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Bedtime 9PM-5AM

Apple Juice, Bedtime SSILD

No recall until after WBTB

WBTB around 3:30AM, Bathroom then straight to bed. No additional aids. SSILD/WILD

FA: Foiled Again!

I know I put this in RED but I am not adding it to my lucid count. I was so so close though. If I had not given in to the FA...

I had strong HH and entered what I call the half-dream. I am walking around waiting for the dream to form. I can feel my body in the bed. At some point it begins to feel more real. I can loudly hear my foot steps like I am walking on gravel on asphalt. I got this same sound once before. I feel like I am kicking my legs in the bed as I am walking. I am unsure if this is real so I stop. I think about the lucid task I want to do. I want to look at a playing card and see if it matches with the random one I have blindly tucked away in the bookcase in rl. Before I can even act on it I feel SP grip me. It is mild and I pause for a bit and then start my usual visualization of my feet going over the side and touching the floor. It feels real but then it disappears. I feel like I am laying in bed still so I roll. I only get to my side and stop. I think that I really woke up. I am half sitting up in bed on one elbow but I never moved that way. I notice later too that I moved way to easy. Not at all like real life.I did not realize any of this and I gave up. Then out of habit I did a half assed nose plug RC. I am pretty sure I blew through but didn't realize it at the time. I fell into non lucid dreams.
I was really disappointed because I should have enough experience that I really shouldn't be falling for this. How many times must I learn that ANYTHING after SP is probably not real?


The first one I was riding my bike in my old childhood neighborhood and I follow some kid down a trail.

Then I have some stupid sex dream about a bearded woman who keeps going on about being a virgin. I think that's probably because you have a beard.

Something about being at my ex inlaws house. I hear the ex MIL say how R got offered a CEO position. I think how she lies all the time and don't believe her.

I was in a room with strange technology. Someone was learning dream control with electricity. She was getting zapped by a box and some voice was instructing her. I walk by and touch the box and it shuts down. I say, "I believe you." And walk away smugly. I think how they should have made the electricity with insulation.

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11PM-8AM
SSILD at bedtime
2 Valerian Root, 2MG Melatonin, 1 glass apple juice

Fragment 11:55PM

I feel like I am stuck in sleep. Sensory strangeness and abstract images.

Sisters Funeral 2:28AM

I go to a funeral for my older sister in a park. It looks like summer and is bright and sunny. My younger sister is sitting in a chair up front and crying. There was some thought about her death being at 2:00. I comfort my sister and cry with her.

WBTB alarm 4AM

Chemical Plant 4:00AM

I work at some chemical plant. I start to wonder around. I climb up a latter and come out of a hatch in the ground. I see men in suits and hard hats touring the outside area. I try to avoid them because I feel like I don't belong here. It looks like a steel structure is being built. I turn around to go back. There is a black mass of stuff that looks like charcoal wood. It is repelling me away and making it hard for me to walk. I struggle against it. The force feels like two magnets with opposite poles. I end up crawling back to the hatch. I wake up and my whole body shutters.

Another glass of apple juice
Back to Bed 4:30AM
SSILD Then WILD

Out of Control 5:29AM

For some reason I pull over to the side of the road to check on my son. Then the car rolls away and down the side of an over pass. I run to it. It is now small like a toy. I pick it up with my right and can carry it up the hill. I place it down and it is full size now. A cop starts harassing my and telling me that he has to take my son with him because I am unfit to drive with him in the car. I scream and yell and curse him. I argue and refuse to let him take my son.

Camp 8:00AM

I am working at a church camp. I am hurrying and getting dressed to be some place early so I can get paid. J from work is there. She is going with me. I can't find my wife. She has the baby in some room. I hear him crying. I wanted to kiss her goodbye but there is no time. The scene changes and I am driving with J. It looks like downtown Joplin and I am confused about were I was going. I thought the camp was in Texas.

Half-Dream time unknown

And I looking at a pool with strange lanes and different depths. I am debating going in or not. I think Michael Phelps is around someplace.

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Bedtime 10:30PM-9:00AM
3 8% Beers, 200MG B6 WBTB+400MG B6 Alarm 3:30AM WILD

Alright time to get back on track with the DJ. I have not had much mental focus waking or sleeping. I have been blowing through every WBTB alarm only to get get up later just to pee or take some B6 and then I pass out completely. I did manage to sleep later this morning and I have a few half dreams during a WILD attempt but I lost focus before it became a full dream. Also I know I lost many more dreams. I was just too lazy to record them. What a Shame.

Whore House 4:42AM

I am in a whore house buying whores. I buy one for $25 just short term. I get tired of waiting for the first one so I buy another for $125 for a longer time. The transactions are like buying things in Skyrim. All menu based.

