lucid

Well, now it's my turn to have a stomach bug. Thankfully my daughter's sickness only lasted a day, so I'm hoping mine will be gone by tonight as well On the downside, I was up until 3 am sick, then I got to bed, but woke back up around 7 and couldn't go back to sleep yet. On the bright side, the belly ache is sort of helping with getting lucid. I think the pain was waking me up enough to get lucid but not enough to actually wake me up, if that makes sense. I'm typing up my lonely fragment from those three hours, and when my husband gets home in half an hour or so I'm going back to bed. Hopefully I'll have more to add to this entry when I wake up. I'm feeling like I'm on a real roll right now. After going over a month with no lucidity, I've suddenly been lucid to some degree for three nights in a row. I don't want it to ever end! lol

Dream One (Fragment): Through out the whole dream I hover between lucid and non lucid. I can't remember what happened during the non lucid parts because it's my first dream of the night. I can remember realizing, I'm dreaming. I'm lucid! Then I see a puppet version of an old man. It looks like a cross between that ventriloquist dummy on tv and the old men from the Muppet movie I watched last night. He starts talking about neighbors like Mr. Rogers and I feel lucidity slipping. I literally feel like I'm fighting to stay lucid, but I end up drifting off anyways. I get another wave of lucidity as someone offers me his hand. I realize I'm dreaming. I look first at the room, it's a ball room similar to the one in beauty and the beast. It feels very romantic, and I can recall being lucid earlier in the dream so I wonder if I'm with K. I turn to look at the man holding my hand. I see my own blue dress like Cinderella and my hand in his, then I look up to see his face (I'm 5 feet tall, I always have to look up to everyone, lol) But just as I try to look at his face my head feels heavy like I'm falling. I reach up with my empty hand to touch my head as if to catch myself and step forwards to maintain my balance, but the dream goes black and fades away to the sound of the neighbors car alarm going off at 5:30 am.

Dream Two (Fragment): I realize I'm dreaming. I don't know why I realized, I just did. I see a white cloth flapping in the wind. It looks like a bed sheet. I wonder why that's all I can see, and guess it's because it's an early dream. I'm startled awake by my daughter crying that she's falling. Thankfully, she's not really falling, she's in her bed, right in the center. I find myself wondering what kind of dream she was having, because I've been getting that falling sensation after a lucid ends lately. My husband got home at 9:30, so I went back to bed.

My husband got home at 9:30, so I took a three hour nap (had to be up at 12:30 so I could write this and hopefully find my way into the chat for the dream view academy class.) I slept hard because the stomach ache is gone, not much to report on dreams, just more fragments.

Dream Three: At some point I'm in a library, looking something up. At another point I'm looking at a house. It looks like a rendering n a computer or something because there's no ground around it. All I can see if the house (like a little fairy tail cottage of some sort) and two water walls. One water fall is to the back right of the house, and it forms a pool under that corner of the house that flows out through a tiny creek from the front of the house. The second waterfall is at the front left of the house, also forming a little pool under the house, and this time running out the back. The water falls are so identical, it looks like someone copy pasted them and just rotated them differently.

Took another nap:

Dream Four (fragment): I dreamed I was trying to fall asleep, but it was storming and there was a buffalo outside. Every time I'd start to drift off, the buffalo would ram into either the front or back door making a huge ruckus. My kids were terrified of the storm, so its not like I was nodding off very often. I had to LOL when I woke up, because sometimes real life feels like this, only instead of a buffalo ramming the doors, it's thoughts in my head refusing to be quiet and instead of my kids being afraid of a storm they just don't want to go to bed.

I'm at Toys R Us with my Grandma, she's watering our plants that are at Toys R Us for some reason. I leave to go play in the stores water fountain. It's at least a ten foot pool , with small wooden platforms inside, decreasing in size every two or three feet, and the water flows down them like a water fall. I play in the water for a bit, then I see a sand box, and think I'm going to go play in the sand too. I don't think I ever grew up While digging in the sand, I realize that a guy walks by carrying a tote of plants that look like ours. I flip, worried that he's taking our garden! I run back to where our plants are, and at first I can only see the tomato plants, but then a clerk tells me the cucumbers are "over there" and shows me my cucumber plants. Relieved, I notice they need watering! So I hop off the platform, and go to get the bucket from the sand area to fill it with water from the fountain. Some kids are already playing with the bucket, but when I explain my problem and promise to give it back, they give it to me no problem. I start trying to get water from the fountain, but every time I dip in my bucket, I get tadpoles in it! I don't want to pour the little tadpoles in the plants and kill the taddies, so I pour the water our and move to a different part of the pool. This time I keep getting goldfish in the bucket! It takes me pouring it out and trying to strain the water in without the fish four times before I get a bucket sans fish, but I manage. I carry the bucket to the plants, and water the cucumbers, but there's not enough to get the tomatos in that tiny bucket, so I go back for more. I notice I am SOAKED, and my pink shirt is now see through. I'm oddly not bothered by this, and just go back for more water. The sky's looking dark though, and someone says the sky is so grey, the grey is palpable (I have no clue how to spell that, so if Firefox gave me the wrong word for a spelling correction, sorry!). When I think about being able to touch the grey with my hands, I realize it's the color of clay and I suddenly have clay in my hands and I'm in my room from the old house in Holly Springs, laying on the bed, thinking about what it'd take to make my own Ball jointed doll out of clay and make a mold of it to pour with porcelain. I hear someone talking about a man planning to cattle prod everyone, and this is supposed to put them to sleep for a year, and only one person will be left awake and everyone will starve to death. I'm like, What? No way, I can't let that happen! and I run outside where I see a female Centaur and a regular human male dressed in leather armor.

