Mydera

Already posted my dreams from the first part of the morning, but since I was able to fall back to sleep I'm making a second post with these dreams.

Dream Three: I'm at an out door fair of some sort with my family. We walk into an auditorium, and from here I think we were watching a movie. I remember there being cars racing against each other in some sort of high tech race track that lights up and has moving water obstacles. There was a plot to the whole video, some guys were chasing a car that had kidnapped their sister or something on this race track. The cars wrecked, and the guys ended up not only saving their sister, but the bad guys life as well. There was also some sort of bomb planted on the sister in her bra, and if they didn't deactivate it she and everyone else would blow up. A woman in a cat suit showed up with a phone and called the bomb to deactivate it. The sister was surprised by the vibrations, but no one blew up, lol. Then I'm back in the auditorium, and I lay down across a couple of seats because I think I'm tired. I notice on the floor is a little plastic coin, and when I pick it up I realize it's one of the Pokemon coins to my son's Pokemon card game. No sooner to I pick it up do I realize there's another one on the floor too. I pick it up as well, then notice someone is crawling UNDER the seats. It's my friend T! He's saying something about gay marriage, and I tell him I'm so sorry that the amendment passed and he's that much farther from gay marriage being made legal. Then I wake up.

Dream Four: I wake up, and I find my mouth hurts. I notice something is floating around in my mouth. I spit it out, and it's a tooth! I go to show my husband that one of my teeth fell out while I was asleep and he asks me which one. I try to feel with my tongue to find which one, and another tooth falls out! I feel around with my tongue some more and find two wholes in my mouth where the teeth should be and as soon as I find the holes they start pouring blood and all I can do is cough and sputter trying to spit it out and breathe. I woke up freaked out and had to make sure all my teeth were still there! lol

Dream Five: There is a man who I am playing very sweet and innocent with. I'm letting him make all the come ons and pretending that I don't get his games and know what he really wants to do. He looks like the guy from the chlorine and chocolate dream, but I don't connect the dots and realize this is a dream. We get to the point where we are making out, but the dream resets and I'm back to walking inside the building looking for him. I'm annoyed, and lazy to do this a second time, so I take a different approach. I walk in and see his two body guards drinking and lazying out on the job as well. I walk up to them and wave a little green and gold wand with a feather on it and little gold glitter specks drift out of it and into their breath and put them to sleep. The guy comes sauntering in, and sees his men, and me standing there. He demands to know who put his men to sleep. I tell him I did in a flirty and seductive tone. He refuses to believe me, and says, "Your far too small and beautiful to satisfy my men." I say something like, "Beautiful? Me? no no no, I'm dangerous, very very dangerous." Then he tells me, "Yes, you are beautiful. Like the Autumn leaves in the fall." and I laugh and trace a finger across his shoulder and try to be seductive and lead him into another room. I wake up when he starts to follow me though.

Kind of disappointed, with all the talk of lucids in my first couple dreams, I hoped I'd be lucid in these dreams, but I wasn't even close. :/

Up at 8:00 again :/ I think I might know why, so I'm going to try something different (or rather stop doing something different I've been doing for the last two weeks) the next week and see what happens.

Dream One: I'm at a mansion. I walk through what I'm assuming was the back door to go outside. There's a pool and I decide to take a swim, clothes and all, lol. When I get in the water, a lady starts floating down from the clouds. She's got long flowing brown hair flying behind her, she's beautiful. She's reaching forwards like she wants to take my hand and pull me out of the pool and into the sky. I reach out to take her hand, but wake up in a class room before I can. There's a man teaching the class room. He's telling me something about lucid dreaming. I think he might have told me that I need to pay better attention to things that are strange like women floating down from the sky, as if he had seen what I had dreamed. Then he tells me I have missed two chances to become lucid already. I wake up.

Dream Two: I'm in a store shopping and fall down the stairs. I end up breaking my leg, and they rush me upstairs because there is apparently a hospital above the shop, lol. I'm sitting on a gurney and there's a doctor that looks at my leg and says it's healing quickly, I'll only be there a couple days. Then he walks off and a nurse comes up to ask me if I'm comfortable and if she can get me anything. I notice that my foot looks grey and weird, and my bladder is full. I tell her I need to pee, and she says I have to ask the doctor if I can get up. Apparently my hospital room is a big room that multiple people are sharing, so I yell out to the doc, "hey Doc!" he comes back over and I ask if I can go to the bathroom, he says sure. I get up and go to the bathroom, but forget to ask about why my foot looks grey. I get back on the gurney, and sit just looking around for a few minutes. Once again I feel like I need to pee, so I get up on my own this time, walk downstairs, get in my car, drive home, use the bathroom, then drive BACK to the hospital. I'm going inside through the store below, and I see my BFF shopping. I tell her hey, and she starts talking about home work. She tells me I have a research paper due for our lucid dreaming class on Dream Views, then scolds me for always putting stuff like that off to the last minute. I told her I forgot all about it, and thank her for reminding me. I briefly wonder if I can use the broken leg as an excuse, but decide that I don't want to make excuses because excuses aren't going to get me a lucid dream. I go up stairs to the hospital again, but this time my hospital room is only a two person hospital room, and it looks a lot more like a college dorm with beds and bookshelves and carpet! Apparently my room mate is a guy, and he's already sitting on his bed typing up a paper. I set my laptop down on the floor and lay down on the floor to type next to his bed. We chat about the lucid dreaming class and ask each other about our progress and complain about the lack there of. Then I wake up. For the record, my bff isn't even on dream views, and I have no clue who the guy on the bed was. Completely random, and how am I not realizing I am dreaming during these dreams? lol I AM doing reality checks every time I get on dream views or watch a video about lucid dreaming or talk to someone about it in waking life, they're just not bleeding over into my dreams yet. I'm heading back to bed now, so we'll see if I have anything better to report later on

I didn't bother trying to remember my dreams very well last night as I was actually able to sleep and didn't have insomnia (hooray for 10 hours of sleep! I needed it!) I was kind of scared that if I moved around too much I'd end up waking myself up too much and the insomnia would strike. this entry will probably be short compared to my usual!

Dream One: The dream starts off with me in the office of the Church I used to be a secretary for about 6 years ago. I decide I need to hurry up and leave and get to my other job, at Dominos (also worked there 6 years ago at the same time) because I'm expecting someone who controls the weather to make it rain. I walk to Dominos, and I see my apartment (I lived in 3 years ago) is right behind Dominos. I'm pretty happy it's so close because I need to change before work. I go change, but then instead of going to Dominos, I go to the park for a city wide story time!

Dream Two: I'm in a shop where they sell clothes for Asian Ball Jointed Dolls. I'm thinking that I am one of the dress makers. (I can sew in waking life, but only simple things, not tiny doll clothes!) Then suddenly the dream shifts and I'm a party planner and I'm planning a birthday party at Chuck E Cheese, but I can't figure out where chuck e cheese is.

Dream Three (Fragment):

Spoiler for lady problems:

That time of the month comes early and unexpectedly, while I'm in public (I think maybe out to eat) and I'm completely unprepared and under supplied

Dream Four: I'm at Target with my husband, wandering through the little girls clothes. I'm so excited to see a Pinkalicious Dress in Pink and Yellow, and pink Pinkalicious shoes. My daughter LOVES Pinkalicious. I'm trying to find them in her size when my buddy B comes up to us to say hey. I'm surprised he's there because I thought he worked at Walmart, but he tells me he switched to Target because they have cooler customers. Then B tells me he has George Clooney's phone number now because he bought a sofa from them and B had to confirm the delivery. Then we leave and go to visit the parents of one of my exboyfriends. They still call and check on me once a year or so and talk to me when they see me in stores, so it's only slightly odd, lol. My Ex's mom tells me I look beautiful that day, and I thank her and find I'm hoping one of my other exes shows up to see how hot I look and kick himself in the butt. Dream logic Then, the best part of the dream, My ex's parents start asking me what is this lucid dreaming I'm posting about on facebook, it's not drugs or something is it? And I start explaining to them that there are no drugs involved, it's just controlling your dreams. I wake up and want to kick myself for not realizing that I was dreaming at the time! It wouldn't have done me much good since I woke up right afterwards, but even if for only a few seconds would have been awesome. I really need to reality check more when thinking about dreams and being lucid!

Dream Open: I open my eyes, and find that I am waking up on a hill with a cliff that over looks a pale yellowish brown building (it was slightly orangish too, but looked old and like it was made of some sort of stone.) I'm thinking about dreams, and I wonder why I don't remember having one before I woke up. Then I wonder if I'm in one now? I jump to see if I can fly, I can! I must be dreaming, but the full scope of it doesn't really hit me so I don't get very excited. I fly in a big circle over the building and the hill and there's a river below as well as a city. I wake up before I can do anything else. Not sure that I was fully lucid, I mean I knew I was in a dream, but I wasn't hit with that epiphany that I can do whatever I want to :/

Dream Two: I wake up in front of a house that I recognize as my own even though it doesn't look like my normal house. It looks more like a house I'd build in the Sims when I start a legacy game. It's a small square, with no windows, only a door. It's so small, that there's only a couple to three feet on either side of the door before the corner of the building! I notice there are some round looking trees nearby too, planted in rows. Ray and DJ from the cartoon band "Your Favorite Martian" are spray painting the brick on my house. They don't look like cartoons though, Ray looks like himself, and while I've never seen the guy that DJ is modeled after I assume he looks like he would in real life. (My subconscious must love Ray, all I have to do is hear his voice when my husband watches his videos or have youtube popup a "recommended for you" video with his face on it and he's in my dreams ) They are spray painting American flags on either side of my house, but they are claiming that it shows my support of gay pride, lol. The flags are outlined in white, and they're spray painting the red lines in, they haven't gotten to the blue square or the stars yet. I yawn and feel like I had a great nap, and thank my lucky stars I'm not as sleepy as I have been and hope my insomnia is gone if I was able to nap outside near a couple of guys spray painting. (Little do I realize I'm freaking asleep right then, no wonder I felt well rested! ha ha) I walk through the trees, and on the other side of them is a road, I cross it, and suddenly I'm looking at a super tall brick building that I assume is a store or a fire station. The neighbor's kid is there, and he's spray painting an American flag on the side of that building, and his progress mirrors that of Rays on my house. Suddenly the dream logic kicks in, and I assume I had it wrong, it wasn't Ray and DJ painting my house, it was the neighbors kids painting the fire station! I tell the kid he'd better stop, that even if it was a pretty picture, it's still considered vandalism because that's a public property and not his own house. He starts freaking out (his dad's a cop, lol) and then I tell him he can probably wash it off. I go back home, I'm not really interested in helping him clean up after his stupid mistake, I'm not that nice. I go inside my house, and it's bigger on the inside than it looks. I see my grandma, and tell her that I saw the neighbors kid spray painting the fire station. Then I tell her how I told him to wash it off or something. She tells me those kids never had any sense or brains, and I agree. Then I'm zooming out above the house and the trees have moved, which I find odd, but I'm still zooming out into blackness. I wake up, but just go back to sleep instead of taking notes not like me at all, ha ha. I didn't even remember to try to DEILD.

