Wow, so I haven't posted anything since October on this site. I just stumbled back here after months and remembered my post. I know this is a bit off-topic to the original thread (it does involve me trying to give out an e-mail address to someone in my dream though) but I have something else I want to write down. I'm really hesitant in writing this since it's very personal but, if anything, maybe someone can relate or I'll at least have somewhere to re-read this when I want.
I had a strange dream that really stuck out to me a couple months ago. I believe it occurred in mid-December. I didn't write it down here at the time because it felt too personal, almost wrong. Now that time's passed I feel like I can share it. Unfortunately, since it's been about 4.5 months, most of the intricate details are now gone from my memory; i only remember the main things that happened.
Anyway, I remember being in a huge department store with clothes racks and normal store things all over the place. I was looking through some clothes and talking to some random dream character (I don't remember about what) when I suddenly stopped and stared across the store. There was a group of girls talking and browsing. Among them was my deceased old friend from high school. This friend passed away in a tragic accident about 11 months prior to this dream (January 2012); she was only 21. I immediately stopped what I was doing, said "It's her" and rushed over. I remember approaching her and crying to her as I talked about wishing she hadn't died and things like that. All the while she kept staring at me with a sort of almost amused/sympathetic smile and saying it was okay, like the way a mother might look at/talk to a child crying over something stupid. That's the best way I can describe it.
All of a sudden I started telling her that she should e-mail me so I would know if this whole thing was actually happening and so I would know if I really saw her or if all of this was some random thing I'm dreaming up. I started chanting one of my e-mail addresses to her but she laughed at me and told me to stop. She said something to the affect of "how exactly do you expect me to be able to e-mail you?" It was like she was a teacher trying to make the student realize that what they just said was insanely idiotic but also kind of funny. This question from her seriously stopped me in me tracks and I ended up responding with something like "just try, you should be able to do anything, right?" and she sort of just laughed at me again.
Because this dream is a couple months old I don't remember how the transition happened, but the next thing I recall is that I am in the restroom in the department store and I am sobbing. I don't think I ever cried like this in a dream before; I am absolutely bawling. So much so that the random dream characters in the other stalls and by the sinks in the restroom start talking to themselves. One asks one of the others why I am crying like that and one of the dream characters responds to the other character "She just saw her dead friend" and the whole restroom lets out an understanding and sympathetic "ohhhh." As I am leaving the restroom they are all looking at me with compassion and understanding.
Again, I can't recall how this next transition happened. All I remember next is the end of the dream. The dream ended with me walking through this door of light (which sounds eye-rollingly cliche, I know, but it's what happened) out into somewhere (a hallway? Outdoors? I don't know). As I was on the other side of the doorway I remember looking back over my shoulder and willing myself to remember this, to not forget what I saw. What I saw was my friend on the other side of the door (the door had a bright light outline). She was sitting Indian-style on the ground and playing an acoustic guitar (which she apparently took up in college while she was still alive) as a bunch of other random people sat crowded around her enjoying the song. She was smiling. I remember I couldn't hear what she was playing, I could only see her grinning and strumming along before the doorway got smaller and smaller as if it was closing but with light. It finally whited out (by that I mean the doorway shut but not in the sense of seeing a big door close, but just seeing light take up the whole doorway until I couldn't see what was inside anymore.) I woke up then.
The only person I told about this dream was my sister. I was telling her, days later, and while I was calmly telling her the story I suddenly burst into tears, shocking myself. It was hard to even verbalize the dream, for some reason. It was a very strange feeling.
I never got any emails, by the way. Not that I expected to.
I'm sorry for this incredibly long post but I suddenly felt the urge to write this down tonight.
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