I know both women are beautiful blondes but I want a closer look at the second. I focus my eyes and her face gets shifty. Then she looks like an old hag from Skyrim. I make a comment and say, "Take that shit off." She discards her skin like a mask and is beautiful again.

I end up outside for something. I am waiting again. It looks like the outside of Trade-X. I see J from work with some dude. They walk by and I get embarrassed. I get into my car. I think I will just tell him that I am here for the gambling. I find some blue raffle tickets and hold them in my hand.

Now I am back in the building. The second woman I paid for is waiting with the first. I dismiss the first because I paid more for the second. Now she looks like an old crack addict. I get disgusted and say, "I'll take the first one who is a pretty blonde. I don't suppose you would give me my money back?"
She smiles and I see her rotten teeth. "Nope sure won't"

I find the other in a loft. She is in bed. There is some random dude sleeping a few feet away but I ignore him. I lay down with the woman. I am shocked to realize she is a virgin.

The "Buffen" 7:12AM semi-lucid

This was a long dream and I have a strong feeling that I was lucid at the beginning but lost is at some point and fell non-lucid. Or course I can really remember much but emotions and brief images so I won't be counting this one.

I am doing something down the street in my neighborhood. I see a woman sit down on a park bench. She is in awe and amazement. I recognize her clothes and face. She is wearing a grey skin tight jump suit with a black leather belt and boots. Her face looks a lot like the lady from Price Cutter.

I sit down next to her. I say, "I know all about you. It weird isn't it?
"How do you know?" She looks even more puzzled.
"Well, I am not a Grimm and I am not a Wessen but you are a Buffen." Now I get a flood of "memory". I remember (like the book Altered Carbon) people have a memory stack in the base of their skull and memories and personality can be downloaded to a new body at anytime. People who do that and are put into a body other than their own are called Buffen. (only in this dream) I tell her about all this and how I was once in her body. Then I remember being naked and playing with myself while I was a woman. Then I get horny and we make out very heavily. For some reason I can feel some sort of lip piercings and her teeth are bumping my teeth. It feels odd but I don't care.

It almost turns to sex when every stops. I am in my recliner on the laptop. I see a webpage. I can see the words but I am reading it in my mind.
"The no sex clause in dreams"
I "remember" that my wife made me agree to this and anytime I start to dream this it automatically stops me. (semi-lucid)

Then I am back to kissing the woman. The her piercings split and press my lips. The sensation is too odd to describe. I hear a sound like a robotic purr. Something like I heard in my Matrix or similar movie.

The world around me collapses and my awareness shifts to my physical body in bed.

Fragments

The lucid feeling and me trying to focus really hard on seeing something but can't do it.

Half Dream - Mute dream guide

I am in strong HI/HH and I see a woman who is clearly from India. I try to do active things to keep in the hypno-state. She keeps staring at me intensely. I try to ignore her but can't. I look at her closely. She is very dark for an Middle-Eastern. She has a red dot on her forehead. She is wearing a pale purple wrap around blouse with blue jeans. Her hair is jet black and sleek. It is long and brushed to the side. It is a very clear and stable image. I can see all the details in her face. The only odd this is her eyes. They are black but there are no "whites". The whites are flesh color. I ask her in my mind, "What do you want?" She gestures to my left. She will not or cannot talk. I try to ignore her but she is persistent. I see her change into a some type of blutbad wessen in the corner of my eye. It catches my attention and when I look she is normal.
"Are you trying to tell me something?"
She gestures again. Pointing
"You want me to follow you?"
She throws her hands up in a way that makes me think. "Finally you get it, moron!"
I follow her on a street in a big city. There are no other people. I watch her closely the entire time. She changes constantly. She stays a female but she turns into many different woman. All races, skin types, and hair color. A few times I get attracted to her and try to have sex with her. Every time she is patient and pushes me away.

At some point during our walk. I ask her if she was my dream guide. She nods "yes" and I can sort of see and exasperated expression on her face but she still doesn't speak. I feel like she thinks I am so stupid. The whole time I am following behind her and I can only see her from a back angle but up close. I continue to study her as she morphs and changes.

Then I lose focus and my body gets uncomfortable. I forget to ignore that and I roll over and lose it. I was so close.

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November 2, 2012

No aids, No WBTB

I took allergy meds and a little DayQuil so I was pretty zonked. I gave myself a break from inducing lucidity because I was not feeling well.

Party 5:21AM

I am parting with my cousin from Texas. There is pot everywhere. There was something about being stuck in a cage.

November 3, 2012

3MG Melatonin, 200MG B6, SSILD

11:22PM
I was camping with V and S. I read V's Facebook status about ready to break camp but there is a picture of her being home. S's says something about their kids.

