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Dreams One and Two (fragments): I'm playing the pokemon trading card game.

Yup, that's it for my dreams... Yesterday I took my son to a local card shop to play Pokemon cards and it left me more than a bit anxious. I've discussed how it bugs me that I can't find the ones from when I was a kid to give my kid, and apparently I had a lot more fun that I initially thought helping the little kids because I just can't wait to go back. I will definitely get a nap later, because I only slept a couple hours last night! ha ha

Dream One (Fragment): I'm in a room with a lot of tables and a bunch of guys that I can only call modern geek. Video Game tee's and hats and pins galore, my kind of people, lol. We're getting ready to play some sort of game. It reminds me of Warcraft in the way that there are little figurines that represent monsters. But, it we're pretending like the monsters are attacking us. At one point in the game I am on top of a table and the others are piling all these little zombie figures at my feet as though the figurines are attacking me and the guys are repeating over and over again, "Many! Many! Many!" as in there are many zombies all over the place.

Dream Two (Fragment): I'm spending the night with my kids at the church I attended when I was a kid. (I'm not actually Christian... I follow my own path that veers more to the pagan side though I at times attend church with my husband and kids) I recognize some of the people who are probably dead by now as I haven't been to that church in nearly twenty years and they were getting pretty old when I was a kid. At one point I went upstairs into the sanctuary and saw candles, then went back downstairs to the fellowship hall where there were other kids besides just mine.

Dream Three: I'm with a guy with long flowing white hair, he reminds me of how Kitsune are depicted in Manga and Anime.

We're in a big building that looks like a hotel or ritzy apartment complex. He's giving me a tour of the place, showing me the pool and amenities. He goes on to tell me all about how much money he spent on building this place. There are also two guys in black suits and sunglasses nearby, standing behind us like body guards or something. He pulls me close to him and tells me that it's all for me. Then, there's an explosion behind us, and another beside us and another in front. The building is blowing up around us, but because we're at the pool on the outside we're not in the path of the bombs or debris. Though everything is falling and burning around us. The guy smiles wickedly, and pulls me through the burning frame work of the building and out to a fancy car. He tells me to hop in and we'll go home, but I don't want to go. I'm worried about the people who might be living in the building. He tells me that if I can find him he'll tell me if the building was occupied or not, then drives off in his fancy red car. I start walking in the direction that the car drove off in, just to find that all the blocks around the big building are in poor repair and have no lights on or anything. I realize they have no power and the money spent on the opulent complex I had just been next to would have been better spent fixing these building and helping the people who livid in them. I see another big opulent building, and go inside. The Kitsune like man is in there, and he's lounging on a couch. There's a woman in a business suit nearby (the kind with a skirt not pants). She's got short hair and reminds me of the woman in the Dinosaur dream a couple days back. She's laughing with a cruel smile when she sees me walk in. She says something about how I won't enjoy the complex now that he's torn it down, and she feels sorry for me having something so pretty just to have the gift torn apart by the giver. The Man gets up and walks off before I can even say anything to him, as if he doesn't even care that I've found him and he promised to give me answers. The woman calls out to me and I stop following him to see what she wants. She tells me that He's going to fix the place back up for me and it will be just like it was before he blew it up. He's had his fun, and now he really does want me to have it. I start to run off towards the guy now, I want to tell him not to fix it, to fix the other buildings around it instead, but I see him in his fancy red car speeding off. I also hear the woman behind me talking on the phone, she's telling who I can only assume to be him that he needs to fix the complex if he really loves me, because that's what a good boyfriend would do. I don't bother to correct her and tell her I'd never have feelings for someone who would do all these crazy things, I just run towards the building hoping to catch him before he fixes it. I reach the building only to find that I'm too late, the place is fixed now. I find that my dad is moving into the building, and the kitsune man says something that leaves me thinking he's moving all my family in and if I don't do what he wants he'll blow them all up with the building.

