I have been forbiden from seeing him.I love him sooooooooo much.I want to be able to lay with him,see his face.My memory has blocked it because of the trauma his forced departure.Could I tell him about the baby he would have had,and get a response HE would actually give?Also can I learn Japanese through lucid dreams?Martial arts?Dancing? Those are things I have been around long enough I imagine they would be in my subconscious.Thak you for your answers....even though I am not getting that far I still want to know for some added encouragement.