12:33AM
I am playing Sega Genesis Shadowrun but its on XBOX Kinects. I do hand gestures to attack.

WBTB, 400MG B6, SSILD WILD

I can't focus much on SSILD and pass out rather quickly. I think next time I feel so sleepy I will just do a more traditional WILD tech. That or try to stay awake longer. The problem was I knew that I didn't have much time once I finally woke up for WBTB. I still feel pretty tired and lack sleep time.

4:46AM
Long dream about playing someones old Atari. The game turns into a real life adventure. I am attacking inanimate objects that are coming to life. I completely smash a broom stick and thought I won. I realized it was more about climbing levels and turning of the power.
I quit the game and hand the joystick back to a guy at looks like Leo (That '70s Show).

4:49AM
I wake up from a dream and My wife and I are at my ex's parents house. My wife's mom and my ex's mom leave to go shopping. My ex wife goes with them. I am sitting on the cough with my wife trying to remember if my ex just kissed me goodbye or not. I think she did and can't believe she would do that especially in front of my wife. My wife is not freaking out so I wonder. I feel really confused.

6:16AM
There is a horde of old people from the nursing home coming over a grassy hilltop. I notice they are all zombies. They begin to shoot rockets out of their eyes at me.

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Oct 31 2012

3MG Melatonin, 200MG B6

I was in collage. I got on the wrong bus but I decided to just go there instead. Some friends joined me. One said are we going to Minnesota or Missouri?

I find a bookmark with my name on it. I says my name means "Moxology" the study of words. I tell my wife and look for her name.

I am playing golf with my bro and Gilmore from work. I know I am not a golfer so I use some sort of augmented reality technology to help me golf. I line up a cursor to the play I want to tee off from. And then I take practice shots. The computer corrects my posture until I get a perfect swing. No one else can see the augmentation and they get a little jealous at how well I can golf.

Nov 1 2012

3MG Melatonin, 200MG B6, 1 Benadryl (allergies)

Super sleepy all night. I passed out before I could do SSILD or even notice HI. I slept past my WBTB alarm and 30min later I woke from the dream below. The thought of doing a WBTB make me cringe so I skipped it. I thought to do SSILD but was gone before I could try.

I am with my wife sitting at some fast food place. There are children singing for a TV show similar to Barney. I one kid has my same name. I look at him closer and see that he is the child version of me. I am shocked and walk over to meet him. He talk a bit. I don't remember what all was said but one thing. I asked him what his moms name was and he said "Ellenona". At that, my wife bursts into laughter. I smile at her but say nothing.

I want to shake his hand. When we make contact I brace myself because I fully expect a paradox in the space time continuum thus causing the universe to collapse on itself. Sadly, the only thing that happened was a mild sensation of energy passing between us and then the boy no longer looked like me.

He now has ginger hair and looks at lot like an imagined future version of my son. He sits down at picnic style table another the other child actors. There is a brunette woman speaking to them. She is explaining why the show has to be canceled. I see tears and expressions of heartbreak on all the kids faces.

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Some Alcohol

Bedtime midnight-ish - Wife, her mom and sister were up making Halloween costumes for the kids. I got cranky tired and took Riley to bed with me.

To tired for inductions
WBTB 4:00AM alarm too tired to even get up to pee.

I wanted to sleep later but after a 7AM feeding he snoozed and I sort of fell into a half LD half daydream with lots of really strong HI. I can't say for sure if I was actually asleep but time seemed to pass quickly. I was slightly uncomfortable the way he was snuggled against me. I didn't dare move him. I have been really tired and 6-8 hrs sleep is no good for a person that requires 10. I just enjoyed him letting me lay in bed a little longer. It was nice bonding time nevertheless.


She Doesn't Trust You - 5:52AM

This dream was way longer but I only remember the last bit. I am in a cow pasture and there are two unpainted barns. Cows are all around and I am moving living room furniture from the right one to the left one. There is mud in the barns and I am stepping in it but I see I am wearing rubber boots so I don't mind. I see a rainy misty green countryside out side. I have a folding chair in each hand. They are black metal. The cows freak out and get scared of them. They act skittish like my cats do and some are small like dogs. One cow gets its head caught in a folding chair and trashes about to get free. I make it to the other barn. There are couches, recliners, other folding chairs, and an old cabinet style TV. I am moving furniture around and I keep seeing my deceased grandfather as a reflection in the TV glass. I make a mental note to investigate when I am done. I see and old black leather recliner. I think I ruined it by putting it in a barn. I look closer and see that it is cracked and the color is worn in places. It was trash already. I make a final adjustment and look at the TV. Pawpaws reflection is sitting down in the chair. I am partial lucid here as I dream of the dead a lot but it feels so natural that I don't totally get it. I look at him and ask him, "Where is Nanny?"
His simply says, "She don't trust you yet."
"But...Why?"
He is looking in the distance and I get the feeling that he can see her and hear her. He says to me, "Because."
Then the world folds in on its self and I totally and consciously experience every detail of waking from a dream. I was a very odd feeling and one that would be hard to describe. I thought to DEILD but I had to pee really bad and the clock was 8 min away from my wife's wake up time so it was pointless to try.

