Thread: Highschool rewind

I keep having this reoccurring dream theme that themes 'me being in high school again'. Although I am only twenty and that was only a couple of years ago the dream seems to center around me wanting something more out of life, realizing truth that I can't have what I want or desire, and then being stuck in this realization because I can't have a high-school sweetheart (I'm gay or rather lesbian) and dealt with it in high school but it never was an issue to me or other people. I don't know what these dreams me to me other than that they seem to reflect of my real life but when I remember them they feel very important to where they seem to mean more.

Recent dream number 1:

In my dream I am in a situation where I go to and from school with one of my best friends. We stop at a house that is supposed to be where I live but is a lot nicer than anything I ever lived in and I would consider it to be my 'grownup have a career' dream home. A black truck pulls up into the drive-way when I'm thinking about a girl that I have a crush on. The car had a design of a web and a spider in the from except the web was poorly drawn and looked like it was coming apart. I thought it was ridiculous that someone would have something like that on their truck and related to real life ridiculous car decorations and then thought 'who was driving the truck!' as it had almost ran me over. I was with me friend at the end of the dream except she seemed like she wanted to leave and then my crush seemed to be part of the truck, either like she was driving it or in it.

Past dream number 2: I am at my high-school which looks nothing like my high school in real life that I went to. I'm confused about where everyone and go to look for them. I find them but they look bored, are ignoring me, and they won't come with me to my 'next dream'. I told them there were better places to be but they all looked stoned. I then am a little bit higher off the ground and can't reach them. I then have another dream involving my
crush. she runs up to me after trying to get my attention. I turn around and then she drifts towards me. I then realize something as she as looking at and kisses me on the lips. I realize that I am dreaming for a brief second but just enough to ask "why am I dreaming about this girl still?"

Note: I had been a few years, I had no contact with here, didn't and still don't have a desire to be with her or attracted to her. but on the side not she seemed to like me after I told here I liked her and that I was lesbian. At first she wouldn't talk to me but then she once got too close to me and was hiding behind me while a boy was flipping his skateboard, was looking at me during lunch, at a pep assembly she was in cheer-leading and she did a double spiral flip and then looked up at me in the stadium which my friend then saw her look up at me too and smirked. But, both me and my friend never knew why she didn't tell me she liked me because she seemed too.


Why are these feelings still there for her? Something doesn't feel right about these dreams.