that I have to stop and hold on to a wall, I keep myself from falling cause I'm worried about the baby... Then I get to the tunnel in which the water is violently moving around, I manage to make it through. At this point I'm a man again and walking through a dark hallway, in my shorts completly wet and cold. Every now and then there are two doors on both sides of the hallway, the first two I look through the window. On the left I see an abandoned classroom, on the right I see a room were people are sitting in, yet they seem like they're not mentally there... I walk on and come to another pair of doors, this time on the right I see two guys with caps on sitting in bags playing a video game, they too seem not responding. Eventually I get to the lobby were a guy stands at the counter and I hear him say something in French. I ask him "Do you understand English?", he responds in more French so I start talking my best French... "Je parle un peu Français mais ce n'est pas parfait", he seems happy that I put effort in explaining myself in French. "Ou sont mes vêtements?" I say after that. He responds in English "You didn't check in so we thought the clothes were left behind and we took them.", then he grabs a map of the Island with two locations marked, I think the locations were the laundry areas. Then I ask him "Pourquoi est l'hotel plein?... I mean empty..." (Plein means full in French so I felled stupid.) I don't get a response and the dream ends.

5. "Not in the bus!"

I went into a buss for a school trip and a girl sat next to me, she seemed quiet nervous and shy for me. For some reason I really liked her, she wanted to have sex but I said "Whoa, not in the bus." Then I woke up.

Anyway, next night I will do a WBTB and try out SSILD or WILD, I have high hopes.

This morning I remembered 5 dreams, so we're getting close to my record of 6 dreams which I had a year ago. However I must say that I really don't know in which order the dreams tonight happened so they are likely not chronologically. I checked my old DJ on LD4all and there I saw that after 8 days of journalling I had the first LD so in maybe 2 days I will have one again.

1. Techno commercial

I was a DO floating around some docks (I think Antwerp) and I heard a radio-dubbed voice (MTV, Jim TV?) anouncing a techno party. There were two small office buildings that had a connecting piece between them on the second floor and under that connecting piece the party would be. For some reason I focused on a white plank that hung in the corner of the right building and the connecting section.

2. The Kinsman

I'm escorted by a guy in suit into a bunker, I enter a large concrete room with several collums for holding up the roof. Near the entrance I see several beds on the side, these are the beds recruits sleep in, infact this is the room my bed will be in. All the beds look sloppy, I walk through the center of the room and people are scattered over the room. The way you have to see this large room is like a beach, people have their own little spot where they can lay down. I see a turkish looking bedroom next to a large concrete collum. (none of the bedrooms have walls around them, it's one large room) I stop and say "Oh, you even have a turkish agent?" to the man in suit escorting me but he seemed to have vanished. I continue through the room till I reach the other side, there I see a sofa against the wall for public use. A bit to the right I see my bedroom (for some reason it looks Greece), I relax on the bed for a bit when suddenly I hear an explosion near the entrance. I jump up and hear someone shouting "IT'S AN ATTACK!" I take cover behind a collum and see an explosion in the center of the room. This dream is completly inspired by me seeing the trailer for the film: 'The Kingsman', you can see it on YouTube. And the sloppy beds are inspired by me seeing this picture on a thread here on the forum: http://www.dreamviews.com/general-lu...ns-dreams.html

3. Stranded in Minecraft

I'm with some people in a small rubber boat, I see them laughing like it's fun. The boats sinks till we're knee-deep in the water but one of the guys says "Don't worry I'll blow it back up again." He blew in a small hole that filled the rubber boat back with air and it started floating again. We stopped at a little Island witout trees and a cliff of about 3 meters high. We get out and stand on the edge under the cliff, a tiny gollum from Minecraft punches some of the rock and I see it break.

4. The confusing pancake

I'm in a building and there's some party going on, I'm talking and laughing with friends and decide to go to the kitchen. There I see another friend making pancakes, I see a bottle of red spicy sauce and make a joke saying "Hey, why not put some of that sauce on the pancakes? " I put some sauce on the counter and looked away for a second, I look back and he actually put the sauce on the pancake he was baking. I thought he was crazy, but then I teleported back to my friends I was talking with and see a man eating pancakes with eggs under it, bacon on it and the red sauce. Now it didn't look that weird anymore.

