non-lucid

I have been focusing on MILD

Fragments. Once I woke up thinking I had been lucid but had no recall. The second time I hear someone that I thought of as Wurlman say the words, "lucid dreaming" I woke with start. I can't remember any other details.


#1 There was a party with a bunch of teens. Something about it ending but the guys wanted to go longer. We though of ways to keep it going but someone drank the last beer. They said "Last of the alcohol" and threw the bottle in the fireplace.

I saw my wife who wasn't my wife just a girl I liked. I wanted to makes sue she didn't go home with some jerk so I offered to give her a ride.

#2 I am on some train ride roller coaster thing in some tunnels. I remember the old dream from a few days ago and am confused why we went a different route. The train soon dissolves and I am walking in some strange maze like building. I think of mini golf. There's something about a window unit.

I find myself standing outside the window unit. I make an adjustment and turn around. There are two guy that look really thugish. They also look like my wife's sisters husband but they have long hair and red bandannas. They look Mexican but also may like Native Americans. I think they must be his brothers. They have the same eyes. There's a third guy and we all talk about something.

# 3 I am playing some game at work with a bunch of people sitting at a table. My wife is one of them. I roll dice and take as many steps. I continue until I get to the smoker shack that now looks like a brick building from downtown with several stories. I go back to the table and realize I left my son in the building. I worry how long it has been. I run back thinking about how many times I must have rolled dice to get there. I worry that I skipped everyones turn. I find my son in some room buried in cloth. I feel him and pull him out and cuddle him. My wife is with me and I feel really bad. Some young woman drives up in car (I guess I am outside now?) and tries telling me something but Ignore her. I look at my son and he is a newborn again. The woman coos at him.

color code:
Gray = Comments
Black = Non-Lucid
Bold = non lucid dream cues
Italics = dream thoughts
Red = Lucid

I have a couple DILDs but once I realized I was dreaming Immediately woke up. All I could remember was random thoughts and images like I wasn't fully dreaming yet. It was probably just strong HI. I later have this really vivid NLD

I am at some sort of whole food market like FoxFarm here in town. I have a dip net and there is a tank with various live sea creatures. I pick out a lobster, and some shrimp, and something I call an amoeba. It looks like a flowery ball of rubbery flesh about the size of a tennis ball. I look back and ask some guy that looks like CL if he wants anything else. I don't think he answers but I realize that since wear are together we must be on a business trip so it's probably on the company's dime. I decide to get some more shrimp.

I get to the register with my seafood and and some big salt shaker. I think that it is full of some kind of seasoning like salt and vinegar. The seafood costs $3.45 but the seasoning cost $9.15. I am surprised and make a disgusted face but say nothing.

I hand the lady my card I notice the previous customers card is still in the machine. The cashier is a really old woman and appears confused. She has to subtract the amount from that card and re-ring everything up. It looks like she is using a laptop do everything and I begin to feel really impatient as she blankly stares at the computer screen through thick glasses.

My wife says something snoody. I look back and see her holding our son looking really pissed off. I shake my head to tell her to be nice. She leaves me standing there to watch the batty old woman make a mess of the whole transaction.

I was lazy last night and didn't keep any dream notes. Luckily I still remember 3 but I think I'm still forgetting one. Maybe it will come to me later. I was going for WILD/DEILD but at each awakening my wife's snorring made it hard to consentrate. I couldn't even try MILD or SSILD. It didn't help that at the beggining of the night I was dealing with restless leg syndrom and a few time during the later part of the morning. If I hadn't just come from the relciner befrore my WBTB I would have moved there to escape the snoring. The odds seem to be stacked against my reaching lucidity lately.

BOLD = Dream Cues

#1 - NLD

I am cooking fajita meat. There is a premature baby laying on the prep table wrapped in a tortilla. I feel confused how and why the beef looks like a baby. I wonder if I should just bite it's head off or wait for it to change on it's own.

I look up and notice at the small table in the middle of the street. I see a device like the TV remote but know it records audio and video. I see my ex-wife arrested in a cop car. I turn the audio up and say "Oh I've got to see this!" Turns out she had been involved in some shady dealing involving sex and she had been living a double life. It was no surprise to me. I woke up.

#2 - NLD

I was shopping in a department store for some shorts and jeans. There was a huge unblievable sale were everything was 2 for $10. The clothes I really wanted were completely sold out but I found something I liked. I looked at the brand of jeans I am trying on and it has the DW symbol. The 11th Doctor shows up and tell me it was destiny that I bought those jeans. He says something about having lots of adventrues ahead like I was to be the next Doctor.