I stop dead in my tracks, and say, "wait.. this isn't real... I'm dreaming!" I don't need to reality check, I mean, there's a freaking CENTAUR in my DRIVEWAY, the only explanation is I'm dreaming! lol So I tell the centaur and the man as much when they try to tell me that I'm about to get cattle prodded. The female centaur rears back and pulls out a sword to fight me, and I start talking out my ass, "You can't hurt me, this is my dream! I'm in control!" Even though all my attempts at control have failed since my first lucid. I imagine myself growing wings, and though I can't see them, I can "feel" them and I see wings sprout out in my shadow. Yes! So then I try to take it another step and form a scythe in my hands... but since I'm looking at it, the best I manage is some sort of swirly white solid plastic ribbons. Oh well. I jump in the air and the wind whistles around me, practically blowing the man and centaur over. I ride the gust a few feet back and land in a fighting stance, though just barely keeping my balance because I am so not used to it, lol. Then the man yells at this guy in actual like, shiny metal armor who's stumbling along the yard like he doesn't know how to walk in his armor. I see a metal pole in the shiny knight's hand, so I go after him. I think the guy in leather armor called the knight guy "Jay". Anyways, Knight guy tries to poke me with the pole, and I grab it and start trying to wrestle it from him. I try to use the wind from earlier to blow his helmet off, but it doesn't work. The I just grab it and rip it off, and all the rest of his armor falls off with it. He tells me I can't win, he's going to kill me and everyone else. Then comes at me again. I consider for a moment not fighting back, but taking him by surprise and kissing him to see if he'll turn into K like in Catching up the last several days! - Dream Journals - Lucid Dreaming - Dream Views (2-23, dream two) but then I decide against it because he's got this huge bushy medieval style beard going on, lol. I tell him this is my dream, and no one can have as much power in my dream as me. and while I totally know I'm talking out my ass, it's WORKING! I am able to use the plastic strings to block an attack, and then twist the cattle prod out of the guys hands and snap it in two. He demands it back, and I laugh and tell him it's broken anyways, his plans are a lost cause. But then he says it's not broken, and I look at it, and it's made to be collapsible, so even though I "broke" it, all I did was take the pieces apart and if I put them back together I can use the weapon. So of course I put them together and then I start to cattle prod the man and push him back into my house. I tell the dream the door is going to be sealed and he can't come out, but the door is shaking and he's pushing his way out... but then the pushing stops. I can see someone through the cracks around the door moving around though, so I open the door and look inside. Instead of medieval guy, there's an old lady in there. I step in cautiously, and she's in the closet hanging up clothes or something, which is what my real grandma would be doing, lol. I'm wondering if she's going to turn back into the knight guy, so I keep my distance. She turns to me, and says something like, "there you are dear! Are you having a good birthday?" I nod, and tell her, "thanks dream grandma." She smiles, and says she'll be right back with my birthday present. I start to tell her that while she's in the kitchen she should tell K to come see me. Then I wonder if dream grandma can even use the phone or even wonder if I can use dream logic to place him in the kitchen for her to tell. I change my mind, and instead decide that since the neighbors kid is always coming over to hang out with my real grandma, I'm going to tell dream grandma to go into the kitchen and tell the neighbors kid to call K and tell him to come see me. She smiles and says of course, and then tells me my mom left a present for me in the dresser drawer. After she leaves the room I move to the drawers. I think for a moment, I should look at my hands. I've never done that in a lucid and I wonder if that ring I got in a dream forever ago is still there. There's a ring on my finger, and it's pretty and definitely not my wedding ring, but not the one from that dream ages ago either. I try to change it into the ring from the previous dream, but while it changes and smooths out getting closer to the image of that other ring, it never looks right. I give up when it stops changing, and start opening the drawers. Nothing in the top, nothing in the second, in the third though I find a moon stone poison necklace (like the kind they would hide poison in if it were fairy tail) that I had years ago. I still have it actually, but it's broken, lol. In the dream it's not broken, so apparently mom had it fixed for my birthday... but I'm cautious about opening it. So I shove it back in the drawer and close the drawer on it. My mom causes night mares, I don't want something from her to fuck this one up for me. I hear the door opening behind me, and I jump, afraid it's my mom or something nightmare-ish. But it's just the little old lady, and she hands me a package of lotion and lip gloss from bath and body works. I can't help but giggle a bit about it because it's the same set my BFF gave me last month, it's even opened and used as much as I've already used it! I wonder if dream grandma just grabbed it out of the bathroom because she didn't really have anything for my birthday, so I just smile and say, "thanks grandma!" and she looks like she's beaming and happy that I like it. Then she starts to leave, and says, "one more thing dear," and she's stepping into the hallway, "You have a visitor." K steps into the room from the hallway. He's dressed in a black trench coat and has on HUGE sunglasses that cover his whole face. I tilt my head confused for a minute, and ask, "K?" he laughs and takes off the sunglasses while shrugging out of the coat, then says, "of course, I heard you were asking for me." I drop the previous gift and start to run towards him and he steps forwards, and I literally jump into his arms and wrap my legs around him... much like my kids when they don't want us to put them down, lol. He hold me close, and I excitedly tell him, "Guess what? I'm dreaming! And I'm lucid!" he turns his face so he's talking right into my ear and says, "baby you can't get lucid." like he's in total disbelief. I laugh and tell him, "I can! and I am!" He hugs me again and says while laughing excitedly, "Then I am glad I lied!" I guess he lied saying I can't get lucid, lol? Then he pulls back and kisses me, and it causes me to feel like I'm falling backwards,and wake up just like when I woke from yesterday's lucid.

Well I can check off my goal of growing wings in a lucid now and I found K in a lucid too! I'm so proud of myself for not running off to find him first thing. I realize that in the dream I didn't have much chance to run off, but I still feel like I accomplished something big by not looking for him right away like in all my other lucids. Next goal to work on, not getting so excited when I see him in a lucid so the dream doesn't crash around me and I have a chance to ask actual questions. Asking a dream character worked so surprisingly well. I will definitely be employing that in the future! Geeze, my first long lucid in over a month, I'm on cloud nine and so happy I took that nap!

I didn't nap yesterday, and I took Benedryl before bed to ensure I slept. I also tried a couple of new things. I told myself several times during the day, "I am the dreamer, I have control of my dreams." as DreamProfesser had suggested. I also added a new line to my "nightly plan" that I'm working on. The first line read "I will be lucid tonight. When I am lucid I will..." and then went on to my plans to try to meet up with K this time and ask him some of the questions I've been wanting to ask. It all sort of worked, I was lucid twice! But, they were the short early dreams that never last more than a moment anyways. By the time the longer dreams came around, I was already exhausted from being lucid during the early ones, and I had no success, lol.

Dream One: I'm floating in the air above some Victorian style houses. It's night time, and snowing. I am repeating to myself, "I am the dreamer, I have control of my dreams. I will be lucid tonight." then I realize, wait a minute... is this a dream?! And it was I have enough time to right myself as I was floating on my back, and look around to really admire the scenery. I notice the houses have elongated windows that are glowing yellow, but the light is steady like a light bulb not flickering like a candle which is what I'd have expected in a Victorian house. Then I wake up because my daughter's having a nightmare and crying out in her sleep.

Dream Two (Fragment): I'm not sure about much with this one. all I can remember of it was stopping in the dream and saying, "This is a dream!" then I woke up instantly. First time getting lucid has actually woken me up, lol. I was so sleepy I rolled over to try and DEILD and ended up forgetting pretty much everything about the dream :/ lol

Dream Three: This one makes absolutely no sense, even to me and I dreamed it! It starts out I'm getting out of a broken down suv, I'm in a snowy area. There are zombies coming up this snowy hill, and I panic because my ride is broken. Then I turn to my right and see a giant door in the mountain, like Moria(?) in Lord of the Rings. There's a woman signaling me to come inside and hurry, before the zombies can get me! I make it inside. I find out this room is some sort of zombie survival test. We have to do something to prepare ourselves to move onto the next level. I don't remember what we do, but I remember this room looks like a living room. The zombies are busting down the door, so we move on to the next level. The next level looks like a kitchen! I'm about to close the door between levels when the "zombies" break through and they're not zombies at all! They're little kids, like preschool/kindergarten sized kids. I decide we can't run from them, we have to take care of them. The girl tells me that I can't take care of them, it's a test. I have to act like they're zombies, and ignore them while we fortify ourselves. I ignore her and try to tell the kids to do something. It soon becomes apparent that the kids are little hellions! They bite me and bad mouth me, and I finally give up. I move on to the next level shutting the door behind me. This kitchen level has candy sitting on the shelf, and I'm hungry, so I grab a piece. My brother is suddenly there, and he steals the bag of candy from me. That's cool, I got a piece so I don't need the whole bag. I ask him about his girl friend, and he tells me he doesn't know, he doesn't love her anymore. I'm in complete shock because they make such a great couple and I would love to have her as a sister, ha ha. Then I walk to the table and there's a baby basket on the table. The kind like they show moses floating down the river in on the history channel when they do those bible history shows. It's light brown, and lines with a white liner, but it's filled with blood! Gross! My brother morphs into his girlfriend (hows that not make me lucid? lol) and she/he sniffs the basket of blood and tell me to smell it! I'm like, "no thanks!" But it ends up getting bumped and some of the blood spills on the table and we have to clean it up. Then we notice there's a window between the kitchen level and living room level, and the "zombies" (kids) are crawling through it! We run to the next level. But instead of ending up in the next level, I'm in a commercial for some gold colored minivan. There are windows all around with leafy golden vines etched in them, and this gold minivan is sitting on one of those spinning car platforms. There's a beautiful middle aged woman talking about the car. She's down dark skin, and she's standing in front of this golden light that makes it look like she is glowing gold. The light makes her black hair look like it's made of gold on the tips. She looked like someone had softly dusted her outline with gold. I'm not sure how to describe how awesome she looked, just that I was standing there in a awe for a bit just admiring this effect the light was creating. Then this portly white man walks up with all this ugly gaudy jewelry and purple robes like he was some sort of rich guy. He starts saying he hates the mini van, but he wants this glass and the doors. He severely annoys me, so I leave and find myself in a cubicle sort of area. That's weird, and boring. I leave that room, and I'm back in the Zombie Kitchen. Or rather in a hallway that didn't exist before, looking INTO the kitchen. There's also a small room to the side where the "zombie" children are in a class now, learning like normal preschool/kindergarteners would be. The teachers holding up a book, it all looks so normal now. Then everything flashes, and it's like I'm watching tv. The screen zooms out, and there are creepily life like Skylanders on top of a water fall with some humans. The narrator is saying they're the last hope against the zombie invasion. Then the dream cuts to a parking lot. My mom, Grandma, son and I are all about to get in the car.. only instead of a car it's my mom's tiny truck. There's only 3 seats. Someone has to ride in the back, and it's going to be me because Grandma's too old to climb up there, my son's too young, and my mom has to drive because I can't drive a stick shift. I'm scared mom will wreck and I'll get crushed. I wake up, thankfully, lol.

