It is with some irony, but little surprise to me, that I can't remember how it began exactly...
I remember that it began as something on the side from wanting to improve my sleep, because of my illness (condition, syndrome... whatever it people want it to be called). I know I tried taking sleep supplements and that these worked in improving my sleep, and still do, though I have been without access to them for long periods of time before. I bought a book on lucid dreaming authored by Stephen LaBerge, and as I can guess by now, probably many others have, and followed quite a few of the exercises - some with a bit of "success", some with no "success" at all.
My sleep is inherently flawed because of my condition, and I'm in a state of constant pain and fatigue, so the dream world is very appealing as a distraction, and this has been one of my drives to wanting to know more about how to achieve lucidity in dreams. But as I read more about the subject I did start to realise that it would be quite interesting to "talk to myself" in a deeper sense. These are both my main motivations at present, and I feel that they work because they are very long-term goals for me, which I can't "fail" until I give up or pass away.
The WILD techniques almost worked for me but unfortunately the pain and difficulty in relaxing make it very difficult to cross the threshold into the dream state, even though I've been very close. I found that the environment had to be just right and that my mind had to not be too fatigued, so that I could focus.
All the times I've actually gained lucidity since I started the "journey", were initiated inside the dreams themselves. Either through reality checks or realising something was "weird". I know many of my dream signs, but I never notice them, presumably because during waking life I tend to not do reality checks around other people because I feel awkward about it: which defeats the point, so don't be me in that regard. 
I can't remember how well setting an intention has worked for me in the regard of DILD. I do think I'm forgetting a lot about setting an intention before sleep, lately.
When I was most actively into doing practice however, I took a very good habit, but that I have since lost and have been trying to regain; of training my willpower. Because of my experience over the years with training willpower and actually using it, I have found at a personal level there is a big correlation between the basic quality of my sleep and my willpower to do things I would otherwise not feel inclined to do, such as getting my hands quite dirty in a literal sense, to fix or move something, etc.
Having only recently joined, I am curious about a lot of the content on these forums and have been slowly reading some older threads and looking at a bit of the suggested stuff, but I am taking it slow on purpose to not make myself too excited or obsessed about anything, since that is always the quickest path to my downfall, with anything.
One note, about those sleep supplements: let me add that even though they do help a lot with my sleep, they do not fix it; nothing is a panacea, regardless of what we'd like to believe, but they get my sleep to a state that is closer to how it was when I was a child, or how it is supposed to be for most reasonably healthy people. And if you have the sleep of a healthy person, you probably shouldn't take sleep supplements, but if you decided to do so, I would say read about the specific supplements you want/are taking and read about all the risks associated with messing with sleep hormones.
I hope that wasn't too long; I find it difficult to explain myself with a small amount of words and without context.
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