Dream Three: I know there was some to the begging of this that I can't remember The earliest point I remember, I'm running through some buildings with a woman in her forties or fifties. She's thin for that age, but she has some telling wrinkles that prove her age and hard years. Her hair is long and black, but not fancy or done or anything. She's wearing black dress pants and a blazer over a white button up shirt. Her shoes are black high heeled boots and she's only got on gold earrings and lipstick, not a lot of jewelry or makeup or anything. She's explaining to me that when two people of the same magic capacity collide, it'll be the slower one who absorbs not only the impact the opponent aims at them, but also the impact of their own magic aimed at the opponent. Then she tells me when I attack I need to be the fastest. I find this all very familiar (and later remember it's from the Manga I was reading last night, "Zetsuen no Tempest") I find myself going through the motions like it's a memory not like I'm doing it for the first time, of trying to throw magic from my hands at her. I miss, and she keeps running. I'm not trying to hurt her, she's teaching me and this is practice. I see something from the corner of my left eye. it's a guy leaping from some stairs on a fire escape, also chasing the woman. He's faster than me, and turns around a corner and I see a flash of white. I get around the corner and he's on the ground clutching his stomach. He wasn't fast enough. The lady is standing over him and offers him her hand to help him up. He takes it, and tries to play it cool as soon as he seems I'm around the corner too. The lady starts walking now, not running, and telling us we're not fast enough. Apparently I'm lucky I was so slow I missed her, because if I'd been just a bit faster and hit her, I'd have gotten the recoil from her magic and my own attack and been on the ground like Kay. I think it's odd she's calling him Kay, and I look at him for a minute. Something's really familiar about him, and I can't figure out what it is that's nagging me about him (If you follow my dream journal, you should know without this description, ha ha). He's got messy blond hair that's just past his ear, not really long, but by no means short. He looks like he's probably 21 or 22, but the way he carries himself with confidence I wonder if he's older and just looks younger. I focus on his black clothes for some reason, and then decide of course he looks familiar, we're training together, I should know him! (Dream logic strikes again!) we all three cross the street, and the guy starts walking up the side walk, but the woman cuts through a cemetery towards a church. I start to follow her, but a woman calls out behind me, "Hey B, what are you doing in the cemetery? You don't belong there!" I turn around to see another middle aged woman wearing some pretty old looking clothes, like she's too poor to buy new ones kind of thing. They're thread bare and faded from over washing, but no holes. I try to tell her I'm following my mother, even though in the dream I know the woman I'm following isn't my mom but I don't think I'm supposed to let on that she's my teacher either. The lady yells back at me, "There ain't nothing in that there cemetery but ghosts!" I turn to motion to the woman I was following, but she's changed form completely! She now looks like Harriet Tubman. I'm completely blown away how she's changed not only her face, clothes, race and age, but she's also almost see through!! She winks at me and says, "How do you think I get around without being noticed? People will ignore what they think is a ghost because they don't want to see one!" I can't become a ghost, so I decide to follow the guy instead, I'm sure he knows what we're supposed to do next. I run up the wide walk after him, but by now I'm a considerable distance behind him. He crosses a busy four lane road, and opens the door to a litle shop. I start to follow, but stop in horror when a little girl around 2 or 3 runs out the shop door when he opens it and towards the road. He grabs her JUST in time to keep her out of the road. But then, a little boy probably 6 or 7 runs out the door too and the guy can't grab him because his hands are full with the little girl. The boy trips, and falls, and without thinking I run up and grab him and jump into the middle turning lane before the traffic can hit us. He's skinny, so he weighs a lot less than my son, and I can easily carry him and bounce him a bit while I say "shhhhh, I got you, your not going to get hit buddy! You really shouldn't run out into the street like that!" He's got some scratches on his leg, and I decide to carry him inside and clean his scratches. Kay holds the door open for me, and thanks me for saving his brother. A n older lady, probably in her mid 40s is in the shop. She's wearing flashy purple clothes, she's heavy set, and wearing all kinds of gaudy jewelry with makeup caked on her face. Her eyes are sharp, they give the impression that she's watching my every move, sizing me trying to decide if I'm friend or foe and if foe, how to attack most effectively. She thanks me in a condescending tone for rescuing the kid, and tells me that he'll be fine now. I tell her he's scratched up, so I'd like to make sure he's cleaned up before I leave, I don't want the kid to get an infection or anything. She tells me she'll clean him up, but he seems scared of her, so I tell her I will do it before I leave just to be sure, then ask where the bathroom is. She starts to say something, but a little girl speaks up, "There's no water in the bathroom. We ran out." I look up at Kay who has yet another kid in his lap (there must have been five kids in this place, lol) and he shakes his head, "There was water when I left, but sometimes we do run out." The woman clicks her tongue and then says, "Well, since your here, why don't you stay for dinner?" I nod, but instead of talking to her, I whisper to Kay, "Wait, don't you need a mask or something?" (this was a reference to a book I just got called "Masque of the Red Death" Not the original story, but a modern authors attempt to turn it into a teenage love story set in the future.) He looks confused and says, "No?" then I'm distracted by this black rods that fly up and are hoovering around my head. They're a flat black metal, about the width of a pocky stick, but about ten inches long with a single black feather at the top of them. They're floating slightly slanted like a "/" Confused at what they are, I reach my hand up and start to touch one. When my hand gets close, the rod starts swirling quickly, orbiting my hand like it's very excited or something. I extend a finger, and when I touch the rod it's like whatever force was making it seem alive was gone and it just dropped to the floor like the inanimate object it was. there are three more still floating, and I do the same to each of them. I'm mystified, but the woman looks unhappy. Kay grabs my elbow and pulls me to another room where a table is set and he's saying something about needing to hurry so I can get home before my family misses me. The woman asks where I live, but I can't remember so I don't know how to tell her. In my awkward silence, Kay says, "She lives kind of far away so she needs to hurry." The woman is not happy about this answer, but she can't really press further and still keep her semi-nice act up, so she doesn't. Instead, these giant wooden butterflies with wing spans two feet long fly into the room. There are three, and they're beautiful blue and black with rounded wings. I reach up for butterfly to touch it, curious how it's flying without any cords or anything. When I try to touch the first one it suddenly flaps it's wings quickly and flies about three feet before crashing lifelessly to the floor. I try the second, and again when my hand gets close it flaps away quickly then crashes lifelessly, this time hitting the wall. I apologize for having it crash into the wall, and say I should probably stop before I break something. But the last butterfly looks so calm and collected, I can't help trying to touch it to. It does the same, but crashed like a dive bomb straight at the lady! She dodges it and glares at me. I apologize, and say I should really go home. Kay stands up offering to walk me out. When we get to the door something clicks and it finally hits me this is a dream and who he is. I lean up on my tip toes and start to kiss him, but he shakes his head ever so slightly motioning his eyes towards the woman in the other room as if to say I shouldn't kiss him in front of her. Instead I wrap my arms around his neck in a big hug and whisper to him, "Your not Kay, Your name is Kurasawa." He whispers back, "I know. I don't know why in this dream you think my name was different." Then the whole dream faded into blackness. I rolled over to go back to sleep, but my husbands alarm chose that moment to go off. After two hours of trying to go back to sleep, I got up and wrote this all out, hoping I can sleep afterwards!

Now, for those who are still confused about who the DC was! I have a re-occurring dream character that I've been calling "K" in my dream journal entries... his name in my dreams is actually Kurasawa. He's actually the reason for me looking into lucid dreaming, when he first started appearing a year ago he told me on a couple of different occasions that, "This is your dream, I'm just along for the ride." He would also push me to question why things in the dream were the way they were. I'm going to start using his name in my dreams because apparently calling him K here is bleeding over into my dreams and confusing me. There's really no reason to call him just K anyways, I was just keeping with conformity of never using actual names, lol. And though is name is Japanese, he doesn't look it at all. I'm pretty sure the name was just my brain being over influenced by all the Anime and Manga I partake of If that explanation's not enough for you, there's more on Kurasawa here: 2-8-11, Important dreams from the past: K's Original Dream - Dream Journals - Lucid Dreaming - Dream Views

I slept four hours last night... four collective hours. I actually got the first hour and a half from 1:30ish to 3, and couldn't fall back asleep until after 8 -_- then was up around 10-10:30 unable to go back to sleep before my kids woke up.


Dream One (Fragment): My mom owned a shop of some sort and I was helping her stock. A guy was there, I want to say it was K. There was also a girl there, I think maybe my bff?

Dream Two (Fragment): There was something about colors, and I needed something of a certain color for a festival. Then I was in the basement, and we'd already started working on it so the wooden frames for the walls were up. I must have been under the living room where the floor is lower because someone was showing me how low the ceiling was and how no one was going to be able to stand up straight in that room, we'd all have to bend over. It being the laundry/utility room, I didn't find that a problem as it would be used once or twice a week at most.

Dream One: I'm standing in a field at night. I even had the thought in dream that this field looked like Hyrule (TLoZ:OoT) with it's dirt paths and patchy grass, and a giant full moon looming over head. I turn around and look behind me, and there's a girl walking towards me. She reminds me of one of the neighborhood kids, only thinner and older. I say hey, and ask her what she's doing in a field in the middle of the night, never bothering to question myself. She tells me she's going to "spotify" I have no clue what that is, so I ask her, and she tells me that if you go into this field at night, you'll be spotted and disappear. This sounds creepy, and i don't want to disappear, but I realize this chic is depressed. I mean she looked depressed when I first saw her, all quiet and looking at the floor and refusing to make eye contact. Now that I know she wants to disappear I KNOW she's depressed and suicidally so. I ask her where her house is, I think I'm going to be able to get her to walk me to her house, and then tell her parents so she doesn't really disappear. She tells me her house is up the hill and points, no shit, towards a hill that looks like Lon Lon Ranch, ha ha. Then she refuses to walk me there because she says she wants to stay and disappear. Before i can argue with her, I hear a noise, and look behind me, away from the ranch. There are two more girls walking towards us from across the field. They're talking to each other, so I think this was more like a prank or a dare for them than wanting to die. They're still a good hundred feet away when a dark shadow sorta of triangular shaped like a bird swooping in on it's prey, but HUGE like the size of a whale in the sky or bigger flies between us. It swoops down towards the two girls, and I hear them scream and I turn and RUN. The girl who wants to die isn't with me, but I'm not hero enough in this dream to go back and try to drag her and get killed myself. I'm running towards her house, and as I run I hear the two girls screaming, "No! We didn't really want to die! We changed our minds!" but I don't turn around because I can hear it crashing to the ground behind me swopping up the third girl, and I know if I don't hurry it'll get me too! I reach the house, and then knock on the door. I'm screaming, "Please open the door! Hurry!" and a lady opens the door. She looks confused, and asks me if I'm there for the party and if I'm a friend of her daughters. I tell her I'm just lost in the field and need to call my parents, I don't know her daughter. She tells me that's too bad, they're throwing a surprise party for her because she's been so down lately, but she hasn't come home yet. Oh... that's her daughter, I don't want to tell her that she just died and be the bearer of bad news. Then the front door opens, and it's the daughter. I'm trying to figure out how she survived, and I notice there's even blood on her clothes, but no one seems to notice. The woman smiles and says "SURPRISE! Enjoy your party hun, I need to get the phone for this girl real quick!" then she mom walks through an archway and it's just me and the girl and a dog in the living room. The dog starts barking, but I can't tell if it's barking at her or me because it's barking in both directions. Then the girl turns and starts barking and growling at me. Freaked out, I run out the front door and everything goes black. I "wake up" in a class room full of teens. I think I've zoned out for a minute, but no one seems to have noticed. There's a pretty black girl beside me, but she looks at me and her pupils in her eyes are like slits, not human eyes. It freaks me out and I jump back. The teacher yells at both of us thinking we were talking, but the girl argues with her that we weren't talking. The teacher slams a ruler down on the girls desk and tells her not to argue with her. Then the teacher turns away. The girl jumps up, with her feet in the chair, in a crouched position like she's going to attack the teacher's back, but she slowly lowers her legs and sits back down like she's changed her mind. A couple of girls behind us are giggling and whispering way too loudly, "Did you see that? She was about to attack teach! she has been so weird lately. What is her problem?" Then the bell rings and the class starts filing out of the classroom. The teacher leaves too, but a couple of students stay, a boy with sandy blond hair and a girl with like bleach blond hair. The creepy eyed girl leaves the class room practically stalking she's so pissed off. Then I stand up to leave, and the guy walks up to me and puts his hand on the front of my shoulder and stops me, "Where you going Pave?" at first I think he called me Paige, but then I am sure I heard that V and wondered what kind of a name Pave was? I shrug his hand off my shoulder and continue towards the door and tell him I'm not interested in hanging out in the classroom. The girl gets up and also calls me Pave, then tells me that whether I'm interested or not, this concerns me. I'm one of them, even if I don't want to be. The door opens an another guy, this one really tall with light brown hair, and the creepy eyes girl from before walk in. The new guy says to use the key, and the blonde girl says ok. I stop them, "Wait? What key? What are you guys doing?" The guy says he's opening communication so the harvesters can collect their harvest. I'm confused, so then the girl says, "We've got a breeding facility hidden in the wilderness where we've been breeding slaves to send into space." I say that's illegal, and she says the only thing illegal about is it that they weren't born in captivity in space. Then she says they were born in captivity on earth, so she's pretty sure she can get around it if there's an investigation. Then I remember the girl who wanted to "spottify" and I realize that something probably killed the other two girls, then took over her body and that THING was probably the investigators. I tell the other kids that there's something on this planet inhabiting a human body and it's probably the investigator, and if so this is their fault. They're not concerned, they just ignore me and more a poster that's on the wall. Behind it is a keyhole, and when they insert the key... I wake up, lol. I was actually pretty freaked out when I woke up in the dark. My husband was getting up for work at that point, and I was kind of wishing he'd sleep in so I could fall back asleep and not be alone, ha ha.

