Hi there,

In the last weeks, it happened to me around 2-3 times that I pinched my nose, being aware that "this could be" a dream, but didn't work and continued dreaming as if it was the real world. Even in situations where the surroundings felt weird, and I knew something was not right.

I'm well aware that RCs have to be done being really convinced that this could, indeed, be a dream, not just like "hey, maybe it's a dream, even if I'm pretty sure it isn't, but wouldn't it be fun? lets RC".

Tonight it's been even worse, as I found myself in jail for 24 months, and talked to my jail-mates about the fact that I can't recall a trial, I don't even know what crime I commited. It was a really long dream with lots of things happening, crystal clear... meetings explaining how to re-enter society, me reading a newspapper, taking a walk on the patio, going here and there... lots of things.

I went to talk with the director, explained my situation, and said to her: "I just can't remember anything... Do you know how I feel? It's like I was suddenly placed here, with no past memories... As if I suddenly I'm going to wake up and think... hey, it was a dream, now it makes sense". In that moment I just stoped and said: "Wait... wait... that's the only explanation possible.. wait a minute", and proceded to pinch my nose, and pressed really hard, tried to breathe two times, and I couldn't. I assumed it as real....

Just as curiosity, "two years later" I was released, and had to sit on the floor and cry when I saw a perfect sun rise with mountains in the background, while thinking that I just lost 2 years of my life.

As you can guess the stupidity feeling when waking up and got to the memory where I though "this could be a dream... oh too bad it isn't", was really big.

I'm not sure why I'm even writting this... maybe I need encouragement, or a bit of advice on what to do or think in those moments where I feel something weird, which seem to happen more lately.

I didn't do the finger through hand for many months, but I doubt that would work... any ideas, recommendations, etc.?

Thanks in advance!
Regards.