Dream Four: I'm at an anime convention with my BFF. I'm not wearing any costumes or anything, just carrying my usual over sized purse with anime pins on it. Someone asks me if I can stop and let them take a picture of my bag because it's so awesome. I say sure, and they take a picture. My BFF and i go back to our hotel, and turn the TV on. The news is playing and their showing the picture of me holding my bag on the news and talking about the convention and it's lack of properly dressed people. I realize that somehow in the picture my shirt's gotten pulled up and my belly is showing. I'm relieved to see none of my stretch marks are showing, and I really don't look too bad in the picture at all. I look skinnier than I normally do! But then the news anchors go on to talk about how fat people are showing their bellies at the convention like in this photo... and I'm looking at my photo thinking I don't even look fat in that picture! I go back to the convention to complain, but everyone at the convention is throwing things at me and yelling that I ruined the cons image by being so fat and showing my fat belly on camera for the news crews. I wake up, feeling really negative about myself, and I'm really not fat. I'm in the healthy BMI range for my height and weight. :/

Dream Five (fragment): First I'm looking at a park thinking about how I could change it in buy mode in the Sims and give it a different theme. The current these is space and aliens but I want to make it an under the sea theme instead. Then I'm at a picnic by a pool in the park, but we're having to pack up and leave in a hurry for some reason.

Dream Six: I'm in the car driving somewhere, when I see something in the road and swerve to miss it. It looks like a red mixing bowl, and I think it's one of ours and wonder how it got in the road. I tell myself it someone else's that just looks like ours, then I pass a red pot and I KNOW it's ours. I Pull over and find all these dishes that are our with food in the on the side of the road. I wonder why it's all there, and my mom who was apparently in the car with me tells me that they're the food from the picnic. She had handed the food to my husband and he was supposed to put it in the car. My husband pulls up in his car behind us and asks whats wrong. I confront him about the food and he says he must have set it on top of the car and forgotten about it. I start trying to gather all the dishes, and I find a watermelon and there are big bugs crawling in it so I throw it back down and scream EWWWWW! Then I find a chocolate cake, and my husband swears it's still good because it's in a plastic container. I don't trust it, but he opens it to prove there are no bugs inside. Then He grabs the watermelon. I tell him it's got bugs in it, but he doesn't believe me. We argue over it, then a bug crawls on his finger and he drops it. It smashes when it hits the pavement and bugs that are like 6 inches long come crawling out of it, yuck yuck yuck! Then we all get back in the cars, and my mom is telling me that at the picnic everyone figured out a way to cheat the system and win the lottery and they're going to split the pot evenly. She wants me to join in, but I refuse because I tell her it's dishonest and I don't want any part in cheating anyone out of anything.


Most of my dreams last night were on the unhappy and stressful side. Probably because I finally took some NyQuil for my cold because I was pretty sure I wouldn't be able sleep at all without it.

Dream One (fragment): I'm showing off a new shirt. It's apparently got My Little Pony on it or something.

Dream Two: I'm in a parking deck with a group of people, a few guys and another girl. We're getting reading to go to a class of some sort on fighting or something, but if we're late they won't let us participate in the class. Everyone's really stressed and rushing, scared we're going to be late. A guy drops his book bag and all his things fall out. We all stop to help him pick his stuff up. He tells us to go ahead because it's going to take too long to clean up and we're going to be late. Me and another guy refuse to leave because it wouldn't be right for one of us to get left behind. We feel like if one of us should have to wait until next year all of us should in support of our friend. The others don't seem to agree with this, and they just go on ahead without us. We get everything picked up, and start to head into the big building where the class is being held. We see a huge mass of people going through the doors, and realize we're almost late. We try to run, but by the time we get to the door it's closed and we're too late. One of the guys tried to open the door, and it's unlocked. We go to sneak in, but the teacher sees us and calls us out. He asks why we're late, and we tell him what happened. The he reminds us that if we were late we were not supposed to be in the class, and wanted to know if we knew this when we stopped to help. We tell him yes, and apologize for interrupting the class, then turn to leave. Before we can get back out the door the teacher tells us to stop, and we do. Then he turns to the class and starts giving a speech on how you should never leave a comrade behind, even if it means you may suffer yourself. He says that we showed a wonderful example, and that we're not only going to be allowed to participate in the class, but we're his top students already. Then he calls us team hoopers, and I wake up, lol.

Dream Three (fragment): I'm chasing a cat through some streets and alleys.

