 Originally Posted by LucidFlanders
Because the fear in me made me think this way....the way i fuckin HATE how people always resort to 1 possible conclusion. The ghosts did it! I guess it's normal and should not feel bad...but people need to stop thinking this way, me included when you're scared. Think RATIONALLY!
I have a fear of the unknown, i know that already and can agree to that and the sounds at that early in the morning plus the darkness i was in, the fact i never slept that night...not even 1 wink! But what is the unknown? for me, it's not knowing what that noise was. My brain conjured up some sound because i wanted to feel afraid, and the little things set it off. I don't like change, which is probably why i am afraid of the unknown.
I hate hypocricy and i am surround by it every single day, yet here i am being a hypocrite. I seriously can't stand being around hypocrites, probably the biggest pet peeve i have.
In order for you to be a hypocrite it has to be over something you can control. And the fact is everyone is a hypocrite now and again. This is just the way life is. We're not perfect and while we should always strive to make ourselves better that doesn't mean we can't slip up now and again. I hate it when my clients show up late for their appointments, but the fact is I'm late for my own as well. It makes me a hypocrite and sometimes I have to remind myself of that, but it doesn't make me a bad person just because I forget myself sometimes. I just have to try a little harder next time to not only be on time, but to remind myself not to get angry at my clients for being late as well.
It's easy to sit there and say what you should have done. You should have thought rationally, you should have considered what is obvious to you now, but the fact is when you're in the moment and faced against so many different odds what you should do isn't always so obvious. I remember one time I was driving home from my friends house by myself. It was my first really long trip by myself and it had already started to get dark. I ended up getting lost and ended up in a place where I couldn't get cell reception. I started to panic, badly but rather then turn around and go to one of the convenient stores that were in the town I freaked out and stopped at a random persons house. I knocked on their door and asked to use their phone. I actually went inside of their house and let them close the door behind me as I called my mother crying.
Do you have any idea what could have happened to me? What they could have done to me? I should be thankful that it was a kind elderly couple and not some freak who would have hurt or killed me. It was a stupid, stupid move on my part but I don't fault myself. I was scared, it was getting dark, and I had never encountered a situation like this before. I'm a smart girl. I knew better. I know what I should have done, but in the moment that was irrelevant.
Moral of the story is don't be so hard on yourself. You're human. You're allowed to make mistakes and yes even be a hypocrite.
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