Dream Two: I get on facebook, and I find that my mom has set up a facebook event, but the event is to fix up the house I'm living in. The wording is something like, "Hey everyone! As you know, my daughter and her husband have moved in with my mom last year to help fix her house because it's falling apart. Unfortunately, it's only a two bedroom house so they have three beds set up in one room! I wanted to try to get a bunch of people together to go over there and help them fix things up!" I'm in shock that several people I don't know have already joined the event, and I'm feeling like she makes it sound like a charity case or something. I'm embarrassed, and mad, so I call her up. She says she just wanted to help, but I try to explain to her that it's not just a labor issue, it's a money issue as well. I try to explain to her that the $500 a month we're setting back goes quickly when your having to replace all the pipes, replace the floor in the bathroom because one of the old pipes busted, replace the posts on the porch because they were rusted completely through, and all the little repairs like the dishwasher, over, laundry machine, and everything else that's gone wrong since we moved in. I try to tell her we still need $3000 to replace the roof before we can even think about finishing off the basement, and it's not going to help if she gets a bunch of people over here with nothing to do, so she needs to just cancel the event. But then When I get on facebook again, a church group has joined too, and they're talking about praying for our situation. (funny, just as I typed that line, the phone rang and it was my grandma's church, haha) I'm so embarrassed at that point, that I post on the page "Thank you all for your concern, but we're fine and don't want help!" I think the dream continued beyond this, but I can't remember the way ended. I think at some point I had to go to the church and tell them no, but then they tried to rope us into Sunday school classes or something. The only reason I can remember that part is because their Sunday school materials had Manga like comics for their children's illustrations to make them more interesting. It was sunny because all the characters looked like the ones in bleach, but they had different names and they weren't soul reapers, they were "soul saviors" and they led people to god or something corny like that.

Dream Three: I'm in a parking lot, and it's raining in the evening time. So it's overcast and almost dark, but not quite. There are two men standing in the middle of the parking lot looking like they're about to have an old western show down. Upon closer inspection, one's a cop and one's just a normal guy, so I assume he's a robber or something. I walk towards the store, but I'm a couple aisle over so they don't notice me. When I get to the store, I realize that a bunch of people are just standing around outside the store watching this confrontation between the robber and the cop. One guy even send his wife inside to buy a tent so they don't get wet in the rain. I walk to the right of the store, then back to the left, listening to people I pass buy, trying to figure out what's going on. Then, suddenly I think to myself, "I remember this dream!" (in fact, I did NOT remember this dream, and I remained only semi lucid) I start telling myself what's going to happen in the dream. I tell myself that my aunt is inside buying a tent as well, then I see my aunt. I tell myself that I need to jump out into the showdown, because I know the attacker. I step up, and the cop tells me to get away... I realize he's an exboyfriend of mine who actually is a cop now. I ignore him, he was always an ass anyways. Then I tell myself, the attackers going to threaten to blow up walmart, but it's just a ploy, no one will really be hurt. So the attacker suddenly looks like Rock Lee from Naruto, only he's wearing a cape and a mask like Robin from batman. He says he's going to blow the place up, then shoots some sort of white light from his hands that hits the store and causes some dust and rubble and a 3 foot circular hole, but doesn't blow it up. Then I say outloud that he's going to try to inhabit my body, and he throws white light out of his body into mine, and then his body gets a vacant look in it's eyes, and walks away and I feel dizzy and disoriented. I fall to the ground, and I can hear a guys voice telling me to lay down and rest, that K is on his way. But as I'm laying there with my eyes closed seeing only darkness, I feel someone above me. Thinking it's just K I lay there like a good girl, but then the person over me leans down and kisses me quickly, then starts licking my mouth like a dog. I shake my head and push the person away. I look up and it's the stupid ex-boyfriend cop. I yell at him, "what are you doing?! Your not supposed to help me, K is supposed to rescue me!" then I wake up. I'm not sure if I should call that a lucid or not. On one hand, I actually said to myself it's a dream, and told myself everything that was going to happen, but on the other hand I never got that "It's a dream! I can do whatever I want! Wahoo!" feeling. It's like I only halfway knew it was a dream, enough to know I controlled what happened, but not enough to actually want to change the events. Still, my end goal in lucids is almost always, K, and I was going for that in the dream, so maybe it's a lucid? I don't know! lol

Dream Four: I'm sitting on a couch with my head laid back like I was going to sleep on it. I straighten my head back up, and my husband is talking to me from across the room. The person beside me is the neighbors kid. He's all excited, and it turns out we got some sort of video game system in the mail. I'm supposed to be opening the box and setting it up so they can play. I start taking stuff out of the box. The console has a sticker that says free 30 day trial on it. Then there's a paper that says we can keep the system after 30 days for just $99. Inside the box there is all kinds of crap though, There are two Christmas tree ornaments, a flash light, and a keychain light. There's also some green thing the size of a baseball that I have no clue what it is. I hold it up to my husband, and he says it's a planter, then proceeds to magically unfold these parts of it and it turns into a plants stand, complete with a little plant in it, and it's like ten times it's normal size. I am trying to figure out what to do with the thing, and end up breaking it, but then I ghetto rig it so it sits on three legs instead of four. My husband tells me I need to put it in the entrance way, and I walk to the front door to discover it's a little enclosed area, like a mud room, with a cute rug and all these pretty flowers. I'm impressed, and wonder where all this came from! On my way back to the living room, I see my daughter and another little girl sitting on a kid sized couch watching a little TV leaning on each other like they're drifting off to sleep. I think to myself they're so cute, like two little dolls leaning on each other to stay upright! Then I start feeling dizzy and disoriented and I fall tot he ground and everything goes black. When I open I my eyes, I'm actually waking up. Up until the last couple of weeks I've never had that disoriented feeling feeling when a dream ends, but it seems lately it's happening a lot!

Dream ??? (Fragment) : I can't remember what order this fragment fell into, and almost left it out, but it's worth remembering so it's worth writing right? lol. The whole fragment just consisted of me hearing the neighbors peacock in a really tall grassy field and trying to follow the sound to find it. But it kept moving! at one point I wondered if there was more than just one loose.

I didn't sleep well last night, and the dreams I had weren't an escape like usual, but more stressful situations.

Dream One: I'm at my mother in laws house. Her Christmas tree is in the middle of the doorway. I think this an odd place for it, but she tells me that's the only place she could put it because she didn't have an extension cord. I think we start arguing about something but I don't remember what, and I walk out. Outside I'm walking up the road and run across a teenage kid playing basket ball. I ask him to take me to someone (or maybe he offers to take me, it's fuzzy) He leads me up the road, then we turn left at a stop sign, then go up a hill. At the top of the hill I recognize the place and that there should be stoplights across the road. Instead of stoplights though, there are basket ball goals hanging from the wires, and the kid tries to shoot from half way down the hill. I freak out thinking his ball could hit a car since we can't see what's coming over the top of the hill yet. He tells me to "chillax" and then keeps playing. I run to the top of the hill, and see there's no traffic. Then I see that waiting for me on top of the hill is someone. I don't even remember who, just that I was really happy to see them and gave them a hug and felt like everything was going to be ok... then I woke up.

Dream Two: I'm at the grocery store trying to figure out what kind of special Dinner I can make for my husband. I have absolutely no clue what I can make that would be special, and now I can't even remember what the special occasion was. Eventually, I decide I'm going to try to make lobster since in The Sims that's one of the best "fanciest" dishes you can make. I buy two lobsters, and I get in the car. I notice the lobsters make my hands stink like fish, and I'm grossed out wondering if this is really such a good idea. Then I realize I don't even know how to cook the things, and call my bff who actually has some sort of culinary degree (but I think hers is in pastries and cakes, not fish, lmao) in hopes that she will be able to walk me through it. When I start talking to her on the phone, I remember that my husband is allergic to shell fish, and I think Lobster is some sort of shellfish because it looks similar to shrimp and he's allergic to shrimp as well. I have a mental break down in the car because I have these stinky lobsters that I don't even know how to cook, and now I realize I've wasted money on them because we can't eat them after all and I don't know what to do with them now or what I'm going to make for this special dinner.

Dream Three: I'm going to the movies to see the new Disney movie coming out, Brave, with my kids. When we get there, the tickets are like $20 a piece, and it's crazy! But then we end up getting extra stuff with our tickets, like free water bottles and stuff because the movie is like a drinking game? When the movie starts, it's more like a play because the characters are breaking the fourth wall the whole time, and complaining about how our water bottles aren't right and just won't work for this game! The bottles keep leaking, and everyone's getting sticky and wet, and it's very annoying. I get up to leave, but somehow that makes the dream shift so that I become Merida, the main character, and the queen is telling me to run because the villagers want to cut my magic hair (yup, a Tangled reference there) I spend the next few minutes of the dream running from this crazy, 3 foot tall old lady with scraggly red hair who's chasing me with a glowing blue knife trying to cut my hair. I manage to trick her by opening the door to a stairway and she thinks I ran down the stairs. While she's trying to run after me she trips and falls (doesn't get hurt though!) and gets the knife lodged into the wall. I run up and yank the knife out of the wall, and it becomes a spatula? then I tell her my hair is magic and can't be cut and attempt to cut it myself with the spatula. Instead of cutting, it burns and smells and feels horrible. Everyone is all upset over the chase through the castle and my pretty hair being singed. I wake up

I woke up three hours earlier than normal, and it took me forever to fall asleep last night. I'm pretty upset because I live in NC and Amendment one passed last night. It's likely to affect a bunch of my friends gay and straight. I've just been fretting over it all night, and not able to relax. I'm hoping that being extra sleepy will help me sleep better tonight.