Dream Four: I'm standing in the kitchen frying something on the stove. The couple who own the house we may end up moving into is there. The wife asks me if I'm planning to home school my kids or put them in public schools. I start explaining to her that with the way my kids don't behave or listen to me, I'm pretty sure I'm going to send them to public school in hopes that seeing other kids behaving would give them the peer pressure needed to behave. I also talk about them having ADD and how I feel like homeschooling would help them in the long run if they would just learn that they're expected to do the work whether they feel like it or not. Then I start talking about how I had this same conversation earlier in the week with my best friend who seems to think my kids are going to do terribly in school because they have trouble sitting still and paying attention. Then the husband leans over the frying pan to see what I'm cooking, and starts telling me about how bad public schools can be and why they decided to homeschool their kids.

The vitamins are slowly starting to sink back in It usually takes a week for me to go from no memory to full vivid dreams, but I can already remember much more from this set of dreams than the previous night. My recall is slowly coming back together, woo hoo! Now if only I could get my sleep schedule back around so I can sleep longer and dream more, ha ha.

Dream one(fragment): I think I was glowsticking on the beach and then a storm was coming so I was trying to get into a hotel before I was blown away.

Dream two: The earliest point I remember is asking my grandma where my husband was. She said he was in the basement cleaning, but when I went downstairs it was ambies there instead. She stepped outside for a moment an there was a guy out there with her. He seemed young, and was flirting with her. Part of me was jealous that she was prettier than me, but then I figured it didn't matter bc I was an old married woman, lol. Then a piece of paper blew out of her hand. It was important, so I ran after it. I end up jumping on boxes to the top of the roof then jumping off the roof to get it. When I gave her back her paper, I was telling her not to let go of it again. The guy came up behind me and slipped his hands around my waist under my shirt and pulled me back into him. I yell out, "what the fuck are you doing?" And pull forwards away from him, but his hold on me is firm. He replies that his hands are cold and he was warming them up and kisses me lightly on the forhead. I'm not happy with this though, and I tell him he doesn't even look 18 yet so he needs to get his hands off from me. He laughs and tells me he is definitly 18, then I ask since when. He tells me since a long time ago, but then I wake up.

Still don't have enough vitamins in my system so it'll be a few days of short entries for a while. Oh, and entries from my phone b/c I don't have time to get online much yet

Just a quick entry bc I've not taken my vitamins while on vacation so my recall sucks! I had a dream last night that I remembered, so I'm posting it from my cell phone

I was in a wooden building that reminds me of an old medieval dinning hall. I'm on a balcony with an older bearded man. In the dream I think he's my dad but he doesn't look like my real dad. He's. Controlling me, telling me what I can and can't do. Then he starts pouring boiling hot water on the people below. I don't want him to hurt them, so in an act of defience I jump down to put myself between everyone else and him. He doesn't care and starts to throw the hot water on me. A guy swoops in behind me and pushes/pulls me into a little room nearby. The hot water has splashed us, but it didn't soak us because he moved me so quickly. Burns are forming, and the room is actually a shower, so it starts pouring down cold water to ease the burns. Its cold though and I shiver so the guy pulls me close to him exposing the burns to the water and warming the side of me that aren't. The shower isn't draining though, and I'm scared we'll drown! But the shhhhs me and tells me itss be ok. Just before the water fills the shower completely, the door flies open and we roll out. He's got friends in the hall and they've killed the king who I thought was my father and saved me. Then I wake up.

The guy was someone I saw a few times at the con, and this is our vacation and time away from everyday life. I'm guessing the dream is telling me I want to escape from the crap in my everyday. Like how in an earlier dream sinoblak thought it showed I was sacrificing myself for others. This dream follows that and goes to show that this is my escape at the con, lol.

Testing to see if I can dream journal from my phone while on vacation no sleep tonight, just driving, lol

Dream One (Fragment): I'm on a ship, with clone troopers

Dream Two (Fragment): Someone is sick and needs a doctor. The doctor does a house call, but it turns out he's a fake doctor and just wants our money for a phoney diagnosis.

