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3-2-08


Dream 2:

I don't remember how this dream started. I seem to pick up in the middle of it somewhere. I think I was lucid.

I am in a big city. I realize how beautiful the plaza area is. I walk out into it. There are fountains, and planters full of flowers and everything is made out of brick.

I think this was near a college because there are college students everywhere. I walk of to a group of girls and one wants to share some marijuana with me. I tell her, "No thank you."

I then walk over to a building not far from that group. It is at least five stories high and made of brick. I want to impress the college students. I know that I can fly, but instead I decide to scale the brick building.

I decide to make myself weightless and use my fingers to lift by body up. The bricks don't have much to grip, but since I am weighless, this isn't much of a problem. I climb the brick wall for a time.

The next thing I know I'm about four stories up, and suddenly facing outward. My feet are now holding up my body, which doesn't feel weightless at all.

I am amazed at how I went from being in control of my dream to feeling like I was truly and physically in this very precarious situation. I stood there for a long moment and felt my legs start to shake. I could feel the weight of my body. My fingers gripped the bricks to my side. I was afraid to even move.

But at the same time, I knew I couldn't get hurt. I knew that I should just be able to fly back down, and that I just needed to believe that I could do this. I briefly remembered that LD I had a long time ago where I was afraid to jump off a building because it felt too real and that even though I knew my real body wouldn't be harmed, I was still afraid of experiencing "dream pain".

I'm not sure what happened, but the next thing I remember is that I'm back down on the ground again feeling very relieved that I did it without any pain involved.

I need to do better at recording my dreams again, even if all I remember is a short, boring fragment.

Last night's short boring fragment: I was driving up LP Blvd towards the high school and had to pull over because of emergency vehicles going by. It seems that one was actually in the sky, but I didn't notice it as weird at the time.

I haven't been recording my dreams lately. I need to do better. I thought this one from last night was interesting.


Tom DeLonge and his wife Jennifer were sitting with me in what was supposed to be my family room. I pulled out a box that I had had for a long time. It was full of pictures and letters that Tom had written at an earlier time in his life. I told him that I had kept it, but that I had never opened it and looked at anything. He seemed very interested to see what was inside. He started reading old letters and would comment or laugh from time to time. As he read he sorted them in piles. He finally pushed a pile toward me and told me that I could read the things in that pile. I looked forward to reading them. I wondered what was in the other pile. I was knew it must be the more personal/private things. I was suddenly glad that this box had been at my house and not in the hands of someone who wouldn't have respected his privacy, who would have read the letters--or worse-- posted them online.

I wanted to ask Tom some questions, but as I looked at him I saw that he was looking through a magazine. I looked at his wife. She was just sitting quietly on the floor. I decided to go sit by her. I plopped down next to her and said something like, "Hi Jennifer. I don't really know much about you. Tell me about yourself."

And she started talking to me. She told me that life had been good but that 6 (I think) years ago everything changed when her dad was diagnosed with cancer. And she started telling me about the hell her family gone through with that.

I then told her that my life had changed (and then I couldn't remember how long it had been since my sister had gotten cancer. I thought and thought, but finally said "several years ago") I told her how my sister had died and how much I missed her.


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I know that this last part of the dream was inspired by my recent kayaking trip. I was with a group of ladies--some of which I knew and a few that I didn't. And I had done pretty much exactly what I did in the dream. I found a quiet time when we weren't kayaking to ask them to tell me about themselves so I could get to know them better.

The interesting thing is I found that Cancer had touched almost all our lives. Three (of seven) were cancer survivers. Two had husbands that had had cancer. And two of us had lost sisters to cancer. The only one who hadn't had cancer (or at least didn't mention it) had recently gone through an ugly divorce. It made me realize how many tragedies this group had overcome.

Interesting...

I squished a black widow in real life yesterday.

Then I dreamed last night of black widows and squishing them.

Makes sense.

But last night I dreamed that I saw a tree with woodpeckers in it.

And this morning I saw a woodpecker in my willow tree. Woodpeckers aren't common in my area, and I have only seen them here a few times in the past. It was really odd--what I saw in real life this morning was so much like my dream last night, I had to wonder if I was dreaming.

I'm so behind in my posting. I have had some fairly vivid dreams, but I didn't write them up at all, so they are gone...forever...

I had an odd dream last night.

This took place way back when the nation was being settled and there were conflicts between Native Americans and the settlers. In the dream I was kidnapped by a native and he told me he had to do some tests on me before their tribe would decide my fate. He took a small knife and put it to my wrist and made a small cut. I felt a little relief when the cut didn't hurt. He told me my blood had to be tested for "poison". If I had poison in my blood I would be killed immediately, if not, they would keep me alive for a short time. I wasn't sure which fate I wanted. I had a feeling that if I was left alive it would just be so I could be raped and tortured and then finally killed.

I wanted to tell him that they didn't need to kill me or torture. That I could be useful. I was also pretty. Surely some man in the tribe could appreciate me and learn to love me. I could learn to live the way Native Americans lived.

I remember feeling a huge wave a relief when I woke up and realized that it was just a dream and I wasn't going to be killed, tortured or raped or have to marry a stranger.

It's kind of a funny dream to have since I live in a town with more Native Americans than white people.

Dream:

I was with RS from high school. I realized that we had gotten married. It was an odd feeling because I knew that we had never been intimate in any way before. I decided that we needed to be close. He was lying on a bed with his shirt off. I crawled partway on him and started biting a little on his neck and shoulder. I was nervous and this took a lot of guts to do. But he didn't respond at all. So I got back up and took off my shirt and tried again. Again he didn't respond, until finally he stood up and said that he wasn't really feeling "into it". I was left feeling really rejected.