Dream One: I'm at my mom's house in the driveway. My Aunt and Uncle are getting out of their van, and a cousin of my mom's (making him my second cousin I guess?) gets out of a white car. I give my aunt and uncle hugs, then the cousin hands me a little package... it's a my little pony blind bag! He tells me that he heard I liked Ponies, and he knows some of the people who design them. Then he tells me that he was the inspiration for one of the new ponies in the upcoming season (has season three even been announced yet?!) and they made a toy of that pony, so he got a few freebies and thought I might like to have one. I was pretty excited about that. I know someone who was ponyfied! Better still, I'm related to someone who was ponyfied! Woohoo! We all go inside. My mom and her cousin sit on a couch, and my aunt and uncle on another couch facing them. I sit to the side in a chair, but I'm good with it. I'm not a very social person and tend to sit back and just watch people have fun, lol. I notice my mom's hair looks really pretty because she's just gotten out of the shower and he hasn't put it in her signature ponytail yet. Her naturally curly hair is looking very beach wavy, and try to sneak a few pictures of her with my cell phone. She always wants pictures that make her look pretty on her facebook page, but never thinks any of the pretty pictures of her are pretty. I know she'll thank me later when everyone tells her how pretty they are, but if she sees the pictures before I post them she'll never let me post them! Then she asks me what I'm doing... I'm busted. I tell her I'm just messing around with my phone to ignore me, but she knows me better than to listen, lol. She gets up and grabs a hair bow and puts her hair up. I make a pouty face, and tell her she spoiled my fun, and laughs and says, "I know! I meant to you rotten child!" Then for some reason my mom's cousin gets off the couch and says he'll bring the fun back to the party and starts stripping! My mom's mouth gets huge and she goes, "OH MY GOD!" and I start laughing and looking away, then curiosity gets the better of me, and I turn back around to see what he's doing. He starts trying to lap dance on my uncle and my aunt jumps up and runs out of the room. I'm almost dying laughing, then I remember the pony, and decide I need to get it out and see if it has his tattoos (I don't think this cousin in real life would have any tattoos or EVER do anything like this. He's a cool guy, but he's almost as old as my mom and has always seemed like the good and responsible kind... not the wild stripping kind, lol) I pull out the pony, and look at it's cutie mark and see that it's an anchor w/ a life preserver on it and it's name is "Simon Sailor" The cousins name is not Simon, lol. I grab my phone and start to take a picture of him lap dancing on my uncle with the pony in my hand trying to get a side by side shot, but I wake up first! Too bad, I'd have loved to see my bff's reaction in dream when I texted her that picture.

Dream Two (False Awakening): I tried to WILD, and it didn't go well, so I rolled over to go to sleep. I notice it's light, and I can hear some noise outside the bedroom. I open my eyes, and notice it's broad daylight! I freak out for a minute, I slept so hard I didn't even dream! Crazy! The I realize the noises I'm hearing are the neighbors kid that I baby sit after school on some days. He's yelling and knocking on the door asking if I'm home or if I forgot I was supposed to watch him. I look up, my kids are both still sleeping, so I jump up and put on my robe and run to the door. I let the kid in and tell him I need to go change and the kids are still asleep, so just be quiet and watch tv or play video games or something. I run back to the bedroom to change, but before I can get there I wake up for real and the sun is just starting to come up.

Dream Three: I'm in a house with two heavy set chics who are really nice like we're great friends. I leave though, saying I have something to take care of. I see a black man leading this really pretty dark brown haired girl into an ally. I notice the girl has a dreamy not all there look on her face. I chase after them. I tell the man to leave her alone, and he hisses at me that this is his meal and I need to find my own. Oh, I remember then, I'm a vampire. I tell him I only eat the ones who want to die, not the vibrant ones who are full of life and want to live it to it's fullest. I try to make myself look as big as possible, taking a fighting stance, and hissing, showing vampire fangs. I ask him if he knows who I am, and he claims not to care who I am, he just wants to eat this pretty girl. I tell him my name, and he pales, then starts stumbling back. Then he flat out runs away. The spell the girl is under breaks, and she falls to her knees scared, but I just shake my head and start walking away. The girl, crying, thanks me shakily, and I tell her "your welcome, watch who you let your guard down around." Then I walk to where I was supposed to find my next meal. Apparently I have a group of other vamps I hang with who find people that are ready to die to feed from. I show up, and the leader is a guy with long black hair and a smooth face. He seems very happy to see me, and jokes that he thought I was going to miss our dinner date. I tell him it's not a date, it's just dinner. There are way too many others here to call it a date. But I'm smiling and laughing too. But then I notice that our group of probably 8 people to eat, is all dressed in black but one. She's wearing a bright red sweater. In the dream I know this means she's still vibrant and full of life, red is a color that screams look at me! if she was depressed and wanted to die I expect her to be wearing black, a color that would match how bland and unnecessary she feels. I grab her arm, and start dragging her out. The vamp guy yells at me, "Hey, where you going with our meal? Taking dinner alone tonight babe?" I snap back at him, "Not this one, she doesn't want to die!" Then he follows me, dragging another woman, this one in black. He throws the other out the door with me and the first and says, "This one came with her, take 'em both." I nod and as soon as he closes the door and we're alone I ask the girls, "You don't really want to die, your both vibrant and full of life, what the hell are you doing here?" Then the girl in the red sweater starts crying. She tells me they do want to die! Then she goes on telling me this story of how their state banned gay marriage and now they can't spend the rest of their lives together. They'd made a pact, they would rather die together than be forced to spend the rest of their lives never being able to share their love. I roll my eyes, and ask them why they don't just move to another state that DOES allow gay marriage. They try to tell me they don't have the money, and I just tell them I will help them find a place as long as they don't mind me being there as well because I can only afford to keep up one home at a time. Then I ask them where they want to live. They pick a place, can't remember where now, and we move. And then they are the two girls that I'm in the house with in the beginning of the dream, and I realize that I had just had a memory or flashback of how we met. As soon as that clicked, I woke up as I came to the realization I was dreaming. The end of this dream was definitely influenced by my waking life. Gay marriage is already banned in my state, but there's an election going on TODAY for an amendment that will make marriage the only legally recognized domestic union in my state. It's a big deal around here, because of being in the bible belt and all, but I know so many people it would affect (because it won't only affect gays, but also unmarried straight couples who are considered a domestic union.) and this had been a BIG stress for me. Of course the Christians are all talking about how it'll prevent gay marriage, and that's all the churches want to see. Sooo, I guess the dream is kind of my fear that if this amendment passes it will leave many of my friends depressed, and even suicidal.

Dream Four: The game starts out I'm playing a video game. I identify the game in the dream as Call of Duty, but there are giant robots for enemies, so it must be the new COD Black Ops game my son's so excited about. In the dream, I'm trying to advance through this mountain pass, between these giant pillars, but there's a GIANT robot, two or three times as tall as my house, that's standing in the pass and you have to defeat it. I fail, and my husband says it's his turn. I don't see anything but the screen, but I just know I have handed him the controller. He starts trying the same thing I did, and he almost dies, but runs backwards to escape. I find myself thinking that the giant robot reminds me of Dreamprofessor's task of the month dream, yet fail to realize that THIS is a dream as well. -_- Then I watch as my husband leads the character back to a lake where the game had started us at. He swims in the lake to the other side, and there's a freaking light there! He turns the light on, and part of the lake lights up. Then he turns on lights all around the lake, and a lady is visible with diving gear. She tosses the diving gear to the game character, and tells us that there's something being dropped into the lake on the other side and transported under water, and they think it's the enemy smuggling weapons. We're going to infiltrate and find out what they're hiding. Then the character starts to climb out of the lake bed, and runs for a bit until we come to another lake. This lake has lots of people in it, like families swimming at a community pool. There are also stands with food and a DJ booth playing music. I change views to being the character, and I'm no longer a guy, but definitely myself. The diver chic is with me, and I tell her I don't have a clue how this gear works, so she's going to have to show me, and she says not to worry about it. She'll do her job and get me under water, I just have to do my job and find out whats being smuggled. I nod, and then we slip into the water. WE start drifting to the far side of the lake where there is no one swimming. The lake is shaped kind of like an 8 or a big pool. There's the "shallow" end where everyone was swimming, then there was a "deep" end where no one was swimming. the "deep" end was covered with this big white tent, and I just knew the hole in the top was where the weapons would be dropped. I try to dive underwater before having the gear turned out just to get a quick look, but the diver gear caused me to float upwards REALLY fast, even popped me up out of the water for a moment, like a ball someone tried to force underwater. The diver chic shakes her head at me and hisses, "Smooth! Really smooth! Don't you know the suit is designed to float when it's not on so you don't drown if it malfunctions under water?!" Of course I don't! She tells me to follow her, and swims to the very far edge wall of the lake (the deep end is set into a mountain) and starts messing with my suit, presumably to make it work, but before she can finish, the DJ guy starts talking. He says that it's time for the big show! People start scrambling out of the water, but a couple of other people have wandered tot he deep end like us.

Spoiler for inappropriate violence and nudity:

