Your not a nut , and I can see why you find emotions in dreams overwhelming but I'm afraid that's just something your going to have to learn to deal with. And it probably will be very hard. But I can tell you one thing, if you learn to use your lucid skill correctly and have fun in doing so, it will be one of the best experiences in your life. And now I'm just sounding like a guru. Anyways I believe you need to make a decision, wether you want to further develop lucidity (which I highly recommend) or you can go see a doctor about decreasing your lucidity levels (awareness in dreams), which seem to be fairly high. At the end of the day it's your call, but I hope you make the right decision