Thread: Twoshadows' Dream Journal

Originally Posted by Twoshadows

First of all, I'm changing my name to Twvoshadows because it looks a lot cooler.[/b]

I hate you!!!!!!


nice pics BTW. where did you go all weekend?

Twvoshadows[/b]

By the way...how do you pronounce that?



Do you recognize this place?

oh yeah! It's a desert!

Unfortunately i don't REALLY recognise it but it looks fantastic. Makes me hop on a bus or a plane and travel. But I'm not exactly sure WHERE to travel

I'm just five days away from my one year anniversary for my first lucid dream.


And in nine days my dream journal will have completed its first year.

I need to go back and count my lucid dreams. It would be cool to know my total for the year. But somehow the thought of going back through 825 replies in the journal seems a bit overwhelming.

But still, 826 posts in my journal...who would have thought.

And 9596 views.

Hmmmm....can I get to 850 replies in my DJ and 10 000 views by April 24th?

Silly goal.....

Better yet--how many LDs can I have from now until then?





I'll celebrate my year of lucidity with a party in my next LD. Everyone is invited.

Originally Posted by ranma187

oh yeah! It's a desert!

Unfortunately i don't REALLY recognise it but it looks fantastic. Makes me hop on a bus or a plane and travel. But I'm not exactly sure WHERE to travel[/b]

Well...yeah...it's a desert. But a famous desert. Many old Westerns were filmed here.

Originally posted by Twoshadows
I'll celebrate my year of lucidity with a party in my next LD. Everyone is invited.

That'd be a wicked lucid dream task - make it a personal goal. Ranma can serve the sausage wienies.

Those pictures are awesome - I love the way those rocks are formed, and it looks very familiar. I can't put my finger on the name...

Oh, and I apologize for my inability to write up those dreams - lots of things ended up happening this weekend (Jack came out to my new house for the second time) and my moms boyfriends family came to visit, so I've been sleeping on the couch instead of my comfy bed.

The Lucid dream is coming... I'm gonna draw a tree right now.

That'd be a wicked lucid dream task - make it a personal goal.[/b]

Yeah, that would be fun. I'll see if I am able to accomplish it. It will be my next personal Task.

Those pictures are awesome - I love the way those rocks are formed, and it looks very familiar. I can't put my finger on the name...[/b]

Well, I'm thinking that since you and Ranma are Canadian, you may not be as familiar with this area as others. I'll bet oneironut or Tsen know this place. If no one guesses in a day or two I'll tell you.

Oh, and I apologize for my inability to write up those dreams - lots of things ended up happening this weekend (Jack came out to my new house for the second time) and my moms boyfriends family came to visit, so I've been sleeping on the couch instead of my comfy bed.[/b]

That's great that you have had a chance to get together with Jack again. Did you work on any music?

Yeah, I'll bet the couch isn't as nice as your bed. I didn't sleep as well this weekend being away. Is the company gone now?

The Lucid dream is coming... I'm gonna draw a tree right now.[/b]

I'm glad to hear that. If you have that positive attitude and do some "work" (drawing, focusing, etc...), it will come.


Dreams:

Even though I was back in my own bed, my dreams were still....unpleasant.

What I remember from several dreams all blends together.

I remember haivng the frustrating car dream. I was trying to drive and I seemed to have no control of the car. I remember trying to stop at a light, not being able to stop before the line, then trying to back up...not being able to stop the car and running into the car behind me.


Then there was another dream where I was so frustrated at someone that I was yelling. My voice was really ugly (I have never heard myself sound like that in real life. It was very shrill.). And I just kept yelling.

These were not fun dreams to have. I don't know why I was so frustrated and stressed in my sleep last night.

Originally Posted by Twoshadows

Better yet--how many LDs can I have from now until then?

I'll celebrate my year of lucidity with a party in my next LD. Everyone is invited. [/b]

Now THAT'S a worthy goal!

Thank you for posting the photos. I'd love to go there some day.

I'll bring the veggie lasagna.

Originally Posted by Twoshadows

I remember haivng the frustrating car dream. I was trying to drive and I seemed to have no control of the car. I remember trying to stop at a light, not being able to stop before the line, then trying to back up...not being able to stop the car and running into the car behind me.
Then there was another dream where I was so frustrated at someone that I was yelling. My voice was really ugly (I have never heard myself sound like that in real life. It was very shrill.). And I just kept yelling.[/b]

reminds me of that car dream I had last week.

HAHA- CB! actually Quesidillas are my specialty! Goes real well with some beer. This is gonna be one heck of a lucid party innit?

Originally Posted by pj

Now THAT'S a worthy goal!

Thank you for posting the photos. I'd love to go there some day.