The DJ says, "Oh, I see we have some tourists who want a front row seat!" then he starts laughing sinisterly, "Enjoy the show, it'll be the greatest trip of your lives!" Then the hole in the top of the while dome cover is blacked out, and I can see the bottom of a helicopter or something opening up. A dark green case the size of an suv falls out first, and hit the water causing massive waves to push us against the wall. I can't breath for a minute and am fighting my way back to the surface. I get above water just in time to see these giant white cylinders fall from the hole. I wonder for a moment what they are, they just look like chalk, but then the water starts fizzing and the smell of chlorine is too strong to mistake it. My eyes are burning, my lungs are burning, and my skin is burning. I'm gasping for air, but every breath feels like fire. I'm grasping the wall of the cave trying to climb out, but also trying to help the diver girl get a good hold on the rock and out as well. The DJ starts laughing again, this time he says, "I told you it's be the show of your lives! ha ha ha! Now, I give you the cooling rain!" and water starts poring from the dome. Cold, clean, chlorine free water. The water below us swirls and goes down a drain like a giant toilet or something, and the cool water falling from the ceiling is washing away the burn. I start stripping off my swimming suit because it's holding chlorine in it as well. I'm completely naked against the wall, practically moaning in relief as the water makes me feel like I'm alive again and not about to die. The the DJ starts laughing again,"Burn baby, BURN!" and the cold water changes to scalding hot water. I scream and grip the wall trying to leave as little skin exposed to the rain as possible, then he laughs again and says, "lets cool it down now!" and the water turns cold again, soothing the burns. The he says, "Lets bring this show to a wrap. I hope your ready to die in my freezing depths of ice water! Oh, but, if you want to live, there's a way. Ladies, you can save yourselves and those around you, all you have to do is take off your tops!" Maniacal laughter now. I'm already butt naked, so there's nothing I can do, but I watch as the diver chic and the ladies with the other "tourists" as he'd called us stripped their tops off and cried out begging for our lives. Then a man smoking a cigar in a tan suit with hair and a beard like Ashton Kutcher (but a totally different facial shape) steps into the pool through a secret underground door in the wall (the lake is empty still because the water from the ceiling wasn't enough to fill it back up yet) He waves the cigar at the DJ booth, then starts fussing at the DJ that there are families with children here, and to save his sick games for after closing. Then he calls out to all of us, "tourists, please, clean yourselves off and thank your gods that you were saved. Remember next time, not to stick your nose where it doesn't belong!" He walks over to the side and starts talking to some guard that had stepped out the door with him. The diver chic I'm with starts crying, and I tell her to go ahead, I'd stay and investigate, I don't need her anymore because my suit was lost when I took it off. She slips down the rock wall and runs for a door where there's supposedly a bathroom. I take my time getting down because I have no clothes to protect me from scraping the rocks, and I'm trying to figure out what my next move is going to be as far as the smuggling is concerned. I make it to the bottom of the lake, and I'm surprised it's smooth tile, not muddy rock like I had expected. It makes sense to me though that they'd have done that they might have built a false bottom of the lake to be able to drain it and stuff from the natural bottom. I'm getting really cold really fast though, and the floor is cold too. I see a little rock sticking out from the floor, and I rush over there hoping it'll be warmer than the floor because of the hot water. Somehow, it still is warm, so I climb up on top of it (it's only 3 feet tall or so) then sit and pull my legs up to my body so I'm curled up and trying to hold in my body heat. I tuck my head in between my knees. Then the man with the cigar yells in my direction, "Hey you! I told you all to go wash up and get out of here!" I look up and try to put on my most innocent face, "I'm so sorry, it's just, I'm so cold, and this rock is so warm..." The guy looks shocked when he sees my face then says, "Shirley? Shirley Singer? Is that you?!" I immediately recognize this as my code name and remember having met this man in a fancy bar and flirting with him trying to collect information from him before. Not sure if he knows i'm a spy or not, I just nod weakly hoping that I look innocent enough. He rushes over to me, then seems to realize I'm naked, "Oh my god, Shirl, why are you here? Why are you naked?!" I tell him, "I was hot and wanted to go swimming at this community pool, and when I saw the deep end I couldn't resist the chance to swim so freely with so much room all to myself. But then that man," and I point to the dj, "Started laughing so cruelly, and then chlorine fell from the sky and it burned, it hurt so badly!" I start crying, "Then he turned on the cold water and it all rinsed away and I was so happy that I was rescued, but then he made the water so hot and burned us, then he he told us he was going to kill us if we didn't strip!" and I'm flat out bawling by this point, and he takes me into his arms and starts rocking back and forth telling me, "Shh, it's ok now, your safe, I won't let any of my men hurt you I swear it." I realize then he has no idea that I'm a spy and my ploy is working. Then he tells me to stay right here, He'll be right back, and I nod, then say in a small voice, "There was a girl on the rocks with me, can I make sure she's ok?" He tells me yes, to do what I like, just o be back in a moment when he returns. I nod, and scurry off the rock to the bathroom where I ind the diver chic. She's crying, so I hug her, then I push her back at arms length and tell her sternly, "It's ok, your alive, and you need to get out of here now so you can stay live, do you hear me? Don't cry, run. Go, now!" She nods, trying to put on a brave face, then takes off running out the door. I walk back slowly to the rock, and realize that wet, I can feel my legs sliding against each other, and it's a very sensual feeling. I enjoy the climb on the rocks, and feeling my wet skin sliding against it's self, and decide to take a new approach with the man. Rather than be the innocent hurt girl, I'll try seducing the information I need out of him. When he returns, he has a bottle of milk and a robe, as well as a bottle of chocolate syrup, no doubt so I can cover up and drink chocolate milk to sooth myself. I have better ideas for the chocolate. I wake up a couple times while he's cleaning the chocolate off from me, but am consciously aware enough of waking up that I don't move and fall right back asleep so it's almost like I never left the dream, but before the main event starts, my kids wake me up and I have no choice but to wake up. Damn, lol.

Dream One: I'm walking through my dads old neighborhood. I can hear rapping behind me, but no music with it. I turn around to see a girl and boy walking behind me, rapping and tapping out a beat with their feet on the street. I really am not a rap music fan, but there are some songs I like. This song, I'd never heard before, but I remember in the dream thinking it was really good, especially considering it was being sung by little kids! I end up at a house picking up a little girl from a baby sitters. Maybe it was my daughter, but she was grown up to be around 6 or 7. I woke up as soon as I saw her and knew I was supposed to be taking her home.

Dream Two: I'm at a mall, walking into a victoria secret with my husband. I take a quick look around, and instantly know I don't want anything from here. Not only is everything either white or green and totally not my style, but I just don't feel like depressing myself trying on lingerie that's not going to fit. There's a middle aged man behind the desk and he tells me I should look around because everything is on sale today and I will probably find a really good deal! I give in and think I'll probably find SOMETHING I'll like. I start looking around, and stumble across rain coats. My first thought was back to the conversation I'd had a few days ago about how when I was a kid they made coats for rain, and I never see rain coats in stores anymore. I see one of the raincoats is grey with black and white skull and crossbones patterns. I LOVE it, and my mom shows up and tells me to try it on. I decide to try on a medium because I know a small probably won't button. I can't button it on top. I start getting depressed again. I do not want to try a large because I know it's going to sag and hang around the arms and the bottom will probably just drop straight off from the breast making me look fat instead of dipping back in and being somewhat form fitting. My mom suggests that I could buy the medium and just not button it, or button it around the belly and leave the top open, saying it would be sexier that way anyways. I think about it for a second, then go ahead and decide to buy it. I go to check out, and the line is taking forever! When I finally go to check out, the guy tells me how much it's going to be, and I hand him my debit card. He then returns it and says their card machine has been broken for a week now and he can only accept cash. I'm mad at this point, because he could have told me that BEFORE when he told me that everything was on sale. I'm mad because I feel like I just went through all that body image trouble for nothing, I'm mad because I really wanted that rain coat, and I'm mad because it's embarrassing to be told you can't pay for something. I tell him he should have told me before, and he just shurgs his shoulders, so I say "Fuck you!" and throw the raincoat at him and storm out of the store. I'm ready to leave the mall completely, but my mom wants to look around a bit more. So I walk around with her a minute, then decide to walk by myself, for some reason I feel like being around her is only going to make things worse (a really good chance to get lucid, missed.) I pass by a display showing kids beach towels, and I notice there are hooded ones with Nintendo characters and Disney faeries on them. Those hooded towels are the kind of towels my kids like to use when they get out of the bathtub, and my daughters Tinkerbell towel was bleached out, so I think I'm going to find this store and buy a couple for them. The display says Fantastic Towels! on it, so I look for a store called Fantastic Towels, instead I find one called Fantastic Hair and Things. I wonder if that's it, and walk in to ask the clerk. It is, and she shows me the towels, but she's not sure which ones are hooded and which ones are regular beach towels, so we have to unfold them to check. I find the faeries one, and then I find the Nintendo one, and then I see one with a pink horses head on it. I Think the horse one might me a pony towel, and my daughter loves ponies too (so do I, but I was thinking of her at the time, I swear, lol) but when I unfold it, it's a sea horse, and it's head doesn't look anything like a horse anymore. The towel is black and says sea dragon on it in cyan blue with the powder pink sea horse on it. I think about getting it for my daughter anyways, but decide not to. I fold it back up and realize my mom is in the store behind me! I show her the towels I found, and tell her why I want to buy them. She says it's a good idea. I ask the clerk if they accept cards since Victoria's Secret didn't, and she said sure, no problem! But the towels aren't ringing up, and she's not sure why. I wake up. This is one of those rare dreams where I can point out where most of this came from. I had just had a conversation about raincoats with my husband and son yesterday when it looked like it was going to rain, but it was way too windy for an umbrella. As for why it was at Victoria's Secret and I was uncomfortable the whole dream, I had just had a conversation with my mom about the assets I had gained when I was preggo with my kids, and how I'd hoped they'd go away if I lost the 15 pounds of baby weight I put on when I was preggo with the kids. The hooded towels I was thinking about last night as well, and had told my husband we needed to buy new ones. Too bad all dreams aren't so easy to decode, ha ha.

Dream Three (fragment): I'm working at a grocery store and I am supposed to be taking food that is about to expire and is past it's sell date to the local food bank because we can't sell it anymore or something. Later on someone asks me if I took it there, or if I just took it home for myself, because apparently I could have done either. I took it to the food bank though, and they seemed kind of mad because apparently they wanted the food but it wasn't their day to take it. They must have been hoping I'd take it home and they could just go get it from my house or something.

Dream Four: I'm in a small boat with my husband and an Asian lady. The coat is TINY, like canoe size, and we're on a lake probably a hundred feet wide. It's the middle of the night, but the moon is full casting a lot of eerie light. Around the lake are these really, REALLY big creepy trees. There are also lots of these huge trees sticking out of the water as though they'd fallen over and were now growing out of the lake. There's some abandoned farming equipment here and there (big stuff, like tractors and combines and stuff), even an abandoned tank! They're all rusted, and look like they've been in the lake for years. I'm in total awe of how creepy and junky the whole place is, almost apocalyptic, but in the dream I knew the world hadn't ended or anything, the people where ever I was just didn't care about taking care of the environment. The boat was moving really fast through the water, as if it had a motor or something on it, but I couldn't see any motor and I was in the back. I held on tightly afraid it'd tip over. The lake was calm though, so the only waves were the wake from out boat. We were steering by leaning side to side, and a couple times we'd accidentally bump into trees, but we were able to grab the trees to steady the boat, it wasn't big enough to be too heavy to pick up ourselves. Looking over the edge, I saw fish swimming below, and they were gigantic. It was really scary when dolphin sized fish would swim under the boat! I was worried they've capsize it, and who knows if any of them were meat eating fish. We stopped at one point at a house, and went inside because it was someone the Asian lady knew. I remember seeing prints in frames on the wall, and thinking I have some by the same artist ( Princess of the Night : 8th Day Anime, ...and on the 8th day, there was anime <--- one of the prints I have, I don't have time to look for the ones in the dream, if he even makes ones like that for real, lol ) My husband also pointed out some of the DVDs on the shelf. There were a lot called, "The Promise of the Fallen" and I remember the title hitting a nerve, but not why it seemed to make me sad. I looked it up to see if it was a book or movie I'd read, and I didn't find it. (after posting, I remembered this dream, and now wonder if it's related? 6-1-11, Important dreams from the past: We are the star called - Dream Journals - Lucid Dreaming - Dream Views ) We also saw some dresses, like toddler sized dresses, hanging up and I thought they were oddly fancy and nice for the depressing and murky feel of the rest of the dream. When we got back on the water, we crashed into some trees again, and fell out of the boat onto the land. The lady was getting scared being on land, freaking out about the wild animals, and I kept telling her we needed to get back in the boat then, but she just kept clinging to the tree saying, "I'm scared, I'm too scared! I can't move!" Then I woke up. The dream probably wasn't very long, but I woke up so creeped out by how eerie the whole thing was. I went back to sleep after that, but couldn't remember anymore dreams.

Edited to add dreams from my nap. THey weren't very long so they don't really deserve their own entry.

Dream One: We were trying to figure out how to put a manufactured home on this property along with the house and get around the all new houses need 2 acres law that passed a few years back. We thought we'd figured it out, but then I woke up and realized that the lot and house in the dream didn't look anything like this lot and house. and that we only have 1.9 acres, not 2.9, so the idea to break the land in half and put the new house on the 2.0 lot acres and only give the already built house the .9 acre lots wouldn't work either.