This is odd because the last time I remember her in my dream I became lucid. See: http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/xano...d-deild-37105/ And a brief NLD:

Dead Grandma- Fragment
I experience strong HI untill a full non lucid dream occurs. Funny there was no SP
I am looking in the filing cabinet on the bottom drawer. My wife comes close to me and bumps her pregnant belly on my head. I look up and caress and kiss her belly. Then I look at her face and it VIVIDLY distorts into my dead gramdma. I am reminded of how it happens in Grimm. She telepathically tells me that she is reincarnated into my unborn son. I ask her how can that be he is a boy and you were a woman. She tells me things like that don't matter. I wake with a startle.

I am not sure if I have seen her since my son was born. That's some Goddamned crazy shit!

The Voice in the void

Later I am in strong HI I manipulate and interact with it hoping to actively WILD. It feels like a LD but I feel my body in bed still. I thin about the past dream and want answers. I see my grandfather and ask him why again. I can't remember what he said to me but it wasn't an answer. So I ask, "Will you be my dream guide? I would be nice to have a relationship with you and be something we never could have when you were alive." I think about how religious he was.
I don't really see anything now. I an in a black void. I hear a voice reply, "Yes, I will be your dream guide." The voice sounds flat and emotionless. I does not sound like my grandfather did. I ask to be clear, "Will you be my dream guide?"
The same voice, "Yes."
"You are not my pawpaw are you?"
"No." Now the voice sounds deep and sort of like a high class English man.
"Who are you?" He replies but it gets garbbled. I ask a second time.
"Edward Godrich the second."
"OK will YOU be my dream guide?"
"I told you yes."
"OK when?"
"When you let yourself go in a dream, I will be there."

There was more of the conversation but I can't remember it all.
My son squirms and wakes me out of my trance.

That wasnt the type of LD I wanted but both the NLD and the interaction later was fun as hell. I don't really know what to make of it. I suppose it's all just in my head but I hope Mr. Godrich helps me out tonight!

Lucid?
I remember a false awakening early in the night. I said, "Now that's how you lucid dream." I remember wanting to record in my DJ. I can't for the life of me remember the rest of it.

Romney
I remember walking a circle around Mit Romney. I was trying to determine something.

Five Thirty Room (a dream in-between morning alarm snoozes)
I am at work. There are some windows popping up. L, my old lead who is long ago retired told me to go with E, my current lead, to the 530 and see what she needs to order. There is no 530 room in real life and the building looks like the back rooms of Walmart when I worked there long ago. I look around and see that someone straighten up the room but there is still random junk around. I see there is a very little yellow wrap. I suggest we order that. We chit chat and at some point E says he would rather be in the 330 room. (3:30 is time to go home)

Semi-lucid semi-precog
I laid back down between alarms again. I wondered if there was more soap under the sink for my shower. I entered strong HI and was sort of lucid were I look under the sink and saw 4 bars of soap. I noticed something else under there that was baffling and odd. The alarm went off before I was able to investigate.

There were in fact 2 bars of soap when I got up.

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Haunting
My wife I drive to a fenced in building with white chat all around. I know it is a radio station and we know the guy doing the program. we go in but there are several people working in like a warehouse. I don't see our friend but there is a guy working on a dryer. He is vacuuming bobby pins out with a shopvac. Stop and look around to take in the surroundings.

I turn around and I am in this house. It is haunted. There are inflatable toys attacking me. I think that if this was dream I would probably bite it and eat it. So I pick up a ball that looks like a zombie head and bite it and thread it to pieces. It feels like taffy. I go to attack the others.

WBTB Timer Method
Voting first 20min timer
I am at work and we are voting. We have to take a test before we get our ballots. I look at mine. It says Chemistry. I try to read the first question but I can't focus to make sense of it. The new lady is done already. I feel like an idiot. I just can't focus to answer a question. Is this what ADD is?
My supervisor comes to help me but is just talking a bunch of gibberish. She puts a cheat sheet next to me. I don't want it. I just want her to go away. I wake up to the alarm, I lie still and get a few seconds SP then wide awake.

I almost had it there. Things I did wrong: I only was able to get 3hrs sleep before WBTB. I was tired and didn't do a proper WBTB. I only had a 6 hour window. If I am able to have more time, the timer method may work well.