Yesterday's Dream:

Last night I dreamed that I was at the lake. I was on a houseboat that was near another houseboat. I looked down into the water and to my horror I saw an alligator. I hadn't known that there were alligators here. i then looked over at the other houseboat which was only about 10 feet away from where I was. I saw two ladies I know who are my neighbors. All of a sudden they both fell into the water. One of the ladies is quite elderly. I knew she needed help. I wanted to jump right in and save her. But I had this horrible feeling of selfishness come over me. I didn't want to lose an arm or leg to the alligator. But then I also knew that there was no way I could just stand there either. I somehow was able to grab on to some things so I could get close to her without fully jumping into the water. i was able to get ahold of her and carry her out of the water. I then looked over and to my relief saw that someone else was helping the other lady.

I was sitting in what was supposed to be my car (but it looked more like a large, more spacious van), and I started seeing black widow spiders. They were on the floor, door, by the pedals, etc. I kept trying to step on them. I was worried that I would get bitten.

Dream 1:

I was moving things in my yard around. I suddenly felt a sting and looked and saw that I had been bitten my a black widow. At first I felt quite alarmed, but then I calmed myself down and went to grab my homemade healing salve and "poison kit" I always carry in my backpack when I hike in rattlesnake country. I knew I would be okay. And I was actually a little excited to give this a try since I had worked so hard to put the kit together.

I had a very powerful baby dream last night. I don't remember a lot of details. But I do remember I had this baby girl who was about 4-5 months old. She was so wonderful and adorable and I felt this overwhelming love for her. I remember just being in awe that I was this little girl's mom. It was amazing. At the same time I seemed to have this faint feeling that this wasn't going to last (but not enough to lead to lucidity). I remember being at my sister's place sitting on her couch holding the baby. I also remember seeing a baby swing in one of her rooms and being excited to put my baby in the swing. I also remember thinking, "I really need to buy some baby stuff."


I know this dream was inspired by being with two friends last evening and their babies which were both around 4 months old.

I have had 2 more LDs this last week but haven't written them down. I'll jot down a few notes so I don't forget.

LD 1: I became lucid and started to fly. Then I realized I wanted something yummy to eat, so I flew into a store and found what looked like rice crispy treats, but tasted more like carmel corn.



LD2: I was flying and became lucid. I flew past some beautiful buildings and out towards the ocean

I must not be sleeping well in my hotel in Phoenix.

Dream 1:

I was in my hotel room when I feel a lot of shaking. The floor to my room starts to slowly fall down a few feet. I was able to get out of the room, but after I do I watch as the whole room falls several stories to the ground with all my stuff in it.

Dream 2:

I was supposedly sleeping when I felt this horrible feeling. I try to yell and scream, but as is normal for me in dreams, just the sounds of strong breaths come out of my mouth. Later I wake up within the dream and see that I had my camera on and facing the bed all night and notice that I captured video of myself sleeping. I watch the video and see myself trying to sit up and scream in my sleep. It is very freaky and I wonder if I had been possessed.

From 11-2-07

I tried to do a WBTB WILD. I didn't get very far. I counted backwards, and had it in my mind to try the gender task. I started to enter a dream. At one point I was holding a bowl and I started to drop it. But I caught it with my mind because I knew I was dreaming. But then I was suddenly awake.

Old LD from 8-8-07



We can do anything.... (Lucid Dream):

This one started as a typical school nightmare. I was in high school or college. I couldn't remember my schedule or my locker combination.I remember thinking... "Well, I'll just go to the office to pick up my schedule and locker combination." But I couldn't remember how to get to the office.

I had this tiny computer in my hand. I decided that I could find out my schedule by looking online for it. I tried to type . But I couldn't push the right keys. I tried over and over and was getting very frustrated.

I finally ended up ina classroom. The teacher was Cordelia (from Buffy the Vampire Slayer).

I sat down next to Xander. We had this huge assignment that we were having to work on together. I was very stressed about getting it done. I also realized at this point that I was supposed to be taking this test.

At the moment I started to panic, I realized that I was dreaming. I had this wonderful sense of relief. I didn't have to finish the assignment or take the test. I could walk away from it all.

I looked over at Xander. "Do you know what this means?" I asked him. "We can leave." I then took his hand and we floated out of the room.

We ended up in my front yard. I man I know was there (MM). MM asked Xander if he was an Eagle Scout. I told him that he had gotten very close.

Then some weird guys dressed up in Halloween costumes came into the yard. I could tell that they were going to cause trouble. Xander wanted to stay and confront them. But I pulled his arm and turned him to face me.

"Let's not fight them. This is just a dream. We can do anything"

At that, he looked at me and smiled and gave me the "ohyahbaby" look:

But in this dream I had other ideas. I told him, "Look at me..." And I took off flying in the sky, laughing.

He saw me flying "swimming style" and told me to make rockets come out of my feet--that we could go a lot faster if we did.

I looked at his feet and could see little flames shoot out of them as he suddenly took off fast. I then pressed my legs together very tense and straight and concentrated on flames coming out of my feet too. I knew it had worked when I started flying after Xander very quickly. I remember thinking that I really needed to remember this style of flying becasue it was really better than what I did most of the time.

Xander and I fly for a while until he wanted to stop and eat at a restaurant.

At this moment I'm only remembering two dream fragments.

1. I am being chased by a wolf into a river.

2. I see Clair (who I used to work with) eating little maggot-like bugs. It was super gross.