I put him aside for a second and began to worry that these jeans are so cheap because of Chinese Slave labor. I thought of how IWL I read an article where a slave worker put a "help me" note in some halloween decorations.

I get online and look up the store that I was buying from. Everyone said it was "Cetified Approved" meaning it was "Fair Trade". I was relieved to find this out but then I woke up.

# 3 - NLD

I am at work at the old 13st facility. Something about talking to Hobee in the break room. We run out of work so they put me and two others in tha back to count and organize some stuff in storage. After moving stuff around I notice that it seems like it got really late. I look at the time and see its almost 6:30PM. One guy that looks like someone I knew in elementary school is asleep on a pallet. I wake him and tell him we will be locked in here all weekend if we don't leave. He didn't seem to care and would not wake up. I woke up.

I drank a little too much last night and only remember this one dream. This is a really old dream sign of mine but I never seem to get it. The next time I dream about school I will know that I am dreaming!

I was in a class room taking a test and nothing on the paper made sense. (confusion)I got the feeling that I had dozed off when the teacher was giving the lesson. (FA?)The kids around me where whizzing through the questions like it was easy. I could only stare blankly at the paper not really comprehending the words on it. I felt really stupid and was panicking inside. I didn't want to ask the teacher for help because I felt so embarrassed. I could not believe he made us do this crazy test after the summer break. None of the other teachers did. (False memory)I spent a lot of time looking around, trying to reason this whole thing out until I woke up.

I meant to do MILD after WBTB but I was so tired I passed out in the first few seconds of it.

I was in a strange house with two long hallways and an open round room. This room was the largest of all and had glass vaulted ceilings. I had the feeling of great wealth and freedom as I stared out into the night sky. I wanted to expand my house and I had a feeling like I could add on glass blocks like on Minecraft. Then a female DC (I think was probably my wife) started jumping on a giant round purple bed in the room. She said she liked the house the way it was. I noted how impossibly large this bed was and thought it could not be real. I became semi-lucid and for some reason wanted to remember how the rest of the house looked before I woke up. I ran around and got the basic layout before I had a brief awakening.

I was going through some underground dungeon slaying monster like creatures. Some looked like organic toy cars about the size of diner plate and I began stomping them. They would squish and ooze something like brains each time I stepped on them. Then I made my way to the boss battle. There was a giant green glowing bowl floating around with neon green liquid in it. I readied myself to fight as I taunted it. As it came at me I threw a fist at it but woke to the sound of a screaming kid.

Time about 5AM. That's actually good as I remembered to was trying to get lucid. Took care of the issue and went for WILD. Nope still passed out.

I was in the Luling house with some kids. I went outside for some reason and saw there was a large blackberry bush in the front yard. I remember my waking life bush and though they would not be ripe yet here. To my surprise, they were large plump and purple. I pulled one off the bush and ate it. The first one was very sweet and juicy but the next two were a little sour. The bush looked very dry like it had not seen rain in months. I thought I should water it but with that thought I felt rain drops on my arms. I looked up and saw storm clouds and heard a rip of thunder. I woke up to a sound.

About 7:30AM - Brief OBE - DILD

I stayed still to DEILD

I felt vibrations right away. After a few moments I blindly transitioned out of my body and thought I was still in the Luling house. I followed the hallways out of the bedroom. I became confused when I remembered I was not there but here.

Back in body. Vibrations. This time only my upper body would come free and I was very aware of the light outside. I got pulled back into my body and I focused 6 ft from the top of my head and the vibrations got stronger. I imagined pulling energy into myself and the vibrations go stronger still. After a moment I tried moving again. I floated up and did the 180 degree turn. I was not expecting that and I slammed back in. I continued to struggle back and forth for several minutes until I heard my son screaming again. All vibrations dissolved instantly and I woke up.

3:30AM - Lightning gun - NLD
Fragment shooting people with a lightning gun. Have a buddy helping. Looks like Borderlands.

6:00AM - Demons - NLD

There are square shadows floating in the air above us in a church. I turn around and pull out a long Obsidian dagger. I look around and everyone has blades of many shapes and sizes all made of the same material and all glowing. It begins to glow blue as I ready myself. The demons are afraid and don't come any closer. I slash at one and cut it in half. I take the other half and rip it up. I use dream control to make it dissolve into nothingness.