5. Angry energy

I'm home at the table at which I normally study, there's a lot of books on it and it looks like a mess. I hold a paper doll in my hand with a purple head. Suddenly the doll jumps out of my hand and a line of paper starts expanding out of it's purple head, it starts flying around the book leaving a trail of paper over it. I think "Oh that's handy, now everything is nicely tied together..." Then I hear my dad shouting"WHAT IS THIS MESS, GET IT OUT OF HERE!" He starts walking around swearing and shouting to the point where I feel uneasy, my mother tells him that his behaviour is unnacceptable but he keeps shouting and eventually leaves the room. Then I break down and start shouting and swearing about how he shouted at me. At first my mother understands me but as I keep shouting and swearing I notice that I can't control my shouting and that it keeps going. After some some time my mother tells me that I have to stop but I can't, something else is making me say all these things and it's very frustrating. I never actually shout or swear IRL so it felled very weird doing it so intense and for so long.

Anyway, till next night!

Tonight I suffered from serious insomnia, I went to bed around 23:20 and fell asleep finally around 03:20 and I had to wake up next day at seven...

1. House-party?

This dream starts with me sitting in my bedroom and some friends are in my house for some party or schoolwork... I quikly walk to the computer to change the desktop cause I thought it was stupid. Don't know why, IRL it's just some mountains.) I think I changed it to a river or something, anyway then I quikly went to my bedroom to put away a teddybear that sat in a chair. (It's been there for years IRL and I don't really mind it.) Then I'm suddenly at school in a classroom alone, it's really late. (I think it was 02:30 which might be caused by my insomnia-night...) I am EXHAUSTED, I can barely move my legs yet I feel the urge to check if all cats are inside, I walk around and suddenly am in my living room where I open the door to the garden and look around, it's dark. I see most of the cats walking out of the door outside and I'm a bit annoyed by that. I quikly drive them back inside and close the door. Then I return to the abandoned classroom and sit on a chair watching the door, I pass out and wake up several hours later sitting on the chair, completly broken and still tired.

2. Cars > Bicycles

I'm driving around in Antwerp in some deserted Streets with a car, I feel as if something bad has happened like a robbery or a disaster. Then I see some friends riding bikes and I ask them something, they respond to me saying they're going to school, I drive to school and suddenly teleport to me riding a bike in school. I'm there just before the others arrive. I feel extremely tired again and I think I just crawl back to that chair from last dream.

Even though it's just two dreams I do remember they were quiet detailed and seem to last 40 minutes each. Then take into consideration that I had barely slept that night and it's still a good result.

Tonight I had enough sleep and upon awakening I remembered most of my dreams.
However I think I might have made the biggest mistake in Lucid history, completly ignoring a clear sign that I'm dreaming while in bed. This is what happened, I red this new technique here which I thought sounded good:

My personal method of becoming lucid. If anyone is interested. : LucidDreaming

You basicly have to mimic the feeling of an action you're familiar with (like clapping your hands) in your head while you're falling asleep and when you actually start doing this you should know it's your dreambody and you are in a dream. What happened is I tried it and I clearly felled my arms and hands clapping. But instead of thinking I was in a dream I thought I was doing it to intense and thought I was clapping in my bed IRL... I FEEL SO STUPID NOW!

1. The Aurora Borealis

I was at school exiting the main building cause it was pause, when I looked up to the sky it was quiet dark yet the sun (which was in a weird low place of the sky, one it's never IRL) was large and yellow. I could see stars and clouds were slightly glowing blue, I was amazed by the view and it got even better. A beautifull aurora borealis formed and I shouted to people next to me "Look at that! It's an aurora!" I felled intensely happy. It was slightly snowing I think... Then I was teleported to the red square in Moscow looking towards the Kremlin Palace with the aurora and blue sky. I walked to a weird half-open building and some sort of stage was at the back, on the stage 5 mannequins in Napoleon-style army uniforms came out of several door with trumpets and started making music similar to happy Disney music. I've never been to Russia though.

2. Dream film

This dream was like watching a film, I saw Eddie Murphy talking with someone (a guy) about some upcoming resistance they had to prepare against a nation. (in a funny way like his films usually are) They were in some sort of hideout and then the view shifted to another location filming a woman who instructed the 2 men that they had a symbol for the team. The symbol was a horseshoe but I saw it more like a general U-shape for some reason. Next thing I hear is Eddie saying they have to show it to everyone, suddenly I overlook the small house/bungalow they are in with the grass around it and other bungalows, they mowed the grass around their bungalow in squares with inside these squares the U-shape. I thought that it was a bit dumb to show it like that cause I thought the plan had to stay secret... I think they were somewhere in America, maybe Florida.