Dream Three: I'm fed up with my hair. I decide that I want to try and cut it myself, about an inch or so shorter all around to get rid of the fuzzy ends. I end up shaving the top of my head instead. I start hoping this is just a dream because I don't want to go to Animazement with a shaved head! I run my hands along my head trying to see if it feels wrong or anything to indicate it's a dream. It's feels too real. I'm really freaking out now, especially since the top is shaved but I still have six inch long hair all around the side of my head. I look like my dad with long hair! I wonder if a bandana will hide it, but quickly realize that without the bang my bandanas are not as cute and girly and just make me look like a thug. I curse myself for being such an idiot and thinking I could cut it myself. I wake up, my hair in tact, much to my relief

Dream Four: I'm walking with a female friend I don't recognize ad a waking life friend. We both have our sons with us, but mine is a couple years older than in waking life. (And now I gotta cut this short, because I just got a call to play a game online, I'll try to get back on later and type the details if I still remember them tonight!) Our sons go missing, I find a website of the person who has them, I try to find information that will lead me to our kids, I wake up before I find them!

I've got nothing for yesterday. I didn't take any notes because I'm trying to DEILD meaning I can't rollover and put notes in my phone or I'll screw it up. So far no luck in the DEILD process and the dreams yesterday were lame anyways. Dreaming of Drowning, my mom, just in general uncomfortable and stressful stuff. Not worth remembering to me. Oh, and my "C" key just keeps randomly not working, then it fixes it's self after about three or four sentences, so you'll have to over look what I can't fix with spell correct when it does that :/ I'm hoping this isn't the start of it dying completely.

Spoiler for Music:

I don't normally do this, but as stressed as I am right now over some life issues (hence the reason why I'm dreaming of stressful things) this is my comfort music and it actually works pretty good to set the mood for last night's last dream OK, I clicked the insert video button and input the URL like it said to but it's just making it a hyperlink Can anyone tell me how to fix it? Thanks! N/M... it doesn't show up in the previews, but it shows up when I post.

Dream One: A friend of my mom's is buying Pokemon cards from me. Only the cards have pictures of different rooms of our house, and when she buys them all and puts them together it's going to make our house magically appear and be hers.

Dream Two: I'm in a library. I find a book on the shelf that looks like the cover is moving. I pick it up to look at it, but it turns out to be a portal into a different point in the library where vampires and other mythical people/creatures live. They're not mean and vicious Vampires though, more like Johnny Depp in that movie Dark Shadows, more amusing than scary. (I haven't seen the movie, just the previews, and I wasn't even born when the original show aired so if I'm way wrong on this characters traits please forgive me) I go back to the main part of the library and try to find my best friend because I want to show her. When I find her, the book is gone! But I see a really hot librarian, like bleach blond hair and cheerleader body. I flag her down and ask her if she can show me how to get back to the secret part of the library. She's wary about it at first, but then decides that she can take us since I've already seen it. When we get to the secret part of the library I realize there are all kinds of neat spells and technology in play making things look totally different to people who might look through a window to the inside or accidentally wander in. The coolest part is that from the main part of the library it looks like there's a really high ceiling with windows inset into the ceiling so you can see the sky, but from the secret part of the library you can see that it's actually a big open area with a floor that rises up and down to take you from the lower levels to the upper levels via magic. We all three walk onto the moving floor so we can go up two levels tot he top of the library, but just as we get to the top floor, before it stops moving and clicks into place, something gos wrong. The floor starts shaking, and my best friend and the librarian are able to get off, but because I'm behind them, just as I'm reaching for the rail to hop off myself the floor plummets. When it crashes to the bottom, I can feel the bones in my feet and legs jolt and shift, and then a searing pain in my hips. My legs have broken through my hip bones, and are jutting out of the skin. Everything fades to black, and I wake up. I roll over without thinking, but then try to DEILD anyways.