I'll bring the veggie lasagna.[/b]

Hey pj!

Yes, it is definitely a goal now for me. I'm looking forward to it.

And the photos....I've always wanted to go there, and I finally did. So that was a real life goal I was able to do.

Originally Posted by pj

reminds me of that car dream I had last week.

HAHA- CB! actually Quesidillas are my specialty! Goes real well with some beer. This is gonna be one heck of a lucid party innit?[/b]

So the big question is whether I splurge in the dream and eat things I shouldn't.

Guess I'll be bringing the chocolate chip peanut butter cookies....

Quesadillas....veggie lasagna....it all sounds good.

The more I think about this the more I am looking forward to it.

Really looking forward to it.





And hey--- Today I found the biggest black widow I have ever seen. I took pictures. I still need to download them. But I'll post them as soon as I can.


And I got brave and touched it. After I had thought about doing it last summer, I decided that was something I really needed to do in my lifetime.

So another goal completed.

I'll go into more detail when I post the pictures.

Check out my reflection.....




More pics to come.

Here is the huge black widow. She got so fat because she had just sucked this caterpillar dry.



This is how big she is to my pinky finger.



I touched her back about six times. At first she didn't seem to care. But finally she had had enough. The last time I touched her, she jerked back. Which made me jump. We were both a little freaked out at that point so I decided to let her be.

All the dreams I had last night are now forgotten. I went to bed very tired and didn't get as much sleep as I needed. And that's not good for my dream recall.

I'm thinking tonight may be a good time for some B6 and a DV party LD. 8)

Eeeeeewwwwwwwwww.

But nice photos.

Your reflection is uh strange, are you a vampire?

Originally Posted by Jess

Eeeeeewwwwwwwwww.

But nice photos.

Your reflection is uh strange, are you a vampire?[/b]

Thanks.

About the reflection:

It's kind of hard to get a good reflection on the back of a black widow. It's hard to get your face close enough to show while also getting the camera right down there too.

So mostly it is just a reflection of my hand holding the camera. But I think my face is the dark shape behind and to the left. I was closer than it looks.

Originally Posted by Twoshadows

It's kind of hard to get a good reflection on the back of a black widow.[/b]

Oh wow, I didn't realise what you were reflected in.

I can make you out now I know what it is.

Very cool.

I still think you might be a vampire though, all these Black Widows...

EDIT: and by the way - touching it was badass!!

and by the way - touching it was badass!![/b]

Thanks.

I suppose it is a little stupid of me to feel I have to do it. It seems there have been other things in my life that I have done only because I want to prove to myself that I can do them.

I still think you might be a vampire though, all these Black Widows...[/b]

Hehe....

But I love the sunshine too much.

If I were a Vampire I would not have been able to take these pictures I took a couple of minutes ago.

Have I missed it somewhere or have you not mentioned what kind of camera you are using?

Well... what kind of camera are you using?

Gorgeous pictures, but you probably get tired of hearing that.

That black widow... wow, it's huge; I like how you got its catch of the day in the picture as well.

The company is gone now, first night back in my own bed last night, but the only dream I had was something about losing all my teeth.

Me and Jack did work on some music, we have completed another stanza to Orange Horses and we have one last thing to do before it's finished for good.

Originally Posted by pj

Have I missed it somewhere or have you not mentioned what kind of camera you are using?

Well... what kind of camera are you using?[/b]

It's just a little Canon Powershot SD550. It does pretty good. It has a pretty good macro setting for the close-ups. Maybe someday I can get myself a nice SLR. But until then I think I can keep myself busy with this one. You can kind of see the camera in the personal photo of me on my profile.

Originally Posted by pj

Gorgeous pictures, but you probably get tired of hearing that. [/b]

Never...haha...compliment away.

Originally Posted by pj

That black widow... wow, it's huge; I like how you got its catch of the day in the picture as well.[/b]

I know. After I saw how fat it was I noticed the caterpillar and realized that's why it was so big. She was actually fairly slow and clumsy. That's the only reason I would touch one in the Spring when they have a winter build up of venom.

Plus, I thought it was cool because I seldom have seen a spider eat a caterpillar..usually just pill bugs, beetles and flies.

Originally Posted by pj

The company is gone now, first night back in my own bed last night, but the only dream I had was something about losing all my teeth.[/b]

Ha...the teeth dream....that's how I got lucid for the first time. Too bad you didn't go lucid...

Originally Posted by pj

Me and Jack did work on some music, we have completed another stanza to Orange Horses and we have one last thing to do before it's finished for good. [/b]

Awesome!! I can't wait to hear it.


And I can't wait to hear about the Lucid Dream you are going to have tonight....