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Religious Rage

I am a teenager again. I can't remember it all but there was some sort of scandal in the church. Some sort of bigotry and just a bunch of awful stuff.

I am storming through the building. I see a lady that looks like Umbridge from Harry Potter. I hear her calling some one a prostitue. I am so fed up with this lady. I turn around and yell at her. I say, "GUESS WHAT? JESUS LOVES THE PROSTITUTE! JESUS LOVES THE BLACK PEOPLE! JESUS LOVES THE HOMOSEXUALS! AND JESUS LOVES EVEN YOU! SO GET OVER IT AND STOP BEING A BIGOT!

I walk away. I see my dad as the pastor. He is walking up to the front in the sanctuary. The pews are full and everyone is happy and cheering. I see them throw trash everywhere and going wild. I continue to storm by and I scream at them. "YOU ALL SUCK!"

I round a corner and I see my plant manager from real life. I looks at me and says, "If your mom would let me I would come over there and whip you little ass." I flip him off and go up some stairs.

I am in a bedroom. I know it is mine although is like nothing from my real life. For some reason I realize I am completely wet. I take my shoes off and open a window. The window does not slide up and down but it is 3 panels and tilt out. It is raining. I place my shoes on the roof to eventually dry out. I see a car pass on a road to my left. I only see this in peripheral vision but I hear it clearly. The sound of traffic on a wet road.

I begin to think about how I just flipped off my plant manager off. I don't understand why I lost my temper. I thought about how I should have tempered my anger because he had nothing to do with any of it.

I am Magic

I am running across from something. I cross a ferry. I see a light pass in the woods. It goes around. I only crossed a small pond. I begin to be surrounded by LOTR style orcs. I stop. I tell whom ever I am with, "Let them come." I feel a snarl on my face. I shout, "LET THEM COME!"

Now I am completely surrounded. They do not attack. They look confused by my posture and fearlessness. Then like a silent super nova, I emit a blindingly bright light. It sends a massive shock wave for miles. I watch from a birds eye view as hundreds of orcs fall over dead. Then I see myself in third person. I am wearing a white robe. I watch as my body collapses to the ground from exhaustion.

Techniques/Aids: None. I tried WBTB but I was so tired that I didn't give much effort to VILD. I failed DEILD losing 1 dream recall. I tried to WILD late in the morning but I was too awake by then.

I am in an room with Snoop Dogg and Jana from work and CanisLucidus. Its really vauge here but I guess we are partying or something. Snoop is really depressed and wasted. I say something about I can't believe this is Snoop Dogg. CanisLucidus says, "I thought he was just anotha unemployed brotha." I didn't know what that was supposed to mean so I just ignored him.

I sit down on some bench next to Snoop. He looks old and dirty and really drugged out. I try to go to sleep but. He puts his hand up my shorts and starts caressing my leg. I freeze in fear for a split second and then I bail.

I walk out the room and now I am in an airport. I think about trying to sleep in the public bathroom but sleeping on a toilet is just not my idea of fun. I hear music. Poe's Trigger Happy Jack is playing. ♫"You can't talk to a psycho like a normal human being."♫

I decide to just leave. I open up a locker. It looks like my locker from work. I pull all kinds of random shit out of it. Stuff that I don't even want. It would take to long to describe it all. I try to think about where I am going to go. I really have no idea.

Then the dream shifts. Instead of grabbing stuff out of my locker I am pulling electronics from an entertainment center. A man and a woman is telling their kid that are moving today. I hear someone protest how it was unfair to not even have warning.

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Dead End Road - 2:06AM
Driving down same road as snow dream. Sudden dead end solider support troops concert in a pasture. Turn around pushing cart with TV*. TV keeps falling. some kid keeps begging to use my tv to play game. I carry TV and wife* carries xbox. I tell the kid, "I will punch you in face." I see him and his dad and appologize. Dad is smiling. I say, "I thought kid was much older." I feel ashamed of myself.

Hospital Crowd - 3:44AM - Attempted WILD
Lots of FAs. Hospital waiting for elevator. People crowd me. I want to change my mind and go another way. Lady put her purse in my wheelchair I was pushing. Have to wait. I feel crowded. I see Spenser. I push him and scream, "FUCK, PEOPLE! BACK OFF!" I decide I'm leaving. I go to get my wheelchair and see my empty sugar bag and my wheelchair is now a flat cardboard box.* I storm off pissed and go into a room. I see my wife sleeping. I think that I just woke up or something.* I feel really hot. I turn the air down. The room looks a little off but I don't notice. I think must have had a dream and try to DJ about the crowed hospital*. I see baseball videos vididly on my phone. It looks like the Astros. I see a name. Rodriguez. (Does he play for them?) I try to type it but its all messed up. There are characters on my keyboard that glow like strange symbols.* I stare at it confused. I can't see to focus on my typing.