Dream Three: I'm on a cruise ship with a rising floor very similar to the one in the previous dream, only this one is five times the size of a swimming pool, and 8 shaped like a pool as well. It's also operated by a spinning pole in the center not by magic... sort of like a sky needle in an amusement park, only the pole spins not the floor. I'm avoiding it at first. I'm with my mom, and we've just boarded the ship and some greying guy in uniform is telling us that they have just gotten the floor fixed and permission to reopen the ship. There are tables and tables of food, even something that looks like a giant chocolate pig. I LOVE chocolate, so I break some off and throw it in a napkin in my purse for later, then go to take a bite, but when I put it in my mouth it tastes so gross and greasy, like chocolate covered bacon. Then I realize it's not a chocolate pig, it's a chocolate covered pig! Like someone cooked the pig, then dipped it in chocolate. YUCK! I throw the napkin full of chocolate in my bag in the trash, no way do I want any of that later! Mom and I sit down and start talking on a couch along on of the walls in the dining room. I can't remember what we're talking about, but I think she was telling me that she was proud of me for coming on this cruise when I had just recovered from my injury at the library. A little boy probably around 6 or 7 walks up to us, he has no one with him. We ask where his parents are, and he tells us he's on this cruise by himself. He tells us he's really scared, but we look nice and seeing me with my mommy makes him miss his mommy. My mom offers to let him hang out with us so he's not lonely. He thanks us, then says he's scared of the dark and asks if we can stay in his room and sleep in his bed so he's not scared. My mom says sure, and then we decide to go walk around and explore the ship. As we're walking around we find that the whole thing is HUGE, and it looks like a giant mall inside. There is play equipment for kids to play on, there are store selling things, there are spas, and luxury rooms for people to sleep, there are also restaurants and a pool and hot tubs. It's amazing. I've never been on a cruise ship before, but this would have been damn near impossible to make, especially with that floor that takes you from level to level. Twice we stumble across this couple where the guy is trying to propose to the girl and there are cameras every where filming them. Of course when we accidentally walk in on them, they cut the tape and decide to try again and film it somewhere different (which is probably why we keep running into them). Then at one point we got on the moving floor and it started to shake and I was so scared it was going to fall again like in the last dream. Finally we settle down on another couch having walked around exploring for at least ten minutes. This time the couch over looks the moving floor so when its above our level we can see all the levels below and when it's below we can see all the levels above us. I over hear someone talking, and only half listen to it not trying to easedrop, but they're so loud you can't help but hear. Its the man complaining about how he keeps having to stop his proposal because we keep walking in on it and then he declares that he's a prince and he should have us commoners thrown in jail for ruining his royal proposal. This angers me, so I stand up, and suddenly I'm wearing tight black clothes and have a black cloak, very bad ass looking. I walk over to him, grab a drink on a nearby table, and throw it on him and his bride then start walking away. I don't stop at the couch to sit with my mom and the kid though, I keep walking. I feel very light and confident, and I hear the kid saying, "Why did she do that?" Then my mom says, "That's not Beth, I don't know who that is, but Beth never has confidence like that." While this would normally irritate and offend me, at the time I felt very calm and in control. I felt like I was above anger, and that while my actions against the prince weren't nice they were justified by his arrogance but arguing with my mom would just be petty. The prince yells for his guards to get me, and I sprint quickly away. Having already explored this place, I knew where I could hide and where everything was. First I go to the pool and hide in the showers, when the guards get past me there, I sprint off towards what looks like a dead end, but I do some fancy cool parkour moves and jump from wall to wall making my way up... like Mario in the N64 game, lol. At the top of the wall I realize I'm on a tower of some sort, but when I try to touch the railings, they're really flimsy and keep breaking. I get kind of scared, feeling like if I lose my balance and fall I'm going to get hurt really badly at best. I briefly toy with the idea that this can't be real, but never get lucid. I turn and run down a ramp connected to the tower, and find myself nearly face to face with a man in a black cape and beard. Not the prince, but a really bad ass looking commander of his guards. I remember thinking he'd make a good ally if only he weren't on the other team, he seemed to have most of his shit together. He sees me and tells his guards that they are idiots and I am right there! They need to capture me because I am a danger. I snort, and say, "If you want to get me under control, all you have to do is bring him to me." and I'm referring to Kurasawa at this point. I'm not lucid enough to realize that I'm dreaming, but I am aware enough that I know this is not my waking life and it's very possible for this man to bring him to me. Instead though, the guards rush at me, like five of them in two lines, and I sprint off again, only to wake up a few feet later.