Dream Four: This one still has me feeling a creeper, lol. It starts off with my mom and grandma and I looking for a hotel. We end up going on a toll road, but the toll booths are closed. I feel like I'm going to get a ticket because I didn't stop, but the booths were closed so I don't. We find the hotel, and it's green, but there is a prettier rainbow colored one I'd almost rather go to, but our reservations are for the green one. Inside the hotel though, it's my husband, my two kids and me, as well as some other random little boy. Then my uncle and his wife and their two sons are there too. I'm watching the little kids play in the hall way, but then they start jumping and running and screaming and I tell them that if they don't quiet down they will kick us out of the hotel. The kids whine about this, but stop. Then I get a phone call in our room. I answer it, and it's the front desk man telling me that he has to report on all guests who stay in his hotel. I'm like, "Ok? it's just us and our kids, and we've done nothing wrong?" Then he tells me that one of my four kids is wanted by the government and they are on their way to pick him up because of his report. I hang up and I'm flipping out, apparently I don't realize I only have 2 kids, ha ha. It turns out, my fourth kid is a teenager?! and we've taken him in because he had no where else to go, but he's wanted on hacking charges. I walk out into the hallway where my husband is talking to a man in military uniform and our "son" is standing there with him. I ask the military man if we can't just pay for the damages he caused, and the military man says no, that he will have to work off his debt. I try pulling the, "but he's just a minor!" card, but then the kid tells me he turned 18 the month before. I'm mad, and I stomp my foot and tell the man he is not taking one of my kids away! Then I hug my "son" and tell him I am so, so, so sorry that we choose this hotel to stay at. That if I had known this would happen I would have never come there. He seems really apathetic, and it feels pretty awkward because my "son" is taller than me, so I just walk out of the hall and leave it to my husband to handle. I'm a mess, blubbering like a baby, lol. I walk outside, but feel like I'm doing no good and restless. I walk back inside and fuss at the desk man (who funny enough looks like George Lopez). "My son's getting taken away because of you! By a man in the military no less! What if they send him to war? What if he dies because you turned him in?! I am never staying in your crappy hotel again!" I walk back inside, and my aunt is talking loudly to someone about how she "didn't know we'd taken in a criminal, and if she had she'd have never come on this trip with us! How dangerous! Her kids could have been killed!" I snap and tell her that he isn't a murdered, he just got mixed up in some hacking crap a few years back and he didn't realize he was doing any wrong until the wrong was done. Then I equate it to downloading illegally or something. Then a cousin from a different side of the family starts telling me that no one is buying my sad mother act, that everyone knows I'm secretly in love with that guy and that's the reason we took him in and acted like he was our kid. Then I'm still bawling and go outside again, but this time so does our "son". I try to get my space by walking away behind the building but he follows me. He tells me quickly behind the building that he knows I didn't mean to get him caught and that everything's going to be ok, to just not worry, but I'm really upset. I realize I'm mostly feeling guilty because if I had chosen to stay at the rainbow hotel this would have never happened. I walk back around to the front of the building remembering what my cousin had just accused me of, and not wanting to be in a position that might make that look true. My husband pulls up in a white car and tells us we need to go home to get the kids things so he can take them with him to the military. Then my husband starts telling me in the car that the military has found several of the "kids" teeth, and they were dated and he's a lot older than he's trying to play off. He says the kid is almost 26, making him older than me, and that they've also found some of his bones as well as bones of missing persons (basically, dream logic translated this to implying that when he'd break a bone or something he'd cut someone else's limb off and replaces his own with it because it'd heal faster that way?) I tell my husband there's no way he'd do that, he may have gotten mixed in with a bad crowd, but he wasn't a bad person. My husband accuses me of being too gullible. I turn and look back at the "son" who tells me not to worry about it, everything will work out but doesn't say anything about those accusations. We get out of the car, and we're at a house with a pool! We have to climb through the pool to get into the house though (weird! lol) and I turn to the guy who's been deceiving us this whole time, and I tell him to make sure he survives, and not to forget he was supposed to go to college, get a good job, and build a mcmansion (yes, I called it McMansion, lmao) for the whole family to live in. He smiles and says Yeah. Then my real kids wake me up! I look back at the dream and feel pretty gross, lol.

Dream One: I'm on a spaceship, I can see the metal doors and walls all around me. I notice Storm troopers (or maybe Clone troops, I'm just now learning the difference -_- and it was a dream) the Hanger starts to open and I think to myself, "Wait a minute, Storm Troopers don't exist, I'm dreaming!" I step through the door and wake up. I'm sitting at my computer and I'm annoyed because I think I've fallen asleep at the computer again (If you read my dream journal yesterday, you'll know I spent all morning dozing off if I sat still too long) I start to pull up dream views to type up the short Star Wars lucid dream, and end up waking up for real instead.

Dream Two: I'm playing Kid Icarus. I'm doing exceptionally well (I like the game, but I really suck at shooting games. I'm more of a rapidly push random buttons to win kind of girl, lol.) and I'm really excited, but then the enemies are flying farther and farther away and Pit's not catching up to them. I think it's ok because they're not attacking me, but it sucks because I can't get hearts without killing the bad guys. Then I hear someone shout behind me. I lower my 3DS and notice I'm on a raft in the middle of the river. There's a cop coming towards me on another raft (but he looks like a guard from Fable II, same face and outfit) and he's telling me I've drifted too far out into the rive and could get hit by a boat. I apologize, explain that I was playing my game not paying attention, and let him tow my raft inland. I drop my 3ds in the shallow water when we get on shore. I'm embarrassed and worried about my 3ds, but it end up working just fine, so I laugh it off and tell the guard that Nintendo products are like tanks. (True story, I bought a DSiXL a couple years ago, and set it on top of the car to buckle the kids in. I forgot to take it off. Down the road it flew off the top of the car at 45 mph and hit the road, popped it open and the game cartridge out. One of the buttons got jammed b/c of the road scraping the plastic on top of it, but as soon as we got the button pried back out, it worked just fine. I love my Xbox and PlayStations, but the Nintendo products I've owned are soooo much more durable!) Anyways, the dream skips to me being inside, but we're at the old house I grew up in and I'm trying to decide if I want to go back out to the lake or if I want to go to the Renaissance Festival. I'm having a touch time trying to decide, but luckily I wake up and don't have to choose after all!

