non-lucid

I did it. Thats right. DEILD. My technique. I knew it. I always knew it. When I saw DEILD I was like: Thats the one for me. And it was. It is. This was no "lucky shot" like DILD. This was INDUCED. I have skills! Hell yeah. Before going through this epic night lets start with the two non-LDs I dont care about.

Dream 1: I am in my living room watching TV. My dad browses through the channel. The first thing we watch is America's Got Talent on CityTv. It is obvious that it is not in HD, as you see Howie Mandel in a real crappy image. We watch different groups on the show, mostly dancers. They are on the first stage with the red background, not the Hollywood one. There are also flashbacks of their course on the show, like they do in the real one. Next there's the tourism channel that my dad tells me talks about three cities: Montreal, Quebec and Vancouver. I remember seeing Cinderella (who represents Disney) in a big city at night. She is giving out pamphlets and talking about landmarks. Like a tourism booth. Later, we go to the parking lot (which brings me to think we were in a hotel room and not our living room). I make fun of a bunch of kids there. We get in the very small elevator, and suddenly everyone rushes in. The elevator makes a weird sounds, and I wonder if we got over the limit of people it can take. Since its my mind, of course we did. We crash down in the shaft.

Dream 2: After a failed attempt at DEILD, I fall asleep into another dream. This time, I am going to a shop. It is not very clear what it sells, were just there. She waits for me outside while I go buy whatever I need. I walk around the aisles (which look very much like a library) upstairs while constantly looking at my cellphone which is on a bench near. I go back to where my mom waits. My friend Émilie explains to me why Vampires Suck sucks while we are in a red boat that is parking in yet another parking lot. She says there is a scene where they are just on a boat and it cost a very low 500$. I agree. Then for some reason I go back to the store, except this time im handicapped. My right leg is covered in a big plaster. I go through the same entrance but this time I need the ramp to go upstairs. A woman that probably works there tells me to go on a small square on the ground. I do, and it lifts up very high. She tells me to close my eyes and I obey. I almost fall down since the square is so small. Before I know it im back in the library. In a completely different scenario, I see something (a video?) about how some of the Dragons from Dragon's Den (the rich ppl) succombed to temptation, which I believe is sex, since next is four naked women in a pool. I end up in that pool quickly enough and swim underwater. I notice my plaster has dissapeared.

Ok, now the good part

THE DEILD: After the dream that just ended, I dont move. Obviously, otherwise I wouldnt have managed to transition. Then I try something new: I rub the bottom of the pool I just got out of. You know, the bottom of the pool always had a weird feeling when you touch it. So I keep rubbing it until it feels real. Very real. And then BAM!
My first encounter with SP. It was incredible. Pow! HUGE vibrations. It felt like when your in an old rollercoaster or on a bumpy road. I have mild Tinnitus, but I got REALLY LOUD! On a very higher tone then normal. Then I see something: like an evil eye. You know, evil. Bloody veins, cat-like pupil, yellow. It was a rough ride, especially for a first SP. All this lasted for a few moments until Peeeewww. Black. Immediatly I know im in a dream and roll. I didnt want to roll in the first place, but something told me to. I feel like im falling in my bed and my first thought is: Okay, I did it. Now I gotta fly. Cus you see, thats my goal til school. But I am once again hit by exit blindness and eventually wake up. Damn it. But YEAH! Awsum!

Countdown: 9 nights
Goal: Fly

Oh yeah. Last night I managed to not move and stay still twice (no dream though ). Not only that, two extremely vivid dreams.


Dream 1: I am in a place trying to increase my dream control. An old man, that seems to be my grandpa , is a kikass dude in dreams. He destroys stuff and I try to mimick him. But then another man, who is my father while not looking like my father, goes crazy. He tells us to stop, but we are both aware (yet not lucid) that we are dreaming and that nothing is real. In an epic move, pappy slows down time and tries to implant in his mind that its a dream by saying "Ca va revenir...Ca va revenir" French for: It will come back (like when im waking up). He also does something with a tall can of peas, reconstruct it maybe? Then I try to do the same move and fail miserably.

Dream 2: Im in class and sitting in the back. Next to me is Valerie. I open my science book and browse through. The teacher starts talking about how Nicolas is nice. I dont really pay attention, im watching the images of my book. But then she talks to me and says the time to pass out books is over. I didnt hear that we had to pass down our books to the person next to u so a girl in the back would get one.

