I wasn't going to post here because I'm not sure my experience quite matches yours, Xvaiuer , but this might help:
Like Him, I generally have the sense that I am dreaming in almost all of my dreams. I think this sense was sort of earned or developed as a long-term side-effect of my years of LD'ing. In other words, for me, self-awareness in dreams has become pretty much the norm, rather than an elusive goal; but only some self-awareness: Though I tend to always know I am dreaming, I also tend far too often to fail to remember to take the next step to improve the quality of my lucidity. Because of this failure to remember, to access memory, raising the level of lucidity from these dreams can be difficult.
Lucidity is all about memory, and failing to access it is, I believe, the root of the frustrating difficulties people experience when they know they are dreaming but can't do a thing about it. So that not "REALLY knowing you are dreaming" sensation, Xvaiuer, is very likely due to the fact that you are simply unable to tap, during the dream, your memory, which in my opinion is the part of your mind that actually defines reality and lends it context.
I don't have time right now, but if you're curious, I did start a thread about memory, and it's significance to LD'ing, some time ago that goes much further into this stuff. You can find it here, if you are interested.
In the meantime, listen to Dolphin. Though I'm not a big fan of labeling "layers" and such, there is a lot of sense in setting an intention before you go to sleep in order to inspire a little prospective memory to spark more self-awareness and greater access to memory.
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