EDIT: Well I'll be damned. I had no idea. It looks like him too! Rodriguez

My Dead Uncle - 4:37AM DEILD attempt - mantra "Remember Dreamsigns and Dreams"
I am back in the hospital. I have my son, Riley. Mom is holding him. I look back and see my niece, Elizabeth is way younger and really thin.* I feel half asleep and groggy. We sort of wonder around lost. We stumble into a room. I see my deceased Uncle Vernon*. Mom hands him Riley and says here's your grandson (WTF?). We are sitting at a folding table. There are 3 windows in front of me. I stare out the right side window and see a boney rib of a carcass of some long dead beast like a cow in the lawn.* I feel confused about this. I ponder why that would be there.
Mom interrupts my thoughts and asks, "Did you leave the window down quarter way?"
I am confused. I ask, "What? The House? Car? This room? WHAT?"
She laughs and sarcasticly says, "The north side of the dog house."
I keep seeing that carcass outside the window. I think on this again. I feel that there is something I am missing. There was something I wanted to remember. What is it. I must know. The sun starts blinding me from center window. Mom draws Curtains but the sun moves to the left one*. I stare again at the carcass in lawn wondering what it is I am trying to remember. I am on the verge of DILD when baby decides he wants a bottle and I wake up.


PISSED! 5:56AM DEILD attempt - mantra "Remember Dreamsigns and Dreams"
We are at Walmart and I round the corner to see my wife kissing some guy that looks like her ex boyfriend.* I get so pissed at her and start cussing and yelling. She starts acting just like my ex-wife and I lose it. I can't remember what was said but later we continue to shop because I really want to find a halloween costume. We walk and into a mall. I open a door and find a really dark and hot room. There is one light and a ton of button up shirts with vertical stripes. I look them over. I notice that there a lot of noise in here and I can't hear to yell at my wife. I say, "We are probably not supposed to be here."* I am still so pissed of and I want nothing to do with her.
We are getting in the car. My seat belt gets all effed up and wont work right. She tries to help me but I am so pissed that I push her hand away. I get out of the car and find some type of harness on me.* I rip it off and get in the car again. This time it works right. I try to drive out of the parking lot but I see a strange path and try to follow. I cross a bridge. Some adults yell at someone I can't see. I see them flip someone off. Then a little down I see some really young kids do the same. I think how bad that was but don't interfere.
I am now by myself on a 4-Wheeler.* I try to go up a really steep hill. I try to angle it but the 4-Wheeler rolls. I just off and land on my stomach at the bottom unhurt.* I get up and have to rock climb to the top. I have a strong hand and foot sensation here. At the top there is a couch and TV. I sit down. My ex-wife's brother is there and he sits next to me.* I try to ignore him but he excitedly holds out a large phone and says, "Hey you have to watch this funny video!"
BTW my wife would never do that and we never fight like that. That anger actually carried over into waking and I had to apologize for being hateful this morning. LOL.
There were so many dream signs last night I woke a little mad at myself for forgetting after putting so much effort into remembering.

Waking Day Journal, WBTB WILD, DEILD, Autosuggestion

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06:24 AM, Monday 01 October 2012
I am at the mall and I see some boys in a store some out next to a counter. They are being rough and bump each other. The dad scalds them. Then we are outside and they are playing in the dirt. The dad joins them. Then I notice we are all playing in around a giant chocolate cake. It looks like brownies. It was chest high. I take a hand full and taste it. It was dry and little flavor.

02:34 AM, Monday 01 October 2012
Kids trapped in a vortex from Once Upon A Time. Daughter is shrunk in cereal like HISTK. I can hear her voice but not see her.

03:00 AM, Tuesday 02 October 2012
I am driving in heavy snow on a familiar road in Joplin. I come to a strange intersection and see Wurlnan in front. I don't stop in time and slide past him in to the intersection. I wave at Wurlman as I pass him. I maneuver through on coming traffic and get in the middle without getting hit. I try to follow behind wurlman. I can't remember what car he had I was focused on his face as much as possible. Some I get in front of him. Then there is a sudden avalanche. We are no longer in cars. Its more like a hallway that is pack to the ceiling with snow. I dig through the snow and see the rest of the hallway and a bedroom at the end. I turn around and see that my car is now my mattress in RL. I see Wurlman behind me and I shake his hand. I am happy to meet him. I say, "Hi... a..a....aurth..ur?. I feel confused why I called him Aurthur. I say,"Nice to finally meet you". Some dude that living the house says, "I guess you should stay. The powe can be out for weeks in a storm like this."
I say, "Ooooooh nah man. Shitty. But I don't no what else to do. I look at the matress and doorway and I see that it can barley fit. I walk in the bedroom and I see a matress and box springs with no frame. It has a wild and crazy pattern on the sheets like my wife lounging pants. I see my son lying on the bed crying. I say to everyone, "Well it looks like we woke up my infant son."

