Thread: WTF was I doing?

^^ Actually I think Mastermind answered your OP quite well already, ixsetf ; this sounds more like hypnagogia than anything to me. Also, you really cannot accidentally WILD, as it is by definition an act of intentional awareness (in other words, you gotta try).

Regarding having a WILD immediately upon sleeping at night: Of course you can do that. It isn't easy, because you must navigate delta sleep (NREM) for up to ninety minutes (very cool BTW, if you can manage it), but it can be done, with practice. It can be done, Normally: If you are subject to narcolepsy, there is a chance that you will drop into REM immediately, whenever you go to sleep. This might be what's happening to you, though I still believe you're just experiencing some hypnagagia.

Finally, the part you don't want to hear: There is an chance that you are dreaming quite normally (90 minutes really are passing before REM), but you failed to notice the time passing because you were, well, asleep, locked in the timeless nothingness of delta. It might have felt like you were aware all the time, but in reality you dozed, and then consciously noticed the dream images when they started. There's nothing wrong with this; any lucid dream is just fine, regardless of how it was initiated.

So, sadly, you probably don't have a special ability. That "wall" holding you back is simply your own level of awareness... go into this experience with your self-awareness at waking-life levels, and you'll likely find yourself able enjoy lucid dreams regularly. It isn't a unique "talent" by any measure, but it's nothing to sneeze at!

Oh, and be sure to thoroughly ignore xXxArtistxXx's statement about SP; it is wrong.