Times out

Countdown: 14 Nights

I have stumbled upon the DEILD technique and I think it suits me very well. Though I didnt have results last night and messed up my recall because of it, I trust it will use both my extremely powerful biological clock while giving me close to nothing to do. I learned that the more a technique is demanding on my part, the smaller the results. In other words, I fuck it up every time. So a quick WILD looks like the right way to go, because DILD is too random. Even when I had my only two DILD, i feel like it was just a lucky shot and id rather induce my dreams. If I get any success with this it may also reconciliate me with the traditionnal slow WILD which has proven a complete failure so far. I also like how you get multiple attempts per night. Even though I have had no results yet, im unaware as of wether the problem is my ability to stay still when waking up or entering a dream. I guess light will shed on this mystery later on. And now, my only dream fragment of the night.

I am in Quebec in my family when I hear my Ipod ringing. I take it out of my pocket and answer. Its Shao but I dont know it. I ask who it is and he answers with something incomprehensible. I go: Ok...What do you want? He tells me to come at his place but im not even at home. I say I am in Quebec and I cant come. Whats funny is that my ipod is no phone, it cant ring!

As always when I experience a dissapointement, life gives me a little consolation Although I didnt manage to LD again this night, I did beat my record of Most Dreams in a Night. 4 is now the record to beat

Dream 1: I am on a black street in my neighborhood. I know exactly what street it is, its close to the cycling road and the park. I go by bike sometimes. Anyway I see Philippe (again) who tells me to come play with them. There is also Justin, Olivier (the black one) and Amelie. Justin proposes we play a game where we have to press with our thumbs as fast as possible. It hurts.

Dream 2: I register in a class at school to learn more about and sing like Billy Talent. As I look for the classroom, I notice I am the only student of that class. Up a big set of stairs, M.Dugré and a female teacher are waiting for me. M.Dugré pulls out a weird paralelogramme with blocks inside. There is a single block missing. He asks me what the signification of this object is for the band. I have no idea. He sighs in despair.

Dream 3: The whole dream is centered around screamers. First we go to a park with a big screen. My mom tells there is a pikachu screamer here. I do like usual and hide my eyes and ears. The park has a new screamer every day, and for some reason we always come back. Later my mom convinces me to watch it as it is not scary at all. It isnt, really. After the creepy music that begins, all you see is a pikachu that falls next to a Marill. Not bad. Then the next time we go, the creepy music starts and everyone yells. But not me Im hidden. Then the park manager tells us that the daily screamer is cancelled before it scares kids (go figure). If you want to get your daily dose of being scared shitless, you must go to a huge manor at night. Nice. I decide to stay with my uncle but since its my dream and the plotline doesnt go forward if im not there () I still end up on a boat to the manor. As soon as we get there I feel like ive been there before, either with school or at Quebec with my family. Except now its pitch black outside. Luckily, the dream ends before I get the chance to go in. This was NOT a nightmare. It was a regular dream with the addition of something that would scare me in real life Had I watched one, it probably would have turned into a NM.

Dream 4: Short since it was at 7:15 in the morning. I am in the house when I see a big orange ball. Theres a big crack in it so I decide to put my head in it. I can still breathe through just fine. I walk around the house and watch out not to hit things. I also go on the patio and downstairs. Not long but counts as a dream

Wave 13. My lucky number. It really is, I love 13. I am 13

I tried a new technique I saw on the forums called RC-MILD. I didnt work, but I think its my fault. The point of the technique is to do a final RC JUST BEFORE you sleep. My timing was pretty off, I thought of other things before falling asleep. Then i dreamed of something, but all I remember is I went to bed and suddenly woke up in my real bed. At 5:30. I had the impression that I never slept. Then I tried to WILD with another tech I saw on the forum. Its a twist on FILD by some guy. The point is to trick your body to go in SP by tapping your fingers and then stopping so the body thinks you went to sleep, and turns off. That also didnt work, or at least I dont think so. I got up from my WILD attempt at 7:40. I dont think I stayed two hours in bed, so I may have slipped into sleep during. I was annoyed, because it was now two nights in a row that I hadnt recalled a single dream. But, while listening to Pierre Lapointe on my Ipod, it just hit me. This is the dream that probably happened while I drifted off my WILD.