07:24 AM, Tuesday 02 October 2012
Working out in a gym. Strange looking weights. Not matching up. Just want dumb bells.

11:05 AM, Tuesday 02 October 2012
I am riding my bike really fast. Suddenly the path drops off about 6 feet down. There is a 2 lane road cut through the middle of the hill. I can't stop and think to pull up on my front to land more on my back. I see I'm too high up and will get hurt. I try to turn. I land on solid level ground and lightly flop over on my butt with my bike next to me. I see that I am on the other side and I must have flew over it. I start laughing so hard. "Ha ha... ha ha. I can't believe I just did that. Haha... haha. I Can't wait to tell Krystal at work." I get up and see an old man at a church looking at me. Get back on my bike to show that I am not hurt. (I always have my phone and use an app called endomondo to track my cycling) I look at my phone. This time my app id different. I see points on GPS like google maps markers. One says "OB". I think, "Oh it's OpheliaBlue. She must have been nearby." I think I should go see her at her house but realize she doesn't live anywhere near here. I decide to go into the church to rest. I realize that I am out of breath from riding and should rest after that crazy experience.
Inside the church I see two ministers talking about religion. I can't remember verbatim but they are talking about how they hate 'religionism' being taught. One told the other how at one church someone "ikipikied" him. I laugh to myself. He is talking about speaking in tongues. I think omg they are describing the Pentecostals. I leave and think I want to go to this church later.
I go back outside and see that my back wheel got bent when I landed. The wheel just falls off and I see the rest of the bike falling to peices.


There is something about a woman cop who is a witch. She doesn't know it. She reads minds but in doing so she drains some the essence of people. Another witch is explaining this. We are walking thru a fair. She says, "So many people and they don't know who's coming." I see little boys every where looking at me. They are wearing shades. One has a cup with a open bottom. I have camera and I play with him and growl.

Suddenly I walk through the front door of my house. I see Naomi sitting on the couch. We talk something about a carrier cover for the baby. I say my wife doesn't like that one. I sit on couch next to her but it is odd. Like am slouching and laying down. I see Daisy and she snuggles with her.

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Yeah so the written journal is a pain. Not happening anymore. It was fun but It looks like a child did it.

Sept 28, 2012

I was competeing in some obstical course. It was more about balance that strenth or speed. The other two guys where in was more shape than me but seemed to struggle. We had a practice run. One guy got 20min. The other 19min. I got 18min. They were surprised and pissed off. I got nervous that I tried too hard because now they will know how to beat me. We have some strange opening cerimony. We carried a load of rocks and scattered gun powder. We light it. I wondered if I would go first. My last starts with a C and thier names where Papove and Ipaonne. I see a gold trophy in an opeining on a wall. I know it will be mine. I tell myself just dont fall and you got it.

Sept 29, 2012 bed time 10PM

10:51PM
Fragment about setting up a board game.

2:50AM
I am walking on a beach. I want to swim but we walk down some more. The sand turns into something like a rubber mat that looks like sand. I can feel the difference on my feet. I tease some girl about it. I see two large pools. On stinks of choline and looks cloudy with a typical blue bottom. One is salty but clear and has coral growing in the bottom. I jump in that one. I swim so fast that I am exhilarated. The deep end is 20ft and I swim to the bottom fast like a fish. I think to hold my breath but just end up just breathing. (dreamsign!) I see my sis and one of her kids. Dad says something about retarded kids. My mom cries. And I feel bad for my nephew and sis.

Then we are in the living room of my parents house. Dad say, "If he knew more about beer he would drink." I leave and wishing he would. Then maybe we would be more chill. I think how he should start brewing then he would learn or even start drinking and he would really learn about beer. I see beer bottles in my car and think that I must have drank them on the way over. I text my wife something.

Now I am driving in heavy traffic and it is going so slow. Some cars are driving on the wrong side.

Now I am standing in a line. Someone calls a few names and they go in front. Then I realize it is a MSSU alumni event and I have no place here. I see I am holding an old cataloge from when I went to college here. I hold it like it is my ticket. I think I might as well try to get free food. I make a plate and realize it is all raw when I see and electric skillet on a table. Someone says it is like HuHot but you have to cook it. I pick a frozen fish off my plate and give it back. I say I cant eat this. I start thinking about where I want to eat out. Some guy is ranting how they were not supposed to serve food like this.

