Xanous' Dream Journal

The 3 LDs I had this morning were bizarrely interesting. I changed my G dosing a bit with some unexpected results. Nothing went the way I expected and I think my lucidity levels probably wavered a bit here and there. This first dream was not quite as vivid as I had hoped to start with but as the dream went on it became more and more clear.

#220 - DEILD - 2:56AM

I wake up from some non lucid dream that I cannot remember and go into DEILD mode. I find myself in a type of void very quickly. I am glad for that because this time I want to form the TARDIS from the inside out. I reach out and feel railing with one hand. It's pretty solid right away. I follow the hexagon shape around the center console several times. The speed gets faster and fast and I start to feel a little like I am just spinning. I slow down and decide to try and feel the console. It's there but its fuzzy. I continue feeling with both hands until something big happens.

There is a klaxon alarm and a screen comes into view like some radar. I see one yellow dot leaving and two red dots coming my way. There is a computer voice saying, "WARNING. PROXIMITY ALARM." The first thing that comes into mind is that the Daleks have found me already. I am startled but also amused that I am in the TARDIS. I take a quick look around and see it looks very much like it should though a little like a video game (Playstation Home). I look up and notice the rings on the ceiling. I still have a strong instinct to run and that moment I hear the TARDIS engines make that unique sound. I know I must be moving on someplace else and become very curious where I'll end up.

I look back at the doors and just get a gimps of The Doctor leaving and I quickly follow him out. There is a brief confusion of light and color and then I realize I am in my house facing the door to the bedroom. I walk in and see there is no bed but two weeping angles coming at me from the bathroom and frozen on sight. I stop and stare at them being careful not to blink. I notice they look like they should in the face but they don't have the wings and are wearing actual clothes. For a moment I wonder if they are just vampires but decide they are not because they are following the rules.



Then I sense another person who is not The Doctor. Without looking I tell him to keep an eye on one of the angles. I glance over to see if he is listening and freak out that I stopped looking. When I look back one of the angles are gone! I assume it went around the other side and will come up behind us. I tell the other person to turn around and he catches the angel just before it gets us. I decide we have to dispose of these before something bad happens. (I wonder why I was so scared. It would have been cool to let it get me!)

Then, for whatever reason, my lucidity drops a bit and we both grow bird beaks and attack the angles. The feeling of it is odd and realistic but I don't let that deter me. I get mine in the throat and take it down then tear into it's stomach like a zombie. I am surprised that it is full of shelled sunflower seeds then the entire body becomes a mound of it. We both begin to eat until there is nothing left. My throat becomes very dry and I feel like I will choke if I don't get a drink of water. This thought brings my lucid level up a bit and I stop what I am doing. I force myself to ignore the feeling in my throat.

I say, "I was supposed to find NyxxC" I look over at the other DC for the first time and see that he is a Skyrim looking Orc. He smiles at me and starts to giggle. I get the feeling that he has become horny and realize that we are all too now alone. I also come to the realization that I am a woman. I realize that I must be the female companion of The Doctor. This dream has gone all wrong. I was supposed to be The Doctor and NyxxC the companion. I rudely say to the big dumb Orc, "Not going to happen. Forget it." The way I say that reminds me of Amy Pond. I ignore that thought and I walk out for the room looking for NyxxC.

I go out onto the front porch and see my ex wife sitting there. I think lucidity dropped completely here. We talk a bit and I cannot remember the conversation. She says something like "Her Baby." I know that she calls a name... Gloria. I feel like that not only am I a female but I am a female O At some point and for whatever reason, I call the Orc outside. His name is Balrog.

Then I remember my lucidity. I walk away from my ex a bit and look up at the night sky. The stars look about like the do every morning in waking life when I go to work. I turn to my ex and ask her, "Where is The Doctor?"
She seems confused, "Who?"
I repeat annoyed now, "The Doctor!"
She replies, "Doctor Who?"
At that moment I hear the TARDIS engines. When I look, the TARDIS is vanishing from the other side of my front porch. That SOB left me I decide now is a good time to wake up.