Thread: YoursTruely's Workbook

I had another lucid dream, but it was again short and anxious:

Spoiler for My Lucid Dream from My DreamViews Journal:

Non-Dream, Non-Lucid, Lucid

I found a sword laying in a playground. It was like the kind of sword Cloud from Final Fantasy VII used. I picked it up because I was worried that kids would play with it or trip over it. I found some teachers and told them about it, but they were uninterested and told me to deal with it myself. They said I could take it to school but it will be hard to enter it today. I went into the building and saw in a corridor my real life teacher from school before high school. I realized I was dreaming. I looked around and I somehow focused on my hands and made them quiet real. I saw that the stairs were made of stone. My heart started beating a bit faster but not as fast as usual. I decided to sit down and deepen my lucidity. Instead of standing still I started to hover, which made me a bit panicky. I started loosing my lucidity but then calmed down and regained it a bit to then loose it for real. I think it was because I started thinking about my real life body.

This time no void. The teachers are staring to work.

I was a little bit more confident this time but it's still far from ideal.

You know, I kind of told myself already that when I will lucid I will try to just sit still and try to stabilize, but it's not working very well. Sometimes I just am thrust in some strange environment that doesn't allow me to sit still. Also, I keep having this strange sensation that I need to move in order to not loose my lucid dream.

So far the issues that I have with maintaining my lucid dream are as follows:

1. I'm afraid that I won't remember everything when I wake up so I wake up myself.
2. I'm afraid that my physical body will move and I will make fool of myself.
3. I keep thinking about my physical body.
4. I get too excited and my heart starts racing.
5. The dream is too exciting, which makes my heart race.
6. I feel that if I don't engage actively in the dream I will loose the dream, so I can't really just sit and observe details and try to deepen my stability. But If I engage in the dream too much I loose lucidity. Jesus Christ!
7. I don't believe I have control.

I'm also on my 18th DreamViews Journal entry and I have been having dreams for 7 days in the row. Although, last night was close because I only had one dream, but it was a lucid one, so there is that.

I started to do some little mantras when in bed. I say, "Remember" over and over to remember my dreams. "I am lucid" to have lucid dreams and "Teachers Lucid" to try to get in my head to question reality when seeing teachers. And sometimes I try to WBTB a bit, but I'm not entirely sold on it.

I'm going to tidy up my workbook and erase all dream signs except the teachers one because that's the most important one. The others don't show up that much. And re-do my goals a bit. I will add a goal of just asking a dream character, "Where is my cat?" It will be easier to do than the goals I have right now.

Spoiler for My Current Workbook:

Reality Checks:
- Every time I open my laptop I do the nose plug.

Dream Signs:
- Sking. Being in the mountains. Snow.
- A person of authority requesting me to do something absurd/being really wrong. Usually a teacher.
- I had maybe four dreams somehow related to New York. Going to New York, being in New York, etc
- Worrying about my musical ability.

Short-Term Goals:
- To have a somewhat stable worry-free lucid dream. ( Closer, closer )
- Meditate in a dream.
- Create something re-occurring. An item, place or a person. (Preferably a cat named Lautrec)
- Get 25 entries in DreamViews dream journal. ( 18 / 25 )
- Ask a dream character, "Where is my cat?"


Long-Term Goals:
- To remember at least one dream every night and write it down no matter what.
- To try to somehow connect dreaming with some creative activity. For example, composing a song based on my dream experience or writing a short story in similar fashion.
- To create a persistent realm.

Current Technique:
- Mantras "Remember", "Teachers Lucid", "I am lucid".
- Occasionally something like WBTB.
- Dream Journal.
- Being Aware.