I need to get a card to go on the bus for school. I buy one, and jump on the bus just as it leaves. The driver congratulates me with my close-callness and asks me for my card. I give it to him and turn around. The bus is filled with persons from school. I look for people that I know and I could sit with. I immediatly spot Benjamin and think about what I will tell him, something like "Hey its been a while"! But suddenly Antoine, who is sitting in the back, gets up and asks me something. I answer and realize how much friends I have that care about me.

The next scene I am in the classroom. The room has white walls and I sit in the left side, in the back. M.Corbeil, along with another random man, explains a special project that needs to be done due tomorrow. We have to do a right angle on a sheet of paper and also do some spiralling color lines.

Then it is dinner time and I am wandering around looking for the cafeteria. I am roaming without really knowing where to go. The mean, old woman who checks the hallways tells me im not at the right place. She creeps me out. I go up a white set of stairs that spins around, look around a little bit until finally I find the dinning room. It has a glass door and wall which I walk through. Inside, the walls are dark blue and the floor is covered by a black blueshish rug. There is also a counter for the food and sauces. There are also lots of white round tables with little stools to sit on. I see people I know sitting at a table and go to join them. I remember Vincent, Jun Yu and the rest is vague. But I dont recall actually eating with them, because in no time I am back in class.

Only this time, we have to do the project. I do my angle and cheat by not using an "équerre" to do it. Mr Corbeil walks around and comes to tell me I need an équerre. He pulls out one out of his pocket. Its green and completely ruined. He shows me how to do a right angle, but his tool is really broken. I say that its okay and pull out my own, which is also broken. Then we give back the projects, and I can see the spirals of others briefly.

Fragment: Something inside a video game store at night.

This night my streak came up from 3 dreams to 6 dreams in a row. Had I taken the time to write them in the middle of the night, they prob would be more detailed.

Dream 1: Phillippe shows me a big garage door in the middle of the school yard. Its a secret door noone can open until a certain class but we manage to open it and see there are chickens inside and also a weapon. Im scared, because I know we could get caught. We promise to not tell anyone.

Dream 2: I am at home with my friends. I explain to them and to my mom about the door. There is a big chunk missing here, and I just cant find it. I think I run in a big busy street, I show a pokewalker to someone and I talk about how the weapon is only for girls. There was also vampires and bats in it at some point, since I remember very well a single image in my head.. All I know is that at the end Julien comes to me when im playing a Mario game (Sunshine?). It is on pause. He picks a controller and I explain him how to run, jump and such. The level is some kind of Bowser level. I jump over electric rays connected through balls.


Dream 3: Now it is time for the famous class in wich they show the chickens. It is very rainy and dark outside. Phil talks to me about how he paid a dealer to open the door. Im like: What?! You paid a dealer?
Our teacher is a big black woman that is similar to Dr Bailey (Grey's Anatomy). Before going inside the school, she looks at me with a suspicious look. Im freaking out. Were busted I tell him. He answers everything is fine, he planned it all. When the class starts, she comes to us and we form a circle around her. She asks Olivier(black), who is apparently with us, how to kill a superhero. He answers correctly and pulls out a color code paper out of his jacket. The teacher takes it and thanks the guy. Then an another dude who is a chicken pro comes in to help Bailey with the chickens. We go open the doors and a ton of chickens rushes out.

The guy talks about how if they stay there too long, they could die. So I help him take the chickens out but he tells me we have to get them IN. I look around and see tons of chickens in cages. Some of them also wear scarfes.

I am an official DV Globalization member!

I have about 10 min to write stuff
Mom sees my journal. Alex sends me a screamer and I hide in stairs, Brother and Sister of Justine in food court, Sev shows me a trick called cerise, I talk with Catherine, what I think is Justine but actually its Jeanne makes out with a guy version of Amelie a werewolf, Justine snow suit casiers I leave stuff cus its not cold, the teacher is waiting for us outside, mom tells me I should have brought back all my stuff,

First Double Dream that i remember last night, wich I guess is a small consolation for the epic lucids I missed this morning. I had TWO dreams with the same theme: Lucid dreaming. Could it BE more blatant? Here they come:

Number 1: Me and my father go to some sort of party and have a picnic on the grass. My dad says we should change spots and sit somewhere else. We sit with Adam, Edward, Thierry and Oliver. Edward is nice with me and trades his carrots for my cucumbers. But then it turns into a fight as me and Adam start beating each others. He throws me way up in the sky and I do a backflip before landing on my feet. Then I grab his neck and give him a facewash before trying to squeeze his skull. Noone wins, and im mad. I walk away thinking (watch this): If I was dreaming, I would have kicked your ass! How could i miss that? Dont ask me.