I am ridding in a car and the driver has a large envelope with one of the demons in it. It begins to moan and complain about trivial discomforts in a womans voice. The driver mockingly calls it his god. I wake up.

Time unknown - Micro Lucid - DILD
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I walk into the living room and see my son running up to me. I pick him up and yell at my wife, telling her he was walking. I know this has to be a dream. But unfortunately I either woke up or lost lucidity because I remember nothing else.

1:40AM

I am an astronaut. I am riding in a mine cart up to a huge shuttle nestled in a wooded mountain side with my fellow astronauts. I hear a distant crowd cheering for us and I put both hands in the air in response. I tell the person next to me that I am so excited to finally go into space. I said I would go before I die and here I am.

At the launch site we do various mundane things to prepare. I wake up before anything good happens.

WBTB missed. I wake at 5 and decide its too late for WBTB. I go for a DEILD with the Monroe tech.

#not counting - Sometime after shortly after 5AM - DILD?

The dream forms and I find my self mixing epoxy at my old job. I look down and realize its actually pancake batter. I am confused with this dream and realize that I was trying to have an OBE. I throw myself backward to force myself back in bed into a lying position. I fall fast and then in slow motion and float. I get a vertigo sensation and butterflies in my stomach.

I am now in bed and I feel that familiar feeling of the dream state. I go ahead and try to move but I feel paralyzed. I wait for the vibrations instead of trying other exit method. I think maybe I am too awake since I never felt vibrations. I have too much importance placed on it and I lie in the void until a noise wakes me up.

I go for DEILD again

A dream forms and I see a white ball partially buried in grass. I think it looks like a golf ball and when I pick it up I see that I was right. It feels solid and I note the texture of the dimples. I realize I am dreaming and become way too excited waking myself up.

Lion, Tiger, and.... dog? - Time unknown

I am at my first job at Long John Silvers. I realize I am wearing that same colorful shirt from the hospital dream last night. There is a tiger and lion in the kitchen and they keep fighting. The noise of is is awful and I cringe every time they get near me and I worry that the costumers will notice and we will all get in trouble. A pug dog that I recognize as mine runs away from under my chair in the drive thru and I hurry after it. I runs into the front lobby and I nervously try to laugh it off and makes jokes about a dog in the restaurant.

I pick the dog up and take it outside. I decide to get in my car and leave. In the parking lot we can hear the sound of the tiger and lion fighting. It sounds odd and distorted (probably my wifes snoring!) Some one hears it and says it must be someone bowling. Not wanting anyone to know about the tiger and lion and agree that bowling must be the source of the noise.

Air Raid - Time unknown

I am in some old WWII era building. I know its all fake but I think it's some type of mystery role playing game in a museum. There is some puzzle with fans and someone tells me to get a shopping cart. I look down a hallway but don't see it. Then two carts some rolling in from an adjacent hall. I take one and push it to the fans. Something about the cart being in proximity starts the fans and a phone rings. I put it to my right ear but I feel some obstruction. I hear a creepy man giving me instructions but I can't hear very well. I decide my hearing aid (What? I don't wear one IWL) is malfunctioning so I put the phone to my left ear. I am confused when I still hear the voice in my right ear. I laugh at this but instead of question if it is a dream I just think my hearing aid is really messed up. Then suddenly I hear the voice in my left. I begin to think that I'm missing something important here but before I can think an air raid siren goes off. I hear a loud boom and the building shakes.

I know that I am the star of this show and I must get in a plane and parachute out. I run off with some guy that I know as the pilot. I stop and ask him who has my son R. He says my dad does and calls him a "dipshit" I run back a ways and see my dad carrying R and my two daughters walking behind him to safety. Knowing my kids are OK, I continue with the pilot. I wake up.

Fragments

I'm smoking again. I feel the sting of the smoke in my throat. I worry that I am addicted. I need to buy a pack.

I see a dead chicken on the ground. A second live chicken walks up to me.

Bluffs - 4:20AM - semi-lucid

I forgot the first part of this dream and I felt semi-lucid

I see a boy of about 10 in a shallow river next to some shallow bluffs. He looks like he is sorting and cleaning small pebbles next to a really large rock (about the size of stock pot) up on a natural rock "trough" in the water. I use my mind to send a wave of water and wash out all the rocks. It even carries the large one way. He mutters something and put the large rock back.