Dream Three: I'm waiting on my husband. We're in a hurry to get some stuff done, but I don't remember what. I think I wanted us to get some stuff in case the power went out during a big storm we were expecting. My husband was taking entirely too long, so I decide to get in the car and go by myself to get a few things then come back to get him. I'm in the car driving to the store, when I come around a curve there's a car in the middle of the road, parked across the road. I don't have time to stop and end up clipping the back of the car causing it and me to spin. I can't get my car to stop (dream physics) so I end up spinning and pushing the break and tearing into this field. I get out when the car finally stops and rush over to the other car. I'm sooooo worried and start yelling, "Is everyone ok?!" There's an old man who seems to have seen the whole thing and he says everyone's going to be ok, there's a doctor on the way. Then I'm trying to apologize for the whole thing, and there girl and guy in the car tell me it's ok, it wasn't my fault, they were the ones parked in the middle of the road. I'm still feeling horrible for hitting them though. The guy is laying on the ground, he seems to have a hurt leg and be really sick. I'm worried that my insurance is going to go way up, that I'm going to get a ticket, and that our cars going to not work anymore. I start crying and decide to call my husband and let him know whats happening, hoping he can make me feel better. I pick up the phone and wake up. I think this was a false awakening or I only partially woke up, because I woke up thinking I was in a different house (the one from my childhood again) but just rolled over and went back to sleep, and this time I woke up for real, and way too freaked out to go back to sleep.

Just wanted to take a moment to write that apparently Benedryl makes me lucid. I've usually avoided the stuff since just one pill makes me stay in that hypnogogic (hynopompic?)state where your half awake and half asleep and it looks like things are in the room with you and you fee like your falling and all that. But I've been having more trouble with seasonal Allergies this year, and have taken it three times over the last two weeks because I wanted to be sure I was well rested without fighting the stuffy nose and pressure. All three times I've taken it, I have been lucid at some point in the night. Now I'm in the delima where part of me wants to take it more often so I can get lucid more often, another part of me feels like that's cheating and I should stop taking it so that when I'm lucid I know I got there on my own.

Going to do this a bit backwards and write the last dream of the night first since it was my lucid and my memory wasn't great last night. I had migraines and trouble sleeping, so I had aleve and benedryl in my system, generally mucking up any chance I had of remembering the stuff from the first part of the night.

Dream Four: I'm at Walmart with my husband and my daughter. We're looking for that paper for preschoolers with the ABCs printed on it that you trace to learn how to draw your letters. For some reason we're looking in the pharmacy. We keep finding loose single sheets in the bins, and even a book that's been broken and ripped, but we can't find anything new and still in the package. I recall there being some stationary around the Electronics department so I tell my husband we should go back there and look. He grabs my hand and we start walking towards the electronics department. I think he's pulling the buggy with his other hand, then realize I don't hear my daughter and look back to see he's not. I freak out that he left her, and he says he'll go back and get her he's sorry, and to just go ahead and go look for the paper. I agree, and then walk towards electronics. I walk past the toy department and see my son with my mom picking out a toy, but keep walking on a mission. I find the paper, and then my husband and mom both show up with the kids in tow. Then either time skips or I'm missing the events, but the next thing I can remember I'm getting my Daughter out of the car. I'm in a garage, and our car is a black SUV. I set my daughter down and realize somethings off. I don't drive a black SUV, and we don't have a garage. I call out for my husband to get over here quick! He asks what's wrong, and I tell him, "This is a dream! I'm dreaming, or we're dreaming. I'm lucid!" I'm practically jumping with excitement. He shakes his head and just looks totally confused, so I just tell him to watch the kids. For some reason, after my daughter being lost earlier in the dream I just can't stand the idea of walking away from them even though I know they're only dream characters. I run out across the yard and onto the road. I notice that our house isn't even on our road anymore, instead it's about ten minutes away in the fields next to Drum's (a local restaurant). I want to fly, so I try hopping, skipping, and jumping, with no luck. I'm annoyed, but think it's ok, if I can't do one thing, I'll try something else! I think to myself, I'm going to pull a magic wand out of my pocket and then I won't have to worry about things not working, because I'll have magic! But there's nothing in my pockets I get this bright idea that I'm going to go into the house and get my daughter's toy magic wand, that'll work just as well in a dream. I go inside, and into the bedroom. I notice that the room is an exact mirror image of my room in waking life. I find it cool how everything is exactly opposite of usual. Then I feel fuzzy headed and think, "Crap! I'm waking up!" but then when I blink my eyes and "wake up" I realize I'm not in bed, I'm on the floor. I think for a moment that I must have fallen out of bed, but then I realize I can feel carpet on my cheek, and my house has hardwood floors. I'm still dreaming! I get up and the room has made a 3/4 turn shift so everything is the wrong way, but I don't much care, I've already marveled over the room, I just want to go do something cool! I grab the toy magic wand off the bookshelf, then head back outside. My husband is still in the garage with the kids, and I tell him again that I'm dreaming, and he still seems confused. I shrug and go back out to the road. The house is in a different spot again, but I don't pay much attention to it. Instead I decide that my belief in this being a dream is just not strong enough to let me do what I want, so I'm going to prove to myself it's a dream and push it to the extreme. I lay down in the road in front of a Semi. I close my eyes and listen to it getting closer and closer, waiting for it to hit me, but knowing it wouldn't. I look up a few times, and the truck never gets any closer, even though it appears to be moving. I decide to try now to bring something into the dream. Knowing a wand didn't work, I try bringing in Renji from Bleach by visualizing since I had accidentally brought him into my last lucid that way. I figure if I can do it on accident so easily, I shouldn't have any problem doing it on purpose. Fail I get up and go back inside remembering that I was going to get a toy wand earlier. I walk into the room, grab the toy wand off the books shelf, then walk towards the door and start feel fuzzy headed again. CRAP! I wake up, once again on the floor, this time though I know it's another false awakening because I feel for the carpet right away. Unfortunately, I don't have the wand anymore, instead I'm holding one of those Sugar crystal formations on a stick.