Now the next one is WAY worse. The whole storyline is centered on it.

Number 2: It starts with me watching some kind of kids show with my dad. It is about an entire family that teaches to kids lucid dreaming (geez) while keeping it educational and fun. They are wearing pink, but when they start dreaming the background turns to white. While going up some kind of tower, the brother in the family breathes fire then starts educating kids about it. I think I made my dad watch it to realize that Inception was real. My mom kicks me out of the house, and I have nowhere else to go but to my uncles LD camp (sigh). I go back inside to pack my stuff and find a flute in the back of my garage. I bring it with me, and play the Song of Healing on it (LoZ OoT). On the front of the house, I see a hot women with my mom. I ask my mother: "Whos this?"
She says she will take care of my brother and sis while she takes me to the camp. We make a stop to what appears to be the place you go to renew your license. While not my mom but my dad sits on a chair to wait, I go to the counter. There is a person in front of me. I go and pull out my health insurance card (im canadian )


She charges it and ask me why im doing it. My reply: In case I ever break a dream leg (GODDAMN IT) Then she gives me a tiny watermelon piece that I start to eat before stopping, thinking I will need it later to fall asleep. I tell my dad: Alright im done with my errand, lets go!
Thats the end of it.

A dream about dreaming. Now thats a first. What is really amazing is that through the entire dream I was anxious about wether or not I could have an LD. Now thats a fail.

As I said yesterday, i got a shot of bad luck. But its gone now. I complete my quota of a dream a night and started a new (hopefully longer) win streak. I didnt have a DILD again since mys first entry, but I think it takes months for some ppl to get their 1rst ones so im not worried.

The dream: Im at some kind of covent. You know these places girls go with nuns? Thats it, but not religious at all. There was a competition or task where they were seperated into groups of 2 or 3 and had to swallow the biggest thing possible before throwing it back up. Gross. There were some guys too, including Kyan. All wearing headbands or handkerchiefs with the Leucan logo (big ladybug). They all talked about their projects and demonsrated their act. The dudes were talking about an atomic whale (?) but I didnt see them throw up.

As for me, im not playing a specific character, but it certainly isnt myself. My team does fairly well, but a team of 2 girls is doing very bad because she cant get her item back up (puppet). A man who appears to be in charge is very mad. The blame is all put on her (who is hot by the way) and her teammate is pissed. Valerie is her name, I remember. I dont remember the name of her teammate though, but both of theyre faces I see very clearly.
Later, they both sit on a counter in the kitchen. The counter is brown and grey and square shaped all around the kitchen. I am Valerie at this point. She tells Vaerie that if she wants to marry a dentist, she has to stop messing up stuff. Her CV has to be clean. Then she leaves. A piece of bread is next to me and a knife is on the sink. I pick the knife and eat a bite of bread directly off the knife.

This is one of the clearest dreams I had since joining. My recall is improving greatly. Before, I would remember about a dream in a month or two. Now im getting close to 2 dreams per night. Getting closer to my goals, and it feels great.

Dream fragment: Im at what appears to be at another contest, this time at school. There are a lot of kids and also teachers watching a stage with a bench at the front. Kids go on the stage to take turns singing a song. They each have a part to sing. For some reason, I go sit on the bench. Now this is the part that was extremely vivid for me. The first girl is standing in front of the bench but decides to move to the right, where i am sitting. I slide on my butt while she keeps getting closer to me until I am at the end of the bench. I get up and she starts singing in a low and fragile voice. She looks at me like shes saying: Help! I forgot the lyrics! I say out loud: I think she has a blank memory. Thats all I remember.

Although I never get a lucid dream yet, this morning I (almost) accomplished a feat i have never done before; remembering TWO dreams in ONE night. Today again I woke up right after a dream (about 5 or 5:30) and remembered the dream i just got out of. Going back to bed, it was a guarantee I would dream one more time and have 2 to write in my journal. Unfortunately, I had to go play golf with my father at 6. Out of luck. I tried to go back to sleep but nope. My fathers alarm clock buzzed. Times out.

