Twoshadows' Dream Journal

**Twoshadows** · 10-03-2006 10:56 PM

Now that I have had a small powernap and am feeling a little more positive, I think I can use the above dream to my advantage. It made me realize that I have had several dreams where I want to take a picture and don't have my camera. I need to use that as a dream sign. Of course it does happen in real life too, but that would be okay as it would give me the opportunity to practice recognizing it and then doing a reality check.

I need to actively be doing this more. Like at the beginning. I used to hate the "loose tooth" dream until I found that it could make me lucid.

I need to have a positive outlook.

This is going to work.

**CoLd BlooDed** · 10-04-2006 12:19 AM

Ah, I'm sorry to hear about your lack of sleep. I hate when that happens.

And that's good! You've found another sign in your dreams to manipulate for lucidity.

**Twoshadows** · 10-04-2006 12:52 AM

Yeah, in fact I already got to do a reality check for that dream sign. I'm sorry to report that I was awake and not dreaming.

Note: I need to always remember to take my camera with me where ever I go. I used to tease my friend Tito about it because he did/does just that. But in the last year or so I've become every bit as obsessive.

By the way, I do feel much better after a small powernap this afternoon. I think I dreamed about a Jedi.....and going through some pipes.....??

**Twoshadows** · 10-04-2006 04:38 PM

Dream 1:

Something about a memorial service for a guy who (in real life) died last weekend after he jumped out a a two story window while drunk. Very sad. I think this took place by a waterfall (unless that is another dream). This waterfall had a very large building that was constructed over the top of it. So it was sort of dark and eerie inside. But the roar of the waterfall was very impressive. I think we were all taking flowers and candles into the building at the top of the waterfall.

Dream 2:

I was sittiing on a couch watching "Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory" --the old one with Gene Wilder (love that guy....Go Blazing Saddles&#33

Anyway, I was sitting with the same guy as the "pornographic manikins" dream, and as we were watching I had this sudden desire to cuddle up against him. Fortunately, he got up first. And the dream moved on into something else which I no longer remember.

**Twoshadows** · 10-05-2006 02:01 PM

Another stupid night where I am awakened at 2:30, then wait until my alarm is about to go off before I am ready for sleep again.

I only remember very brief images of:

taking care of my lizards

buying drum sticks (for drums, not eating)

looking for cough syrup

**Twoshadows** · 10-06-2006 08:52 PM

I had many dreams last night, but recall isn't that great for some reason. The last dream of the night was a third person dream about this guy who was going into the desert to study pack rats. I remember listening to a conversation between him and another lady who was knowledgeable about pack rats in the area. When I first woke up I remembered the whole conversation. But I didn't write it down. Now I don't remember anything specific. But that was kind of a different dream for me.

And I remember the phrase "Turn it to Zero?" (or something similar) from earlier in the night. Wonder what that one was about......

**CoLd BlooDed** · 10-06-2006 11:19 PM

My dream recall always increases on the weekend and then on Monday it slowly decreases until Friday. Then it starts over again.

**Twoshadows** · 10-07-2006 12:51 AM

Originally Posted by CoLd

My dream recall always increases on the weekend and then on Monday it slowly decreases until Friday. Then it starts over again.

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Is that because you get to sleep in on the weekends? I have noticed I have a lot more dreams and better recall on my sleep-in days where I can wake up, then go back to sleep. I seem to have a lot of memorable dreams in that time.

Unfortunately, I have to be up early tomorrow. But I may be able to get a nice nap a little later. Sometimes I get really good nap dreams. I can hope.....

But I am determined to have an LD tonight. I am going to constantly think about it until I go to bed. I am going to imagine all the fun things I would like to do when I become lucid.

**Pyrox** · 10-07-2006 06:27 AM

The WBTB method has worked wonders for me. If you have time in the future you should try it.

**Twoshadows** · 10-07-2006 06:44 PM

Well....no LDs last night. To add insult to injury, I have absolutely no dream recall either. Hmmmm....

Originally Posted by Pyrox

The WBTB method has worked wonders for me. If you have time in the future you should try it.
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Yeah, I didn't do that last night. Maybe I should have. I have tried it a few times and it did work for me at least once (maybe more....it seems a long time since I have had LDs.

I can't remember any more...)

But hey, Pyrox, on a happier note. I will be spending next weekend in LA! Unforutnately, not close to Disneyland....but back in my old neighborhood up by Santa Monica. I'm visiting a best friend from high school, that I haven't seen for...well...a long time now.

(Oooo...on the African webcam, they are focusing in a a deer-like animal that is at the waterhole.)

So dreams or not, I am looking forward to a fun weekend next week.

But-- I really do want to get to Disneyland this holiday season while they have the Haunted Mansion done up in Nightmare Before Christmas style. I just love that.

**Twoshadows** · 10-07-2006 07:15 PM

A few random pictures.....(Since I have no dreams to post.)

**Man of Shred** · 10-07-2006 07:16 PM

nice fucking pics!

**Twoshadows** · 10-07-2006 07:17 PM

Wow, fast reply.

And thank you very much!

**Twoshadows** · 10-07-2006 07:32 PM

Another one....

**Man of Shred** · 10-07-2006 07:36 PM

NICE! are you a photographer for a living?