I decide to go with it, the dreams jumping around so much, rather than fight it and wake up frustrated I'll just do what I can with what I'm given. I take my magic rock candy outside, but drop it in the grass as soon as I step off the porch. I shrug, and pick it up telling myself, "This is a dream, there's no dirt on this thing!" then I take a bite, so at least I can be happy that I've tasted food for the first time in a lucid if I wake up without having done anything else. It tasted like grass... then when I told myself over and over that no grass was on it because this is a dream, the grass taste went away and it tasted awesome, just like the real thing I take a moment to look at the road again. This time, instead of being in the middle of a pale green and yellow field with a straight road in front of us, the house is sitting on a hill with the darkest lushest grass I've ever seen, and the road zig zags in front of the house. Sort of like an s curve in the road, only with sharp corners instead of curves. I set off down the road to my left, suddenly thinking I've accomplished something cool, I ate in a lucid, so now I'm going to go looking for K since it's been a long time since I've done that or even seen him for sure in a non lucid. I notice some teenage kids in the road across the street from the house, so I start by asking them if they know K and can take me to him. One kid grins all creepy like the Cheshire cat, and he tells me his older brother knows K and could take me to him, I just have to come inside and wait for his brother to get home. His creepy unnatural smile bugs me, so I refuse saying I'll wait outside. He tells me that if I don't go inside his brother can't take me. I tell him thanks, if his brother changes his mind I'll be up the road, but I'm not stupid enough to go inside. Then I start thinking to myself that maybe I could get my husband to take me to him since hes a dream character too and in previous dreams he's known who K was. Then I decide that it's probably not a good idea, seeing as how K's been my love interest in many a dreams, and just because he was friend with K in one dream, doesn't mean his dream character is going to be happy to take his wife to find another man, lol. So instead I keep walking and thinking. Hm, I read a post about controlling your lucids like a video game, and I carrying my 3DS around with me everywhere, maybe I could use that somehow? I pull it out of my pocket with no problems (In waking life, I always carry it in my bag, it's way too big to fit in my pants pockets. I envy how guys pants have so many big pockets to carry stuff in!) then I open it up, and look for a lucid dream game. No luck. But then I realize if I'm in a dream, maybe I can send a message to K with the swap note app and it'll go to whatever electronic devices his dream self may be carrying. As I walk I open up swap note, but don't recognize anyone on my friends list. Then I realize, no wonder, I'm logged in as my daughters Mii! So, I log off and log in as my Mii (you really can't do that on a 3DS, there's no log ins or log outs, lol) then I scroll on my friends list with this idea of what I think K's Mii might look like. I don't see a Mii with the hair I thought his should have on it, but I do see one with a really odd hairstyle that I've never seen on a Mii before and decide that has to be K because it sticks out so much and is so different from all the others. I've only met K in dreams, and he always sticks out. He doesn't feel empty like other Dream Characters, instead he actually has an energy like feel, like real people in real life do. I start to send a message to that Mii, but I find that there's already a message written to him, and assume it's from a previous dream, maybe when I was non lucid I tried this before. The note tells him where I am, but it's the wrong place, so I'm trying to erase it to write the correct place and I can not get it to erase. I'm surprisingly laid back in my dreams, and when it doesn't work the way I want to, I decide to find a way around it. I'm going to send a message to someone else and ask them to forward it to him. I find a random Mii, a female, and send her a message that I'm looking for K and to please have him get in touch with me. Then My 3DS turns into a phone, and it's ringing. I put it up to my ear and it's the girl I had messaged. I'm still walking down the road and am coming up on a house i lived in about 6 years ago, and the girl starts going off on me. She's telling me that I need to leave K alone, that he's working really hard to take care of his family and he's under a lot of stress right now, the last thing he needs is me expecting him to take care of me too. I'm both hurt and pissed by her statements, and I storm towards (and eventually inside) the house I used to live in while I fuss right back at her. I try to defend myself by saying I understand he has his own things to do, and I don't want him to have to take care of me. I just want to see him, and if he's trying to take care of a family, I'd like to help him. Then I hang up on the girl because she just keeps going on and on, and I get the impression that she's trying to get me out of the picture because she's hung up on him too, lol. I'm inside my old house, and I am walking around inside it looking for K. My lucidity is slipping, but I don't notice it, instead I just accept the dream fact that this house is now home to a bunch of squatters with no where else to live. I think that if K is struggling to take care of a family (not sure if this point if we're talking wife and kids family, or brothers and sisters family, lol) that he's likely to be somewhere like this. I walk out the back door, and see some people, but none of them are K so I just wave and keep looking around. I go to the front yard and up the driveway, then I see a black SUV driving up the road. I walk up to the road where the SUV has stopped. A guy with blond hair, but short cut and his face looks failure but is definitely not K, gets out. An older woman walks off the porch and up to the SUV. She starts laying into the guy, telling him he has no right to be here. Somehow K comes up, and I ask if the guys knows him. The woman says she's K's mom, and that the guy is his older brother that she kicked out of the house at the age of 5. I'm shocked she'd do that to her kid, but she starts saying he was always surrounded by women, even pregnant ones, and she was sick of all the hussies around her house. The guy is trying to defend himself saying she's crazy and off her rocker and he did no such thing, she just makes this shit up to justify what a bitch she is. I'm just like, "Wow, age 5?! How is that even possible?!" Then I decide this conversation is none of my business even if they do know K, they're not going to take me to him if they're fighting. I turn around and start walking back down the driveway towards the house hoping I'll find some other clue to K's whereabouts. I notice there are tents going down the driveway, and some people poke their heads out and wave at me. I smile and wave back, but then wake up. I didn't open my eyes and hope to fall back asleep and do a DEILD but I'm too excited about the fact that I was lucid and actually did stuff that I couldn't fall back asleep. I tried getting up and going to the bathroom then laying back down, no luck. I spent about 45 minutes trying to fall back asleep before giving up and coming in here to type all that out, lol.

Dream Three: I dreamed that I'm watching from third person as a man (whom I understand in the dream to be myself) is shot by another man in the back and killed. Then I spend most of the dream watching as the other man claims that I was trying to kill him so he killed me first. Some people can see my ghost and I tell them what really happened, but then some police see my ghost and try to arrest me. I wonder what it's like for a ghost in jail, because a ghost has no life to end a life sentence, I'd be there for eternity, and I don't like that idea.

Dream Two: My notes say Skylanders, so I must have dreamed of that game.

Dream One: My notes say "Another" which is an Anime on Crunchy Roll right now. I just finished it yesterday, and it was REALLY good but since it was Horror and pretty disturbing, I'm glad I didn't remember this dream after resting the whole night, lol. I figured I'd dream of it because it was on my mind a lot and I wanted to re-watch it and see all the little Clues I missed the first time around.

Dream One: I'm in Walmart shopping the clearance racks. I'm so happy because I find a really cute velvet feeling dress for my daughter with Mickey Mouse on it, for a dollar! I'm thinking this is too good to be true, look at the tag again carefully and it's $5, but that's still crazy cheap so I toss it in my cart. My daughter is so happy! Then she sees a Mickey Mouse Bikini and wants it, but it's way to big for her and the only one they have left so I have to tell her no. Then I think to myself while I'm shopping clearance, I need to look for some tights in a size 5 for her to wear in the winter next year since winter stuff should be priced to move right now. I grab a couple pairs and I am so happy with my haul! Then I wake up... at the house I lived in 5 years ago! I don't notice anything is off though, so I go to the bathroom, then on my way back to bed my husband's in the hall and I start to tell him about the dream I just woke up from where I bought our daughter all this stuff. Half way into the story, I realize wait... this is the wrong house! I'm STILL dreaming! I get excited because I'm lucid! My husband tells me to come back to bed, and I decide since I'm lucid I'm going to fly down the hall since I really would like to try flying. I starts o jump into the air, but I find that I can't move at all. It's like my entire body is shut down and I can't move. I freak out a bit, and try to wake myself up. I wake up, thinking everything's ok I'm going to give it another shot at going to sleep and getting lucid. I open my eyes and briefly note that I'm laying in the hallway on the floor. I think I must have slept walked or something to be laying in the same spot I was standing in the dream. Then my daughter wakes me up and I realize it had all been false awakenings! Guess I need to start doing those reality checks when I wake up!