Dream Two: I was hanging out with my bi friend and her boyfriend, who was someone totally different in dream than in real life. It almost evolved into a threesome, but I woke up while making out with my friend :/

Dream One: I'm in a mansion chasing after my kids. I'm trying to keep them in one room, because they're making such a mess. I feel like the owner won't mind too much as long as I clean it up, the we're on really good terms, maybe like great friends or something. I look out over a balcony and see Johnny Depp! I'm all flabbergasted at first and totally in shell shock, I <3 Johnny Depp, lol. I'm sitting against the balcony watching my kids, but hoping to hear some bits of conversation as to what's going on in the living room below. It turns out Johnny Depp is sad, his girl friend has left him or something, and the owner of the house sends him to a room upstairs to grieve. I'm seriously debating following so I can say and say I actually met him (plus get in a little more looking at his hotness, lol) but then I decide I won't, it'll be way creepy and stalkerish on my part. I hope I'll get lucky and my friend will introduce us. The kids throw some play money in the air, and I run around playing fifty two card trying to clean all the monopoly money up. While I'm cleaning, the owner of the house walks in with Johnny Depp. He's in his purple outfit from Willy Wonka, and I'm finding my words catch in my throat, ha ha. She introduces us, tell shim I'm a fan, and then all I can do is try to apologize for the mess my kids are making. He tells me children make messes, that's what they do. I'm surprised by how high pitched his voice is, and think that's almost a turn off... if it had been anyone but Johnny Depp it would have been, lol. Then the balcony rail I'm sitting against breaks, and he catches me before I fall. I'm too busy apologizing to the owner of the house, and she tells me it isn't my fault, the house is old and she's sorry I almost died in front of my children! I'm feeling a bit shakey and Johnny Depp helps me stand up, but then I wake up.

Dream Two: I'm on a space ship. It's got floors and walls like a dim computer screen. The images across the walls and floors are constantly moving and blinking, it's a beehive type pattern broken in places. Light blue on a slightly darker blue grey. It's not as distracting as it sounds because it's so dim. The pattern reminds me of the animus from Assassins creed now that I think about it. I hear orders over a loud speaker to prepare for planetary excavation or something. I know this means I'm getting off the ship to check out the world we're hoovering over. I walk into the teleporting room, and an alarm goes off that someone is contaminated by a foreign body. It turns out to be me, I've gotten some sort of bug like parasite (that looked like the thing in the First Matrix movie) from my last planetary exploration and it's finally hatched and grown in my body. A guy uses some something that looks like a taser to pull it out of me, but it doesn't hurt me at all. We're about to teleport again, and then an alarm goes off saying the cabin pressure is dropping in the porter room. A girl nearby find a hole in the screen, and pulls at it, it in fact is a giant crack about three feet long that leads into outer space and is sucking out our air slowly. We all lean against it in hopes of sealing it back shut. I wake up.

Dream Three: My kids get a basket ball goal and basket ball. We're at my aunts house, and trying to open it. It must be a birthday present or something. But the goal is the kind you have to mount to your own pole or wall, so we look for a place to mount it. Can't find one, and the kids start crying, so we go inside to find something else fun to do. Suddenly it's the house I spent the last half of my childhood in. I take the kids to my brothers room, and we start playing video games. A blond guy walks in, and introduces himself as a guy I knew in my preschool years and had a huge crush on growing up in Elementary school. I'll call him B. So B asks me how I've been, and tells me my kids are cute and stuff. I thank him and ask what he's up to these days. He says he's just been working. (I really haven't seen this guy since elementary school, I have no CLUE what hes doing these days or even what he looks like) He asks if he can sit down with us, the kids and I are in the floor, and I say sure. He sits down, but when he puts his hands on the carpet he's kinda freaked out and it's understandable, it's my brothers room, that place is gross! He says he wants to talk to me about something important, but he can't talk to me about it face to face so I need to friend him on facebook. I tell him ok, and ask if he'll go to my room with me to find his profile and make sure I friend the right person. He agrees, and then we go to my room leaving the kids in my brothers room. I sit down on the floor with a laptop, and tell him to have a seat. He declines saing he felt the carpet in the other room and he'd rather not. I laugh and tell him this is my room, I promise it's sooo much cleaner than my brothers! There may be some of the kids clothes on the floor from this morning, but it's only one days clutter built up, not a years. He sits, and runs his hands in the carpet, and tells me it's MUCH nicer, and laughs. I hand him the computer and tell him to find himself, I'll straighten up the clothes in the floor. Then he starts telling me his mom's sick, and I tell him I'm sorry to hear that and I hope she gets well soon! Then how he hates movies, but wishes we'd hang out and maybe go to one sometime. The whole feeling was like we were best friends, and we never were. Then he grabs me and pulls me close to hug me, and tells me "thank you for hearing me out." An alarm goes off, and I know it's time for me to leave, I have somewhere important to be, and apparently so does he. I start to get in my car, but I don't have a coat. He offers me his, and I decline saying mine was just here! I find it, it's fallen down to the floor of the car instead of being on the seat. I get in the car and start to pull out but his car is blocking me. I'm a bit frustrated, but find it cute at the same time. I see a horse saddled up nearby, and decide to go on horseback after all. I get on the horse, and walk it to the end of the road. There's a long procession of faeries on the road, riding horses to a wedding. I walk my horse out to join the faerie king and faerie queen. They have a small daughter around my sons age. I'm talking to them, and they are telling there's a problem with the princesses wedding crown. She doesn't want to marry, and she's using the crown being not what she wanted as an excuse. I volunteer to go get the right crown, and they thank me for being a great service in their kingdom. I gallop down the road to my left, and find a shop where I buy a tiara with clear and black rhinestones. I put it in my saddle bag and start back towards the procession and the wedding. I'm running pretty behind though, and I see a couple of teenage boys tearing up paper and throwing it on the ground. I stop to scold them, and they tell me they heard there were faeries living in the area and they couldn't be seen by mortal eyes. I laugh and tell them they're right, so stop littering, they'll make the faeries angry. They asked me if having faeries around was dangerous, what if the faeries enemies attacked and hurt mortals? I laugh and tell them not to worry, the faeries have a very strong battalion (I'm not even sure I used that word right in the dream, lmao) and that I was one of their most powerful soldiers. I tell them that there's no way I'd let anything hurt the people around here because my friends all live here, then I tell them I'm not just boosting, I have the the power to back it up. More than any of faerie or mortal in the world. Geeze, my dream self is proud :/Then I tell them I am late, to finish cleaning up their mess and not to do it again or I'd hunt them down, with a wink to ensure them I wouldn't hurt them, but make them wish they hadn't made a mess all the same! I gallop at full speed, following a set of rainbows to the top of a mountain where the bridal party is set up in a tent. I hand the faerie queen the crown, she tells me the bride is upset that the groom doesn't know her mask is from Zoro, and I explain the groom doesn't watch movies like the princess does. I briefly wonder if the reason that B wanted to talk to me so much earlier was that he didn't want to have to marry the princess b/c this is an arranged marriage for peace. Then I wake up.

I read a book yesterday called A Touch Mortal, and while it wasn't a particularly great book, the dark atmosphere gave me some pretty cool dreams I just wish I was able to remember them better. First one's in a spoiler tag because I realize it probably gets a bit graphic in the blood and guts department.

Spoiler for Dream One:

Dream One: the dream was set inside a house with a bunch of people. Apparently something had happened and there was no power and no food. I think there might have been a flood as well, but I can't be 100% sure about that. I was responsible for protecting the people of the house and keeping things together. I instructed a tall guy with long dark hair to gather a group of people and take them out to search the houses around us for food. I'm not sure what killed off most of the population (maybe vampires?), but in the dream it was understood that just about everyone had died and no one was in any of the other houses in town. But, it was also understood that we needed to keep a low profile because something was after us, that's why were were grouped together. Safety in numbers. The group leaves to find food, and i check out store in the pantry. I notice we have plenty of food already, but I wonder what's going to happen in the future when all the food that can be scavenged is either gone or expired and there are no factories to make new food. We'd have to grow our own, and I had no idea how much land we'd need to grow enough food to feed us all, and how to preserve it to last year long. While I'm wondering about this, a kind comes running in and says the scavengers were attacked. I rush outside, and there are vampires attacking the group outside. There are probably ten or fifteen vampires, and they all look about the same. They have grey skin that sticks to their bones and sags like skinny elderly people, their hair is dark brown, and shoulder length. there's no telling if they're male or female, they could have passed for both. They have this wicked long teeth that make me wonder how they can even close their mouths. They aren't your pretty Ann Rice or Twilight vampires, there's no mistaking these things for humans the way they're faces are... I'd say they were a combination of Buffy the Vampire Slayer vamps and the Chiropteran from Blood +. The scavengers fall to the ground, blood pooling all around them. Two of the vampires grab each of my arms and rip into my wrists. I feel the skin ripped from them, and watch as blood sprays out like in a Kill Bill movie. I stare at my left arm in horror as I feel light headed and sink to my knees. Then I realize something. The whole world is dead, but I'm still alive. We're still alive... I should be dead by now with all the blood I've lost, but I'm not. Then I think there's got to be a reason why I can't die, and then I just know I'm immortal, I can't die or I would have by now. (duh, I'm dreaming! But I totally missed this chance to be lucid) I fight the lightheadedness and grab the nearest stick I can find and stand up. I yell out to the other scavengers that if they're still alive, then it must be because we can not die. I tell them that I know it hurts, but stand up and fight with me to protect those inside. I lunge at a vampire with the stick and drive it through his chest with inhuman strength. The stick and my hand go all the way through, and then I pull them back out to catch a vampire that's coming up from behind me. The stick breaks in half on the second impact. I use my other hand to grab the half of the stick that broke off inside the second vamp and pull it out. Just then a third one jumps me, and knocks me down. I don't fight it, I let it tear into my throat as I reach my arms around behind it and stab it with both sticks from behind. It goes limp on top of me, and I toss it off. I reach up and feel my neck in shreds, and marvel at how it doesn't hurt and I and still alive, then I look around and see my five scavengers standing up bloody, but healing quickly enough now that the fight is over that I can see the wounds closing up. Pretty cool! We take the food inside, and start to sort through it and put it away, then someone mentions needing a shower. I wonder how we're going to manage that with no power, but then I come up with a crazy idea. I tell them they will have to go back out and get as many gallons of water as they can from the nearest grocery store. I also tell them to get some funnels. I plan to make a shower by poking holes in the bottom of a plastic bottle hanging in a tree, and pouring water into it, letting the water drip down like a shower. I also think that we can set the extra gallons of water outside when it rains with the funnels in them to catch the rain and give us a good reserve. I'm really proud of this idea and my resourcefulness in the dream, and go outside to marvel at how much easier the situation seems now, and how much less scary the world looks with a plan. I see a ladder to my left, and look up. There's a gnome on the roof. wearing a handy man uniform. He tells me that our roof needs to be repaired because it has some sort of moss growing on it. I think, "great, more problems!" and then I wake up, lol.

That dream was partially influenced by the book, as there are people in the book called "Siders" who are immortal... but no vamps or end of the world

Dream Two (Fragment): There's a man who's an evil angel. He's trying to convince a bunch of people that he's a good guy and they should follow him and worship him. I know he's wrong, and I know he's the evil one, because I know a good angel in the dream. In the dream I point out that he's evil, and he tells me to prove it, so I tell some story about how when he came to earth he needed a favor, and the cost of having that favor granted was being split into two halves. Then I point out how he and the good angel look exactly alike, because they are the same angel, split into his good half and his bad half. At this revelation, they combine, and instead of having a good angel and a bad angel, there is now an angel who knows right from wrong, but has the emotion to do wrong to protect those he loves. I hug the angel, happy he's back to normal, then wake up. The good angel/bad angel thing definitely came from the book I had read, lol

Dream Three (Fragment):I'm going to Animazement with my best friend. She comes to my house, and rushes me out. Suddenly we're in the car and she's asking me if we're staying in a hotel or a house. I tell her we're staying in a hotel with two rooms, and then we're there! We put our things in our room, and then decide to go to the rave (which is what they call their dance to make it sound cooler, LOL) but I realize that I have forgotten to pack clothes to wear! I've only got extra underwear and two extra shirts.