I walk up on a much higher bluff with some unknown person behind me. I want to think that it is NyxCC but I am not sure. I see CanisLucidus and NewArtemis sitting down talking. I already know what CL looks like in waking life and he appears normal. I didn't get NewArtemis' face but I kind of got and idea of her height and build in my mind. We all have a long conversation about lucid dreaming as I am looking out over the bluffs.

The scene is bright and sunny. The area is rocky and dry like Texas in mid summer. The water seems a little too brown. I suddenly see NA jump off the cliff in the corner of my eye. I look around and only see a slight disturbance in the water below. CL says, "That's her experimental exit." I wonder is she just woke herself up or it she went into a different dream. CL continues talking, "She's younger than you. Probably around 26 or 27." Then he goes on talking about how "exceptional a dreamer she is" and how she "just dreams so much". (How thick am I? )

We talk some more and the fourth person stayed quiet but I am aware of his/her presence. I soon wake up.

5:38AM

I am on the computer chatting with CL about my dream. I see the posted some long VM but the words "Go go go win win win" Pop out at me clearly and vividly. Then I look at the time and it is 4:34PM. I feel panic when I realize I never went to work and I'll probably be fired for no-call-no-show. I try to think how I'm going to save my job.

2:08AM - pre WBTB

Vivid dream that I'm upstairs at my parents house. There are worms that look like crimp contacts that we use at work in the carpet. They become like worms and try to burrow into the soles of my feet. I feel pain and pull on off but at that moment on enters my left hand. It's hurts so bad. I try to pull it out but there is suture string attached. I finally comes out with large amounts of clear liquid. I blame my cats and dogs. I tell mom and she says, "So they are hidden above me!" I say, "Yes" and quarantine the animals. I find another womr but its hard to kill it since it's made of metal.

4:52AM - I was either on the verge of lucidity or I lost lucidty. - CL I think this might have been you!

I can run super fast like a vampire. I visualize the entire run in great detail as it happens. It was like I was creating the entire scene in real time on purpose. I meet up with someone I was looking for. There was to be some exchange of something. It's a man that I know. He turns into a Blutbad. I show him I'm a blutbad too. He has a friend eating raw meat. That one is from another world. An alien blutbad.

A separate dream. I am on some pressurized platform in the stratosphere. There are several air locks. A woman destroys governmental targets using the governments own missiles. I want her to take place as a new government but she sends herself into space on a one way journey. I know that she will die after some time. She says that she will get to see all the planets within a week. She reminds me of Donna Noble.

6:25AM - I only recall what I wrote.

The wedding.

The swimmers.

Have to be quick so I'll leave out the details.

#1 I'm an extra in a play. Something about number coded items. I'm wearing some robe. My part is not speaking but I pretend to have a funny conversation with someone.

#2 I am camping with RR and full into different campsites the they are disappointing because the look like putting a tent in a parking lot.

#3 My back yard is flooded and water is coming up to the deck. I start looking at river rocks and find loose change. Dimes and quarters. Then a dollar on the deck. I think all this is really cool.

#4 I am driving and see a horrible car crash. One car is on its top and burning. There is a child in it. Suddenly my car crashes but I'm ok. I try to call 911 but my cell doesn't work. I run to a house and use an old corded land line. I have a conversation with them and I am crying. I go back and show my wife where it all was but it looks like a strange basement.
It was very emotional.

#5 My son has to go to the doctor right away for something I'm concerned about in waking life.

#6 We decide to trade our new car in for something else. The dealer asks me how much I own and I am amazed at how upside down we are.

All I can recall is working at my job but in an ancient strip mine. I'm still building cables but I feel like an oppressed slave. I see my boss sitting at a desk and I fear her and worry that she will beat me if I don't look busy at all times.

*I need a long vacation.

Been trying for natural wbtb awakenings the past two nights. Sunday night was pretty good though Breif. Last night I woke after two hours drank water and went back to sleep with a half ass MILD attempt. Pretty much blacked out until the alarm. I did have a dream in my mind until I hit the snooze and fell back to sleep. I usually dream pretty vividly between snooze but I didn't this morning.

No weed on planes

This dream was like watching a movie... There was a man who was supposed to be an undercover cop but every time he confiscated weed from someone he kept it and then tried to sneak it on a plane. The first time he used his cop excuse but the second time he went way over the top. He actually made it a part of his shirt and added real flowers. He looked really ridiculous. Then he got stoned not by smoking the weed but by eating it just before boarding a plane. There was some TSA woman who spotted him and opened a big book pointing to the word 'marijuana'.