Dream Two: I'm in a run down mountain like town. I briefly think it's Shelby (where the Hunger Games was filmed) because I'm thinking I'm supposed to meet a friend who I know that lives there. But really the area looks more like the mountains, like somewhere near Ap or in WV like where some of my family lives. I'm walking down some stairs, pass a building that seems to be a single room school house. There's a package in the door way of the school, I check, but it's not for me. I'm hungry so I go inside this little cafe to the right. It's really fancy inside, I ask for a menu, and it's all expensive food and apparently it's all hunger games themed food so it seems really simple and not filling. Definitely not worth what they're charging. I take a to go menu and leave to look for a Mcdonalds. There's really nothing much in this place, and I recall my friends boyfriend telling me they filmed Hunger Games there because it was such a dreary depressing place. I turn around and walk back the way I came. I go back up the stairs and look out over the town from the more elevated path. Nothing. I'm pretty bored, and hungry. I decide to try walking the street again to see if I might have missed a good place to eat. I reach the bottom of the stairs and see a house door open. There's a woman standing there with someone that has a face that looks like it's made of tree bark and a BIG nose with something bushy and green on the end. The woman is saying, "It looks like your turning into an Ent! Mommy loves Ents, but they're not very cute are they?" I think this is really odd and try to shake off the feeling that something's not right here by walking past the school house again. The package is different. Whats going on?! My son wakes me up, lol. I think I was close to getting lucid again, but I'll never know now! ha ha

Dream Three: My son is wanting to take my husband and I downstairs to play Mario. I follow him, and think to myself wow, I didn't realize the basement looked like this! Then he's showing us how this Mario game is like virtual reality, and he has portals all over the basement where we can actually jump into levels. My husband tries to jump into one, but it doesn't let him through. My son says that's the Halloween level, we can only go in on Halloween! I'm really blown away by this basement, and think to myself why are we worrying about finishing off the basement when it's already so freaking nice? Lets just move in now! Then I realize that my kids are already living in one room of the basement in a futon style bunk bed. I explore a bit and find stairs that lead to a sub basement, and then I find two preschool classrooms and for some reason just assume they're for church or something and wonder why we're letting them hold Sunday school in the basement. Man, my dream self was dense last night! I find some of my Grandma's family sitting in one of the sub basements. I walk in, they all say hey, but they're in a heated discussion about something and mostly ignore my presence after that. I listen in, and hear the words lucid dreaming. I jump excitedly and say, "Hey! I know about lucid dreaming!" One of my great aunts asks me, "Oh really? can you tell us more about it? I saw this picture on Facebook about it, and I'm really curious but none of us really knows what it is. Is it some sort of drug trip or something?" I tell her it's not a drug trip or anything, it's just when you fall asleep, you realize your dreaming and you can control what's going on in the dream! Then I say I've been reading about it every day for the last month, and have actually managed to get lucid three times! My other great aunt says, "Oh really? Now I'm interested throw me a bone here. What can you do when your lucid?" and leans forwards. I look at her, and for a moment I'm confused, that great aunt died a couple years ago. Then I just shrug it off and think to myself she's not dead yet, but we know she is dieing from cancer. -_- I tell her about my first lucid since I had really good control, and the other two are pretty disappointing in terms of control. Then the first great aunt says, "Well, all this is just too complicated for me, lets talk about something else." I feel a bit dejected because I think she's pretty much dismissing me as well. I walk back into my son's room, and notice a clear plastic bag that says "Skylanders" on it. I pick it up, and apparently it's the 3DS version of the game. The package is empty, but I see the portal on the night stand and know we didn't lose it. Then I realize I can just take all the advertising and cardboard out of the bag, and it's just a clear bag that says Skylanders, it would make the perfect carrying case for all his little figurines. I tear out the card board and start to carry it to the trash, but on my way I notice my daughter has a bottle of water and she knocks it over on the carpet. next to where my mom is sitting on the floor. I shout to mom to watch out, she's about to get wet! Then I'm upset because the water is making such a big mess and I can't believe that little bottle had so much water in it! Then my daughter wakes me up again.

Of course I have fragments that I can barely remember about the dreams, but I actually had a lot of dreams and can remember two in really good detail... and one of them I was Lucid for the second time! It wasn't impressive because I was significantly less confident this time around, lol.

Dream One (Fragment): I was fighting, with a sword, I think practice fighting though, not a serious battle. I'm pretty sure that sword was a Zanpakuto, and my opponent was Ichigo, lol. Don't remember anything specific about the fight though.

Dream Two (Fragment): I was on a road trip with my grandma. We were talking, and I could see the mountains out the car windows.

Dream Three: My mother in law had a little pet pot belly pig. We wanted to take a nap, but we had to put the pig in a cage or something first so that it wouldn't get hurt or make a mess while we all slept. We put it in a plastic tote, and my MIL said it needed water. So we started to water it, but end up filling the whole tote with water and it's little snout just barely extended over the water if it raised it's head. We freaked out and drained the water out, and put in a little dish of water instead. When the pig had water and was contained, I was ready for a nap, but my MIL said we couldn't sleep because we had to watch the pig. I asked her how she planned to sleep at all if she had to watch the pig 24 hours a day, and she seemed bewildered for a moment, but I woke up before she could give me a solution!

Dream Four: My friend was buying a new house, and it was like a sims game, complete with the drop down premade houses and green squares, lol. The house changed several times before it made my friend, her grandmother, and me all happy.

Dream Five (LUCID!): The dream starts off with me and my kids visiting my cousin. My kids wander off to the back of her house and I have to go back and run them out of her daughter's room telling them it's rude to go into someone's room without being invited. Then I see the neighbors daughter walking into my cousins room and I run her out, briefly wandering how she got all the way over to my cousin's house and if I'm supposed to be watching her. Then there's a broken candy dish that's filled with melted chocolate and I can't help but think, "Mmm Chocolate!" ha ha ha. Then my daughter has to go to the bathroom. I take her to the potty, and notice that my cousin has the same bathing suit I just bought, and I wonder if it looks better on her than me. Then I notice the bathroom has a microwave and a mini fridge in it. I think for a moment that's weird, but I bet this whole area could be a little apartment. Then my logic finally kicks in, "Wait, There can't be a kitchen in the bathroom! That's too weird, I must be dreaming!" To test that theory, I run towards the counter and jump over it in a single bound, landing in the middle of my cousin's living room. I think for a moment, I shouldn't have left my daughter alone! Then I realize, I'm in a dream, she's not my daughter, it's just a dream character and it won't get hurt, it'll just disappear! I decide I'm going to leave, being at my cousins house is pretty boring and I want to do something cool. I walk towards the door, with no destination in mind, and think I'm going to just walk through the door since I walked through a wall in my first lucid. Then self doubt kicks in, and I think, "But I don't know where I want to go, what it if doesn't work this time?" and of course I smack into the door face first, ha ha. The I try to just open the door, and it's locked and I can't get it open either. I stop to think for a moment and I'm finding that even though I know I'm dreaming and lucid, my mind is pretty blank on what to do, it seems harder to think, ha ha. So I recall confronting my husband in the last dream, and think maybe I need to tell someone I'm in a dream for the control to work properly and the door to open to let me out. I look at my cousin and tell her something like, "This is a dream, your just a dream character and I'm getting out of here." Then my cousin morphs into a MAN with a pointy face and small slit like squinty eyes, and he replies, "How so you plan to get out of here? None of my escapes have worked. You can't make a portal, you can't walk through the door, you can't even open it! You don't know how to teleport do you?" I get annoyed and feel like he's trying to keep me trapped. So I tell him flat out, "I'm going to close my eyes and spin, and I'm going to imagine the scene changing around me." So I close my eyes, and notice instead of seeing black I see gray, and I start spinning imaging the floor being tatami and apparently Renji from Bleach laying on it, ha ha. But then after three spins I get dizzy and fall over landing on top of Renji, but the room still hasn't changed! I stand up and dust myself off, Renji asks me if I'm ok, and I say yeah, but the pointy faced guy is still looking at me and laughing like he thinks it's sooo funny that I'm having all this trouble with my dream control. Frustrated I ball up my fists and decide to try the back door, maybe it'll open. Renji jumps up behind me and yells to me to wait up, but I'm ignoring him because I didn't mean to drag him into this dream anyways. I reach out and grab the door, and it's opening and there's a white light spilling into the room that I didn't even realize was so dark. I'm glad I'm finally getting out of this weird house! But I end up waking up before the door opens all the way!

