I am pissed at my subconscious.

Here I am trying to learn through my dreams, not waste 7 hours of sleep, or just try to elevate my mood a bit. But NOOO my subconscious congers up the most pathetic array of dreams ever. So I say to myself "subconscious if you don't do something/anything to show me your even awake, I'm going to take it that you are not awake or just don't care." The result? Two nights of dreams that were even more pathetic.

Let me explain

I try and ask for something like this


my subconscious gives me something like this


WTF subconscious? Really? This is the best you could do??? And there is no way this is somehow better for me. This is tantamount to a metaphysical middle finger.

I often feel like I am like this


and my subconscious is like this


I hear a lot from other people having the same problems. So really, should I be working with myself or forcing what I want to be done?

This is a very uneven relationship Subconscious. Maybe I don't see everything thats being done for me, that I can't see. Maybe I don't understand the whole picture but I can tell you that my dream world is way too suckie and my nights of wandering around parking lots looking for nonexistent cars is over. Don't bother getting up off the sofa Subconscious, I'll change the channel myself.