I'm shook. Last night was special and I don't know what really happened out there.. I'm a bit scared but at the same time I'm curious. I needed to talk about this experience to some people that won't think I'm crazy so that's why I googled for help and found this forum.

So first of all, Dream Views Community, thank you for existing !

What happened last night was so intense that I remember almost every little details. Even tho English is not my native language I'll do my best to put these images, sensations and feeling into words.
By the way I know what Lucid dreaming is, but what happened was beyond that... I need answers. please.

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Warning wall of text incoming.
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I was dreaming.
When I woke up it was already 1:17 am so that's roughly 2-3 hours of sleeps right there so at that point I had probably a few dream cycles in me.

The dream itself wasn't too clear. I had doubts it was a dream but you know, It wasn't freaky yet so I didn't know.

a woman. speaking to me with formal language something like a briefing to some task or something. I can't really say what she was telling me. I leave. now things are more clear. out lines. Darkness, but objects are clear. in fact there are metallic platforms floating.

I'm jumping from platform to platform. they are not that far to each other and I know that I would be able to make it in real life too. But in the dream ? man I'm going through them like a beast, Usain Bolt style, touching only one foot on each platform.
At that point i'm like WOW this is not real, I'm definitely dreaming.

At that point I had control over my dream. I've been lucid dreaming ever since I can remember... But to have control in my dream ? I knew some people could do it but for me it was a first.

So yeah, back to the dream, I started to control my jumps, pushing my self to extreme limits. Jumping higher and farther. It was so easy and effortless and at the same time I can remember the joy in my heart, the satisfaction of finally having control over my dream. It was a great experience. But if only it would end there....

I said to my self that I should test my limits and should jump the hardest that I could. but since I was following a straight path of platforms, my jump was not high, it had this kinda Driver golf shot feel to it.. a liner. That's where I understood that you don't have limits in the dream world.. I jumped so hard that I continually gained speed.. I can see the platforms under my feet going so fast.. and it wasn't slowing down. at that point I had totally lost control over my dream. I was gaining momentum non stop.. so fast...

That's where it gets freaky... that's the very moment where the story takes a turn towards something beyond lucid dreaming.

As I'm speeding in the air, everything around me turns from darkness to plain white. everything is white. I'm just being there in the blank white space. I can see that there is some kind of grid pattern in front of me. but everything is just white with little difference in the color tones.

Silence. Whiteness. The very moment lasted like a second, or even a split second. But I had the time to feel this peaceful sensation through my body.
I know I'm basically awake. my eyes are shut. The dream ended. I know that I'm in my bed, I know exactly how all my body parts are placed in the bed. I'm fully conscious.

And here it goes, the most intense moment in all my life...

I feel this pressure, HEAVY pressure on my upper body. forcing me into my bed. like I'm sinking. No i'm not sinking, I feel like that's what it wants me to do but real world physics doesn't allow me to sink inside solid materials. I feel like my bed is inclined 45 degrees down. it's scary.

The white grid is starting to move. I see it. I remember it, it's so clear. the outlines are perfect. Shapes, mainly 2D squares are flying towards me. I see small symbols and writings that I have no idea what they mean. they are flying towards me, or I'm flying towards them. I don't know. it's overwhelming. I'm continually gaining speed and there is this sound.. it sounds like a machine or some magnetic field humming. "VVVRRRR VVVVRRRR!!!!" and it gets louder and louder.. I feel relaxed but at the same time I'm scared..

While all this intense visual and physical experience is happening I have this image.. Not as clear as the white grid that is going through me at the speed of light.. way more blurry.. it's me, it's not an imagine just a black outline of my body being pressured forward inside my bed.. the outline is perfect. but everything is blurry. Black. it's not a visual it's a feeling. the full consciousness of my body place. I feel it.
I can't explain...

( for example, when you are working... You see the task you are currently doing but you have these images of someone/something you think of at the same time. it's like you see two images at the same time. ) so in my case I'm seeing the white grid visually and I'm feeling my body outline as an image... it's really hard to explain.

Now it's getting too intense for me.. The humming sound is so loud ! The grid is going so fast that it's scary.. I can't even tell what shapes are passing by because it's just too damn fast. I don't know where this is going but at the same time I am conscious that I'm still in my bed. awake.

I don't know where I'm going but I think I'm close to where I'm going because there is this voice speaking to me. It's MY voice. asking me if I'm sure that I want to live it.
Everything that happened at that point was strangely familiar like I went through this numerous times. But it was the first time I was conscious that it was happening.

Basically my own voice is asking me if I want to go all the way and experience "it". What is "it" exactly ? my voice seems to know what's about to happen but not me!
So far I'm scared but not enough. I'm just letting shit happen, I can't respond anyways.

The white grid is going faster and faster and the sound is louder and louder.. Vibrations. I feel my whole body shaking.. it's getting very scary. My voice ask me one more time If I'm sure if I want it but it does not tell me what's really going on.
The vibrations are painful. my whole body is not relaxed anymore. all my muscles are contracted.
I'm so scared I'm trying to say no but I can't so I try my best to open my eyes and hopefully end it.. I ear this sound, like some sort of reversed cymbals "ssssshhhhhSSSHHHLACK!" and I open my eyes at the same time. My heart is beating at an insane pace. I can't move a single part of my body. I was paralyzed for a good 2 to 3 minutes... could not move a toe.

End of the freaky experience. what the fudge happened there ?!?! I KNOW it's beyond dreaming. I was there the whole time. in my bed. awake.

keep in mind that all of this lasted just a minute maybe. it was so fast but every detail is so vivid that it makes for a 10 minutes story. It's crazy never seen anything like this !

So yeah. If you read this thank you, and congratulations you successfully went through the wall of text. Now if you can give me any pointers ?

I'm curious I'd like to go back there.. I don't know. it's scary but it felt special. and I left only with questions...