The dream:
In my classroom at my high school. I am sitting at my place but nobody is with me. I look around and see Alexis, Antoine, Yussef and Eric behind me. At the end of the class there is Catherine and Severine (see Wave 2) with Etienne. He hugs Sev. I think its pathetic, since shes not his GF and she thinks hes ugly. Then my French teacher starts talking to the class. She refers to Alexis as the French fry, cause hes blond. She did some comments about the organisation of the class and how a teacher could help you with your binders (?). Then Eric says something racial against Muslims in the class. I think at that point our teacher is a man.

At recess in my primary schools yard, he walks and talks to his friends when he sees all the Arabic kids of the school. He starts to walk away and puts on his hood but they gang up on him and chase him around. I pop up and walk behind them while talking to Karim (who is a Muslim) and asking him of its really that funny. He answers yes and I agree in my head. Then at some point he pulls out a shovel and tries to hit me. I stop it with my hands. The dude is freakin crazy in real life, i wouldnt be surprised if he hit someone with a shovel. This happens in front of my French teacher who doesnt say a thing. End of Wave 4. Wave 5 coming up tonight.

It is the 3rd night and im starting to get the hang of dream recall. I have not had a night without a dream. Yet. But every morning i wake up with no dream in mind, fall asleep after a while and THEN get a very clear dream. I believe thats why WILDers wake up early in the stage of REM. It kinda makes sense and is completely natural. I guess. So anyway I wake up in the middle of the night completely empty.

Heres the thing: I had NO IDEA I fell asleep. I look at the time; 5:30. Holy crap. BUT I DIDNT NOTICE I FELL ASLEEP! Then i went, maybe im deaming. Check. Nope. Very awake. But its dark like midnight outside! So I start again but as I try to fall asleep I see the sun rising and morning pointing his ugly face. Crap i have nothing.

So heres the dream:
Im fighting a creature that looks like a mix of the Joker and Johnny Depp (in Alice). I never touch him during the dream; he throws stuff which I avoid or catch and throw back. We are fighting in a scenery that looks similar to the forest in Alice (though i didnt see the movie).

After a while I end up next to a ladder which leads to a dark attic/cave. I hesitate and decide not to go inside in fear of meeting a Skulltula (huge spider in Zelda that hangs on ceilings). Down there is a turquoise (greenish blue) flashing light. I am not myself; I am a big bearded man. Then what appears to be a clone of me and my wife (?) jump down. The light becomes huge and they never come back.

Back with Johnny, in my living room this time. He throws some kind of boomerang like Batmans, but when i catch it it becomes soft and flexible. I also catch and throw a thing that looks like a Liechi Berry in pokemon, only much bigger. I find a way to lock him up outside behind the main entrance. I see his blurry face through the window. Then I turn around, go up the stairs and when I look back: he got back in. Then i scream : HEIN? COMMENT YA FAIT POUR RENTRER?!
(how did he get back in?!) Then i wake up.

Note: This was not a nightmare. Simply a weird, creepy dream.

Side-dream
I remember vaguely another dream before that where I tried to impress Ali the Bachelorette by writing mean things in a window of a room. Then she would get inside the room and see all those sweet messages I wrote all over the walls and ceiling. All of them were signed: Ray,Ray,Ray,Ray.... I think i was helped by a group of asian policemen. Thats it.

This morning, I dreamed I was with a lot of friends at school. We were sitting in the auditorium. I see Sandy walking with Antoine and Kyan. I wonder if she lost the interest she seems to have in me to give to Antoine, since were no longer in the same bus. Then we all decide to play a pokemon match. Me and all my friends are lying on a floor in a place i cant recall. We all have our Nintendo DS. I ask them if they have some kind of special piece of equipement for the DS. It had a specific name but i dont remember it. Then we start our tournament and we seem to be in the game. I see at some point a transparent Gengar (my fav :3) and a crobat. I also see a machoke-like creature that gets hit by a one-hit KO. From afar, i hear Sev and Cat that talk about how they know the owner of the crobat. I have a crobat in real life too so. Then Julien asks me for a 1 on 1 battle. I accept but my mom says its no fun for the others.

Then im inside my computer room and next to me is Sandy. I think its my sister and dont notice her. She asks me out but i refuse because i think shes my sis. I think we also had some link together, her father i think. Then she leaves and later my real sis comes to talk to me. It dawns on me and i ask her if she asked me out earlier. She says no. Then i think "I have to talk to Sandy" and my dream ends like that. I have to talk to Sandy.