Dream One: The dream starts out that I get a book in the mail. The book is a paper back book, but a translation of some sort of ancient Egyptian spell book. I'm very excited because I think it will have all sorts of cool spells to try, as well as recipes for making my own bath and ritual oils and such. My husband is outside when I get the book, and he's chatting with the oldest neighborhood kid. For some reason my husband decides he wants to go explore the attic, so we all three go inside and start walking up a spiral staircase into the attic. (In waking life, our attic doesn't even have a ladder, you have to climb in through the closet!) While we're up there I'm talking about the book I have, and my husband is doing the usual pretending to be interested when he isn't actually paying any attention at all :/ But then either he or the neighbor spots a mummified body in the attic! My husband says it's really old, so we need to take the hands in to the police for identification. He searches for a bag, and when he finds a brown paper bag he puts it over the hands of the mummy and breaks the hands off into the bag! It's all dusty and it stinks really bad. I'm ready to get out of there, all creeped out by this body, so we start down the stairs, but the boys go in front of me. I start joking that the mummy scared the piss out of me, and asked my husband if he'd give me his underwear if I really had had the piss scared out of me. He says no way, I'd have to walk around wet! So I say, "Oh come on, someone would have to man up and give me his underwear if I had the piss scared out of me! Your my husband, you should be more than willing to take one for the team and go commando so I don't have to walk around covered in pee!" He doesn't find this amusing, but the neighbors kid does. Then we are at the bottom of the steps and out of the house. We go to the other neighbors house (b/c he's a police officer) and it's the police station (<3 dream logic, ha ha) His ex wife is behind a desk as the secretary, and she takes the bag and tells us thank you very much like everything is fine. I start leaving, and the kid follows me, but my husband stays behind for who knows what reason. Then I overhear someone say that we found the body in the attic and they'd have to move their laser gun target somewhere else. Then the neighbors kid stops and asks me if I'm scared. I'm thinking this is some sort of undercover scandal by the police, and I totally don't want to piss them off! But then I remember I have my spell book. I hold it up and tell him, No way, I'm not scared, I have the magic I need to keep us safe. Then I wake up.

Dream Two (Fragment): I bought pajamas for the kids from JC Penny with some sort of coupon I had.

Dream Three: I'm trying to teach my mom how to play the Kinect, but we've got it set up outside, at the lake. So in order to be far enough away from the sensor, you have to be in the water, and right next to where the ground makes a HUGE drop from like 3 feet deep water to 9 feet deep water, lol. The kinect game it's self is awesome! For some reason you can be Link from the Legend of Zelda, and go running through Hyrule field by running in place. Or you can chose to exercise, with Link as your personal trainer. And it wasn't toon link or anything either, it was grown up Ocarina of Time Link. I remember thinking in the dream I'd work out all day long if I got to watch grown up Link bend and stretch the whole time! I also thought having the adventure mode was a really awesome idea. I wondered why I don't play this game all the time? Then I woke up!

Dream Four: I'm watching in third person as Serena from Sailor Moon gets a present from her boyfriend, Darien. It's a little tiny circle ornament with her picture in it, but it's the cartoon version of sailor moon, in my dream I knew Serena was Serena, but they weren't cartoons. She asks what it is, and he tells her it's a pendant to remind her that he is always there, always thinking of her. She loves it, but then it's late and she's fighting with her family, and she runs away. She sleeps in a tree, and then goes to the store to buy some food, and her money is stolen right out of her pocket.

Dream Five: Not sure how this happened, but I pretty much had the same dream twice, only this second version was a bit different. Serena's parents are splitting up or something. Her father moves out, and she goes with him, but her mom won't let her take her things out of the house. Her dad ignores her for the most part, and she's really sad and lonely. She's cold, and calls her mom to ask if she can just take one pair of socks to her dads because her feet are freezing. Her mother says no. The next morning, her dad sends her and her sister to the grocery store. They have a buggy full of canned foods, and they can't walk and carry them all, so they decide to push the buggy full of stuff home. There's a steep hill, and Serena's sister refuses to help push the buggy because she's one of those uber girly chics who refuse to do anything that might brake their nails. The sister then takes bitchyness a step farther, and climbs into the buggy claiming she's too tired to walk up the hill! The buggy starts going backwards down the hill and Serena can't stop it and is nearly run over by it before the sister finally hops out! When Serena gets it up the hill, she's crying. Inside her house, Darien shows up and gives her a gift for her birthday... and apparently it's shis birthday too! So she gives him a sweater or something she made herself. The gift he gives her is the ornament and a CD. She sees the ornament and says something like, "I'm sorry, I just don't get what this is?" Darien tells her to chill it's just something they there in the box when he bought the CD. But Serena says she loves it, and it feels like it's important to her and she was meant to have it, she's just not sure why it feels so familiar. The he tells her that he spoke to his guidance councilor about her, and the guidance councilor seems to think she's just waiting on him, so he wants her to know that he loves her, and he's ready when ever she is to run away together and start the rest of their lives.

Dream Six: I'm at best buy to get a new Skylanders toy for my little boy (there's still ONE that we're missing, lol) I go to get my wallet out of my car, and some strange dude with a beard gets in my car. I ask him to get out of my car, and he refuses and starts laughing at me, so I start yelling at him until he finally gets out of my car. Then a heavy set blond guy (think the son from family guy, lol) gets in my car because he thought it was funny that I was yelling at the other dude. I yell at him and threaten to shove my foot up his ass if he doesn't get out of my effing car! He doesn't move, just laughs. So I open the trunk of the car, and I get out a stroller, and proceed to start hitting him with it. He just keeps laughing at me, he's not in any pain what so ever. I keep hitting him and he keeps laughing, I get so frustrated. Then I pull the stroller WAY back and hit him as hard as I can. That time it hurts, and he's all, "All right all right, chill woman, I'm getting out!" He gets out of my car and I fling the stroller at him and hit him in the back as he walks off. I tell him to think twice before he laughs at me again! Then I grab my money, and close the car and go into the store. Inside, there's a HUGE line waiting to get this toy. I hope in line, and spend a lot of time just standing there. I see a book nearby with a grey and brown pony on it looking at a muffin. I think it's a book about Derpy at first, and I get all excited, "Is that a new Pony book?!" but then I open it up, and I realize that what looks like ponies on the front cover is really a couple of bunnies on the inside. Damn. I close the book and put it back disappointed. I wait in line a bit more before I wake up.

5-2-12

I dreamed I was the main character in The Selection, a book I had just read the day before. In the dream, K was the prince, and he was asking me if I was ready to choose him yet.

I only had one dream because at 4 am my son and I woke up almost simultaneously sick. No more dreams until this morning...

5-3-12

Dream One: I'm at an anime convention. I'm with a very tan girl with pretty long dark hair. She's on the chubby side, but really sweet and quiet. At first it's a nightmare, we're all running around trying to escape these men who are using some sort of flame throwers to set the building on fire, trying to trap everyone inside and burn us to death. I'm freaking out, "how do I get out of here?!" When I suddenly remember, the girl beside me has the power to change anything in this storyline that I want her to. I tell her to make the flames water, and the flame throwers water guns. She nods, and does so, and everyone stops panicking and it's like the flames never happened. Then the girl walks off to the left, and I go to follow her, but the crowd separates us. Just as soon as I make my way out of the crowd, this really skinny chic wearing a white shawl glomps me. She starts telling me she loves me, and trying to kiss me. I'm trying to push her off of me, she's being way to forward, lol. I note that she smells really good, like vanilla, and it makes me hungry. I end up putting my foot under her chin and shoving her off with it, then I scramble to my feet and start trying to run away, but she chases me! I see a play ground ahead, and run to the jungle gym and try to climb to the top of it hoping her heels will prevent her from climbing. She follows me, but my storyline changing friend is there, and I ask her to change the story line so that girl never saw me. She nods, and the glomping girl disappears. Then the story line changing girl jumps down and runs off again. I go to follow her one more time, and go back inside the building. This time I see a toy museum set up at the side, and decide to go inside and look at it. I realize I've already seen this museum, and leave. My notes also say "line" but I can't remember what that was all about.

Dream Two: I'm in the car with my husband, and we have to go up this road that's built on a platform like a roller coaster. I'm worried our car won't make it up because it's steep and spirals. But My husband tells me to just watch, and somehow the car attaches, just like a roller coaster attaches to a chain when it's going up hill! But then I notice the track is loose and broken. I end up making my husband slow down the car while I reach forwards (because now the car has no walls or windshields, it's just a little cart!) and start moving the track pieces around so they touch ad we won't fall off. I see a cart ahead of us fall off the track, and worry that I won't be able to protect us. I manage though, and we reach the top before I wake up.

Dream Three: I'm watching in third person, and a Dragon who looks like Spike from MLP: Friendship is Magic (I have to specify, since there was a spike in the 80's MLP as well, lol) is surrounded by mean looking black dragons with red eyes. The whole setting looks just like a MLP show would, so maybe I'm dreaming of watching it? Anyways, spike is terrified of this bigger badder dragons, but then it turns out they just want to help him. He has some weird orange spots on his back, and they use Mice to scrub off the spots and make him feel better.

Dream Four: I'm on the computer watching a video of scenery flying past, as if I'm driving down the road. Then I realize this video is a live feed, and it's following someone. I somehow notice that the program is set to follow my step dad. I freak out that he's going to think I'm spying for my mom or something since they're technically divorced now, and I try to stop the following, but I can't! So I jump through the computer screen and grab the little car that was doing the following, but by this time It's already in his drive way. I try to show him this really cool program I found on google that'll let me follow anyone I want, and I can't find the program. :/ It's very confusing.

Dream Five: I'm standing on a road with a really heavy lady wearing fancy clothes and an ugly purple hat w/ fake flowers and netting. She's lost her dog, and she can't find him! I think I'll help her find him with the google car, but instead of finding her dog I find my step dad. He's lost and can't remember how to get home. The car is bigger suddenly, and I tell him to get in. I'm trying to help him find home, but he takes the wheel and steers us onto a race track! We somehow manage to win this race, and a hot chic in a tube top and mini skirt brings us our trophy. I remember my earlier dream where I was being chased by a chic, and think to myself I'd rather a chic with curves like this one chase me than that skinny crazy girl from the first dream!

Dream Six: I'm in a mall, and there's a lady covered in glittery clothes showing off her new line of glittery things. I'm putting on fake nails (something I've honestly never done in real life). A blond girl beside me who looks a lot like Reese Whitherspoon is telling me how envious she is of her mom, who is the lady in glitter, because her mom is so amazing and can make anything look good. I tell the girl I'm sure she has her own talent, and she tells me that she wants to do interior design instead of fashion like her mom. I tell her she should showcase her talents by flipping a house. She asks, how, and I tell her all we need is a dusty house! Suddenly we're walking around this house that has chipping stucco walls and it's the middle of the night. The girl is carrying around sparklers, and talking about how she's going to make this place sparkle! Then she flings her arms up all excitedly, and the sparkler falls out of her hand. It hits the ground, and my first thought is, that's going to start a fire! But instead of starting a fire, it causes an explosion under the house and the ground starts shaking and cracking. We run to get away from the cracks, but they open up and we're swallowed by the earth. We land on a bunch of old wooden crates and rugs, dust is everywhere! I know we must be in the basement of that dusty old house, and we just need to find our way out. We crawl through some doors, into a living room. The living room is in surprisingly good shape, and their are candles lit all around providing light. I realize someone lives here after all. It turns out to be the girls mom's house. The woman is amazing with clothes, but her home and decor is horrible. I notice there's a hole in the floor with a rug thrown over it to cover it up. The mom, glitter lady, tells us to have a seat and make ourselves at home. I sit down on the floor by the hole, and then wake up.