5:47AM
My kids are supposed to go to jury duty. I think about how odd it is but I am excited for them. I think I will be fun.

6:13AM
I have the thought that the first nuclear explosion was "hand made". I look at my hands and I am holding some radioactive red goo in a beaker. I am wearing a lab coat. Then my hands vibrate and emit huge amounts of energy and light. I look up and see tendrils of jet black mist swirl around me and move toward a room full of people. Some young and beautiful woman takes a step towards me with an expression of awe. Then brilliant red energy follows from me. I see the people's skin melt off and dry up and turn to dust. I am still focused on the woman and see her death in vivid detail. It all happened in an instant. Now I can only see her blackened skeleton among every one else in the room. They are left standing like statues in the same pose as before the explosion. Some of them never noticed anything happened. I notice that I am unharmed.

8:40AM

A Sacajawea looking Indian woman is walking. I see an indian man with his trousers down. I point and tell him. He gets them up but his loin cloth is showing and I see his manhood. He does a stupid dance and I just walk away.

There is a soda machine that shoots the cans through a chute into a basketball net. I tell the kids to look. I can hear a loud pnuematic air sound.

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My recall has gotten up back to normal lately. I just havent been posting online because I kind of just make notes of the dream on my phone and then don't take the time to thoroughly write it out. But I think it helps to do so. I haven't been lucid in over a week and half and it's pissing me off. I was trying to get back to the same things I was doing before. So, I am going to make a better effort with my DJ.

Masonry Fail
Pictures of swimming under poarch as a kid. The water was do dirty it was like mud
Making masonry wall in water. The wall in a garage. I realize how shitty it looks with brick and wood chunks and I tear it down

Undercover Presidential Interview
I am with some others to interview Obama with hidden cams. Doing to show how much security sucks and to catch him in a lie or cover-up. I get a quick perspective or the first two that interview him. Sort of a play back from the hidden cam. Its my turn next. I get super nervous and hope that they let me fast forward past it. I realize I have no clue what I am doing or what to say. (Higher reasoning started kicking in but I lose it) I assure myself that I have note cards. I have some sort of issues with outfit. This giant canvased plastic plate falls out of my suit. Some lady I'm with gets a new car seat base. We are trying to not look suspicious but its all falling apart. I try to stall. Secret service men have been helping me. I still feel really nervous and don't want to go in. The man tells me it's time to go. No wait I have to look for something in the dressing room. I search around and see my Nintendo wallet and my cell phone. I pick them up and turn around. Another man fires the who had been assisting me. He tells me they have their own cams. he shows me quick footage of me and wife being suspicious. The other guy says no. I wholeheartedly serve him.

Luke Skywalker is a jackass.
Something about being at the mall with my wife then we walk out of a trailer. Luke Skywalker keeps making out with my wife. I try to tolerate it but I get pissed. Then I use my clear light perspective to become him. Now its me kissing my wife. I feel ok now. For some reason I know that I have to fly Luke, my wife and some other unknown to a place. But it is raining really hard and I think it will a bitch to fly in this. I put a black towel over my head and do a test flight. The rain has me soaked almost instantly and I can't see to stay in the air. This almost triggers lucidity because I have done this so often in dreams. I just can't make the connection. I do however try to relax and let my self flow into the air with a little more control. The same stuff I would do if lucid. I seem satisfied now. I take the towel off my head and see a rainbow in a yellow sky. The rain stopped. I hug everyone in a huddle and we lift off the ground.

I have a FA and I write in my dream journal. But it is not my phone it is the LOTR novel. I am making notes next to the text. I see Lothlorien and make a note that that was were we were flying to. I remember flying and feel like maybe I was briefly lucid. I write something about the elves. And then I feel like I am just writing a revised version of the book and copying only a few things from it.

I liked the dream control even if I wasn't really lucid. And it's funny how the subC remembers things you forgot. I had to Google Lothlorien when I woke up and totally forgot what it was until I read the WIKI page about it being the elves forest.

Zombies in the house. Stuff in two rooms. Other people story lines. Two dudes had sex. Teenage in high school. Turning. He was Hidden so no one saw face. Finally ate someone. We came and he was normal and vomiting. He said it told him to be normal again. We have a cure but not much. We put some drops in coffee and tell him to drink the whole cup. He said or just the flavor. Some woman takes some in her chocolate milk. I am in a room alone. There ate two guys next to me. Watching. TV. Talking about zombie flu h1n1. He have been bidding. Upstairs. TV confirms what we feared. I decide we need quiet. I close windows and turn TV way down. I get the others to do same. I think about how many zombies I attracted. One Guy puts hand under door to mess with zombie. I grab him. I tell them we need to Get out. There is a small hole to the attic. From there we can bust out to the roof.