Although in order to provide a more accurate interpretation of these recent dreams it would usually be best to have some additional general background information about you, here are a few ideas that might be helpful.
Just to mention to start off that there are generally no rigidly fixed interpretations for a given image in a dream (unlike the overall impression given by most “dream dictionaries” for example), and it’s always best to have the spontaneous memories, thoughts and feelings of the dreamer as related to each image and event in a dream.
That way, a better analysis is more likely, but having said that, there are some general symbolic motifs that appear in dreams which can serve as a basic starting point for discovering its meaning.
Also, it’s important to say that the language of dreams is one based on analogies and metaphors which can often be very complex and therefore can be very hard to understand.
In addition, dreams are the broad equivalent to those processes which keep our physical bodies in an equilibrium.
For example, as you know, automatic adjustments are continually made to keep a person’s temperature, blood sugar level, water content etc. etc. at appropriate levels.
In an equivalent way, dreams try to maintain an overall psychological balance which will allow for the gradual all-round self-development of the dreamer.
Also, looking at the stories, myths, music and art etc. about a given image as created by people over thousands of years can be very helpful in providing useful parallels which can clarify its meaning in a modern dream.
The fact that the same dream motifs regarding non-consensual sex apparently have been appearing often is also important, suggesting that it’s essential for you to do your best to understand what the dreams are trying to say. This might even relate to your age. For instance, when we’re close to or just beyond the age of thirty-five, spontaneous “memento mori” dreams spontaneously appear (Latin for “Remember that you must die”). The idea is that even though from our point of view we’re still young, we’ve reached the half-way point of life from the point of view of the dreams, so it’s necessary to gradually turn our attention to developing parts of ourselves that had to be left behind in the first half of life, or which have been extra difficult for us to deal with. All this is presented to the dreamer symbolically in order that we can more consciously work on becoming as well-rounded a person as we can during the second half of life.
Your other dreams where the sex was consensual probably were in relation to occasions when your feeling life had been allowed to express itself more freely in outer encounters.
Of course, it’s probably safe to say that there is usually an element of instinctive sexual desire when any image of sex appears in a dream because it is “part of life” to a profound degree (and an opposite to being “innocent” as well), but this is far from the narrow Freudian viewpoint regarding sexual images in dreams.
It appears that perhaps very early on, certain unfounded beliefs about your inherent “badness” apparently took root, resulting in problems with relationships, especially those involving women. If so, it looks like the recent dreams have been trying to symbolically express this state of affairs along with providing some clues on how to proceed.
The unknown woman in the dream you described is likely symbolic of your inner feminine side, termed the “anima” in Jungian psychology.
Although being a little dry because it’s a definition, here is a description of the “anima” as found in analyst Jane Wheelwright’s book “The Death of a Woman”. Gradually mulling over each part and relating it to your own experience can help to bring it alive:
“The archetype in the male psyche that is the inherited pattern of potential experience of the female instinct.
This archetype underlies and is basic to a complex which is affected by the individual’s early experiences of women, primarily his mother, female siblings, and the collective images of women provided by his cultural experience.
The images and affects [emotions] that attach to the complex express what is other than the individual’s male body-ego identity, such as his own unconscious femaleness, the unconscious, the inferior function [e.g. often emotions and values etc.].
The anima assumes a generalized image of the individual’s female ideal, which strongly influences his selection of a mate.
Consciously related to, the anima functions as inspiratrice or muse – a bridge to the creative wellspring of the unconscious and to unknown potentialities for development.
The anima serves as a guide in relationships, particularly with those who have a different outlook.
When not consciously related to, the anima causes a man to be moody, capricious, ruthless, and snide with others.”
So because the girl in your dream had an expression of “hate and contempt”, this could mean that she might tend to “retaliate” in some way. In a practical way, this might potentially lead over time to one or more of an endless number of possible unpleasant physical or psychological symptoms appearing such that your day-to-day life could be adversely affected.
Overall then, and not to be flippant, the dream could be saying something like “This is your hang-up. What are you going to do about it?”. That is, your feminine side is apparently often “suspended” in a painful way. It could also be “violated” too often. For instance, possibly there could often be a lack of empathy and sympathy for yourself as well as for others. In addition, you might often be unaware of what your emotional reactions really are because they could tend to be suppressed and unavailable to your awareness.