The next scene he was shirtless and handcuffed to a chair being interrogated. He never tried to use his undercover excuse and was going to go to jail for awhile due to the large amount of weed he was holding. I forget the conversation but he was more worried about what the woman thought of him than going to jail. She acted as if she was touched and began to conciser a relationship with him. I wake up.

The Evil Box

Another movie like dream but I was more there than just watching. There was some woman. We came back to her van and it had been stripped but they didn't find the large metal key. She seemed worried until she found it. She cared nothing for the van. I remember seeing that key from false memory from my childhood and I thought it must be fate. She open a locker with the key and there is some magical wooden box with black tendrils of smoke coming out. I got the impression that this thing was evil and must never be opened. I felt like the woman was the guardian of the box.

There was an evil tribal practitioner of divination watching us in some gazing pool of stagnant murky green water with and evil demonic soul in it. He had to use a special sword to part the water and keep the demonic soul in the water and under control. But something goes wrong and the demon takes physical form and leaps out of the water. It eats the man and begins destroying the ancient stone city.

Suddenly I am running for my life while this giant creature brings the world down around me. I am able to get some distance away when I come to a Best Buy store. I hear a deep loud bass beat and get curious. There are some rappers using drum beats to lure the demon in hoping to somehow contain it once again. I wake up.

This set of non lucid dreams were after a natural and brief WBTB with no supplements. I went for the MILD technique but never got lucid. My recall was pretty good considering that I never made notes in my DJ until after I woke for the morning. I used my old technique of just remembering key words and phrases to jog my memory later. I have had considerable trouble with that since I came back last summer and I'm pretty pleased with myself for getting back into my old technique. It makes those micro awakenings less troublesome with a greater chance of DEILD.

Spaceship.

Someone was going to destroy the earth. I left with a group and we were going to destroy the enemy's ship as they left earth but it turned out that they blew themselves up. Capitan Picard ordered me to activate the radiation bomb anyway just to be sure. There was a blue radius blast with our ship in the center.

Then I look at the Capitan and see he is having a heart attack. I assume there is nothing I can do and just watch him die. I notice that he dropped some playing cards that looks like they are made of thick plastic, much like Rummikub pieces. I pick them all up and see the ace of spades. I keep that one separate to hold for good luck. When I turn to leave I see some woman moving hologram images. It looks like a tournament tier for some kind of anime style fighting game. The woman asks if I want to see who wins but I decline and leave.

I enter a forcefield room outside of the ship. I have some conversation with another woman working at a computer terminal in a jumpsuit. We decide its time to leave.

I go into a glass room with other men an women. We all take out our brains and put them in acrylic containers full of some clear liquid. We have to do this in order to survive warp speed into hyperspace. I relax and close my eyes. I feel myself surge forward and then open then and we all put our brains back in. I look to the person to my right and jokingly say, "Oh no we switched brains. You're in my body." The man looks just like me and starts to panic. I tell him I am just joking and laugh.


Tornado

I am in the back yard thinking about digging a swimming pool by hand. There is a good start already and some strange ceramic pools stacked up. I think about how far to dig and remember some advice my father-in-law gave me.

Then I look up and see dark storm clouds. I watch some rotation start and I hear a neighbor shout, "ROTATION!" I watch it vividly and quickly form into a full tornado and join a giant separate tornado. I stare in fascination but remember the last tornado Joplin had and decide to hide.

When I turn around I realize I am in the trailer we lived in when I was 5. I know I don't have a chance but don't know where else to go. I run around and decide to hide in the bathroom. After a few seconds everything seems calm but I am panting and breathing hard with fear. I go back outside and only see dark storm clouds without a tornado. I wake up panting.


Funeral

I am in some place with a group of people. Most of them are black. Some famous person died and Will Smith is saying some words about him. Then we get to see a brand new music video by Will Smith in the mans honor. It sounds really hip hop style but the video makes no sense. I see some drunk celebrities on the floor looking really confused. (I can't remember who they were supposed to be) I see myself with them. I am the only one to laugh out loud at that point. I look around and say, "I remember that."

Just wanted to note that I had some vivid and interesting dreams. I went into DEILD after one of them by rubbing my hands. When I got vibrations I got way too excited and ruined it. Hmmm that shouldn't happen anymore.