Dream Six (Fragments): I'm in a car driving through the country, seeing mountains in the distance. There's a house that someone tells me was in a TV show or something. We pull up to it, and they're filming a cop drama, but all the actors and actresses playing the cops have weird hair and make up. Their hair is shades of dark plumb, forest green, royal blue, and blonde and black. Their makeup reminds me of a rock band, like maybe Kiss or something from the 80's with Stars and stuff around their eyes in the same colors are their hair. They're also covered in colored glitter and glittery clothes, glitter right down to their fingernail polish! It's so crazy and extravagant, I wonder how this could possibly have good ratings!

Dream Seven: I'm at my Grandma W's house (she actually died in '05) and she's going to watch the kids while my husband and I go to Walmart. We're going down the hill to the car, and I notice the neighbors kids are playing basketball at my Grandma's house. They are far from home, lol. I climb in the car, but my husband starts driving before I can even get my MP3 player out of my pocket and get buckled in, or even close my door! I yell at him to wait a minute, and he tells me to stop taking so damn long. I counter that I don't even have my seat belt on, and he argues that I'm being slow and pulls forwards. The door closes, pinning my leg against the seat in a very uncomfortable fashion and I yell at him to stop the f-ing car. I fling the door open to get my leg unpinned, and he yells at me to just get out of the car he'd go by himself. I do and slam the door about to cry. I walk past the neighbors kids, then realize I'm in a housecoat and pajamas and I feel like everything's falling off. I am really embarrassed and run to the front porch and sit on the swing. I cry for a few minutes about getting kicked out of the car and about my clothes falling off and being embarrassed that everyone saw it all. Then my grandma is on the porch, coming out of the shadows and scaring the crap out of me! She tells me to relax, It's all ok, no one will remember any of it in the morning. I nod, and decide to go ask my son if he wants to play outside. I yell at the neighbors kids if they will be out for long and if we could come out and play too (my kids a lot younger so they can't play as rough with him as when it's just them) they tell us to come on out, so I go inside to get changed. My son is at the computer, and I ask him if he wants to play outside with the big kids. He refuses, and I feel frustrated because he'd getting so fat playing computer and video games all day and not outside! I wake up.

Dream Eight (fragment): We're at a hotel, at the end of an Anime Con. A friend of mine has a room beside ours connected by a door. He's already turned in his key at Check out and asks us if he can borrow our key because he forgot something in his room. We let him, and I start freaking out that we need to pack and get out of the room before we charged for another night. My husband just wants to lazy about and not do it, so I'm packing it all up by myself and feeling so desperate that I'm not going to get done in time. I even start crying.

Dream Nine: I'm looking at skin, I'm not sure if it's my hand or someone else's skin. There are these little dark spots on the skin, and looking closer I can see they're wiggling. They're bugs swimming under the flesh. It's really gross and creepy and I wake up.

Last night was a bunch of random mess dreams because I took Nyquil before bed (my cold goes from being tolerable, to better, to bad... I can't wait for it to actually go away and stop faking me out!) The nyquill knocked me out so hard that I fell asleep trying to get my daughter to sleep, before I even put her in her bed. But, I managed to have my first ever lucid where I stayed int he dream long enough to control it and everything It was AWESOME!

Dream One: The earliest point of this dream I can remember I am at my great aunts house. She has a couple of shirts with butterflies on them and a matching pair of plaid shorts. She's giving them to me because she thought I'd like them. I really do love them and wonder how she had such good taste as older people usually don't pick out stuff younger people like very well. I get in my grandma's truck and we are on our way home. We pass a house that has some sort of plastic fence like structure and Grandma asks me about it. I explain it's to keep the kids in the yard without having to worry about small critters and nosy neighbors bothering them. I briefly think I'd love to have something like that so I could keep the neighborhood kids out of our yard and keep my kids from seeing them and wanting to play with them. Then Grandma starts talking about her old house, the one I grew up in that she had to sell back in 2007. She starts saying that it was the house my grandfather built (I know he designed it, and it was their dream home, but she was only able to buy it after he died and she used his life insurance to buy it) and she was saying that if the people who bought it ever wanted to demolish it she wouldn't stand for it. She says this several times before I wake up. It's dark when I wake up and I am so sleepy I fall immediately back to sleep without noticing my daughter is still in the bed with me.

Dream Two: In this dream I am a teacher at a school for special needs children. I am trying to get a little girl to sleep (the little girl is a special needs child I grew up with at my school. She tried to hug me once, and ended up knocking me down and breaking my arm. I was always a bit nervous around her after that, sort of scared I'd get hurt again. In the dream though I'm much bigger and she's still small so I'm not afraid of her) Me and another teacher are trying to get her to sleep, but she keeps wiggling and moving. The other teacher tells me that she's already given the girl two milligrams of Mirror Mist (whatever that is? At least my dream made up a pretty name, lol) and that if she doesn't go to sleep soon we'll have to give her something else. Then I wake up and realize that my daughter is asleep in my bed and the wiggling and kicking I felt was my daughter wiggling and kicking me because she didn't have enough room to sprawl out wedged between my husband and me. I put her in her bed, so throws her arms and legs out taking up the whole bed, and doesn't make anymore noise the rest of the night

Dream Three: I'm in a cab with a guy, I think to myself he reminds me of the architect guy in how I met your mother, and it's been a few years since I've seen that show. I don't know who he is, but he acts like my friend so I play along. We get out of the cab and we're at a bar. When we walk in everyone looks right at us. The place is dark and there are multicolored lights flying all over the place like a dance club or something. I notice the music playing is Sailor Moon! And I'm wearing a sailor moon back pack! Awesome, no wonder everyone is staring at me. I'm either the coolest person in this place, or the lamest. We make our way to a seat in the back of the club, and there's a little girl with pink hair there. I say hey to her like I know her, and she starts saying she wants to wear a costume too, and points to a stage. Suddenly the bar is actually an amphitheater, and it's located at the lake in front of my dad's family's cabin. I tell the little girl to shhh, that we are wearing costumes, normal people costumes. I tell her this is a disguise so people won't know she's really a sailor scout! She seems happy with this response, and I realize she's Rini, Sailor Mini Moon! (Sorry peeps, I grew up on the dubs, never saw the subs!) Then the little girl starts to go bug a girl a few chairs over. She wants a drink, and the girl is saying she'll get it, but Rini wants to get it herself. The girl gets mad and tells Rini she's impossible, then I call to Rini and tell her she should ask me for a drink and wink to her hoping she'll get the idea that I will let her do it herself. She comes back over, but before I get her a drink Sailor moon calls from the stage that there is a demon at this concert! Then she calls to Rini asking her if she wants to exercise it. Rini says no, she is thirsty and needs a drink, but sailor moon isn't paying attention because she just goes on saying, "You don't want to do it because you are the demon! I'm going to sing a beautiful song to exercise you!" and then she sings a song. I remember thinking in the dream that the song was so pretty, and I grab hands with the guys sitting beside me. The guy on my left is my husband and he squeezes my hand, and i in response squeeze the hand in my left. I turn to see who it is, and its someone I don't know, but he reminds me of this Cherokee guy I had a crush on in high school. He smiles weakly at me, and I feel sad for him. I turn to look behind us because I see some flashes of color. There are several native american looking guys dressed in nothing but body paint walking behind us into a large gate. I get the feeling that behind the gate is some sort of promised land, or some place special to these people. The guy follows my gaze and looks at the gate longingly. I squeeze his hand and bring my face to his ear and whisper to him "you'll get there some day, I know you will!" A tear falls from his eyes and he says thank you, he hopes so. Then the song is over, and my husband isn't happy my face is so close to another man. I try to play it off, and the whole crowd starts lineing up. Suddenly I'm part of a class, and my husband and the other guy who was holding my hand are fighting. The teacher yells at them, "All right, the two of you are going to jail! This is the last time your going to fight like this!" Then I wake up again.