Also....speaking of reflections. Notice the reflection in the first BW pic (with the desiccated caterpillar). Not only can you see my reflection, but the reflection of the BW's own legs.

Pretty cool......

Originally Posted by Twoshadows

I suppose it is a little stupid of me to feel I have to do it. It seems there have been other things in my life that I have done only because I want to prove to myself that I can do them.[/b]

The last sentence negates the first.
Awesome pics, TS, as usual. =)

Originally Posted by Oneironaut

The last sentence negates the first. [/b]

Maybe....but they probably are still rather stupid or dangerous things to do. I just can't help it sometimes.

Awesome pics, TS, as usual. =)[/b]

Thank, Oneironaut...


Okay....I had wanted a good LD last night.

Unfortunately I didn't plan ahead like I should have. I was out too late, therefor getting to sleep too late and being too tired to do the necessary visualization etc, before drifting. And I woke up too late to dothe WBTB.

Will finish later......

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Finally I have a chance to finish. Let's see if I can get back to that train of thought from this morning.

Let's see. The friend I was with last night showed up in three of my dreams. So that was interesting. I did take B6 and I had a ton of dreams. I took notes after the first part of the night, but not after the second. And I'm glad I took notes because I no longer remember the dreams from the second half of the night.


Dream 1:

I was with my good friend S. We were teenages again. When I got to her place, she started showing me these jack-0-lanterns she had made. One of them looked like an Easter Bunny (haha....he/it showed up again in my dreams). It was very detailed and realistic. I was amazed. She told me she wanted to take it to R and M from our favorite local band that she was friends with. I was looking forward to going. I saw that she had made two other jack-o-lanterns. One looked like a pirate and looked great.

The dream ended before I got to see R and M.


Dream 2:

I was with T. He was about to do some sort of contest--kind of like an amusement park game. He was holding a ball and said that he was supposed to get the ball in a small basket in front of him.

I said , "That should be easy."

Then He said, "But I have to have the ball in my back pocket."

I said, "How in the world are you supposed to throw the ball if it is in your pocket?"

He said , "I'm not sure."

So then we took the next minutes jumping around pretending to get a ball out of our pockets. We just kept laughing at how silly each of us looked.



Dream 3:

I was travelling somewhere. I was talking to JJ about a certain hike. She told me that it got pretty muddy.


Dream 4:

There is something in real life that I have to do at 5:30 on Thursday night. In the dream I suddenly looked at the time and was horrified to see that if was 7:00. I couldn't believe I could have forgotten--it was very important. I started to really rush.

But then I started to question the date. Was it really Thursday? Wait a minute...it's still Tuesday, isn't it? It was so weird, I almost became lucid.


Dream 5:

I was with T. He was teaching me a weird dance. I looked up and suddenly noticed that we were surrounded by a big crowd of people. I felt very embarrassed.


Dream 6:

I was with T again and he was teaching me drums. (In real life last night that 's what we were doing. He is a very good drummer).

Dream 1:

This was a very long interesting dream. Some details have faded, but I will share what I remember.

My family and I were going to this big old house. We went there with a guy that reminded me of Steve Irwin. My family and I were supposed to help clean this house. It was on a university campus and was very old and special.

As soon as we get in and "Steve" shows us what needed to be cleaned, my family finds a bedroom and goes to sleep. The responsibility for cleaning lies with me.

I start cleaning in the kitchen. "Steve" starts talking to me about the history of his family and showing me these old family pictures. His mother was very small (under 4 feet tall) and now very old. But in her lifetime she had accomplished amazing things. His dad was also a very famous scientist and that was why they had a house on the campus.

As I clean a sister of Steve's walks in, and she starts talking to me about more of the history of their family. It was all very fascinating. We seem to talk for a very long time. I start feeling like I really know this family.

At some point I go into a back room and see that the old little mother is laying in a bed. I feel in awe seeing this woman that I have now heard so much about.

Now of course being a dream, things have to get a little odd. Another sister now is coming in. I look down at my shirt and see that I am wearing a small grey stretchy button up shirt. It happens to be unbuttoned (expect for the bottom button) and I have no bra on, so I am quite exposed. So I am quickly trying to pull it closed....but it is too small and I am having a hard time covering myself up.

I didn't go lucid.


The last thing in this dream that I remember is dusting a high shelf (my clothes were normal again). It was totally covered with old cobwebs and dust. There were old dolls and other interesting old things on the shelf that I wanted to be very careful with.


Dream 2:

I am in an old barn. I walk in with someone else and see that's filled with jack-o-lanterns. I am amazed that they haven't gone rotten yet. I touch one and see that it had dried out. I figured that most of them are now "mummified". But then I come to a few that are totally fresh. I wonder how that's possible.