3. Midnight snack

I was looking at a small bag with nuts in it, I saw that the nuts had different spices around them, I thought of them like crisps. My dad who stood next to me had a different snack, his nuts were larger and I think I also saw a dried pear in it. My mom who stood infront of me looked at me and I said that I would keep my nuts, otherwise my dad would eat them. My dad gave my mom a large nut and she ate it, I saw that it was a crispy nut that crumbled as she bit in it. I ate some of my own and noticed that the nuts in the bottom of the bag had a lot more different spices each, I saw this cause they had weird icons floating above them with symbols like a Pepper or a belpepper. This all took place at my school infront of the doors of the old gym. Then I was teleported to a weird place that was both the kitchen/dining room of my house and the place at school I was before. My nuts were now in a large drinking glass and I felt that my stomach was completly full. I went to the bathroom and opened a secret door that let to the kitchen.(wasn't I already in the kitchen?) I placed the glass on the table and I heard the disembodied voice of my mom telling me I have to eat all the nuts but I ignored her and went through the secret door again out of the toilet and the only thing I wanted at that point was go to bed.

4. Back at school

I was talking with a teacher I've never seen before IRL but in the dream she looked familiar. I talked about the aurora (from the first dream) and the nuts I ate (from the third dream), we stood near the old gym and the sky was still filled with blue glowing clouds. I talked about how crazy people can get when they're addicted or really want something. That moment I looked back and had a flashback of a kid going mental because he didn't get any ice-cream, that boy stood 5 meters behind us and he friendly laughed admitting he acted quiet crazy back then. Then I woke up.

So yeah, it looks like the dreams are getting more and more detailed again, and I remember more dreams every night so we're on our way to lucidity ones again!

Before I went to sleep it got really late and I ended up having almost less than 5 hours of sleep. (Not my fault though) Upon awakening in the morning I couldn't remember anything, however as I got out of bed and was confronted with clues on my way to school I started remembering everything again...

1. Am I a chainsmoker?

This dream remains very blurry but after seeing some people smoke infront of school I remembered a little bit again. I was standing outside on the street somewhere on a corner with someone else I think. In my hand I saw a very detailed cigarette, I lighted it up and smoked it. I thought of how bad that actually is for your health but it felt too good. I dropped it on the ground unfinished and grabbed another one out of my pocket. I think I smoked 6 cigarettes and everytime I smoked one I felled more and more regret of damaging my health, but it still felt too good. It's weird cause I don't smoke IRL and actually thinks it's a little bit dirty, however now that I've had this dream I understand why people like it so much and why it's such a strong addiction. Anyway, I still will never start smoking but I have more respect for people who do now.

2. Teacher rage

In school when I went to physics and entered the room I remembered that I had a dream about it. I was sitting back in the class with some of my friends and one of them asked or said a really dumb/silly thing and I sarcasticly responded "Are you really that stupid?" with a smile. Right after that the teacher walks up to me and grabs the back of my neck, he violently hauls me through the classroom and throws me at the side. I felled a lot of shame cause I looked stupid for everyone. IRL I'm not someone who gets into trouble or do anything wrong, I don't make sarcastic jokes about my friends so I'm almost thinking that it's an entirely different person in that dream.

3. A new house

I remembered this dream while I was dressing up and was almost ready to leave for school. I was in an office and a man in suit was smiling to me, for some reason I thought he was my father and we were standing in his office. I realised that it was the bottom-floor of our new house. I walked around and stopped at a computer on a desk infront of a wooden wall. I pulled the computer in half which nicely opened up and slided to the sides, behind that the wooden wall opened as a door. I went in and there were some stairs. I went up and was in a large room with windows on the front-side and a massive brownish kitchen to the back which was a bit dark. I looked up and could see the next floor through some square holes in the ceiling. I saw a large lamp hanging from the ceiling on the next floor and it had a classic-looking ceiling. For some reason it felt like that upper floor (that had no stairs leading to it) was haunted, and I knew that the bedrooms were on that level. Anyway I entered the kitchen and went left to eat something (herbs/candy/...?), the kitchen was absolutely huge almost as large as an Industrial food-factory but I liked it. Next I went down and outside, the house stood between two other large houses and had 4 floors, my sister called me and asked me how the new appartement was, I said "It's not an appartement, it's like a massive double duplex." She still called it an appartement and I then said it was a large house. Then I woke up.