Dream Four (LUCID!): I'm in the car with my husband. I think we're going to a store. Instead, we end up at a house with an old man. We get out of the car, and my husband is carrying a box, telling me he has to drop this off. The old man lets us inside, and my husband gives him the box. The old man opens the box, and inside it are my kids favorite DVDs. My husband is saying these are movies we don't want anymore and that he hopes the old man's grand kids will enjoy them. I get mad and tell my husband those are the kids favorite DVDs, how dare he give them away without consulting me first, because I would never have allowed it in the first place! Then I storm out of the room and outside. Somehow, as I'm storming off into the woods, I realize wait, am I dreaming? I stop in the middle of the road, and think to myself, this has to be a dream. I don't remember how we got in the car, the kids aren't with us, this must be a dream! I decide to test it out and run through the woods. When I run the woods fly by me like a tunnel or like the flying stars screen saver from the computer I had as a kid. It's awesome. I stop, and decide this is a dream, so I'm going to look for K. Then I think to myself, before I do, I'm going to go back to that house, see what I look like, and try to dress nice and tell my husband off while I'm at it! I run back through the woods again, getting that tunnel vision woods again. I notice the trees look black, and the background looks brown, similar to a note book I have. It's really cool. I stop and I'm in front of the house again. There's a tricycle in the yard against the house. Thinking I'm going to test this dream thing one more time to be sure, I push the trike against the wall thinking to myself, "It's going to go right through the wall as long as I believe it will." And it does! It gives me a bit of resistance when there's only an inch or two of the seat left to pass through the wall, but i give it a good push and it completely disappears into the wall. SO FREAKING AWESOME! Then I remember I'm mad. I storm inside and find my husband sitting in a recliner chair, and I walk right up to him and tell him, "Your just a dream. I don't have to put up with your crap right now! I'm not even going to bother fussing at you for giving away those dvds because you're not worth it. Instead, I'm going to dress up and go find someone who makes me happy in my dreams!" I then try to concentrate on changing my clothes. I can't seem to do it. It feels like my bandana is different, but I can't change my shirt and pants. I look in a mirror. I'm wearing a blue checkered print shirt that has puffy sleeves and the front is all sewn with elastic (i think the term is smocked?) so it's clingy but stretchy. The shirt doesn't cover my stretch marks and that bugs me, I try again to put on my favorite black dress that also has smocking but as it's a dress it doesn't show any belly! No luck, so I'm just like, fuck it, it's a dream, no biggie if I look weird. I'm sure I've worn even weirder in my dreams. I walk over to the telephone, it's one of the old kin that you set the receiver in little hooks above the rounded square phone. Luckily the numbers are buttons not rotary! I pick it up. I want to call K, so I wonder how I can. I decide I'll just press the numbers that correspond with the letters in his name. Oddly enough, it's actually the right number of digits in real life. The phone rings, and then I hear him say, "Hello?" I say, "Hey it's me!" he sounds confused for a minute, "Who? Wait, M...? B is that you?!" (note here, my real name starts with an M, but I go by a shortened version of my middle name, which is why dream peeps always refer to me as B ) I excitedly reply, "Yes! I'm lucid! I'm actually lucid dreaming right now! Can I come visit you?" his voice on the other line says, "Sure! I'd love to see you!" I'm thrilled. Then I realize, I'm not exactly sure how to get there, so I ask the telephone, "Hey wait, can you like come and get me or something? I don't know how to get there!" There's silence. The phone is dead. I start to think he probably doesn't have a car and can't come get me. The I realize this is a dream, why would he need a car? I hang up the phone, and then decide to walk outside and try to figure something out. I start to walk, and remember that supposedly you can make someone or something appear in a dream if you expect it to be around the next corner or something. So I decide to try and give it a shot. The trees become a wall, but then I realize that all the trees are walls, so I am suddenly in an endless hallway. Crap, how can I reach a corner if the hallway is endless?! Then I remember the trike, and think, "what if I walk through the wall expecting his house to be on the other side?" It's worth a shot, so I start to put my hand through the hall first, not wanting to faceplant in it. It's like the mirror scene in the matrix at first, the wall wobbles in round circles like thick gooey water. It looks weird because the walls are yellow and brown pin stripped wall paper, really ugly, lol. Then I step right through it and I'm standing in a kitchen. It's got linoleum floors made to look like tile, but obviously fake. Theres a stove and fridge and sink on the wall I just walked through, then in the middle of the room is a table with three chairs facing a tv on the far right wall. I see a guy sitting at the table. My first thought is it's no K. I just don't get that feeling that it's him. Something seems off. But I notice my hands are filthy, they've got wall paper goop on them still even thought it's not anywhere on the rest of me. The guy says hey, and i say hey back. I walk to the Sink and see no hand soap, but there is some green dish detergent so I decide to use that to wash my hands. I notice then that his hair is much, MUCH shorter than it should be. I ask him as I wash my hands, "why's your hair so short?" He responds without looking at me, just staring at the TV, "it's easier for spying." My dream self knows this make sense, if your a spy you want to be as unmemorable as possible. I don't recall him being a spy though. I dry my hands and go to look at him once more. I notice his hair has turned bright pink! My jaw drops for a second, then I remind myself this is a dream, and something's definitely not right here. I walk over to the chair he's sitting in and I as K if he knows this is a dream. He says yes. I ask him if he is lucid. He says no. He doesn't even look at me, just stares at the TV. I'm really frustrated because I think I walked through that wall expecting to find K, so he should be K, but he isn't. He doesn't feel like him, he doesn't look like him, he doesn't act like him. WHat did I do wrong? Then I think maybe it is K, but because it's a dream I've got to get through to him to wake him up or something. I decide to straddle him in the chair, that'll get his attention. No luck. I grab his face with my hands and pull it up to look at me and not the TV. He has a blank look like he's looking right through me. The chair suddenly has rollers and he rolls the chair towards the tv. Frustrated, I lean backwards so my head is upside down and I can see what he's looking at. It's the stupid TV! I close my eyes tightly because I'm getting so frustrated. I wanted to get lucid so I could get some answers from K, but I'm getting no where even though I'm supposed to be in control. Suddenly I lose everything. I 'm no longer in the chair, I'm just seeing black and swirling colors. I realize I'm awake just seeing swirling colors of my eyes closed. Damn. But wow! That was an amazing experience. I can not wait for my next lucid! I'm going to try not to waste it looking for K and answers, but instead see what other cool things I can do. I feel so bold and empowered in the dream, like it didn't matter what I said so I could tell anyone exactly how I felt and do whatever I wanted. And, I was totally blown away by how real it all felt. I really felt like I was awake, even though I knew I was dreaming, everything was so real. Enough random squeals of how awesome this was, I'm sure most peeps on this sight are past that sense of wonderment. Last time I'll say it, this was awesome