The cross is a very powerful symbol and, of course, has many Christian ideas related to it. However, broadly speaking, it can in addition be seen in the context of universal symbols expressed by humankind across the world and among many different societies. In this way of looking at it, the Christian symbolism can be clarified and broadened in a way which can make the cross more meaningful to modern people. I mention this because you wrote that you’re not a member of an organized religion. (For those reading this post who are actively practising an organized religion, no offence is intended and here is a quote from Jungian analyst Murray Stein to more fully outline this approach:
“Approaching spirituality from a psychological perspective does not contradict traditional religious practices and beliefs. It offers a richer appropriation of religious images and doctrines on a personal level, and for many it provides a way back to religious thought and belief that have lost their meaning in modernity”.)
Jungian psychology has drawn together the expertise of mythologists, anthropologists and those from many other fields to reach the following conclusions regarding additional symbolic ideas as related to the cross. For example, there are four points to the cross and the number four is symbolically almost always associated in sacred worldwide mythologies with the concept of potentials having been made real in the outside world. In this way, it mirrors the idea of the “mandala” or “sacred circle”, the circle also being a symbol of the potential wholeness of the personality.
This “wholeness” can be achieved only by uniting the opposites that exist in the human personality such as love and hate, charity and selfishness, patience and impatience, generosity and greed, humility and arrogance, and so on. That is, one or other of any opposite should never be kept from awareness but instead, allowed to live, in some cases no matter how hard this can be to do in actual everyday life.
The idea of the opposites in a cross is concisely symbolized by the presence of a vertical and a horizontal axis. Of course, the presence of opposites causes great suffering in each individual; that is, “we all have our cross to bear” depending on our particular experiences and upbringing. In the case of the figure of Christ, his death on the cross can be seen as partly symbolizing the fact that the human man reached his own “wholeness” by living out the opposites of the psyche to the full no matter what the cost was in suffering, because through this, he also lived out his own unique life.
As Jung writes:
“Submission to the fundamental contrariety of human nature amounts to the acceptance of the fact that the psyche is at cross purposes to itself”.
You mentioned that you haven’t been “good enough” as yet to date and this suggests a kind of distance that’s too great between you the ego and an inner “darker” side which Jungians term the “shadow”.
Jungian analyst Daryl Sharp defines the “shadow” in “Jung Lexicon” as follows:
“Before unconscious contents have been differentiated, the shadow is in effect the whole of the unconscious…
The shadow is composed for the most part of repressed desires and uncivilized impulses, morally inferior motives, childish fantasies and resentments, etc. - all those things about oneself one is not proud of.
The shadow is not, however, only the dark underside of the personality. It also consists of instincts, abilities and positive moral qualities that have long been buried or never been conscious.”
Often, a person denies and represses this dark side which is then automatically and unconsciously projected onto an apt subject, that is, one who displays the repressed aspect of the person who is unaware of any such similar failings. Endless strife is caused by this dynamic on a personal and on a global level, so it’s possible that any such situation in yourself may also tend to disrupt good relations with other males.
If this way of looking at your recent dream seems to make any sense in your personal situation, you might like to brush up on your emotional side by reading a couple of books such as “Nothing's Wrong: A Man's Guide to Managing His Feelings” by David Kundtz, and “Emotion: A Very Short Introduction” by Dylan Evans.
Another book that I often recommend is “Meeting the Shadow”, edited by Connie Zweig and Jeremiah Abrams. It covers the concept of the earthy, shadowy, emotional and instinctive side of human nature that we may not feel very comfortable with, and covers how to deal with it in detail. It's easy to read, being composed of many short articles by various authors inside and outside the psychological community.
Other books to choose from on this subject include “Owning Your Own Shadow” by Robert Johnson, “Romancing the Shadow” by Connie Zweig and Steven Wolf, “Make Friends with your Shadow” by William Miller, “Your Shadow” by Robin Robertson, and “A Little Book on the Human Shadow” by Robert Bly.
If by chance you feel that you are basically a quiet, inward-looking person and that this isn’t going to change much at this time of your life, you might also like the book “The Introvert Advantage: How to Thrive in an Extrovert World” by Marti Olsen Laney, Psy.D
In any case, if something clicks about this way of looking at your dreams, they should stop or at least appear much less often, especially if you take some practical steps to improve your feeling life overall.
Anyway as mentioned, without knowing anything much about you, this way of looking at your dream might not fit your personal circumstances very well, but I hope that these ideas can be helpful in some way.
Please make any comments or ask any questions about this interpretation that you’d like to.
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