**Twoshadows** · 10-07-2006 07:55 PM

NICE! are you a photographer for a living?[/b]

I wish.

But, no, it's just a hobby thing. I've always liked taking pictures, but didn't do much until I got my first digital camera a few years ago.

But I got an even better one this last Spring. And ever since, I've been totally addicted. I don't think a day goes by without me taking a picture of something. (And believe me, I have a lot of rejects. But that's why digital is so wonderful.

)

So it's just one of those things that has become a passion, and because it is, I practice and become better. Probably like you and your guitar.

**Man of Shred** · 10-07-2006 08:04 PM

i completely agree! I even dream about playing musical instruments! i hope you get a job as a photographer someday!

pop by my dj sometime!

**Twoshadows** · 10-07-2006 08:11 PM

Originally Posted by ranma187

i completely agree! I even dream about playing musical instruments!
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Yeah, I dream a lot about wanting to take pictures, but I don't have my camera with me. Frustrating dreams. But I hope that it will trigger lucidity....again....finally.

i hope you get a job as a photographer someday![/b]

Well, thank you. We will see what the future brings....

pop by my dj sometime![/b]

Okay.

**Twoshadows** · 10-07-2006 09:09 PM

I heard a woodpecker in my yeard a couple of minutes ago. I grabbed my camera and tried to sneak up on it. It let me get within about 8 feet of it, which is pretty amazing. Then my cat comes walking up to me and the woodpecker instantly took off.

None of the pictures are that great because of the shadows, and the fact that it was constantly moving. But here they are nevertheless:

**CoLd BlooDed** · 10-08-2006 12:59 AM

The second one turned out nicely.

**Man of Shred** · 10-08-2006 01:37 AM

Originally Posted by CoLd

The second one turned out nicely.
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i Agree it looks excellent!

**Twoshadows** · 10-08-2006 03:03 AM

Originally Posted by CoLd

The second one turned out nicely.
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Originally Posted by CoLd

i Agree it looks excellent!
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Thanks. I just wish it had stepped out of the shadows. I guess animals don't always cooperate. But actually, I was just thrilled at how close it let me get. I'd take a slow step; it would stop pecking and look at me and cock its head. And when I didn't move, it would go back to looking for bugs to eat. I would take another picture...then take another slow step.

**Twoshadows** · 10-08-2006 05:22 PM

Yay, I got to sleep in. When I first woke up, I only remembered two brief dreams.

Dream 1:

One was talking to dream View member Ranma187 about "hands" in dreams. I had started reading his dream journal and had remembered that there was something significant about hands that I was supposed to remember when I was asleep. Unfortunaltely, this didn't trigger lucidity.

Dream 2:

The second was about a lady talking to me about her son that had ADHD, I was about to ask her if she was going to put him on medication.

Then I woke up and went to the bathroom. Then got back in bed and had more dreams:

Dream 3:

I was back in high school. We had moved and I was new, and it was the middle of the school year. Amazingly everyone wanted to be my friend. All the popular kids accepted me without question. It was so easy, and a big relief to immediately have a group of friends. But then some of the more "nerdy" kids wanted to be my friend, too. And being the kind of person I am, I immediately accepted them as my friends too., But then the popular kids didn't like the fact that I was hanging out with the other kids, so they weren't as sure they wanted to be my friends anymore. I felt so frustrated that people had to be so judgemental.

[This is actually something that happened to me in real life.]

At some point in the dream (not sure when) I was walking with a group of kids, and I made some really funny remark to this guy named Mark, who I thought was cute. I remember that everyone was laughing and thought I was so funny. [I was really trying to remember what it was that I actually said that was supposed to be so funny. It was probably something that wasn't even funny IRL].

Then we were all wearing tiarras for something. And we all had the same haircuts. I remember commenting on how different everyone's hair looked even though our cuts were the same--how we all styled it a little different.

Dream 4:

I was sitting on the grass talking to the actor Hayden Christensen. [I have dreamed about him before. I guess I need to watch for him in the future as a possible dreamsign]. We were just sitting on the grass talking. We had quite a long conversation. At one point I wrote it all down so I could get it in my dream journal--but of course, as soon as I woke up the dream list vanished.

But I do remember the very last thing we were talking about. He made some comment about his uncle deciding to stay in town (he was supposed to be moving). Hayden was glad because his uncle was his running partner. They got up early and ran together--that's how he stayed in such good shape.

I then made the comment how I was sad when I moved I lost my running partner. We had trained for a Marathon together, and how fun that was to be part of that, and how helpful it is to have a running partner and something to train for. Then I said how my walking partner had just moved. And the lady I used to bike with in the mornings was so busy we didn't do it anymore [all true].

I was really hoping that Hayden would just say, "Hey, sounds like you need a running partner. I'll be your running partner." But then I realized that I hadn't actually done much running in the past couple of years--that I would never be able to keep up with him--that I would need a long time to work back up to "marathon level" again.

And that was all I remember.

Darn it. None of these triggered lucidity. I feel like I am thinking about Lucid Dreaming a lot these days. I have actually started doing RCs during the day. Why don't I question things in my dreams? Why is it so natural to be back in high school or to be talking to Hayden Christensen like he's my best friend??