Dream Seven: I find myself sitting in the same living room, and I note that there is no hole. Now there are video game cords and controllers strung out from a big flat screen tv. There's a guy sitting next to me with short, spiky black hair. I get the feeling that we're really good friends, nothing more, but I wouldn't mind more. We're goofing off, talking about the games, but only for a moment before he stands up and stretches, then tells me he's beat and wants to go to bed. I agree, and I get up and walk down a hall... suddenly the house is the one I lived in when I was really little. I haven't been there in at least 15 years. My room turns out to be the master bedroom, and his room was the one that had been mine as a kid. I lay down, and dream of sheep jumping a fence, like a typical cartoon dream, lol. I wake up, still dreaming though, back in the dream house. I walk into the kitchen looking for the guy, but find my mom and grandma there instead. They tell me he's sleeping in my son's room. I go back, and see him in the room that had used to belong to me, and he's spread out on a twin sized bed, so much that his arms and legs are hanging off either side. I can't help but giggle, because it's so funny. I close the door and walk into the bathroom, where I see more fake nails... and I feel like I want to put them on because I put them on in a dream and they looked cute, I wonder if these would look cute? I take them to the living room, and start to put them on, but they're HUGE and I'm trying to cut them down with scissors because they're so wide they swallow my whole finger. As I'm clipping and getting frustrated, I hear my grandma say that my friend was hanging out with those hellions outside. I throw down the nails, and ask her what she's talking about, and she tells me that he woke up, and climbed out the window, and now he's outside talking to one of my ex's and some guy she called Al. I look out the window and see the ex, my friend, and this Al guy (who had gorgeous long hair down to his shoulders, and I found myself thinking in the dream he was way more my type than this friend in my dream, but I still liked the friend more, and had a little marvel at how I have never actually dated the kind of guy I find the most attractive, lol) I realize I'm in pajamas, so I go to the basement to find my clothes and change. While I'm down there though, the ex of mine comes inside looking for me. He tells me that my friend told him I was inside, and then he asks why my clothes are in the basement. I tell him I don't really live there, I'm just crashing for now, and all my stuff is in boxes in the basement and out of the way. I know I went back up the stairs to get dressed, excited to go outside and see the guys, but I think woke up then... or else I just can't remember. These dreams were super hard to remember, probably because I've been so sick.

Dream One: I was standing outside the grocery store, in the grass beside the parking lot. There's a stop sigh nearby, and a big hole in front of the stop sign. Not like a vertical hole in the ground, but it goes in at an angle like a tunnel. As soon as I walk up to it, I recognize it as my friend M's house. I call into the hole asking if she's home, and I see her boyfriend's shoes. He call ups she's not home but should be home shortly. I thank him, and then stand back up. My friend M drives by in a car at that moment and waves when she stops at the stop sign. I wake up.

Dream Two: I'm not sure why I can't go back to sleep, so I get up and go into the living room to read a bit. I pick up a book off the floor thinking my husband missed it when he was cleaning last night. It's my daughters barbie book. I start to flip through the pages for some reason, and find myself thinking that's not what this book was about! I wonder if I'm dreaming, but I decide that I can't be dreaming because I could read. The text wasn't changing at all. I put the dream back, and it's daylight outside. I get a call from my mom, and answer it. She's telling me that her friend still wants her and us to move into that big house and rent to own the place. I say ok, instead of sticking to my decision of no. Then I'm in the kitchen, but the kitchen cabinets are the color of the bathroom cabinet. And then mom starts saying the pipes in the big house were cut off, and I actually see the pipes in front of me as if I'm there looking at them. They're moving like that pipes screen saver windows used to have pre-installed. I wake up, and curse for not doing a second RC.

Dream Three: I'm talking to my best friend A about weather and looking at a weather radar. There's some sort of blue and red flashing circle above New England, and the edges of this blue and red area are bright orange. I ask my friend A what's up with the radar above New England? She doesn't know, so I zoom in. Then I see the map as a 3d satellite rendering, like Google earth. There's a big red line and it looks like a lava trail, except it's spinning. I wake up to my daughter screaming about dragons.

Dream Four: I'm in the car with my husband and kids, going home from a small town nearby. We're watching the weather radar, and there's a tornado coming. I tell my husband to go straight home, that the tornado is moving in the opposite direction, so we should be fine if we head home. Then the tornado JUMPS and lands in front of us. We quickly unbuckle the kids, then lay in a ditch with them, but the tornado doesn't hit us. It jumps again. We buckle up quickly and start going back home. The Phone rings, waking me up.

Dream Five: I'm at my high school, and for some reason I have alcohol in my bag? A friend from school that I was always in a love/hate type friendship with wants his alcohol out of the bag, and I realize some of the alcohol isn't mine but his. I give it to him, and wonder if I'm going to get in trouble for having it at school. Then I realize I'm of age, so who's going to have a problem with me having alcohol? There's a storm coming, and the overhead speakers blare that schools canceled and we need to go home. I'm wanting to go to a different building to get my headphones (apparently they were awesome Mario head phones too!) But the buildings are being locked and evacuated. The halls are tightly packed, and there's a stop light in the hall stopping people from blocking the intersections. I'm standing at a stop light, and the power flickers then goes out. I barely step to the side fast enough to avoid being trampled. When the crowd clears, my son is with me. I see my husband, and he says he has to go lock the river cabin before he can go home and I need to go pick up our daughter. I ask him why he has to lock the river cabin, and he says he was there last week. I get so pissed to know he was there last week and left it unlocked for a whole week! then he says it's fine, no one's going to care. I try to explain we had trouble with people crashing at the cabin, but he doesn't listen and blows me off. I'm mad, but I take my son outside to leave anyways, getting my daughter is more important! I hear a message over the loud speaker again, this time saying there was an accident and we've lost one of our students. I feel bad, but I need to get my daughter. I put my son in the car, then I notice someone laying on the ground. I walk around my car to get a better view, and there's a black SUV that has run this person over, and the drive is none other than my husband! The run over person gets up, he's just a kid in high school! He tells me that he's fine, but he's going to go to the doctor anyways and we're going to be hearing from his lawyer. My husband decides he's going to drive my car, and hops in the drivers seat. I notice he's driving crazy! He's saying he's going to end up losing his license now, and I'm like pull over and let me drive! We are arguing, making him swerve more, so I decide to stop and let him concentrate. As soon as we get to my daughter's school (she's not even in school, lol) I ask him to put her in her car seat. When he gets out of the drivers seat to do so, I climb over the center console and into the drivers seat. He can't drive now, ha ha! But then he refuses to get in the car. He wanders off into the storm. I'm worried, but then I tell myself he's an adult and he isn't stupid, he can take care of himself and he'll go inside somewhere because he's terrified of Tornados. I drive off, then park and go inside some church. I am walking in with the kids, and I see there's a wedding going on. the priest says something like, "I now pronounce you gay man and wife" and there's are two beautiful women getting married. I feel like I know them, and I am soooo happy for them that I'm actually crying tears of joy. But then a lady taps me on the shoulder and asks if I'm me, I say yes, and she tells me that my husband has been run over, and he's passed away. I'm in shock and disbelief, and then I start to walk out of the church just leaving my kids in there. The walls are suddenly while tile. There are red tiles that light up and stack on top of one another alternating between 2 and 5 tiles high. Every three white columns, there's a column with red lights, marking a trail or path. I follow the path to a bathroom, where I see my husbands back as he slips into a stall. I yell out to him, thanking whatever gods are out there that let him be alive. He tells me to stop, he's a ghost, and I shouldn't see him. Then I tell him no, he has to be alive, I need him! Then he tells me that's the problem, "I want need him, but it's not because I want him." then I wake up to the phone ringing again.

Well, now it's my turn to have a stomach bug. Thankfully my daughter's sickness only lasted a day, so I'm hoping mine will be gone by tonight as well On the downside, I was up until 3 am sick, then I got to bed, but woke back up around 7 and couldn't go back to sleep yet. On the bright side, the belly ache is sort of helping with getting lucid. I think the pain was waking me up enough to get lucid but not enough to actually wake me up, if that makes sense. I'm typing up my lonely fragment from those three hours, and when my husband gets home in half an hour or so I'm going back to bed. Hopefully I'll have more to add to this entry when I wake up. I'm feeling like I'm on a real roll right now. After going over a month with no lucidity, I've suddenly been lucid to some degree for three nights in a row. I don't want it to ever end! lol

Dream One (Fragment): Through out the whole dream I hover between lucid and non lucid. I can't remember what happened during the non lucid parts because it's my first dream of the night. I can remember realizing, I'm dreaming. I'm lucid! Then I see a puppet version of an old man. It looks like a cross between that ventriloquist dummy on tv and the old men from the Muppet movie I watched last night. He starts talking about neighbors like Mr. Rogers and I feel lucidity slipping. I literally feel like I'm fighting to stay lucid, but I end up drifting off anyways. I get another wave of lucidity as someone offers me his hand. I realize I'm dreaming. I look first at the room, it's a ball room similar to the one in beauty and the beast. It feels very romantic, and I can recall being lucid earlier in the dream so I wonder if I'm with K. I turn to look at the man holding my hand. I see my own blue dress like Cinderella and my hand in his, then I look up to see his face (I'm 5 feet tall, I always have to look up to everyone, lol) But just as I try to look at his face my head feels heavy like I'm falling. I reach up with my empty hand to touch my head as if to catch myself and step forwards to maintain my balance, but the dream goes black and fades away to the sound of the neighbors car alarm going off at 5:30 am.

Dream Two (Fragment): I realize I'm dreaming. I don't know why I realized, I just did. I see a white cloth flapping in the wind. It looks like a bed sheet. I wonder why that's all I can see, and guess it's because it's an early dream. I'm startled awake by my daughter crying that she's falling. Thankfully, she's not really falling, she's in her bed, right in the center. I find myself wondering what kind of dream she was having, because I've been getting that falling sensation after a lucid ends lately. My husband got home at 9:30, so I went back to bed.

My husband got home at 9:30, so I took a three hour nap (had to be up at 12:30 so I could write this and hopefully find my way into the chat for the dream view academy class.) I slept hard because the stomach ache is gone, not much to report on dreams, just more fragments.

Dream Three: At some point I'm in a library, looking something up. At another point I'm looking at a house. It looks like a rendering n a computer or something because there's no ground around it. All I can see if the house (like a little fairy tail cottage of some sort) and two water walls. One water fall is to the back right of the house, and it forms a pool under that corner of the house that flows out through a tiny creek from the front of the house. The second waterfall is at the front left of the house, also forming a little pool under the house, and this time running out the back. The water falls are so identical, it looks like someone copy pasted them and just rotated them differently.

Took another nap:

Dream Four (fragment): I dreamed I was trying to fall asleep, but it was storming and there was a buffalo outside. Every time I'd start to drift off, the buffalo would ram into either the front or back door making a huge ruckus. My kids were terrified of the storm, so its not like I was nodding off very often. I had to LOL when I woke up, because sometimes real life feels like this, only instead of a buffalo ramming the doors, it's thoughts in my head refusing to be quiet and instead of my kids being afraid of a storm they just don't want to go to bed.