In reply to Goldenspark, heya!


I'm curious as to how you 'know' the voice is within? Not asking to be confrontational but as a deep thinker

Every time I think I get it something happens to me that makes me feel like I've been shaken upside down so my ideas fall out... it's a good thing as I get to look at if from the outside and decide what I think I should put back in again!

I'll give you an example. Last time this happened.... was actually reading a dream book. It was about 'soul retrieval' - a bit about me, I'm not invested in any dogma but open to all suggestions. I was reading this book as it seemed to fit with my ideas that I kept finding and integrating bits of 'me' in dreams. They'd be in a puzzle, or a game or hidden behind a mask animals, children boogy men... but when I solved it or accepted it it would join me with a woosh of realisation.

In this book, it was calling it soul retrieval, it sounds a bit like what psychologists would refer to as personality dissociation but on a very mild scale. Anyhoooo the book was talking about dream re-entry and helping people go back to do soul retrieval. In one chapter it mentioned the 'dream teacher/shaman type' taking someone back to her younger self. I was ok with this, as my dreams also tell me time is errr not what we think it is on earth and everything happens at once and all possibility's are played out (my dreams fit with quantum physics) - I'd also dream of 'healing the past' though the details were sketchy it felt totally real on waking.


So back to the book.....

What I realised though reading this chapter was that I'd done this.... I was 18 when my Mam died, the night she died 'something' was with me, it wasn't 'Jesus' or the ghost of my mam I knew that but it was familiar and with me with it's hand on my shoulder.

As I read this book - the realisation hit me like a bus, that that night - it was me, that had been with younger me. I'd gone back from my 'future' to be with little me on that night, not to say anything or do anything but to reassure'

This possibly sounds bonkers blugh, I know it dose!! It just makes me realise it's probably future me that's the 'voice' I just don't recognise it yet.